Here's chapter 14, but if you haven't read the second part of chapter 13 that i just posted close your eyes and go back a page :O

Err...i'll apologize in advance for the little...unhappy part in this. It should become pretty obvious pretty fast, but yeah i'll just say sorry now. God, i say sorry a lot, don't i?

Answers:
1)Yes Rose and Dimitri can have kids, and they might have kids, i don't know yet. (So many people asked that question, so i'm pretty sure that i'll have to put kids in there somewhere along to way)
2)Yes indeed i have thought about making Adrian fall for Mia, but there's a lot of other things i need to play in before i can work that little complication in.
3)No, this time it wasn't the novices that attacked Rose.
4)At the start of the book Rose was gone for 2 months after Dimitri, then she was gone for about Four months when the strigoi got her.
5)Nah Nikki and Eddie aren't going out...yet.
6)Nikki's been Lissa guardian with Eddie because Rose and Dimka were gone.
7)Dimitri does still work at the school.
8)No they don't share a space just yet, but Dimitri's going to fix that up with Alberta.
9)Skylar i underlined your name to get your attention, did it work? :P

Very needy question here, i can't finish the next chapter without an answer. What was Rose's dads name? I know it started with and I, but i forgot it and can't find my shadow kiss book.

Alright, i'll leave you to the story :]

Enjoy! xxx

DIMITRI POV

The class I was currently watching wasn't Ozera's or Rose's, which was a little annoying. It was amusing to watch them teach, because they were both so cruel to the students. The instant it ended I headed for the door, hoping to catch Rose before her next class.

A year of snatching her between classes was going to suck, but at least she'd be free after that. Or should I say, we'd be free after that.

I saw Lissa up ahead, and she spotted me moments later. Her expression caught me off guard and scared me. Her cheeks were tear streaked and there were red brims around her eyes.

I grabbed her by the shoulders, not hard but firm. By the looks of it, it was actually stopping her from collapsing. "What's wrong princess?" I asked franticly. Oh god, please don't let her say…

"Rose," she sobbed, more tears flowing down her face.

I knew it.

All but dropping the princess, I took off running for the clinic, not a moment of hesitation as I ripped through the corridors and flew down the stairs. Busting through the doors of the clinic I found nurses rushing everywhere.

I pulled one of them up, her body jerking to a stop. "Where's Hathaway?" I demanded, and she grabbed my arm and pulled me along in the same direction she was headed before I stopped her.

Dr. Olendzki was leaning over a dirty, pale version of Rose, franticly pushing on her heart. Another nurse wheeled one of those machines with the electric jolty things and the doctor immediately started work with those.

I heard a weak sob sound off from a chair in the corner of the room and turned to see Christian Ozera, glaring at me with red brimmed eyes and a tear stricken face. Ozera was crying?

"What happened?" I demanded, my lower lip trembling as I bit back swear words and blinked back tears.

He just stared at me wordlessly for a moment, with some unjust hatred painted all over his features. "They took it too far because I didn't go down to the field and instruct them." he sniffed, quickly whipping away a stray tear. "They buried her alive…they didn't even know that she was dying for fuck sakes!" he roared, fury burning in his eyes.

"Who buried her alive?" I growled, clenching my fists and preparing to go on a strigoi killing rampage.

"All of the Moroi in hospital beds that are burnt. And a few that managed to bail out after they restricted me." Hatred was all over his face. I was pissed off too, but I wouldn't have attacked Moroi. Wait…

"She…"the tears of weakness started to swell up along the bottom lines of my eyes. "She… She's… not… no…" I could even make the question come out right, how pathetic.

"Dead." He mumbled, closing his eyes and clenching his teeth together a few times. "She's DEAD! They MURDERED HER!" he screamed, flinging himself out of the chair with fire on his hands. "I'll kill them all!" I tackled him to the ground and threw him over my shoulder, running him outside of the clinic.

"Christian!" I said, slapping him in the face the way they would on the movies. "Calm down." Easy to say, not easy to do. I was on the brink of exploding myself, I sure wasn't in any condition to be telling people to calm down.

He glared at me but relaxed a little. He chuckled darkly, almost like an evil laugh. "If anyone's going to kill anyone it'll be you, so don't bother telling me to clam down." He spat the words almost accusingly.

"What the hell is your problem Ozera? If I wanna fucking snap I have every damn right to!" I hissed, throwing myself to my feet. "That woman is the one I love! That woman is he one that brought me back from immortality as a monster! The woman I spent three months looking for! The woman I was prepared to spend the rest of my life with in a strigoi infested mansion! Don't you tell me who's going to snap!" I literally growled, but he didn't flinch back from my words, even know I was screaming them in his face. "What's it matter to you? All you two ever did was argue and fight, what gives you the right to set a class of Moroi on fire for her, huh?" my words were harsh and unthinking. Like Rose said once when she worked another part of me out, I was always fighting for control. Just like her. And right now, I couldn't control myself. So I did what was safe and took off running for the gates of the school, at least no-one would be hit with this fury if I left.

LISSA POV

Mia and Adrian laughed together after the bubble of water Mia was holding dropped on my head, causing my recently straightened her to turn into a fuzz ball. I sighed as usual and went to get the door.

It was Alberta, and she looked concerned and grim. "Rose is…hurt." She said.

Adrian and Mia were up and at my side as we pushed through the doors heading for the clinic almost impulsively at her words. "Get Alina!" I ordered her as we started running. If it was anything serious that I couldn't take care of then Alina could do it, but hopefully it'd just be little so me and Adrian could handle it.

Pushing through the clinic doors we got quick instructions to Rose's room. The clinic was a mess. There were nurses rushing everywhere, people screaming and others crying.

Christian was in the room with Rose, and he was crying. That was something even I didn't see much of, so it was a little shocking to see him weeping over a very still and muddy body that was Rose.

She was dead.

I ran over to her corpse, almost knocking Christian flat on his face as I pressed my hands to her chest, letting the magic flow. Adrian was at my side instantly, his hands mimicking mine. We stayed there, pushing life into her for what seemed like an eternity before I decided we needed Alina.

Adrian went to go help the other patients that had been burned severely by something and I ran off looking for Alina. Just as the classes started coming out I spotted Dimitri looking at me with a praying-to-god sort of expression. Here comes trouble.

He grabbed me by the shoulders, not hard but firm. He actually stopped me from falling on my face. "What's wrong princess?" he asked franticly.

"Rose," I sobbed, more tears flowing down my face.

A certain desperate and disbelieving look crossed his face, and he dropped me and took off running back the way I'd just come running from. God I felt half sorry for whoever did that to Rose, they were going to be a lot deader then her when he got to them.

Then again I was only half sorry. The more dominant half of me wanted to go find who it was and rip them limb from limb.

I continued on down the hallway looking for Alina, when I finally found her she actually had to heal me before I could talk to her. I drained most of my energy trying to fix Rose…and she just wasted some of her energy on me.

"Let's get you to the feeders," she said dragging me to the feeder's room. I drank a little more then necessary, and then demanded that she drink as well, even know it was unnecessary for her. I also managed to get two feeders that hadn't been fed off today to come, just incase we needed the extra strength.

"Lissa, what are we doing? What's wrong?" she asked in what sounded like irritated frustration.

I'd forgotten that I didn't actually tell her about Rose. "Rose is dead." was all I said, and then she finally understood why we were running, not walking. When we got there Christian was lying on the grass outside, tears still fresh on his cheeks. He didn't look up or even flinch a little when we ran past into the clinic, he just stayed lying there, looking dead.

Entering Rose's room we found Adrian glaring at anyone that tried to get close to Rose, when he saw us and the feeders he eased up, sinking his fangs into a feeder to regain strength. Once he was finished he found a spot on Rose that wasn't filled and got prepared.

"On the count of three," Alina said in a firm voice, sort of like the one Rose would use when she was in what she liked to call 'super awesome guardian mode', and me and Adrian nodded, faces firm. "1…" my muscles tightened a bit. "2…" we all took in a deep breath of anticipation. "3." Our anticipating breaths flew out, and the magic became a visible aura not only to us spirit users, but to the gasping nurses and doctors also consuming the room.

I and Adrian both had to feed halfway through, but Alina didn't falter even a little. She looked determined and desperate, but at the same time seemed to be displaying almost no emotion at all.

Rose wasn't showing any improvement at all though, which was idiotic. I'd brought her back by myself years ago, so why couldn't three of us bring her back now? The question was running through each of our minds, but not one of us had the strength to voice it. Me and Adrian had to feed again, and this time so did Alina. One of the nurses sent for more feeders, just incase we ran out.

Finally I couldn't hold it in. "Why isn't it working?" I spluttered out, the tears I'd been holding back flowing freely down my cheeks and dripping onto Rose's cold, pale white face.

The door creaked open, and Dimitri entered the room with Christian at his side.

We all grew still when we felt the little flicker in Rose's body. It wasn't her heart, but it was something.

"No…" Dimitri's voice was almost inaudible, and when we turned to face him his face was lined with horror. He saw something that he recognized, something that we all quickly picked up on.

Rose was cold, and her skin was unnaturally pale and white. She'd just started breathing and twitching but her heart was still unmoving. We were attempting the wrong thing. Rose wasn't dead.

Rose was strigoi.

ROSE POV

All I could see was blackness, and all I could here was someone crying. I couldn't find that someone though, and they wouldn't answer my calls when I called out to them. I hope it wasn't Lissa…or Dimitri.

Why the hell was it so dark?

I felt a tingle on my skin and some loose emotions seeped through the bond. Anxiety, horror, and depression.

"No…" I heard him breath almost inaudibly, but the pure hatred flooding his tone was quite audible.

My eyes fluttered open and I found myself facing the all too familiar clinic roof. Something close smelt good…something smelt very, very good. But I couldn't pull my eyes from the ceiling.

There was something different about the light, and everything seemed a little sharper and more defined then it usually did. It was like my eyes were stronger, like I was seeing every little detail of the roof above me.

I blinked and sat up, looking around the room in a daze. It wasn't just the roof I saw better, it was everything.

And everyone.

They were standing over near the door, looking very upset and afraid. None more so then Dimitri…

"Why are you looking at me like that?" I demanded, flinching a little at my voice. It seemed… different, new, like I hadn't heard it for a while. How long was I unconscious? No body was answering my question. "Well?" I asked again, swinging my legs over the edge of the bed. They all flinched back and rustled up some air.

Shit, that smelt good, like…wow. Better then anything I'd ever sniffed before. "What's that smell?" I asked in some sort of disorientated haze. I had to have it…it was calling to me. Screaming for me to eat it, to devourer every last crumb, or every last drop.

Dimitri saw the hunger on my face and his hand slid into his pocket, when it came back out he was gripping his stake with tears in his eyes.

And then it hit me, the light bulb clicked on.

The darkness while I was partially unconscious, the seeing everything totally clear and defined once I opened my eyes. The smell. I must have been…no. bullshit. I didn't drink strigoi blood, so I'm certainly no strigoi.

Looking into Dimitri's tear filled eyes, I searched for my reflection, gasping and throwing myself back against the wall when I saw the pale faced, red eyed, brown haired strigoi girl glaring back at me.

I saw myself.

I reacted on impulse, realizing immediately that the mouth watering smell I wanted was my worried and scared Moroi friends, I smashed the wall down and ran straight out into the outdoors and found myself facing a crowd of anxious - but now scared and confused, - students.

I jumped over most of them and kept my feet moving as I wheeled for the gate. I couldn't be here, I could hurt somebody. They all smelt so good though…I didn't want to leave, I wanted to stay and feed.

"NO!" I screamed at myself. I did not want to stay and feed on these kids. I couldn't do that. That would make me strigoi...strigoi I may look, but I will not be a strigoi. I don't know what I'll do, but I'll work it out.

Once I could control this horrible hunger crazed thirst I could go back… I could contact Alina, I could get her to change me back when she was no longer in danger of me. Then I could go back, I could go back with Dimitri.

Running for the gate, I smashed into what felt like a wall of fire. Shit…how was I supposed to get through the wards? The guardian at the gate was staring at me, looking afraid and confused. And I knew him.

"Guardian Davis. I know you need to kill me because yes, I am strigoi, but I need you to let me through the wards before I hurt someone. Please just let me out." I begged, all but falling to my knees when I heard the foot steps rushing towards me. That had to be Dimitri…

"Rose!" Alina cried, running towards me with a desperate expression.

"NO!" I roared, throwing myself at the ward again. "Get away from me!" I hissed, literally, and she skidded to a stop. "Alina I have to get out of here." I turned on Davis again. "Let me out." I growled. His eyes glazed over and he smiled, nodding. Compulsion? Sweet…

"Open all of the wards, but close them within the next minute." I commanded. He smiled and nodded again, pressing a button and gesturing for me to leave.

"But Rose I can-" Alina started.

"No, Alina. I'll kill you. It's…too hard not to. I nearly jumped at you all in the clinic, don't give me the opportunity." And with that I started backing away further, seeing Dimitri, Lissa, Adrian, Mia, and Christian running over towards me. "I'll come back when I can control myself." I risked one last look at Dimitri before I turned to run away.

His expression was torn and his eyes were desperate. Tears were gushing from his eyes, making mini waterfalls of salty water on his face. Pulling on a hard face, I mouthed the words 'I love you' one last time before taking my leave. I would be back for him.

I just didn't know when.

***

I was now living in a small cottage deep in the mountains of Alaska, far away from any civilization. All I did everyday was lay in the snow, staring at the sky and seeing nothing but Dimitri's tear stricken face. It haunted me no matter where I went. The only time I moved was when the sun came out, and then all I'd do was take a few steps into the house and collapse again.

I wasn't sure how long ago it had happened now, but my love for him hadn't faltered in the slightest. I moved to a place that had no connections to me at all, so there was no need to worry about running away again.

I thought that I would have died by now. I hadn't eaten…or drunken, anything at all. Even strigoi had to need to eat, so why didn't I just die?

I'd been thinking of ways to control my thirst so I could go back to see Alina, but every plan but one had failed. Well…I was positive they would have failed, but I didn't bother trying.

The one plan that I thought was a possibility was out of a book that was supposed to be popular amongst the humans, she'd read it while we were away from the academy. Something about a chick that loved a vampire, Lissa read it and was trying to get me to read it as well, so I got her to tell me about it. Then when she asked me if I'd read it I said 'what's the point? You just told me what happens in all four books.' she'd gotten a little mad after that.

The vampire the chick in the book supposedly loved was supposed to be like a strigoi, except no stakes and magic were involved. And they sparkled in the sunlight. But instead of killing humans, these vampires lived off the blood of animals.

So the plan I thought could work was: to live off the blood of animals. It could work if I could find the will power to move and go find something to kill.

It was getting annoying living in solitude. I was always so lonely, and wildlife gets really annoying when you have to listen to the same birds over and over again.

It was weird, too… because could still feel Lissa in my head. I did try every now and then to get in her head, but my body and mind seemed incapable of working. They'd shut down due to the lack of Dimitri.

Dimitri…

Karma's a bitch. Earlier the day this all started I was sitting there going over how nothing could ever take him from me.

But did I think about me getting taken away from him?

I wanted to kick myself for not considering it, but my body didn't agree with me, and as always it refused to co-operate with me.

I decided yesterday that I would go hunt down something to eat today, that when I stood up to drag myself into the snow I'd keep walking, looking for any sort of animal. So far it'd been working.

"Okay legs, just keep walking and I'll feed you. If this works, I'll let you wrap around Dimitri when we go home." I patted my things and they picked up the pace as if they had a mind of their own.

I started sniffing the air, anxious for something to sink my fangs into.

I sighed. God… I actually had fangs. It was so weird… and to think I was scared I was going to turn Moroi. Look at me now, a bloodthirsty strigoi tracking down animals in the wilderness.

Something ripped me to the east, and suddenly all I could think about was a repulsive but sweet smell pulling me towards it. Before I could work out what was happening I smashed into a bear of some sort, fangs sinking into its throat as my hands formed claws and hooked down into its fur.

The taste was so good, and then it was over. But I needed more… I stuck my nose back up into the air, and then as another smell slammed into me I let my legs carry me towards it. When I was finished and feeling somewhat energized and full, I headed back to the cottage.

"Wow…" I breathed, wiping off some of the blood running down my face. That book actually worked. Animal blood was filling. So did that mean I could go back? Maybe not yet…better give it a week.

When I was back outside the cottage I went inside and stood in front of the mirror, examining the only pair of clothes I had.

There was dried up and smudged blood all along the bottom half on my face from mouth down, and my clothes were blood stained and tattered, making me look like an absolute savage.

I sighed and went to go lay in the snow again, slightly cheerful this time. Soon enough I'd be able to leave, to go back to Dimitri, to be with him again.

Feeling the pull from Lissa's head I tried to force myself in again, finally finding success

She was in a minibus with Dimitri at the wheel. Beside her were Christian and Alina. Sitting in the row behind them was Adrian, Mia, and…my mum. What the hell was she doing there…? In the front near Dimitri there was another Moroi guy that was asleep. He sure as hell wasn't from Saint Vlad's, he was way too old. It pissed me off a little to see Tamika and Jackson in the car, and I was overjoyed to spot Nikki and Eddie. There was another two random guardians in the back; they must have belonged to the sleeping guy.

"She's gotta' be here somewhere, we've checked every other part of America and Russia. But why the hell would she be in Alaska?" Mia asked Dimitri. They all seemed to be in almost high spirits… Dimitri on the other hand looked dead.

"She wouldn't. She likes the sun, which is why she came here, because she knew we wouldn't look for her here." Dimitri's tone was just as flat and dead as he looked.

"Dimitri it's been half a year, she'll be in control now and we'll bring her back. And we've already got a spot to look for her." Lissa grinned, thinking about my humble little cottage. It took me a minute to figure out that this was very bad.

They knew where I was hiding.

And I'd been gone for half a bloody year, holy shit. Sure didn't feel like that, I would've guessed around a month or something, but six months was a bit over board. I'd been a strigoi for six months, and I'd gone without drinking anything right up until today. That's actually kind of impressive…and depressing. Dimitri was getting older, but I wasn't… well, it wouldn't be that much older, so it shouldn't be a big problem.

The big problem was that they knew where I was, and they were coming for me.

"Did you see how fast she was running when she left?" Alina scoffed. "She's a freaky strigoi, they don't run that fast. They don't breakdown walls and run away from their prey, either." She muttered.

Lissa frowned, feeling that I was in her head but not knowing what it was. "Rose?" she asked, frowning in confusion again.

Everybody in the minibus turned to look at her except Dimitri and the sleeping guy.

May as well give it a try. "Liss if you can here me say hi to Dimitri for me." I sighed, knowing very well that the bond only –

"Err," she stuttered. "Dimitri… I think Rose just told me to tell you Hi,"

What the fuck? "What the fuck you can hear me?" I squeaked in a high pitch voice.

"Apparently. Oh my god Rose!" she squealed, slapping her hands as Dimitri pulled the minibus to a stop.

"Rose can you hear me?" he asked, his voice desperate.

Should I be talking back to them? Well, it's a bit late now, I already had. "I love you Dimitri." God I'd wanted to say that for so long…

Lissa coughed. "Keep it PG Rose." I laughed at that as she turned back to Dimitri smiling. "She says she loves you."

"Listen to me, Roza. I love you too, more than anything, we need to fix you, so you need to stay in Alaska." His pleading eyes seemed to bore right into my soul. I scoffed. Year right, what soul would that be?

"No." was all I said.

"She said no." Lissa glowered at the seat in front of her. "Please Rose, we need you back." She begged.

"I can't see you guys yet…I don't know what I'll do. I just started feeding again today." I announced proudly.

Lissa on the other hand grimaced. "Why do you sound happy about that? Have you gone over to the dark side, Rose?" her voice was both mocking and scared.

I snorted. "I haven't hunted in six months, and today I finally pulled up the strength to go hunting. Why wouldn't I be proud?"

"Your proud of killing innocence?" he scoffed, eyes wide with shock.

Oh, woops. "Oh, gosh no. I don't kill Moroi or dhampire's or humans for that matter. I ate a bear or two and a few deer's. Made a mess, too…" I trailed off, re-examining myself.

"Animals?" she blinked. "How?"

"Damn it," Nikki interrupted. "What are you two talking about?" she demanded.

"Sorry, forgot you guys couldn't here her." She shook her head briefly, mentally kicking me.

"Ow," I joked with her and she started laughing.

"We were talking about how she doesn't think that she's fit to see us again yet, and how she hunted for the first time today." They all grimaced at the hunting part. "She took out to bears and some deer's." she grinned, absorbing the shocked faces hat spread around her.

"She's eating animals? Like out of twilight, you know the Cullen's?" Mia asked, edging a little closer.

"Yeah that's where I got the idea. I think it worked like a charm." I said, smiling proudly.

"She said yeah that's where she got the idea. She thinks it worked like a charm," she repeated me out loud.

"Well if she's like the Cullen's now, why can't we see her?" Mia asked in a whiny voice.

"Because I'm not like the Cullen's, I'm real. The Cullen's are make believe, and make believe things can't kill you. I on the other hand am real, and I'm a blood thirsty strigoi, which is why you can't." I answered back.

Lissa repeated me again and they all sighed in defeat, Dimitri moving back to the front seat to continue driving towards me.

"The sun comes up in half an hour Roza, you'll turn to dust if you try to run now." Dimitri said, seeming happy about this.

"Shit." I muttered, hearing myself echoed through Lissa. "Alright. You can see me on one condition."

Lissa repeated me, and Dimitri asked "What condition?" in a wry voice.

"If I look like I'm going to hurt someone stake me, and do not hesitate to do so." I stated my demand in the same moment my nose caught the smell of another bear. Through Lissa I realized that she could smell the bear through me, and when I snapped out of her head I felt her presence in mine.

Running through the snow and trees I found the bear eating a deer, and didn't hesitate to drain it dry. Lissa was both grossed out and happy about the kill. She didn't like seeing me as a ravenous vampire, but she was glad that I wasn't killing people.

"Nice, Rose." She said, and this time she was the one in my head.

"How are you in my head?" I asked her.

"I don't know. You being strigoi must've done some weird shit, but I guess we'll fix it soon. We're coming to get you Rose." She said. It annoyed me that I could no longer hear the others, but I'd get over it.

"Did Dimitri agree to my condition? Or am I going to throw myself into the sun and turn to ashes?" I asked. I meant it too; if they weren't prepared to kill me I'd kill myself.

"Yes." Was all she said, and I felt her leave my head at the same time I realized I had a problem. The sun was rising and I was to far from the cabin…

Improvising, I threw myself into a pile of snow and started digging down, burying myself as I went. I kept going down until everything above me was black, and no light was coming through.

Shit…what now? I stayed buried in snow until the sun went away again? Yeah that sounded real fun…plus the others would think I ran away from them, they'd think I killed myself.

Or I could just tell them.

Slipping back into Lissa's head, I found myself facing my cabin.

"I'm not in there," I told her, and she frowned.

"Where are you then? The suns coming out, you'll die." The emotions flowing through her were scared and annoyed.

"I went after that bear, remember? I wouldn't have made it back in time, so I'm in the snow."

"You're in the snow?" she asked incredulously. "What the hell?"

"I dug down into the snow so the light couldn't get me. Follow the blood trail from the cottage; you should be able to find me. I'll try and direct you, bring something for me to hide under as well please..." I felt like a coward hiding from the sun, but what more could I do?

Dimitri was currently crouched down over the bloodied up snow that I'd been lying in before I smelt that bear, and he could see a few blood foot prints in the snow. He didn't need to be told how to find me, he just started walking after the prints.

It took about an hour for them to find the snow pile I was hiding under, which surprised me a little seeing as it look me less the five minutes to get there. They dropped a large black sheet over the top of the blood patch.

"A sheet is the cover from the sun you came up with?" I mumbled, clawing my way back to the surface.

"Get over it," Dimitri chuckled.

When the smell drifted to me I froze, locking my muscles in place. Damn it…they smelt so good... there's that annoying little question again: can I handle this? Judging by the smell, no. Jesus, I just wanted to jump up in the sun and feed so badly.

"Get out of here!" I demanded, trying with all my might to force myself back down into my hole.

I shuddered as I saw a hand sifting through the snow, searching for me. Again, I tried to force myself back into the hole, but my body wanted to jump them, my mind wasn't strong enough to back down. More hand started searching for me, and they all found me at the same time.

I flinched a little at the warmth of their skin, but other then that I didn't move.