Sorry it took me so long to update lifes been a bit hectic but hopefully you enjoy this chapter...

D pov

Her eyes fell from mine, silence stretched between us when all of a sudden her eyes widened even more, pain was written all over her face. I felt confused and I needed to help but before I could move or say anything a small hand clasped mine, Andy had exited and was now holding my hand. I realised why she was so sad and pained, she thought he was mine. I opened my mouth to explain, she cut me off with a flick of her wrist putting her hand in front of my face, and my mouth snapped shut.

"Don't Dimitri" She said as her voice wavered

"But..." I began

"I said don't" she almost yelled cutting off what I was going to say. He eyes brimmed with tears and her bottom lip quivered as she retreated back to her table. I dropped my head holding back tears
"You okay uncle Dimka?" Andy asked tugging on my hand; I looked into his concerned blue eyes.

"Yea Endi, I'm okay. Come on we don't' want Tasha to worry " I said and began back to our table. I glanced up to look at Roza one more time; she is more beautiful than ever.

"What took so long?" Tasha questioned

"Nothing" I said swiftly, however Andy contradicted me

"Uncle Dimka was talking to a pretty lady" Tasha raised her eyebrow and looked at me questionably

"What" I said annoyed she continued to look at me

"Nothing. I'm tired, shall we go home Andy?" he nodded and smiled

"Okay" she called over the waiter and paid the bill "Let's go". As we were leaving Andy tripped over a chair leg, she started crying, I picked him up and cradled him to my chest rubbing soothing circles on his back. A few people looked, others ignored us. Tasha came over to me,

"Want to come to mummy?" she asked him soothingly, he shook his head, "Okay, baby" she laced he fingers in mine. We were almost out the door when I had to steal one last look at Roza. She was ignoring me and focusing on her date, who I could now see as clear as day. It was that guardian from the park. I couldn't see her anymore, but my mind kept working the cogs spinning and before I knew it we were at the hotel. I changed in a trance letting Tasha get Andy ready for bed. I got changed and lay in the warm blankets; finally the pieces fell together… Those children that he was guarding… they were Roza's. Anger washed through me, she is MINE I yelled in my head only to have the anger was out and be replaced by self-loathing for I had made her leave.

The image of her the night I left her replayed over and over again, her tears creating fissures in my heart. A dark voice whispered in my head 'this is your fault, you did this, and you need to die'. I couldn't take it anymore I couldn't sleep, I got changed into some shorts, and running shoes, got out my i-pod and ran, ran until my legs screamed and lungs burned. I looked ahead of me as a figure appeared out of the darkness of the trees, my heartbeat quickened, my body stopped, it was her… ROZA…

R pov

"You okay ruža?" Steve asked me quietly, his eyes seeking out mine which I kept hidden.

"Yea, I'm okay, I just saw someone that reminded me of another time before everything changed and I was …" I stopped suddenly realising how much I had said unintentionally.

"Yes?" he said urging me to continue, I didn't, he sighed and opened his mouth to say something but was interrupted by the waitress placing our dinner's in front of us.

We ate in silence, my mind recalling everything Dimitri and I had gone through and how much he had hurt me when he left me for her and I guess he got his happily ever after, after all he did have a son with her. Oh god do I tell him about Josh and Katie… will he believe me?

"ruža! What's wrong?" I heard suddenly sounding worried, I felt his fingers trail along my cheek wiping away wetness. Damn was I crying? I looked up and met his eyes he was so concerned he looked so beautiful. I put my hand on his and leaning my face into his palm. He smiled, brightening up my mood instantly.

"Nothing, I'm fine" he raised his eyebrows to say 'really, that the best you can come up with' I giggled.

I felt HIS eyes on my back, I wanted to turn and face him, to drown in the warm chocolate brown of his eyes.

A child's crying filled the air, I glanced over my shoulder to see Dimitri picking up the little boy- that held his hand earlier- with care and cradled the boy to his chest. I felt warm all over seeing him so caring towards the child but anger washed away all thoughts of care for Tasha had walked up to them and leaned into Dimitri. Of course it had to be, Dimitri and Tasha had a child. I turned around back to face Steve and reached forwards to clasp his hand that was resting on the table in mine. I felt HIS eyes on me again, begging me to turn around; again I ignored him and focused on Steve who had begun to talk about his life at his academy in Serbia, Saint Jakov. He talked about his friends and his teachers and about his family. Time passed quickly so did the meal, my mind kept repeating over and over again… 'He left you, he never loved you. He has Tasha and a little boy to love why does he need you' I wanted it to shut up I felt like screaming and punching things, I could feel the darkness beginning to fill me.

I checked my watch it was 10 pm (am human time).

"Steve I need to get going" I said quietly, he looked up confused

"Why? Princess Dragomir is looking after the kids we can stay out all night" I lowered my eyes

"I know…" I couldn't finish my sentence

"Ruža?" he said quietly

"Ruža, I'm sorry. I'll get the waiter" he said as he called the waiter over to us and paid.

He pulled up to my house and got out to open my door for me. I slid out. We walked in silence up to my front door; I turned to face in to see he was already looking at me.

"Good night Steve, thank-you for tonight it was wonderful" I said quietly, my eyes locked with his steel grey ones, his eyes flicked to my lips and back to my eyes

"My pleasure ruža" again his eyes flicked down to my lips and back. He wanted to kiss me, his eyes revealed so much the thing that shocked me was that I wanted to kiss him, kiss him until all my pain went away. Have his lips press to mine and was away all the hurt. I chewed my bottom lip and took a small step forward, he lifted one of his hands and rested it on my cheek the other ran down my arm and snaked around my waist pulling me closer to him so I was pressed against his hard body. I looked up at him through my eye lashes, I needed his lips now. As if he had read my thoughts he lowered his head towards mine, I stood on my toes so he didn't have to bend so far down. His lips pressed against mine, they were soft and tasted of chocolate from the desert. The kiss was a sweet one however it began to pick up pace, becoming more of a need rather than a want, I could get lost in these lips but they weren't Dimitri's, his were soft and ours moved in sync however Steve's dominated mine making me move around him. I pulled back for some air.

"Good night my ruža, sleep well" he whispered in my ear, his breath washed over me and before I could respond he was gone, his car revved and left me standing on my porch watching him drive away.

'Come on it's not that far now keep going.' I was telling myself, my breathing was ragged, my throat begged for water and my legs screamed for me to stop, but I kept going, kept pushing myself. I had to get out of the house after that kiss with Steve my mind wouldn't shut up it was screaming about Dimitri and kept focusing on all the flaws in him the major one being that he is not Dimitri. I shook my head I need to stop thinking about them and run, run all the darkness out of me, run all my hopeless love life out of me, run to leave behind everything, everything that caused me harm. I need to start again.

I pushed myself harder, faster. I glanced up to see a large figure up ahead surrounded by the light. I couldn't tell who it was for it was too bright from the shadows I was in from the cluster of trees. I slowed down, as I emerged from the shadows momentarily blinded, the figure stopped, my body began to buzz full of energy again, that could only mean... My eyes cleared just as the realisation that it was Dimitri registered.

He looked hot, his hair was tied back into a loose pony tail, his muscle shirt clung to his body and his shorts we well damn sexy on him. I stopped running and just stared at him, drinking him in. My heart ached to have him near me again, to hold me, love me, kiss me to just be mine forever.

I smiled a small smile, his return smile was breath taking and before I realised what I was doing my legs were springing towards him, my face breaking out into a huge smile, he opened his arms for me to run into them.

I was a few steps from him when my brain finally caught up with my actions, I was beyond mad that he expected me to just run to him and forget all the pain he inflicted on me and how he is with Tasha.

My smile fell replaced by a grin of pure evil, Dimitri noticed my change in attitude too late. I ran slightly faster and pulled my fist back and jumped before snagging my arm out quickly nailing my fist into his face, I heard a crack most likely his nose.

I felt satisfied but not nearly enough, the darkness was released through the locked door, my eyes clouded over making me see in all black and white. I stepped back from him needing him to get back on his feet so I could pound him down again. He groaned as he pushed himself up with one hand while holding his nose with the other trying to stop the blood flowing,

"What the hell Roza!" He yelled at me, before realising my mood

"ROZA! YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO CALL ME THAT ASSHOLE!" I screamed at him. He just stood there steering at me looking so god damn sexy.

I lunged for him he moved quickly avoiding it however he underestimated the speed at which I moved. My leg snaked out hitting him in the stomach causing the air to be knocked out of him with an oomph.

He reached for me and pulled me to him my back pressing against his chest, his arms pinned mine to my side. I thrashed and tried to get away but his grip was too strong.

"Rose calm down please" he said quickly "We need to talk but we can't when you're like this" he continued quickly. My legs flailed and I kicked them backwards being rewarded with a grunt of pain as my foot collided with his shin however his grip never faltered. I tried to kick him again a little higher this time hoping to hit him where it counts however my legs couldn't reach.

My mind was spinning trying to come up with a plan when it came to me, I stopped struggling and became dead weight, this threw him off balance making his hold on me loosen. I pushed my hips backwards into him making him fall on his back onto the ground. I straddled his body letting my body just do what it wants, my hands curled into fists and began to aim hits for his face, his arms blocked most of them. In the back of my mind I realised his nose was still gushing blood from when I had broken it, I got through his defence and my fist collided with his temple, he grunted and began to buck under me trying to throw me off while my fist kept hitting him in his sides and chest.

His leg came up and managed to grip me around the waist and pulled me to the ground, he straddled me now, my eyes closed and I braced for his fist to hit but it never came. I opened my eyes in a flash to stare into deep chocolate brown eyes that I could drown in. The darkness left me on a shudder,

"Roza, are you okay?" he whispered panting, his nose still pouring

"Yea" I whispered back on a breath.

He got off me and sat on the ground next to me holding his nose, his eyes never leaving mine. We sat like that for a long time when I heard my name being called from far away. I ignored it, until it was right next to me.

"WHAT!" I snapped tearing my eyes from Dimitri's to look straight into hazel ones filled with confusion, questions bursting from them... Shit I thought...

So who is it that snapped them...? tell me your thoughts please also give me some constructive criticism... I will try to update sooner