*I realized around chapter two that people were in love with clara so I will definitely have to do an alternate ending after I finish with the karmy ending I intended*

*Content Warning: M chapter*

*i think i just got to the point with this fic where i really wanted to start writing some karmy goodness*

*it was my plan all along but i definitely lost it for a while with clara's awesomeness*

*i like messy amy and messy karma together being a beautiful messy mess*

Chapter Fourteen

You Got It, You Got It Bad

The knock startled Karma. Amy's voice came again.

"Karma? Are you okay?"

She didn't know what to do but she hadn't expected Amy there, especially not after what had just happened.

"Go away Amy!" Karma yelled.

"I'm stranded here. Clara left," Amy confessed.

"Why?"

"Because I told her too! Come on, Karma, I don't want to talk to your door."

Karma got up and threw her tortured pillow back onto the bed. She looked at herself in the mirror and wiped the tears from her face and under her eyes.

"What's the fucking point," Karma huffed to herself. There was no way to pretend she hadn't been crying. Her eyes were puffy and red and her lips were swollen along with her cheeks. To make it all worse she felt nervous now around Amy. Ever since the wedding, she had started to feel nervous little by little until now when even having her outside the door shook her to her core and caused her stomach to churn with mixed excitement and anxiety.

"Karma, come on-" Amy fell into the room as Karma opened the door. "Whoa," Amy said, standing up and holding the knob.

"I need to be alone," Karma said.

"Yeah well, I need to be with you." Amy was sure. She noticed her face. "Karma, your eyes," she reached her hand up and cupped Karma's cheek watching as Karma's eyes closed into the touch that soothed her. "Shit," Amy breathed, seeing how easy that was, how thoroughly Karma wanted it and let it happen. It was different and it was good.

"You should go, Amy." Karma said quietly, not wanting to cry anymore or fight.

"Why?" Amy asked.

"You can be happy with Clara," she was trying to push her to leave. Their lives could be simple if this wasn't happening at all.

"Karma, I've only known her for three days."

"And that obviously hasn't stopped you," Karma said bitterly, throwing herself on the bed and hugging her pillow again feeling bruised.

Amy shut the door and took her shoes off. She climbed up the bed near Karma and got as close as she could without touching. She stared at her friend and noticed her anguish.

"Liam told me what happened," Amy said, watching Karma's closed eyes as they squeezed in anger.

"God dammit!" Karma cursed. "Why can't anyone just keep their information to themselves?!" She was sick of the gossip and backtalk.

"Karma, he knew I'd want to see you," Amy pushed Karma's hair out of her face and stared at her wanting to help, there was a softness there in Karma, a weakness. She wanted Amy to touch her more than anything in the world

"Why?!" Karma asked, rolling away from her on the bed until she was turned all the way around and facing the wall.

Amy moved up close to her from behind and held her, grabbing her wrists and hugging Karma's arms in tight to her own chest.

"Because I love you…" Amy said. Reminding her, yet again.

"Yeah well, you shouldn't." And it was true. Karma had put her through so much trouble.

Amy breathed and thought of it now. Karma had been crying the whole time. She had escaped to a hotel far away from the resort. She had told Liam everything and she had freaked at the sight of her and Clara. There was no doubt, Karma was ready to change things.

Amy wondered if it was real. How could it be?

"Your hair smells good," Amy breathed slowly, resting her face into Karma and smiling with her best friend in her arms.

"Are you really flirting with me right now after all that just happened?!" Karma wanted to be angry but she liked the way Amy felt.

"What choice do I have?" Amy asked.

"Be sane and stay with Clara," Karma suggested, feeling insecure.

"I like being insane with you," she crooned into Karma's ear, causing Karma's body to shake with pleasure and flush with goose bumps.

"Fuck," Karma breathed, not expecting to be as turned on as she was.

"You feel different today," Amy said, hugging her tight.

"I am different," Karma gulped feeling parched.

Amy breathed her in again and nuzzled her nose into Karma's hair. She moved her knees up close behind Karma's and felt her naked legs brush Karma's.

"Uhh," Karma breathed, feeling intense pleasure and wanting. She needed her now after everything in the cave.

"I still want you," Amy said, running her hand down Karma's side.

"Uh, I'm not good for you," Karma was sure. Amy touched her and Karma's breathe sped up. She felt hot in Amy's arms and tender. Every touch felt like a million tiny touches, hundreds of ripples in a vast surging ocean. "This can't work," Karma gasped.

"But we can try it," Amy said, feeling her pulse beating quick and her throat becoming dry as she breathed.

"What about Clara?" Karma asked.

"What about Liam?" Amy answered.

They were in Sedona on a vacation with the Bookers but they were all alone now in a hotel room where no one would bother them. Miles and Miles away from their parents and their other friends.

Amy slid her leg down and let her hand slid to touch the back of Karma's knee and then her thigh. Karma's lips parted as Amy's hand kept sliding up towards the curve of her ass.

She moved her own hand back to stop her.

"Amy stop," Karma gasped.

"What if I don't want to stop?" Amy asked, feeling as Karma's hand stopped its fight and let her touch. She grabbed at Karma and squeezed her hand on the back of Karma's thigh, right below her ass.

"Uhhh, Amy," Karma gasped, almost whispering, feeling like maybe she was dreaming or sleeping or having the most vivid pre-sexual dream. Her eyes shut tight with the pleasure that she hadn't expected to be so very strong. Amy's hands on her felt strong and sure. It was like the threesome, with Amy taking charge.

"Please let me touch you," Amy begged into Karma's ear before moving her face down and kissing Karma's neck right on her pressure point. Karma gasped shallowly and held her breath. One of her hands rose instinctively to tug and pull at Amy's neck.

"Stop," Karma said, not opening her eyes.

"Are you sure?" Amy asked, licking her now in that place where she had kissed.

"Uhhh," Karma whined, wanting her, pulling Amy's neck towards her face and feeling her body push back into Amy's. Her center was pounding and she was wet with wanting, she knew it already.

"Uhhh," Amy gasped, kissing Karma's neck again and moving a hand to Karma's hip and another into Karma's hair. She slid her fingers into Karma's locks and and clutched tightly, gasping. "This feels, so fucking good," Amy breathed heavily, her hands filled up with Karma and her body touching every part of her. The hand on Karma's hip pulled tight and back so that Karma's body had no room to breathe, it hit against her hard and she shook.

"Amy," Karma whimpered, each touch just breaking her resistance down. She wanted Amy to be smart and choose the other girl. Karma couldn't guarantee that Amy wouldn't get hurt with this and that was the biggest problem.

"Mmm," Amy hummed, moving her hand up under the front of Karma's shirt and cupping Karma's breast without warning, squeezing it hard and licking her ear lobe. "I've wanted you for so long," Amy whispered, painfully loving it. Karma felt a slight but unexpected gush between her legs. Amy's breath was hot and wet on her ear and she was teasing her, panting on purpose, causing her to pant to. Getting her all hot and bothered.

"This is so…"

"Different," Amy breathed, not wanting to stop at all. She pushed her body into Karma's and tugged pleadingly at the top of Karma's shorts, pushing them down just a little and feeling Karma's hip bone, driving her mad.

"Oh God," Karma's eyes opened wide. She gasped and rolled over, unable to stop herself any more. She moved and reached, pulling Amy's lips close and kissing them hard. "Uhhh," Karma moaned into Amy's mouth, twisting on the bed until she could face her all the way and kiss her harder and taste her more. She wanted her so much. The dreams and the fighting and the jealousy and the confusion. It had all led to this moment, this kiss and this time.

"I need you," Amy begged, her eyes shut tight as Karma touched her.

Karma looked at her and saw, the wanting on her face. Amy was so beautiful like that, so sexy. It was just like in her dreams only it was better because it was real.

She pushed Amy onto her back and straddled her, pulling her top up over her head.

Amy's eyes shot open.

"Whoa!" She breathed, her chest rising and falling quickly like she had just ran a marathon in the high heat without stopping.

"I know," Karma said, opening her eyes and looking down. She moved down a bit and tugged at Amy's shirt until Amy sat up enough for her to pull it all the way off. She pushed Amy back down hard. "When did you get so hot?!" Karma asked.

"Shut up," Amy smiled. She placed her hands on Karma's knees and ran them up onto her thighs, squeezing them and watching Karma's face react and change. It wasn't lies, Karma was as turned on as she ever could be. Amy bucked up a little and slid her hands around the back of Karma's thighs, pushing them beneath Karma's short shorts and pulling Karma's ass forward, surprising her quick. "Was it like this in your dream?" Amy asked through her panting. Looking up at Karma in almost disbelief. It was like her own dreams, the ones she thought could never ever come true.

"No," Karma said, closing her eyes and shaking her head. Watching Amy watch her was turning her on more than anything else ever could. She let her hand rest down on Amy's chest and she lowered her body to fall ontop of her, feeling Amy's stomach on hers and her arms around her back. "I just want you to hold me," Karma breathed sadly, her hand holding Amy's face to hers as she felt it all too strong, just that feeling of Amy being hers.

"Uhhh," Amy gasped, Karma's breath was tickling her ear. "I can't believe this is happening." Amy's eyes looked even bluer than before. Karma stared and breathed on top of her.

"Neither can I," Karma said, feeling overwhelmed.

They held each other, not moving until they both felt calm enough to breathe normal and relax. Their bodies were rising and falling at different speeds, they felt like two crazy animals stuck together in a cage. Moving wasn't an option, they wanted the closeness and the touching and that feeling.

"Should we sleep?" Amy asked.

"Mmm, maybe," Karma hummed. She liked the way it felt in Amy's arms after the kissing and the heat. She was playing with Amy's sweaty hand, running her fingertips inside Amy's palm and then pushing them all the way out to Amy's fingertips, watching as her fingers curled and laid flat.

"That feels good," Amy said, swallowing hard, her eyes closing.

"I've missed your smile," Karma confessed.

They hadn't done much but it seemed a lot. Karma rolled over and undid her shorts, pushing them off.

Amy got up and did the same before throwing herself under the sheets and turning the light off.

"Is that okay?"

"Yeah," Karma breathed heavy. It was different now being in bed.

They both laid on their backs for a moment, not touching in the silence.

"Would it be weird if I took a shower?" Amy asked. She couldn't stop thinking that maybe she smelt like Clara. She liked the smell of Clara but Karma might not like it.

"Not at all," Karma said, not knowing why Amy felt the need to ask.

Amy got up and went to the bathroom shutting the door. While she was gone Karma checked her phone. Liam had texted.

LIAM: Is everything okay?

KARMA: its okay, we're going to stay the night.

LIAM: Okay…

Karma thought about writing more but she already said enough earlier. She was sorry. Apologizing again via text wasn't going to change what she was thinking of doing.

She was thinking of quitting him and trying things with Amy. She had been scared at first because without Amy her life would be empty. The prospect of a relationship with her sounded unreasonable. They couldn't really work well in both capacities, could they? They had been friends for so long, how would that even work?

Karma thought about these things while Amy showered.

She thought about Clara and Amy and how they could work flawlessly. They got along and they had a brand new relationship. Everything must be fun between them like things were before with her and Liam. All exciting.

Karma saw Amy's phone resting on the nightstand. She stared at it a while before deciding to pry. She picked it up and checked the message logs. Clara hadn't sent any messages.

The shower shut off rather sudden and Amy exited with wet hair. She had her body wrapped up in a towel. She got under the covers and threw the towel off.

"Amy…" Karma said, looking down at her.

"What?" Amy acted guiltless.

"Uh huh, right. Like you don't know what you're doing."

"You don't have to touch me," Amy said, remembering how she had begged just minutes before.

"Come 'ere," Karma decided, opening her arms and letting Amy's cold body rest on top of hers.

"Oh my fu-cking God!" Karma gasped.

"Mmm hmm," Amy smiled, hugging Karma beneath the sheet. She let her knee move up over Karma's underwear and she moved her face into Karma's neck, kissing her cheek slow, multiple times.

"Yeah, there won't be sleeping if you're going to do that."

"Sleeping is overrated," Amy hummed, moving her lips down Karma's jaw line towards her neck making Karma nervous. Karma felt Amy's knee pushing into her and she gasped.

"Huuu," she breathed. Amy's hand trailed down Karma's stomach slowly, as if testing the waters. "Wh-what are you doing?" Karma asked, stopping her hand.

"I just… wanted to try something," Amy said calmly, not fighting her. "Is that okay?"

Karma thought about it and stopped fighting her.

Amy's hand slid down over panties and she rubbed at Karma's center, pulling up lightly on her undies at first and kissing Karma's lips.

"Mmmm," Karma moaned as Amy's mouth opened to let her in. Amy tugged a little harder at her underwear and opened her mouth more into the kiss, going deeper inside until Karma was panting at the intensity, almost unable to breathe at the heat she was feeling uptop and down below.

"Ss-s-slow down," Karma hissed hesitantly, pulling at Amy's wrist below the sheets and moving her head so that Amy would have to stop kissing her.

"Is it bad?" Amy asked, moving off of her and onto her back. She held at her head feeling mortified.

"No, no," Karma reassured. "It's just fast."

"Sorry," Amy said, breathing hard. "We don't have to do anything, I just thought."

"You thought…" Karma smiled, turning onto her side to stare at her fretting friend who had wet hair and a penchant for nervousness.

"I dunno." Amy said, not wanting to say what she was thinking. She thought they had waited long enough. She thought that the sooner they started doing the things, the better she would feel.

"Can we take things slow at first?" Karma asked, moving her hand to Amy's face and tilting her face towards her so that she could kiss her again, deep like before, her body rolling closer, unable to stay away.

"Mmmmm," Amy hummed, "Okay," she let herself be kissed, her hand on Karma's face.

It was Karma now, moving towards Amy. She moved her knee between Amy's legs and laid down ontop her like before. Amy watched as Karma wiggled to undo her bra and take it off. When she laid down again Amy hugged her and wanted to cry at how good she felt. She licked at Karma's neck, causing Karma to moan ontop of her and she felt the moan all down her own body.

"You're really good at that," Karma said, feeling herself rub up on Amy's leg in her pleasure.

"You taste good," Amy said. She was surprised when Karma returned the favor, dipping her face down slow into Amy's neck and licking her teasingly at her pulse point.

"Uhh," Amy struggled, pushing Karma's body down her own body by her hands on Karma's hips.

"Shit," Karma answered, feeling her underwear much too thin for all the rubbing not to completely affect her.

"Too much," Amy said letting go.

"Yeah, I don't think we can do the slow thing," Karma gasped.

"Wh-what should we do?" Amy asked.

"Maybe we should just go for it," Karma said.

As if responding Amy pushed herself up and took one of Karma's nipples into her mouth sucking soft and licking it at the tip.

"Amy!" Karma yelled, pushing her hard down onto the bed in surprise.

"Fuck," Amy yelled, closing her eyes and covering her face. It was too embarrassing. Everything felt wrong because she didn't know what Karma was thinking.

"Jesus Christ! At least warn me!" Karma laughed.

"Sorry," Amy said embarrassed. "You said to go for it."

"I know but Jesus." Karma gasped, rolling off of her and back onto her back.

Amy rolled over onto her side and stared up at her.

"I'm sorry," she said sadly.

"Don't be sorry," Karma smiled, holding Amy's hand.

Amy tucked her hand onto Karma's stomach and looked up at her, wanting to try it again.

"Should I stop touching you?" Amy asked. She wanted to do it again, she really did.

"I like it," Karma said, "just go slow, please," Karma asked.

"Okay," Amy said moving back up to Karma's breasts and watching Karma as she nipped at her nipple and licked lightly with just the tip of her tongue.

"Uhh," Karma moaned, watching her. Amy did it again, this time a longer lick. "Uhh," Karma answered.

"Is that okay?"

"Yeah," Karma heaved. "that is very okay," her head laid back on the pillow and she pushed at Amy's head to do it again.

This time Amy sucked Karma's nipple into her mouth like before and sucked as Karma pulled her into her and she tugged her own head away knowing it would drive her mad.

"Mmmmm," Karma hummed, "that feels, really good," Karma swallowed, using her hand to pull down on Amy's free hand, leading her to touch her like she had done before.

Amy let her lead and she felt as Karma tucked her fingers beneath the line of her panties.

"Uhhh," Amy gasped and Karma sent her fingers stright into the wetness of her folds. "Karma," she gasped.

"I know," Karma said, moving Amy's fingers slowly in and out of her folds so that they would rub on her clit and feel how aroused she had become. All the while, Amy didn't stop sucking light with her mouth.

She let Karma lead her but then Karma stopped so she slid her fingers down and tucked them slowly inside of her, watching Karma as she sucked in a large breath.

"Oh my God," Karma gasped. Amy stopped sucking and blew air onto Karma's nipple. "Shit," Karma said barely breathing as Amy slid her fingers out slow and entered them again, pushing in harder this time and feeling Karma's walls clench all around her.

"Fu-Amy!" Karma said, grabbing Amy's head and pushing it down against her body.

Amy slid her fingers out again and then sent them all the way back in. She watched as Karma struggled to breathe, clasping at her and holding her head to her body.

"Mmmm," Amy hummed, begging to move quicker as Karma's breathe sped up and almost stopped. Amy used her thumb to press at Karma's clit sending shivers up Karma's spine and igniting her instantly with desire.

"Holy shit!" Karma squeezed out in her desperation. Amy could feel her walls tightening around her fingers, she could feel Karma getting close and tight, her body fighting her from inside and she slid in and out quickening her pace.

"Is that okay?" Amy asked.

"D-Don't stop," Karma begged, pulling Amy's head tighter against her body as Amy sped her pace and listened for an order or a sigh.

"You feel so tight," Amy said as she began to pound her faster and resting some in-between to keep her wanting it and begging. Karma had stopped breathing and held her breath. The feeling was so intense she wanted it never to stop.

"Amyyy," she moaned, pushing her body into Amy's hand and holding Amy's fingers in her with her hand around her wrist so that Amy couldn't move at all and she could orgams. "Uhhhhhhhh," Karma exhaled, feeling her body tighten for a long time before it could rest. "Oh my God," Karma said, letting go of Amy's wrist slow and relaxing onto the bed, letting go of Amy's head.

"Are you okay," Amy asked, feeling soreness in her wrist from how tight Karma had been holding it.

"Yeah," Karma breathed, "yeah, I am soooo okay," she sighed, smiling, her breath slowing down.

"Wh-was that good?" Amy asked, not knowing if she had done it right.

"That was… yeah!" Karma agreed slowly, rushing a hand under Amy's chin and forcing her to kiss her as she moaned, "mmm, yeah," she said, excitedly as she kissed her. "That was, so good," she said between kissing, moving ontop of Amy and holding Amy's wrists up by her head. "Where the fuck did you learn how to do that?!" Karma heaved, staring down at her amazed and seeing her naked breasts now for the first time.

"It just felt right," Amy said.

"Yeah, sure," Karma smiled, rolling off of her and back onto her back. "Fuck Amy!" Karma yelled.

"I know," Amy smiled, holding her own forehead with her hand.

"Did Clara do that to you?" Karma asked.

"Kinda," Amy confessed, remembering the shower and how good it felt. She smiled to herself and Karma saw but she wasn't jealous anymore.

"Wow," Karma breathed feeling like she had just had real sex for the very first time in her life. It had been nothing like sex with Liam. It was precise and smart and it didn't ache or hurt in an uncomfortable way.

"I know," Amy said again, grateful that it had actually worked. "So, you want me then?" Amy asked.

"Amy," Karma gasped, rolling onto her side and looking up at her. "Of course I want you. You didn't have to do that for me to want you," Karma said.

"You've been so unsure. I wanted to know," Amy said.

"I told Liam I loved you Amy. Does that sound like someone who's unsure to you?"

"Not really," Amy confessed.

"Believe me, I'm sure," Karma said. "God and if I wasn't sure before…" Karma stopped talking just to breath. "I can't believe how good that just felt. I never thought about it before."

"What?"

"Sex with a girl…" Karma confessed.

"Not even at the threesome."

"Not really, no."

"I thought about it then…" Amy confessed. "With you…"

"I love you so much," Karma said, searching Amy's pained eyes and kissing her slow, with her hand holding lightly on Amy's cheek. "Mmmm," Karma moaned, dropping her head to the bed and turning onto her stomach to rest. "I feel amazing!" Karma yelled.

"You're ridiculous," Amy laughed, placing her hands behind her head and feeling good about herself. "Karma?" Amy asked.

"Yeah?" Karma had almost fallen asleep, she felt that relaxed.

"What were your dreams like?"

"They were just sweet," she smiled, turning her head to look up at Amy.

"Sweet how?"

"It was like everything was before only better."

"Did we kiss?"

"Yeah," Karma smiled, "we did. A lot actually."

"I'm glad you dreamed about me."

"I'm glad too," Karma said. The trip was still a mess but at least things weren't as complicated anymore. They could tell the truth now without lying. And the wedding wasn't this taboo thing. The affair between Amy and Liam made a little sense given all that had gone on.

Karma just wanted to sleep and feel good for once and so did Amy.

"I love you Karma," Amy said.

"I love you too."

They fell asleep feeling better and they woke happily in each other's arms.