Here's the next chapter! There's slight talk about Suicide but, it's plays a huge part in the story. So sorry to those of you who don't like it. And I'm not jumping out there and taking a stab in the dark of how it feels to be suicidal... I've been there and it's not fun. So please enjoy.

Detention with Professor Severus Snape started out normal. He had her help him clean out his potion stores, from the last professor that occupied it last. When she first arrived she was twenty minutes late to the detention; she lost twenty points from Gryffindor. Then she lost another ten for not being in uniform. Then she argued with him wanting to be comfortable; she was wearing sweat pants and a T-shirt. That lost her another five. They worked quietly together as they cleared out the inventory, only keeping things he thought were still fine to use. Lily loved this though. She was sitting next to the man she loved; even though he didn't know it, and was sorting through potions ingredients. This is the best birthday ever! Lily smiled to herself. Then she lost her smile, she remembered before she came that she had, had another dream before she came down for detention. That was why she was late for detention in the first place. Even though it didn't seem like it but, the dreams were starting to take their toll on Lily. She used to love to sleep and now she was afraid to see what else her future held for her. She didn't even know if they even meant anything. They have to though, especially if Sever… Professor Snape was experiencing them; that had to count for something. The last dream though did it for her, she was sick of the dreams. She didn't like the fact that her "Possible Future" was being told to her. That was what she loved about life you never knew what was going to happen next, and now she was having vital parts of her life were being given to her. She didn't like that. Lily exhaled rather loudly, and plopped down on her bottom. She propped her elbow her leg and held her head in her hand.

'You're not done get back to work.' She heard him say.

'Do it yourself.' She said while getting up and walking back into the class room.

'Excuse me? Ten points for talking back.' He sneered.

'Is that all you know what to do? Take points away?' she yelled back at him. He pressed his lips into a thin line and glared down at her. She just glared back at him. Lily finally gave up.

'I'm sorry.' She sat down on a stool that was by his desk. 'I had another dream and… I wish I didn't' she said, tears forming in her eyes. She looked up at him; he flinched when he looked her. She reminded him too much of His Lily.

'Do you want to talk about it?' He said sounding a bit softer. She took off her glasses and wiped her tears away with her sweater sleeve.

'No, not really… that was why I was late.' She sniffed. 'I had fallen asleep because I haven't been sleeping well because of the dreams, and this one just took the cake.' She said looking into his eyes. His face was emotionless but, she knew he felt something towards her though. He just kept on looking at her.

'What was it about?' he swallowed. 'Please it will make you feel better if you talk to someone about it.' He finished. She then started too straight up cry, when she did she threw herself into his chest. Her arms wrapped around his waist and buried her head into his chest. Violent sobs wracking from her body. He was surprised at first when she launched herself into his arms. No woman had ever willingly done so, love for this girl welled up into his chest. He wrapped his arm around her waist and the other went to the back of her head. He tried to comfort her best that he could. She moved her head to the side so she could breathe. She felt a damp spot on her cheek from where her tears hit. Taking calm breaths to gain back her control.

'I was at St. Mungo's.' she started off. He didn't let go, which made Lily grateful. I was older, and I was pregnant, well that was until the Healer told me I lost the baby.' She said, tears flowing down her cheek again. Severus didn't know what to feel, he was confused.

'I was fine at first… In the dream. I went home to find you in your study with our daughter; she was reading a book by your feet and you were looking over some paperwork.' She took a shaky breath. 'I acted fine, came in picked Rainy up came over and gave you a kiss and then I left you so I could start to cook dinner. Then later that night… I tried to kill myself.' She said looking up at him. A look of concern was on his face.

'It's not the first time you've felt like that isn't?' he asked rather seriously. Lily let him go, it didn't feel like Student/Teacher, it didn't feel like Child and adult, she felt equal to him at this moment. More tears fell from Lily's eyes; she looked at him in the eye.

'No, it's not.' She said truthfully. No one had ever known she wanted to kill herself or she had even tried for that matter.

'Do you still feel that way?' he looked said, while trying to find her eyes; which she was trying avoid his.

'No, not ever since I was thirteen.' She let him know. 'That's why the dream bothered me so much… I felt that pain and that deep anger all over again.' She looked at him. 'I never want to feel that way ever again.' She said, a soft sob escaped from her. He raised her chin to look at him.

'Why did you even feel this way in the first place?' Lily shook her head and started cry now.

'Tell me Lily.' She looked away but, he just forced her to look at him once again.

'Tell. Me. Lily.' He ground out.

'I can't, you'll send me to Azkaban… I can't' she whispered to him.

'Lily… I'm an Ex-Death Eater, I've killed, I've raped, I've tortured… I'm not sending you anywhere. You can trust me.' He said to her.

'How can I trust you when I don't even trust myself?' She whispered. With that she left the class room. Leaving a confused Severus Snape behind.

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