So I Thought
D Gray Man
Plans
It was a long way back to the Noah manor. It seemed even longer to Tyki Mikk as he carried Fae. She was bleeding and bled most of the way there. In his heart he also carried fear that she just might die before he could get her back home. He wasn't sure why that fear was lodged there, but it was and it wouldn't go away. He finally was able to reach the manor and he practically kicked down the door.
He hurried inside and into the closest room which was a living-type room. Road and the Earl were sitting within, relaxing and they had been talking but both went dead silent. Road's eyes were first wide and then very angry. She stood up; gripping the doll she had, tightly in her hand.
"What happened?" she snapped. Tyki ignored her to lay Fae down on the couch. He looked back at Road and the Earl. Road stood there for a moment and then she frowned. "I'll get some Akuma and bandages" She hurried out of the room. The Earl came over and handed Tyki some rags. He pressed them against Fae's bleeding wounds. She gasped in pain and opened her eyes.
"Tyki" she gasped. "Whe..Where are we?" He grimaced. She had been unaware most of the trip there then. It didn't surprise him with how bad her wounds had been. He combed back some of the hairs that had fallen down.
"Home" he answered and he pressed the rags a little harder against her wounds. The Earl stood silently by, looking grim, even with his eternal smile. He then turned as the door open and as Road and quite a few Akuma came in and swarmed around Fae. Tyki watched carefully as they treated her and then as they retreated.
"Tyki-pon" The Earl called. He had gone to a chair to sit down and knit while his newest Noah was being looked after. Tyki didn't turn to look at him, but waited, alert. "What happened?"
"Her sister. Her sister attacked us and cut up Fae." He looked at the cuts on his calf that he had received. They were nowhere as bad as Fae's wounds. She was lying there; her eyes closed panting a little. She was still in pain and part of Tyki was angry because of that. How could he not be? Fae was a fellow Noah.
Even when he had to kill Jasdevi, he had felt bad. Something inside of him had twisted. He had noticed right before he had run off that Jasdevi was alive though. He wondered if they still were. He wondered if she was able to save them or if they had died and if she had done something stupid and very human.
"So her sister's Innocence has been destroyed?" asked the Earl. Tyki's eyes tightened.
"I had to flee. Fae's wounds were too serious" He heard the Earl snort but make no comment on his actions. Road came to stand by him then and took his hand, looking worried. He felt rather than heard or saw the Earl approaching.
"Tyki-pon, I'm not happy that you ran away without finishing the battle, but this time I suppose it can be excused" It was silent for a few heartbeats. "I have things to attend to. Please tend to her Tyki" Then the Earl left without another word. Road squeezed her Uncle's hand.
"She'll be alright. She's a Noah. She's strong" she whispered. She squeezed his hand again and let go, sitting in a chair by the edge of the bed. Tyki sat on the chair by her head and he looked down at her. She looked at peace, not in pain at all but just because she looked fine did not mean that inside her head was okay. She could be in pain. He would never know. He wasn't sure if he wanted to.
A part of him already wanted to go and rip Raina apart for what she had done. It was also her fault that Jasdevi had gotten hurt, maybe killed. If she had just died when she had to like a good little human, none of this would have ever happened. Tyki wondered why he didn't hate all humans, he still had his human friends, but he still hated so many humans. It was a little frustrating to think about but he knew he had to ignore it for now. There were more pressing issues, like Fae was still hurt.
He slipped his arms under her gently and picked her up. She groaned a little but other than that, there was no reaction for her. She was too far into her sleep or maybe her pain. He would make Raina pay for this. No matter what Devit and Jasdero's feelings for her. They had said that they loved her. He shook his head. They could not love her. She was an Exorcist, not a Noah. Not a human. She was a beast.
Tyki hurried, but was careful, as he sped down the hall to Fae's room. She'd be better off there. He almost expected the twins to come running and crashing into him as he hurried down the hall. He realized they might never do that again. Inside, something hurt a little but he didn't let it show in his face or as he walked into Fae's room.
It was empty, of course. He'd make sure that most of the other Noah stayed away for a little while as well. She needed her rest, not to be bothered. He didn't think anyone would really bother her though. Everyone had something to do. Everyone always did. The only people in the Noah clan that really slacked off were...the twins. He wondered why he kept thinking of them...Did he miss them? No. Of course not. Never.
Yeah he did, a little. Just a little. But he would never say it out loud.
He laid Fae on her bed and her eyes fluttered open. "Tyki" she said his name once again. "We're...home" she smiled, though it looked pained.
"Yeah...We're home" he answered her, although she had not asked a question. "You've been treated, but you still need to lay down and rest. Damage dealt by the Innocence will take a while to heal." She just sighed in answer.
"If I must, but we need to be up and moving again in a few days. Unless you killed her?" He was shaking his head before she had even finished her sentence. "Exactly. We have to kill her. Quickly" She already seemed stronger. He looked at her wounds which were healing around the edges. Her Noah blood allowed her to heal quickly but because this wound was inflicted by Innocence instead of a regular weapon, it might take longer for her to heal.
Tyki sat down on the edge of the bed. "It's a surprise that you survived." He said, trying to sound unconcerned. "You lost a lot of blood and you will need days to heal from that alone" He sighed, feeling annoyed. If only he had been a second faster, if only he had been an inch closer. He felt like a bit of her wounds were his fault. He didn't know what else to think. It wasn't just her fault.
"Well I'm alive." She said and then she lay there, silent. Tyki looked at her again, she looked thoughtful. Then she reached out, hesitantly and took Tyki's hand. "Thank you" He didn't pull his hand away or do anything. He just sat there, looking at her."If you hadn't been there, I would have been killed. I would have died there" He shrugged, as if it was nothing to have saved her life. He was trying to convince himself that it had been nothing to save her life. She was just another Noah. That's all she was allowed to be.
"You're welcome" then he looked away from her.
"She hurt you...You're covered in blood" His eyes went to his leg and then back to her face. She must have thought the blood on his shirt was his own. Truth be told it was her's. He just shrugged at her statement. "I don't like to see scars on you"
"Does it ruin my beauty for you?" venom entered his voice and he looked at he, his eyes suddenly judgmental. He had noticed it several times before but never countered her on it. She looked at him, looking a little shocked. "People, Noahs, aren't all beauty, but that's all you see isn't it Fae? I have noticed how you look at me but you don't even know me"
"I know" her eyes fell. "I know I don't know you. I don't only look at you as beauty Tyki!"
He did not answer her; he turned his face away from her, not to be rude, but to prove a point. He felt her fingers on his hand, stroking it. He pulled his hand away. He heard her whimper, a small pathetic sound. Had she not just called her sister pathetic that day? He sigh, an angry grunt and he stood.
"I'm going to treat my wound" Without waiting for word from her, he left the room. He walked down the hall to his room and sat down on his bed. He looked at his wound, which was no longer bleeding but it was starting to heal. He touched the wound gingerly and then lay on his bed, feeling groggy and tired. He knew it was a reaction from the long and grueling battle.
He yawned and rubbed at his one eye. He was also feeling a little grumpy from what Fae had said. She was one of those woman who only looked and who only cared about beauty. He had met a lot of women like that over the past few years. The Earl seemed to think that Tyki was ready to be married. He was always trying to find a human woman for Tyki but of course Tyki didn't like any of them and usually never showed up at any of the dates that the Earl made for him.
Tyki decided that it would be against his better health to think of these things so he yawned again and closed his eyes. He was tired but sleep didn't come quickly for him. He laid awake for another hour or so, thinking of some of things that had been said.
Fae was not used to such pain. It would wake her in the middle of the night, much like the pain of her transformation. If she moved wrong, she would be awakened with pain. She was awake now. She knew it was early in the morning, even with no windows to let the dim lighting the sun would be giving off in. She knew that the Noah manor had only a few windows in it but she never asked why. It just seemed right that it would be dim. Maybe because humans, and Exorcists, marked them as evil? She would not know, because she did not care.
She sat up, slowly, and looked around. Tyki was not here. Tyki was back in his room, most likely still mad at her. She sighed and laid back down. She knew her feelings were not just for his so called 'beauty'. She did care for him, he was the kind of person she idolized because he seemed so sure of himself. He did everything with a casual air, like nothing could touch him. She laughed for a moment, the sound cutting off in a cry of pain.
Nothing could touch him. Not if he didn't choose it to.
She closed her eyes again. She needed to get some sleep. She would talk to Tyki in the morning and tell him that she was sorry. She would make him believe, at any cost, that she was sorry. She sighed. That made her feel a little better and it wasn't long before she fell asleep once again.
Four days passed rather quickly. Tyki took care of Fae, but wasn't sure if he would accept that she was sorry for upsetting him. He had smiled and said that he had though. If she worried over something, it would slow her healing. She had healed a lot, she could move around without causing herself a lot of pain, which soothed Tyki's mind a little.
They were in the dining room, alone. The Earl was off doing something, Road was in her room and the twins weren't there of course. They had no idea where Skin was at, to be truthful. They were both eating, sitting across from each other and Fae looked distracted. She dropped her fork which caused Tyki to look up.
"They're still alive" she whispered. Tyki gave her a questioning look. She shook her head slowly. "How?" She finally looked up at him, sensing his gaze. "Jasdevi is still alive. That's the only reason my sister would be so happy."
"Shes happy?" he asked.
"Ecstatic. They must be doing well" her eyes narrowed. "We have to capture her. Bring her here and kill her here. Its the only way that Jasdevi won't get in our way" Tyki thought about it and she was right. "And we have our chance now, today. They're weak, they have to be and so we can get our family back together"
"What do you mean by that?"
"I mean that once shes dead, they'll come back to the Noah side" she answered. "They're only betraying us so they can keep their pet correct? We the kill the pet, they have no where else to turn but to us"
"You have a point and and I do not really want to kill a brother" Tyki said, lacing his hands together and sitting his chin on his fingers. He thought about her plan. The twins would be in no condition to fight, but Fae was hurt pretty bad as well, but Tyki was much stronger than her and he could divert the twins while Fae snatched Raina. Raina was hurt too, so maybe that would keep her from fighting back too much.
"We should go soon" Fae was pushing. "Plus, I think the Earl is disappointed in me" She looked down at the table. "I...I should have tried hard. I do not know how to fight well and I believe he blames me for her still being alive"
Tyki half-stood by sat back down, pushing his hair back. "Fae, this is not your fault" He said, frowning at her. "This is no one's fault, except the Innocence's. It changed and allowed her to defeat us"
"Are you so sure? I have no fighting skill. My sister noticed as well. Why do you think she attacked me at the end Tyki? Why do you think she targeted me? Why not you? Causing me pain causes her pain as well! It wasn't random! It was because shes a smart and good fighter!" Fae slammed her hands on the table, hard enough to make everything on it jump and the wood groan.
"Calm down" he ordered. "This is not your fault and you will become a better fighter in time."
"If I live that long" she grumbled looking away.
"Don't say that" snarled Tyki. Then his eyes tightened and he looked away. Why did he say that? He should have not. He didn't want her to get the wrong idea. Her thoughts were already annoying as were most of her actions. He rubbed his head and sat back down. She was looking at him now, he could feel it. He looked up at her, letting annoyance become the main emotion his face. "It's annoying when you say things like that. I didn't know you were suicidal."
She smiled a little, a sarcastic smile. "Oh, very" she answered.
"Do you really think we should go after them now?" he asked her, eyeing her warily. He didn't know if she was ready or not. She simply nodded and stood. She brushed her short hair from her face.
"Worse comes to worse, we kill them all" She said with a shrug. She glanced at Tyki, who was still seated. "Are you coming Tyki?"
"Are you saying you're okay with killing another Noah?" he asked. She tilted her head to the side a little, her hair falling over her eyes.
"If they are traitors" she answered.
Tyki's face twisted a little. As much as he sometimes could swear he hated the twins...The family wouldn't be the same without the little punks. Sure they were pricks, but that was normal for kids their age. Tyki was sure he wasn't the nicest kid...Well he was no where as bad as the twins but still...
He sighed. "Fine, let's go"
Fae looked at him, her face concerned. "Tyki, if you don't want to...I'll ask someone else to go with me. Road maybe..."
"No, no." He took a deep breath. "I'm fine, I can do this. If they become true traitors, we'll eliminate them." He felt his body tense at this thought. He didn't want to kill them, but would do the job right this time, if the need arose.
"Alright" she answered, smiling just a little. She didn't look convinced but maybe she saw that he would do his job, if it needed to be done and then she turned and walked towards the door. "And Tyki, leave my sister to me. I won't make the same mistake I made last time." She smiled at him again.
"Just be careful" he told her, looking away as he stood. He pushed his chair in, slowly and took another breath. This was just another job. What was the big deal? He could do this. Maybe the big thing was that this was another Noah that he had to kill, maybe. He hoped there was a way around this. A way around killing Jasdevi, but in truth he could see none if they insisted on protecting her.
His hand when to his chest, where her first scar was. His leg was now scared as well. His eyes narrowed. He would get her back for scaring his body. Jasdevi would not be a problem because he would divert them and then take them to the manor too. They would kill the girl there and then let Jasdevi grieve. Afterward, everything would be alright and back to normal.
Or at leas that was all Tyki could hope as he and Fae walked out the door.
With Devit, Jasdero & Raina
Raina walked a bit ahead of them. They could still see her, but it made them nervous to have her too far away. They couldn't increase their pace though. It hurt too much. Their chests throbbed, although they were almost healed. She seemed to fine, healed. At least she was okay; it made them happy to see she was okay.
"Rai?" called Jasdero as she fell out of sight. She popped back into sight and smiled a warm sunny smile that reminded them of their childhood. This was not an innocence time though. Their eyes fell to her extended Innocence on her hands. She had explained what had happened four days ago. How her Innocence had changed in reaction to her emotions and had allowed her to save them. They Innocence looked bound right to her skin, like it was a part of her now, but she had assured them that it wasn't.
But they had another problem with her, currently. The fact that she told them they'd only stay in the area for one more day and they had been there for more than one. In fact she kept them there for two. It had gone something like this;
Devit: Gets up and grabs his coat. "We need to leave this area before the Akuma find us"
Raina: Stands, eyes worried, frowning. "No, you guys are still badly hurt"
Jasdero: "We can handle ourselves Rai"
Raina: Shakes head. "No. We stay"
Devit: "We're leaving. Get around." He turns away from her.
Raina: Eyes tear up. "Bu..But…I almost lost you guys once; I can't go through that again!" Tears start to overflow a little. Devit makes the mistake of turning back to look at her.
Obvious winner; Raina.
Now she was walking just a few feet ahead of them. Where were they going? The twins didn't know yet. All they knew that it was 'someplace special' according to her. They followed her through the trees, following no seen path. She just seemed to be walking randomly and it was annoying Devit a little. Jasdero was just watching her with protective eyes.
Finally she stopped and turned back to them. "I'm going to make sure it's safe. We're almost there. Can you wait here for a moment?" She didn't wait for their answer and she darted away, her Innocence activating.
"Raina!" Devit shouted at her and reached to grab her wrist before she could get away. His hand closed around empty air and his wound pulled in an unpleasant way. He grunted in pain and quickly started after her, Jasdero with him. They would not give her that moment she asked for. They had to protect her.
They found her, standing in yellow-white sand. Her Innocence was deactivated and she was looking up at the sunlight drifted, spring green, from the trees. In front of her was a small creek, the same one they had played in often as children. Her hair blew around her, getting tangled in the slight wind. She turned then and saw them. She looked shocked for a moment and then smiled.
"Surprise" she half-sang.
"Is this…" started Jasdero. He took a step towards her. Devit stayed stiffened where he was. He couldn't force his body to move.
"Yup!" she answered. "I wanted to bring you here. I figured this can be our good bye to this place. Smart huh?"
"Yeah" whispered Devit. Finally he went to stand by her and Jasdero, who had been by her side for a few heartbeats now. "I can't believe you found this place too"
It was a little overgrown with weeds but it was still the place from their childhood, it was still the place where they had been so happy and innocent with her. They had missed this place, although they didn't realize that until right at that moment. They didn't know how much they missed it, until they had seen it again.
"I really wanted to find it. I felt like I needed to. It's the one place that no one can ever take away from us" Her smile was soft and she seemed barely aware of anything around them. She turned back to look at the creek and Devit and Jasdero turned to look at it as well. They went silent for a while.
"Rai, I'll be right back" Jasdero touched her shoulder, smiled at Devit and then disappeared into the trees. As soon as he was gone she sat on the ground, letting her feet spread out in front of her and then she laid back and sighed.
Devit sat next to her but did not lie down. He watched the rive flow by. He then looked at her, where she was laying looking at the green light. Devit looked to where Jasdero had disappeared, wondering where he was going, worrying for his brother.
"Devit." Her voice made him look at her.
"Hmm?"
"Relax, Jasdero will be back soon." He frowned for a moment and then laid back to, careful of his wounds. "He just went to see something, he'll be back shortly, don't worry"
"What did he go to see?" he asked.
"I don't know. He didn't tell me." She answered. She looked over at him. "He'll be fine though." She took his hand and smiled. He hesitated a moment and gave her a small smile back. She looked back at the green light that fluttered down to touch them. The beams of sunlight were warm pools that touched their faces and throats. It was peaceful and nice.
"Jasdero isn't back yet"
"Yeah" Raina's voice seemed far away and then she suddenly rolled onto her side and looked at him. "I want to talk to you, while we have some time alone" For some reason, the way she said that, made his face heat up.
"Alright" he tried to make his voice sound as normal as he could, but he felt nervous for some reason.
"I lied at the hot spring. I heard everything" He felt his face go extremely red. "I heard you saying you don't know how you really feel about me" She looked down at the ground. Their hands were still intertwined on the small space that was between them. "I don't know how I feel about you either, not completely. I do care about you though Devit"
"Raina, we don't have to talk about this." Really he just wanted to avoid the whole subject. He never felt so embarrassed in his life. He didn't want to talk about it anymore. He just wanted to wait for his brother or even go look for him so that he would be there and Raina would stop talking about whatever nonsense she was trying to talk about.
Wait it wasn't nonsense, it was her feelings. Maybe his feelings too. He wasn't sure though yet, he had no idea how he really felt about Raina. He had no idea how he should feel about her. He had known her as a child. His thoughts went to the final time she left, how she had kissed him on the cheek before leaving. His face went hotter.
"But I feel like we should Devit! Please, I really think we should." She was suddenly clinging to his arm, her face buried in his shoulder. He put his other hand on the back of her head.
"Raina. I care about you, but I…I don't know yet" He grimaced feeling like it wasn't enough. He did care about her, but how much? She looked up at him, her violet eyes not really looking expectant or anything like that. If anything she looked confused. Finally she just let go of him, sat up and pulled her legs against her chest.
"I don't know either! I was hoping that maybe you had an idea…Maybe you'd help me feel like I knew what I wanted!" She put her head on her knees and Devit slowly sat up, wrapping one arm around her. She didn't shake it off.
"I'm sorry" he said, not knowing what else to do. He could see she was confused and maybe a little frantic about the whole situation. He wasn't as bad as her, but he still wished he understood exactly what he felt for her. Exactly what she felt for him as well.
It was hard and he didn't like it. But he knew he wasn't the one really suffering from this, she was. She was seriously suffering from the confusion inside of her. He stroked her hair and kept her close. She seemed to at least find comfort in that. But that brought the thought that they may be feeling things that an Exorcist should not feel feel for a Noah and visa versa. It was very, very wrong to feel that way.
But wasn't it wrong to feel the friendship he felt for her as well? He didn't feel as tense when he was around her now and he thought he was just getting used to her, he thought he was just starting to obtain trust in her, but what if it were something more? He swallowed hard. It couldn't be, could it?
They heard someone coming through the trees and they looked up. Jasdero came bounding through the trees, as if his chest no longer hurt. He smiled at Devit and Raina, not at all bother at their closeness. Then he must have seen the confused and annoyed expression on Raina's face. He quickly sat right next to her and stared into her face.
"Rai, what's wrong?" he asked bluntly.
"I'm confused Jasdero. I don't know what to feel" she answered, just as blunt. Devit felt his face heat up again. He didn't like feeling like this. It was awkward and annoying. He had a feeling that this was what Raina was feeling as well. Jasdero just smiled at her.
"I'm sure you'll figure it out Raina. You're really good for Devi. Dero was hoping you two would work it out while Dero went for a walk but it seems..." he trailed off and both Devit and Raina's faces flooded with heat.
"THAT'S why you left?" she practically shrieked while at the same time Devit cried out. "Jasdero that's NOT helpful!"
Jasdero grinned at them, the stitching over his mouth stretching to cover his mouth and Raina looked away, still feeling like her face was on fire. Devit felt the same way. He was hoping it wouldn't get awkward between them now since Jasdero had gotten this smart idea, although it wasn't like Devit wouldn't like some time alone with Raina. It was nice. He felt pretty at peace when he was around her.
Finally Raina sighed and stood. "Come on boys. We better get moving" she said.
"Yeah" agreed Jasdero, standing alongside her. Devit was the last to get up. He shoved his hands in his pockets and looked at her. She looked at him at almost exactly the same moment. With his strong Noah eyes he could see the red across her cheeks, where the blood rushed to the surface of her skin, heating it up. He dropped his gaze to the ground.
"Do you have the bag Jasdero?" she asked. Jasdero went back into the trees and brought out the bag that they had carried with them all this way. He slung it over his shoulder but Raina went and gently removed it from his grasp. "Let me carry it, you're hurt" Her words made Devit frown, but neither of them argued with her. She started to walk, slower this time so that they could keep up with her. They each walked on one side of her, silent as they did. Only one of her hands was free, the other had a hold of the sack. Devit grabbed her free hand and held it tightly in his. She didn't object but held onto his hand tightly as well.
Jasdero simply smiled. It was a start afterall.
With Fae and Tyki
They walked through the manor, heading for the exit, a large group of Akuma following behind them. Their faces were grim and they did not speak. They knew what they had to do and neither of them liked the idea of it. It was a gruesome idea. Best not to think of it until they had to act. Of course Tyki knew he could make it a mindless thing, he could let his Noah take over and just kill, if needed. He would not kill unless there was no other choice.
They were almost to the exit when Lulubell stepped in their path. Her black hair seemed to waver, though there was no wind. Her golden eyes were serious as she gazed at her siblings. Fae gazed back at her. Tyki dropped his gaze.
"Where are you going?" she asked.
"To kill an Exorcist" answered Fae, her voice seemed untroubled, as if it were any Exorcists.
"Are you going to bring them back?" she asked.
"Yes, for me and Road to play with"
"Have fun" then she stepped away, shifting into a cat as she did, leaving her clothes behind. Fae and Tyki watched their sister go and then headed out, their small army of Akuma right behind them. This time, Raina would not escape.
Ahhh I have been so busy lately. Sorry. This was supposed to be out Monday, but I didn't finish it until today. Better late than never, eh? Anyway, I don't know if you guys look at my profile, but you should. I now have Fae and Raina's profiles there. Also I may be publishing a few 'shorts' I wrote for this story sooner or later. One is very funny..hehe...Anyway, I also drew a picture of Chibi Raina, Devit and Jasdero. I may put that up somewhere and I drew another picture of just Raina and Devit. Wow, I've been busy, yeah. So anyway, I hope you liked this chapter. Sorry to the Tyki fans out there. I know I promised and all Tyki Chapter, but I wanted some Raina and Devit alone time!
Thanks to everyone who reviewed and thanks for waiting everyone! Get those reviews in~ You know I love to read them. Also feel free to ask questions in the reviews. I will either answer them publicly(in the end here) or I will message you with the answer. Once again, thanks!