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Boba – I'm sorry for confusing you, I thought I explained why he wanted her to take a step back not because he didn't want her around but he wanted Barry to grow up and see he can do this as he's still doubting himself at the moment. I hope that's clearer. Thank you for reviewing.
Guest – yes I miss marked it. This chapter isn't Snowbarry, I said Snowbarry moments will return, well I hope I did because that is what I wanted to say so sorry for any confusion. It always makes me very happy to read that people are enjoying this story and I hope you continue to enjoy what I write. Thanks for the review.
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AReiss215 – the idea popped into my head and I thought why not have her threaten a cop she's already shouted at prison security why not threaten a cop who carries a gun. Thank you for the review.
Lolly – welcome to my crazy imagination, to be fair the idea of having Barry find a baby on his doorstep popped into my head and I ran with it, who knows what will happen next, I plan chapters and something else ends up happening so I'm just going along with the plot with the rest of you. Thank for reviewing.
Snowb4rry01 – as am I, I have a plan in my head but my plans never make it into the story as something else pops into my head and that's what ends up happening. Thank you for reviewing.
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Three days, three whole days without Caitlin around and I don't know what to do, yes I'm coping with Maddison – just.
She's woken in the night but after having a bottle and a diaper change she's gone right back to sleep until now when I've gone to put her to bed for the night. Glancing at the clock I notice it's only seven – thirty so Caitlin shouldn't be busy. Holding Maddison in one arm I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and quickly found Caitlin's number and hit call. For Maddison to be screaming like this means something must to wrong with her and see needs a doctor. Not just any doctor, my doctor – she needs Caitlin.
"Barry what's wrong?" Caitlin asked answering on the third ring. I felt myself relax at the sound of her voice.
Ever other night I called her for the past three nights her phone had been turned off which I found weird as she never has her phone turned off, not since the day I met her at S.T.A.R Labs she's had her phone off and then all of a sudden her phone is switched off. Apart of my wanted to run over to her apartment to make sure she was ok but then I remembered Maddison and how Caitlin said I shouldn't use my super speed with her yet. She has super speed like me but we don't know how hers works yet or what damage I can do to her by running around at full speed so I don't run with her.
"Maddison will not stop crying, can you come over?" I know my voice sounded like I was begging her and I was begging so I don't care that she knows that.
"Barry I can't, I'm busy" she replied her voice drifting off at the ends.
"What do you mean you're busy, you're never busy" I shot back noticing my mistake right away. I wanted her help and I pretty much told her I thought she didn't have a life. Nice move even if I say so myself.
"Barry I can't come over, I'm getting ready to go out. I have a date tonight" she informed me taking me by surprise, normally she would have told me about any dates she had just like I tell her but she didn't and I must admit it hurt a little.
"You have a date?" I asked just to make sure I heard her correctly.
"Yes Barry is it so hard for you to believe I have a date. Now what is wrong with Maddison?" she shot back changing the subject.
"I don't know, she just will not stop crying" I replied knowing I could be over reacting but she only ever cries like this when something is wrong.
"Have you just given her a bottle?" she asked with a sigh.
"Yes and I winded her. I will not make that mistake again" I replied proud of myself for remember everything I had to do when it came to feeding her, Everything from checking the temperature of the bottle of my wrist all the way to winding her.
"It's probably just trapped wind, in her changing bag there is a little white bottle with a black top, take it out and dip her pacifier into it and give it to her. She'll be fine. Now I have to go Barry I need to finish getting dressed" Caitlin replied before hanging up on me.
I stared at my phone for a couple of seconds at the fact she hung up on me, she never hanging up on me or anyone else. I don't know what has gotten into her but for the last three days she's been very odd especially when I've spoken to her and I don't know why.
Have I don't something to upset her?
Thinking back over the past three days I can't think of anything I could have done wrong, with a sigh I slid my phone back into my pocket and grabbed Maddison's change back before sitting down on the sofa to find the bottle Caitlin told me about. Once I found it I did as she said and sat back as Maddison sucked on her pacifier and finally settled down.
Satisfied she had settle for the night I carried her into my bedroom and paced her into her basket to sleep knowing she will be awake in the next 4-5 hours for another feed. She defiantly gets her appetite from me. Covering her with her blanket I slowly exited the room, only for her to start crying again. With another sigh I sat down on the end of the bed to wait and see if she settled back down again.
Ten minutes passed and she still continued to cry. Standing back up I picked her back up and placed her onto my bed. Lying down beside her I ran my finger over her cheek when all I wanted to do was cry myself. Why did I ever think I could do this, to say I'm in it up to my neck would be the truth. I have no idea what I'm doing so why did Beth bring her to me, she would have been better going to a family that will love her and know how to look after her not a twenty five year old who doesn't have the first idea of what he's doing. Pulling my phone back out I called Caitlin again, I know she said she had a date but I need her and I need her now.
"Caitlin please I need you, I can't do this alone. I did what you said and it didn't work. She will not stop crying" I shot down the phone as she answered.
"Barry she is fine, I gave her a check-up yesterday. I have to go my dates going to be here any minute" once again she hung up on me. Dropped my phone onto the bed behind me I turned my attention back to Maddison.
"It looks like it's just me and you baby" I spoke running my index finger over her left eyebrow. "I have no idea what I'm doing but I'm trying my best. I'll always do my best with you but right now I don't know what you need or what. I really wish I did because I don't like seeing you like this as I don't know how to make it better" I spoke aloud knowing it wasn't going to help but I didn't know what else to do. I've tried everything.
Leaving Maddison on the bed, I got up and changed into some sweats before climbing back onto the bed and turning on the TV. I picked Maddison up off the mattress and lay her on my bare chest rubbing her back not knowing what else to do other than let her cry and hope she stops at some point.
Pressing my lips against the top of her head I inhaled at the feeling of her small hands moving around my torso "I love you so much baby and you deserve so much more than me but I can't let you go"
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