Title: Can I Say I love You

Summary: After My Two Mommies and Natalia leaving after setting Ms. Jennings straight to go out with Frank. Natalia tries to figure out what she is feeling. Will she continue to run to Frank or will she own up to what she is feeling? Will Olivia? Or will they keep pushing their hearts away?
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I do not make any profit from this.

Chapter 14

She just sighed stepping closer to eliminate the distance Olivia had created and spoke softly. "I want everything and if our last two kisses were anything to go by I think you want that too. I want you Olivia, I want there to be an us. Do you… want that too?"

Olivia smiled slightly. "What kind of us?"

Natalia smirked leaning in brushing their lips together. "Do I need to hit you over the head with this?" and with that she connected their lips once more.

Olivia instantly wrapped her arms around her and pulled her flush against her. Natalia ran her arms up and around her neck trying to pull her impossibly closer as she ran her tongue along the seam of Olivia's mouth being granted immediate entrance and they both moaned at finally tasting each other for the first time. Neither battled for dominance, it wasn't needed. They just savored each other.

When the need for air became impossible to ignore they pulled apart just slightly resting their foreheads together. Finally catching her breath Olivia pecked her lips sweetly. "Yes."

Natalia just smiled. "Yes what honey?"

"I want an us too. God do I want us." she tightened her arms and shifted holding her close. "I love you Natalia."

Natalia let out a small sob and pulled back just enough to crash her lips back into Olivia and kiss her like she'd never get the chance to kiss her again taking her breath away. When she pulled back they were they were both panting for air. "I love you too Olivia."

Olivia just pulled her back into the kiss. Eventually they slowed and just rested against each other until Olivia sighed. "I hate to say it but we really should go do some damage control. It is our party after all and we don't want to stay away too long."

Natalia reluctantly relaxed her arms and stepped back. "You're right but once we get back up to our suite I'm not letting you go."

Olivia chuckled lightly and pecked her lips. "I think I can agree to that."

Natalia joined her laughter and they both checked each other's make up and dress to make sure they were presentable to return to the ball. Once they made it back they noticed that they'd been gone about an hour and Rafe was instantly by their side.

"Is everything ok? One second you guys were there and the next I couldn't find you anywhere."

Doris walked up and laughed. "That's because your ma drug Olivia off out of the room after everything settled back down."

Natalia just smiled. "We just needed to have a word and freshen up."

Doris laughed harder and Rafe just looked confused. "I'll bet. By the way Olivia, you might want to check your lipstick again."

With that she cracked up as she walked away. Olivia immediately turned to Natalia who blushed slightly reaching up to clean up the small place they missed. Rafe just shook his head. "I'm going to go back to Ashley now. I swear the girl is never going to go out with me again between drama and work crap."

Olivia cupped his cheek to bring his face to look at her. "Drama happens in all families and I'm sure Ashley can understand that with her mother and she knew that you would be working part of the night so I think you should be good. If not she wasn't worth it to begin with."

Rachel sighed and leaned into her hand before kissing her cheek. "Thanks mom. Ok, I gotta go." He kissed Natalia quickly and was off.

Natalia turned and wrapped her arm around Olivia. "You are so good with him."

Olivia shrugged and put her arm around her shoulders. "He's my boy."

Natalia just melted and leaned up to kiss her lightly but could say no more. "You know, that's what got us all the drama earlier."

They turned and smiled at Helen and the Governor. "We're sorry that the evening was interrupted by our personal drama."

The Governor shook his head, "Nonsense. That was all on that oaf not you. He's just jealous that you have such a beauty on your arm."

Helen smiled and took Olivia's hand. "We were just looking for you to let you know that we were leaving. We reserved a room so we are going to retire for the night. We had a lovely evening."

Olivia smiled and bowed over her hand. "Thank you for coming and for that lovely dance."

Helen blushed and waved her off as they took their leave. Natalia just chuckled at her antics and pulled her back in. "I think I'm ready for one of my dances."

Olivia turned smiling. "It would be my pleasure my dear."

She guided her to the floor as they talked and waited for the next song. Olivia laughed as the mambo came on and she held out a hand to her. "Well Ms. Rivera, do you think you can keep up?"

Natalia smirked and took her hand, "Oh no Ms. Spencer, the question is, can you?"

They both laughed and took the floor. Doris and Blake stood back and watched as they dominated the floor. The rest of the dancers cleared giving them room and it was breathtaking watching them glide effortlessly totally lost in each other.

Blake sighed, "I would give anything to have someone look at me like that."

Doris smiled sadly, "Me too. They do make a beautiful couple don't they. I don't see how anyone could think that that is fake. Frank's a dumbass."

Blake scoffed, "Frank is just blind to anything that doesn't fit into what he wants."

Doris smirked. "You're the one that accepted a date with him."

Blake rolled her eyes. "Of course I did. I couldn't miss this ball for anything if I had the chance to go even if it was on Frank's arm for a moment. Look at me now. I'm with you drinking and having a blast. We should do this more often. I always forget how much fun you can be when you loosen up."

"We may just have to do that." She said as they looked back out to see the dance winding down."

As they came to a stop they were slightly breathless and startled at the roar of applause that greeted them. Once again Natalia was blushing as Olivia guided her off the floor. "Where did you lean to dance like that Talia? I almost couldn't keep up with you and I was leading."

Natalia chuckled and intertwined their arms. "Mi Abuela was a ballroom dancer when she was young. When she got older she had her own studio and taught me. I could do just about every ballroom dance there is by the time I was 12. How about you? The mambo is not a normal dance to know."

Olivia shrugged. "When I lived on San Cristobel I was engaged to a prince and it was required that I learn all the dances. It was one of the most useful things I learned in that castle."

They both laughed and moved off to mingle a little more. The night was coming to an end and they hadn't released the hold they had on each other since the incident. They didn't care either they just needed the contact since they were forced to be in the middle of things until the ball was over. Once the guest started to leave they spoke to one of the police officers that were stationed around the exits taking statement then they moved off to find Rafe and Greg finding them giving last minute instructions to the cleanup crew.

Olivia smiled watching Rafe work then called him over. "Hey bud, you don't have to stay until it's all cleaned up. That's what the cleaning crew is for. Take Ashley home and get some rest. You earned it."

He looked over to where Ashley was talking with her mom and Blake and smiled. "I will. I'm going to take her home, check in one more time then head on up. Are we going to church in the morning?"

Natalia nodded. "Yes mijo, I'm picking up Emma from Judy's parents and I want to officially join the church for our family."

He smiled and kissed her cheek. "Cool, I'll be ready." With that he kissed Olivia as well and was off.

Olivia turned to Natalia. "You ready to go up?"

Natalia smiled intertwining their arms together, "More than."

They made their way to the elevator exchanging pleasantries with a few straggling guest and finally made it to their suite. Neither spoke as they went to separate rooms to change out of their gowns. When Natalia knocked on the door to their room she only entering after Olivia called her in. Olivia was already settled under the covers and Natalia happily made her way across the room and climbed in on her side.

As she settled against Olivia she smiled and kissed her neck. "Tonight was a huge success for the most part don't you think?"

Olivia chuckled pulling her closer. "Except for the whole Frank drama and being outed to the general public, yeah, I'd say it was a good night."

Natalia leaned up and propped herself to look down at her. "Are you telling me that you would change what happened? Are you ashamed of my kis…"

She was cut off when Olivia pulled her down and kissed her softly before pulling back. "I am not now nor will I ever be ashamed of kissing you anywhere. I just meant that it wasn't exactly the ideal way for us to come out as being together. Especially when until after everything went down we weren't actually a couple."

Natalia shook her head and smiled. "If you want to keep telling yourself that…"

Olivia looked up confused. "Um… what do you mean?"

Natalia kissed her nose chastely. "Please baby, we've been a couple for weeks, maybe months. We just didn't admit it to ourselves or each other." At Olivia's puzzled look she elaborated. "Emma saw it first. Then the governor and Doris. Then Rafe. Olivia he calls you mom and Emma calls me ma. We have been sleeping together for weeks and dropped all pretense of it being for any other reason than we just wanted to a long time ago. We have kissed each other four times now to make a point to each other or someone else and once for like an hour because we finally pulled our heads out of the sand."

Olivia just lay there shocked thinking about everything she had just said and it dawned on her that Natalia was right. She went over every interaction with the governor and Helen. With Doris and the kids, even with Judy's mom and the priest at the church and she conceded that they had been acting like they were together. Whether it be by accident or design they have been dating for a very long time.

Natalia chuckled as realization lit her face, "See?"

Olivia looked up at her and smirked. "How long have you realized this?"

"I knew my own feelings the whole time and started to suspect yours after Em's presentation but the rest I didn't figure out until tonight while I was yelling at Frank and no one was agreeing with him. The governor and Doris actually laughed at him when he said we were fake. That's when I decided to just shut him up and kiss you. I needed that boost to talk to you after and tell you how I felt. Are you upset with me for kissing you in front of everyone?"

Olivia shook her head "No honey, I'm glad you did. It made us finally come clean with each other. You can kiss me anytime and anywhere you want."

Natalia smiled leaning in, "Well in that case…" and she connected their lips in a kiss that was far from chaste.

Olivia moaned into her as she opened her mouth and Natalia's tongue invaded tangling with her own. She pulled her closer shifting until Natalia was practically fully on top of her.

Natalia moaned as she felt the full body contact allowing her to shift them. She let her leg fall between Olivia and almost came unglued at the loud moan that Olivia graced her with as her thigh accidental pressed into her center. She pulled away from the kiss shifting slightly away from her body. "I'm sorry Liv, I didn't mean to do that. I'm not rea…"

Olivia shook her head pulling her back against her. "It's ok, I'm not either but I love the feel of you against me. Please don't back away from me. We'll take things as slow as you want I just need you close.

Natalia settled back into her but was careful of where her leg rested. "I need you close too love," and she moved back in reconnecting them. This time though it was slow and sensual instead of fast and demanding.

Time disappeared for them and they had no idea how long they lay there just languidly exploring each other's mouths. Eventually they completely slowed and Natalia was once again lying in her spot upon Olivia's chest and they were almost asleep. No words had been needed as they just snuggled into one another, content.

On a sigh Olivia pulled her impossibly closer. "I love you Natalia."

Natalia groggily kissed her neck and burrowed in. "I love you too Olivia, so much."

With that they both contentedly closed their eyes and let sleep take them.

A/N: Sorry for the delay but here it is.