Oh god.

Suddenly, Kurt tucks up his legs and covers his crotch with both hands.

"What's wrong?"

Blaine laughs and stares at Kurt who is totally blushed. He can't help but love this view and feels so turned on that he kisses him again, wet and ardently, feeling his racing heart in every inch of his body. Blaine lies half on Kurt and starts to pull up Kurt's sweater.

No.

Kurt grips the cloth with one of his hands, sliding it back down while Blaine takes his hand and pushes it upwards again. He feels how Kurt's body squirms and writhes under him while this one turns his blushed face away.

"C'mon," Blaine mumbles, still holding his hand, totally dominating the weaker person. He feels how his swollen dick presses against his jeans while he thinks about that he could have Kurt right here and now if he wanted to.

Kurt closes his eyes, takes his other hand away from his crotch, trying to press Blaine's hand down. Blaine realizes with pounding heart that Kurt isn't ready yet and releases his hand.

Finally, Kurt slides his sweater down again, still averting his gaze, feeling how Blaine slides his right leg between his thighs.

"Just wanna feel you a bit ... and looking at you, please."

No.

Kurt shakes his head, opens his eyes and looks at Blaine who is bending over him. Blaine's pupils are dilated and seem almost black while Kurt feels how he's pushing up his knee closer to Kurt's crotch.

OH MY -

Blaine smirks complacently as he feels a hard buckle.

"Just ... looking at your beautiful body," he whispers when he wants to kiss Kurt again.

No ... my scars ...

Kurt tries to pull himself away from Blaine, but this one drops his body upon him, so that he can't escape.

Blaine!

Blaine strokes Kurt's cheek gently and looks in his eyes.

"I won't touch if you don't want to ..."

Great, then get down!

"... but let me at least look at you."

NO!

"Please ..."

Blaine's seductive voice and his boner which he can feel above his ribs, make Kurt really horny although he doesn't want to be. Blaine is perfect and all ... but Kurt doesn't want him to see his wounded stomach. He tenses his body as feels how Blaine's hand is sliding under his sweater and moving upwards.

Damn.

"Kurt, what?"

Frightened, Kurt takes his hands and presses against Blaine's hand but this one just takes his right arm and holds him back while he pulls up Kurt's sweater and sees a skin full of scars.

Appalled, Blaine forgets his wet thoughts and can't even handle what he sees as Kurt already freed himself and is now sitting on the edge of the bed, with trembling shoulders.

I hate you. I hate you. Hateyouhateyouhateyou.

Kurt pushes the hand, which he feels on his shoulder, away, full of anger.

Why? Why did you have to do this?

"Kurt ...?"

Take a hike.

"Kurt, I'm ... sorry ..."

Again, Blaine tries to lay his hand upon his shoulders but Kurt refuses it. He covers his sobbing face with his hands and desires the death.

Blaine sits right behind him and doesn't know what to do.

Fuck you, Anderson!

You're a dork!

You screwed it up!

He can't believe that Kurt does self-harm, although ... The first time they met, Kurt wanted to kill himself. Promptly, Blaine understands that even though he feels so connected to this person, he actually doesn't know much about him.

This sobbing boy seems to be a different person than the guy he thought he would know.

"Please, I ... Forgive me!"

Kurt cries furthermore.

Shall I chuck him out?

"We could act like this never happened."

How do you want to do this? You saw it. You know it. Now you'll see me with different eyes.

You'll see that weak, pitiful person who I really am.

"I'm so sorry."

Suddenly, Kurt hears a convulsive sobbing and turns to Blaine, who is crying.

What the hell?

Kurt is so surprised that he stops crying and feels the urge to hug his boyfriend who is all in tears.

"I told you that I act like a dork when I'm nervous ... and I get extremely nervous when I'm horny and I -"

His voice failed him and he jumps up.

"I understand when it's over now ... before it even begun. I get it."

What?

You wanna break up?

Blaine starts to put on his shoes, still sobbing.

"I ... uhm ... I overstepped the mark ... you didn't want to and I ... I just want you to know that I -"

As Blaine turns to Kurt, this one already stood up and stands close to him, holding out a note.

I won't let you break up with me.

Blaine laughs teary-eyed.

"Does this mean ... you accept my apology?"

Kurt takes a deep breath, realizing that he can't be in a relationship and act like he's someone else.

You said, you won't hide anything from me. So will I.

And Blaine stares at Kurt while he's pulling up his sweater and shows Blaine his whole wounded stomach, staring on the ground, ashamed.

Suddenly, he feels two strong arms which are holding him tight.

Blaine stopped crying and buries his face between Kurt's shoulder and neck, pressing his body against him.

"Please stop doing that kind of stuff."

It's not that simple ...

"Please!"

I would like to.

"Do it for me."

Blaine ends the embrace, takes Kurt's hands and looks at him.

"... for me!"

Blaine's eyes are just beautiful and Kurt could disappear in a flash while Blaine's hands are holding him, so he nods his head and Blaine smiles. Something in his smile changed. Kurt can't say what it is.

Blaine puts a hand on Kurt's neck and pulls himself a few inches up to him.

"You're amazing, Kurt."

No, you are.

Again, Blaine presses his lips on Kurt's and shoves his tongue in his boyfriend's mouth.

This kiss is different than the others, Kurt is irritated. Suddenly, he feels even closer to Blaine like he felt before.

Now his boyfriend knows everything and is still here. He isn't disgusted or angry or something else. He kisses him although he knows it.

You're perfect.

Blaine pulls his head away, giggling and a bit breathless.

"Uhm, do you want to watch Moulin Rouge?"

... perfect ...

Kurt nods full of happiness. Could it be that he finally found this person everybody is looking for, a whole lifetime? Could he found him so soon? His soulmate?

Kurt can't believe how fast his heart beats while he's watching his boyfriend.

You are still here.

In spite of everything ...

Both are staring at each other, completely silent. Kurt blushes a bit while he just can't stop thinking this way.

I love you.

And Blaine smiles as he would know.