Chapter 13

They woke the following morning for the memorial. They barely spoke a word to eachother the whole morning. When they arrived with the flowers and photo's of her parents she slipped her hand into his for support. As the priest said a prayer for the diceased tears began to fall and Jasper wrapped Alice in a tight embrace as she cried. Hundreds had been killed, families, parents, children even newborns. Everybody would be missed. Alice noticed that some of her old school friends had stopped by. This made her smile. They said a quick hello and went back to the house. Alice had refused to eat breakfast this morning. And now she refused lunch. Jasper was worried but knew she would eat when she got hungry enough. They were going home tomorrow. Hopefully returning to Forks would help her. By early evening she still hadn't eaten. He ordered pizza, her favorite toppings and stuffed crust.

She eyed it, wanting it so badly. "Alice, eat. You can't starve yourself."

"I can if I want to."

"I won't let you, now come on, eat," he took a bite, "mm, yummy. You know you want to." She gritted her teeth, it was so tempting. 'oh fuck it' she picked up a slice and ate it in seconds. She moaned, it taste so good. Maybe hunger strike was a bad idea. I mean, her parents were gone, they weren't coming back. She just had to accept that.

That night, Alice didn't sleep well. When she shut her eyes she could only see the explosion happening, again and again. The screams, the cries, everything. Nothing Jasper tried could calm her. By 10am, she had only had four hours at the most.

As he gunned down the highway at 80 Alice fell asleep. Stealing a glance at her he smiled pressing a button on the dashboard to make the sunshields on her window go up. When they arrived at the house, Carlisle and Esme were on the porch on the swing chair. They heard the car coming down the driveway and waited for them to pull up. Jasper smiled when he saw them and put a finger to his lips when he got out of the car. He picked Alice up and carried to her room, kissed her forehead and went to get the bags out of the car.

Later on when Alice woke up it took her a second to remember where she was. She changed into shorts and t-shirt and put Jasper's hoodie on before venturing downstairs. Most of the others were watching the game but Jasper was nowhere in sight. Throwing on some sneakers she went outside, finding him sitting on the swing they had made. He didn't hear her coming until her ams wrapped around him.

"Hey sleepy." He greeted softly.

"Hi." There was a daunting silence, until Alice spoke up. "Thank you. For making me eat yesterday. I've tried starving myself when I was depressed before, only I ended up in hospital, I promised my parents I wouldn't do it again."

"It's OK, I couldn't just do that to you. I couldn't let you."

"Thank you, so much. I love you Jasper."

"I love you too Alice." He stood and held her tightly. The next day they had practice for the baseball game, and he didn't know if she ought to play. She had been through a lot over the last month. "Did you want to do anything tonight?"

"I don't know, I mean it's meant to rain isn't it? There's a thunderstorm cast."

"Well, maybe we could go for a walk, now?"

"That would be nice Jasper, I'll let Carlisle and Esme know."

"OK." He replied softly.

Once they were in the woods they walked hand in hand for a while, barely speaking a word, perfectly content with the silence. Just getting to the edge of the forrest from the garden had been a distance. The garden wasn't technically a garden, but a field. Jasper said it worked for when they threw parties and things. On their return the second they reached the edge of the field it began to pour and the thunder sounded. They ducked under a tree to catch their breath, they had been running through the forrest. They had quite a distance between the tree and the house. Seeing as they were going to get soaked either way, they chose to walk the distance. When they came to puddles, they couldn't contain themelves other than to jump in them. But when the thunder sounded again and lightening showed itself they ran to the house. Rose was waiting with some towels for them. They thanked her and went upstairs.

"Take a warm shower so you don't catch anything, I'll use the one next to Emmett's room. Warm up and I'll see you later." He kissed her quickly and disapeared behind his bedroom door and she went to the bathroom and started the hot water.