PREVIOUSLY ON: 'I NEED TO KNOW YOU'
Brittany's POV:
"I love you. I love you so, so much. Please tell me you love me back" I hear her say as I am removing myself from her personal space.
"I do. I do and always will love you – but S if you do this again, I will be gone before you can even utter the word sorry. Do you understand me?"
"Yes" I hear her mumble as I watch her beautiful golden face turn a solid crimson colour as she averts her eyes to floor. I can see she's trying to hold back a fresh flood of tears but this time I don't trust myself. My basic instinct is to comfort her and tell her everything is fine, but for the first time since I've met her, I don't think I can do that. I don't think I can be the person to promise her happiness. I can't lie to her.
CHAPTER 14.
Brittany's POV:
It's been a week since that meeting at the football field but in all honesty it's felt like months. I've been working so SO hard on forgiving her for what she did to me but i'm not dumb, I know it'll take longer then a week. It's all about the baby steps right? San and I haven't been intimate with each other yet, which i'll be honest is still quite strange but I suppose this break will do us both good. I mean we kiss and stuff but it's almost as soon as we're about to "do the deed" I freak out. I think about her and Quinn and I sometimes I can't even bring myself to look her in the face. She always looks so damn sad when I put a halt to the fooling around but I know she understands why I do it.
She can see in my eyes the hurt that her actions have caused and she knows not to push it; alas we've ended up cuddling more then ever. Now don't get me wrong, I love a good cuddle but I need to get over this thing with me and brits soon because I feel like i'm gonna explode if someone doesn't get me off soon. My own fingers just don't cut it anymore.
Basketball practice has been a bit better, aside from the obvious rift between myself and Quinn everyone is decent enough to keep all our personal shit off the court and I find myself getting lost in the sport I fell in love with in the first place. Before discovering women, before San, before San & Quinn. It helps me escape from the shit in my personal life and it just feels like a huge weight's been lifted off my shoulders the minute I sink that first 3-pointer.
"Yess Britt - way to sink that beauty!"
That's Tilly; she's a new girl that just transferred here from the UK. They said something about a sports diploma and I mean I can totally see why she picked basketball; she's a 6ft tall hot blonde - what school DOESN'T want that on their team? Thing is she's pretty cool as well, this past week i've gotten to know her more and I can see a friendship growing there. We have nearly nothing in common, I mean she's all into Pokemon and all that nerdy crap whereas I love nothing more then catching the latest ep of Real Housewives of New Jersey - but we have a similar sense of humour and we seem to get each other as well. Needless to say 4 weeks ago I probably wouldn't even have bothered to get to know this girl but after losing my best friend and almost losing my girlfriend I found myself branching out a bit more and getting to know the girls of the team a bit more. I mean it can't help the overal teamwork either right? No harm done.
Santana's POV:
"Hey babe, are you coming over tonight?"
It's getting tougher and tougher having Brit come to mine and for us to end up having a heated makeout session before she freaks out and we end up cuddling; but I get that it's all part of her forgiving me and trying to forget about what a fucking idiot I was. Alas, I keep asking her over and of course I still wanna spend time with her. I love the girl, that'll never change.
"Yeah sure, i'll just go home and get changed then come over? Want me to grab takeout on the way over or something? Whadd'ya fancy?"
"Oooh, Indian or Sushi - you choose"
I've learnt that we'll get there, things at practice have been off but I know that she cares too much about her game to let our personal lives hamper the play so in some aspect basketball is still helping to provide a distance from the issues we're having. We have a really important game coming up in a few weeks anyway so everyone's just kinda concentrating on that; I hear there are scouts involved and everything. Of course the older girls on the team are super stoked at the opportunity to be scouted but for a youngster like myself I know there's a very minute chance of even being considered so why not just sit back and help the other girls perform their best in their last year of basketball at this school.
LATER THAT EVENING AT SANTANA'S HOUSE
Brittany's POV:
I think I'm ready to try, to try and be closer with her, it's been so long since we've been intimate with each other that it could just be easier to carry on without it but there's still a part of me that wants to touch her. Who wouldn't want to hear your girlfriend scream your name as she cums? It's become harder and harder to stay with her when sex was such a vital part of my life for so long and now that it's not there - well to say there's a gaping hole would be an understatement.
After ringing the doorbell about a dozen times I'm forced to send her a text. She probably had her music on too loud or something.
Brittany P: Hey bby, I am outside you gonna come get me or..?
It's not long before I hear her footsteps rushing to get the door and her voice calling out to me, "I'M COMING. WAIT. I JUST GOT OUT THE SHOWER."
I can't help myself smiling at the sound of her flustered and running around the house, it never gets old. When she finally makes it down to open the door my smile has turned into a fully fledge grin when I notice she wasn't lying when she said she'd just got out the shower.
There she was, my girlfriend, in nothing but a towel.
Don't get me wrong, it's so cute the way her hair's tied up on top of her head like a sumo wrestler and that she has no makeup but still looks as hot as ever. It's honestly moments like these that render me speechless, moments that make me forget that she cheated on me with Quinn at all, and moments that make me want to fuck her until she literally can't take anymore.
I think that tonight is the night that I need to get back on the horse so to speak.
Tonight I'm making sweet love to my girlfriend, whom I adore, and there's not a damn thing anyone can say or do that will make me change my mind.
"S babe, I hope you're ready 'cause tonight you're going to get the best workout of your life"
Santana's POV:
OH MY GOD. There's that wink again, tonight is going to be a GREAT night.