Remember I said that I was not too keen about bayverse, but felt a strange surge of excitement to watch transformer 3 when it was released? My instinct was right . It was so DAMN awesome in my opinion. And Bay had definitely matured in his storytelling skills in my opinion ! ( regardless of what critiques say). Things are so much more organized compared to transformer 1 and transformer 2 : revenge of the fallen.
I have to apologize for the late update ( especially for darkbutterfly who might wonder where the heck I went again ) . Life has caught up on me . and this chapter was extremely difficult to write as it is an extremely angsty and emotional moment . But it was fun nonetheless.
I'm pleased to announce that I will give these two lovebirds a room for the next chapter , so don't forget to check out my deleted scene. The special moment had finally arrived,. The deleted scene is strictly off limit for kiddos
This chapter is also in celebration of the release of Transformer 3…
CHAPTER 8 : CONFESSION
It was second day we been marooned on the strange planet. Dusk sets onto the land . Our little camping site was way more comfortable and organized. Dry grass neatly piled underneath my precious shammy , making a comfortable bed for us to spend the night. Along our search for Alexis's comlink , We even found pieces of combustible rocks – which is simply known as coals to the organic. Those rock kept the bonfire burning far brighter and longer than firewoods.
Her survival skills amazed me , and it was thanks to her smart thinking that our night would be more comfortable in that inhospitable cave.
After a terrible lost of the last " rock paper scizors" turn for the day, I resumed my strange organic form for the night. So there I was , feeling naked , vulnerable and slagging small . So much so I had to constantly reassure myself the well of transformation was right in front of me . In a flash , I would be back in my transformer mode - armed and ready to defend the both of us if we were under attack .
On the other hand , there she was sitting by my side . I was able to see through her world , touch her and feel her like I never did before. Her warm head was subconsciously leaning on my shoulder as she poked the fire with a long stick. Her snack , which was a synthesized version of a sweet, tasty food known as marshmallow, rested at the tip of the stick. She was simply closing her optics , and enjoying the moment as she held her food to be roasted against the burning flames .
Her organic body felt so slagging good and warm against mine , I had to fight the strong urge of wrapping my arms around her body. As I watched her resting against my shoulder, I was in deep thoughts …
Primus… how time passed by . I hated to admit how I wished those wonderful moments with her would never end. My time with MY precious Alexis. I realized in less then a solar cycle , we would be on our separate ways. I have detected her clan looking for her , and I swore I was tempted of taking her with me instead of breaking the good news . Fate was kind to let me see her again , no matter how briefly , and I couldn't ask for more.
I realized I was dangerously close to her … too close for my own good .but I couldn't deny that little comfort of her resting against my shoulder. I really wanted to enjoy the time I had with her . Every time we bumped into each other , instinct told me that it was probably the last time I would see her before the both of us are torn apart by the slagging war.
After all , it wouldn't be long before I would be able to deliver her back unscratched and unharmed to the Autobots , and everything would be back to normal. All I had to do was to keep my feelings in check for a few remaining cycles.
A bot couldn't ask for anything simple and straightforward… or so I thought.
The sweet scent of synthesized marshmallow was spreading across the campsite. Alexis slowly opened her eyes and reluctantly sat upright . Her head finally left the comfortable resting spot on Starscream's shoulder after a long while. She took a bite of the roasted marshmallow , and offered some to Starscream.
" Mm… I guess I Fred really has talents deep beneath his paranoid self" she as she could feel the sweet taste of marshmallow that melted in her mouth like butter.
" You mean that fat gutless kid ?" Starscream spoke with his mouth still full , and Alexis couldn't help but burst into fits of laughter at his "table manners"
"You look just like him!"
He turned towards the well of transformation and saw his own reflection. His mouth was stuffed full of the strange sweet substance that she offered him . He gulped down the marshmallows, feeling extremely embarrassed of his actions , before changing the topic for the night.
" Sorry" she apologize as she watched his expression turned serious.
" Well, the good news is , the Autobots set off looking for you. That was the Axalon I intercepted. The signal is faint , so they will be here in roughly one or two solarcycle."
"How will they know we are here?" She questioned worriedly
"With some luck , we shall be able to make it to a nearby moon , and you will be able to meet your friends once more. If only there is a way to communicate with them. I'm not sure… but we can built some kind of signal to alert them."
" I hope they are close enough so we could send a smoke or fire signal . Anyways , Don't give up on Sureshock and Swindle yet , Im sure they found something useful."She said as she put down the stick that she used to roast the marshmallows , satisfied of the little meal they just had.
" Who knows… who knows…" He mused and shot her a warm smile , reassuring her he was still the fun 'bot he was moments ago despite discussing serious issues like their get away from the strange planet.
"Now we can warn them about Unicron !" suddenly , Alexis let out an excited chirp .
"The bad news is , there will be no ' we'. I guess this is goodbye Alexis ,It's been fun, I admit. Get some rest while I keep the first watch."
Starscream knew it was the moment he should remind Alexis that they would be back to their respective clan soon enough . He felt his spark broke to pieces as he blurted out that statement . He tried to remain calm and flashed a smile at her .
After doing so , He stood up , turned his back against her , and started heading out of the cave before she could sense he was on the verge of breaking down .
"Starscream…don't go… it doesn't have to be that way. Come back. Apologize to the autobots …"
He suddenly heard her soft, silky calling his name , just as the first time she stopped him walking away from the autobots seven long year ago. He continued lumbering away and turning his back on her , trying his best not to look back at the sorrowful look she shot him.
Suddenly , his good mood being with her the past few hours was completely soiled . He was back to his raging , confused self .Oh , how he hated moments like these that made him so torn and broken inside .
" I'll have to pass. I don't want to risk betraying you a second time. It wouldn't be fair."
"Starscream , look straight into my eyes… I need to know something . I've been looking the answer for seven long years."
She stopped him again by making a simple , innocent request , which he had no choice but to turn his head back and face her.
" Yes?"
" Why did you hand over the skyboom shield and the star saber to the decepticons?"
" I was tricked. The Autobots were wasting my time . Thrust . His offer was so tempting… I… I took matters into my own hands. I didn't mean to hurt Optimus Prime…"
Starscream was too welled up with his emotions to continue his statement . One look at his tearful eyes and his face filled with remorse , and Alexis knew he was telling her the truth. It could be assumed he had gained some respect for Optimus during his stay with the Autobots and was deeply struck by the death of the great Autobot leader .
" Im sorry"
She stood up and walked towards him . Sensing his internal struggle , her hand instinctively reached for his shoulder to offer him a comforting pat. He rudely brushed her off , and she was too shocked by his reaction to notice that his free hand had clutched into a tight fist.
" I screwed up. Galvatron is not down . Instead , Prime is terminated, and Unicron is having both weapons now. I was stupid… SO STUPID !I HATE myself ! WHY ? WHY? Why did I ally myself with THRUST !"
Finally , Starscream couldn't take his boiling anger any longer and pounded his fist against the rocky walls of the cave . It was such a harsh self- punishment , It drew blood which trickled down the rock. Alexis let out a sharp yelp as could even hear the sickening crack of his bone. He was too numbed by his emotional pain , he didn't even realize he had just broken his finger bones thanks to his reckless action of punching the cave walls .
" Starscream , you are not a robot . You'll hurt yourself ."
" I just want to be left alone now!" He repaid her concern with a rude rasp . His yellow eyes glared furiously at her for a full few minutes before he started turning away from her again .
" Please… I knew it all these years. You didn't betray the Autobots on purpose. You were just blinded by anger. I miss Prime too…" Undeterred by his cruel statement , She tried to console him again, only to be brushed off by him the second time . He started turning towards the entrance of the cave, wanting to escape from the tensed situation in the cave.
Alexis knew she was a long shot from consoling the raging seeker she loved. But she was not giving up . Sensing her method failed , She tried a new approach. She stood in front of the humanized Decepticon , blocking his exit from the cave.
"ALEXIS. THI .DANG . Stay away from me!" Alexis learned when Starscream called him by her full name – he meant business , but she was not going to back down and let him go that easily. They had come too far and shared too much for her to do so.
" No…" her protest came out as a mere whisper.
"Please Alexis , I'm a monster . I'm not sure of anything, anymore. My spark tells me to do one thing . My programming another. . I am not sure of what I am… who I am… and I can only hurt you…"
He gritted his teeth as he clutched his hand . Only then , did he finally feel the sharp stabs of pain from his broken fingers .
As a tall and muscular young adult in his human form , Starscream had a massive frame and reached 6 foot 5 while Alexis barely hit 5 foot 10. Yet , with all the might and size he had as his advantage , he found himself growing increasingly weak in deterring and brushing her advances.
" I hate this feeling . I am too weak to be a Decepticon .Too sinful to be an Autobot. You trusted me Alexis , and I thank you for that. I don't know what you see in me that others don't_"
As Starscream poured out his heart feelings, Alexis had enough of the charade .Seven long years of waiting … and it was THEN, or never. She threw herself right at him , arms wrapped tight around his waist as she silenced him with a fiery kiss. His eyes widen with shock , and slowly fluttered shut as he reciprocate the kiss . It the same ,intense feeling when they shared their first accidental kiss all over again . They hunger for each other so much , that neither wanted to let go.
" You asked what I see in you. …you are NOT a monster " She blushed red hot , breathless and panting after she finally broke the kiss , stammering and trying to form words to say. Both were speechless and lost of words for a long while , with her hugging him tight and resting herself on his broad , warm chest .
Finally , she was the first to broke the silence .
" Starscream , I've got a confession to make ."She reluctantly let him go from her tight embrace . She tore the sleeve of her space suit and took his hand , bandaging him before he even started to protest
"Let's hear it"
Once she was done bandaging his injured hand ,She brandished her precious pendant.
"See this ? This is no Cybertron rock..."
He gave her a cheeky smirk once his suspicion is confirmed. Somehow , it slipped his mind to ask about it after they crashlanded in the strange land .
" When everyone threw their mars rock , I collected them and made it into a good luck charm. I never lose hope in you. I was so embarrassed of my rash action of going back for it . I'm sorry I lied ."Alexis still remembered how mad Starscream was of the incident , and shot him a guilty look before she hung her head low in shame.
" No wonder… I sense something very familiar with it"
Ignoring the pain of his broken fingers , Starscream used his other hand that was free of the injury and gently tilted her head to face him . Once she was facing him , he fondled with her pendant , his fingers dangerously close to her heart and her bosoms.
" This gem is the reason I am here. I believe I came all the way to Cybertron just to meet you and ask you that question. Then , when we had so many close shaves. I realized I can't bear the thought of losing you . I really… really love you Starscream…"She smiled, relieved to let out seven years of pent up feeling deep inside her heart. She merely allowed his advances, even though she could feel her heart was pounding hard so hard and fast , it was on the verge of exploding .
"What about the boy with spikey blonde hair ? Isn't he more your type and your own species?"
" No Starscream… Bradley is never my type. Its you… its always been you since I met you. I didn't care if you are a transformer, a robot . I'm just afraid …with you walking away from me all the time_"
" Hush .I too… have a confession to make…" He got bolder and cut her explanation short . He gently pinned her against the walls of the cave . It was almost too much for either of them to bear , as they were so close to each other, they could literally feel each others' heart beat and warm breaths.
He breathed deep before he spoke. He knew he was violating everything he once believe in for what he was about to say and do , but he couldn't fight his internal battle any longer.
" Once I met a girl who saw past my shadow . She isn't even my species. She cared so much , but all I wanted was to be left alone . She tried to approach me with kindness , but all I did was walk away from her ."
"Why did you do so ?" she asked him playfully , curious eyes looking up to him and awaiting his answer.
"I was so afraid of this strange feelings I get that violates my programming .This strange feelings I get around her that makes my spark soar .I felt I don't deserve her … but I couldn't forget her all these stellar cycles, even I'm back with the Decepticons."
" Violating your programming ? poor … poor …baby .Did you ever love any of your female species … or femmes before?"
She tried to relax ,putting on a cheeky face as she teased him by giving him a playful nuzzle on his nose. Inside , she never felt so helpless being pinned against the wall of the cave by his strong muscular arms . The furious thumping of her heart was getting rapidly out of control.
" Decepticons … fling . Love is never in our programming .It was never in mine for eons. Then , something's changed …" he suddenly admitted he was not exactly a virgin In his robot mode , head hung low in shame before he looked up at her once more and continued to let out what was hidden in his heart for all those years.
" It's fate I met her again. When I was so close to termination so many times, all I could think of is her. There is a reason the well turned me into an organic. She is my one true love . And slag , I don't want to fight my spark no more. It'll end up hurting the both me and her… "
Their lips locked once more for a hungry kiss after his statement . He let go of her, freeing his hand to wrap her in his warm embrace . His hands sensually stroking her back as he savored her sweet taste he had been denied for so long.
He wanted her SO badly – and now that he had the ability to turn into her species, that throbbing desire just got way out of control.
Caught in the heat of the moment , he wasn't aware that his hands had made their way under her baggy space suit and slide into her underwear .Human lust temporary took over him as he gently massaged her and grouped the bear skin of her buttocks.
The moment she realize where his hands were , her reflex action made her jerk away from him , breaking their long lingering kiss .
"Sorry…" Starscream suddenly realized what he was doing . He shot Alexis a sorrowful look as he quickly retracted his hands in shame, holding it to his back like a guilty child. He knew he had cross the line and violated her , and her reaction told him just that. The last thing he wanted to do was to hurt her . But he was surprised at her reply.
" It's okay darling . We've waited so long for this moment."
" Darling ?" His eyes widen with shock at what she just called him.
" It's what we human use to call the ones we love." She stroked his scruffy hair , giving him a kiss on his cheek to reassure him he was not hurting her.
Suddenly ,the sweet moment the couple had was ruined when Starscream felt another sharp stab of pain from his broken fingers . He literally made her jump out of her skin watching him writhing in pain . He clutched his bandaged hand as he let out a loud howl of anguish .
" Oh dear , we need to fix that."
To his utter surprise, Alexis playfully dragged him back towards the well . He found himself too weak to resist her and just allowed her meekly . Besides , the pain in his hand was starting to get unbearable . He could sense what she was planning . His broken bones will be healed by the well , and a quick dip of his hand into the sacred waters was all he need to rid himself of the pain
He had NO idea at all what she was about to request him to do.
She felt no shame , no reservation as she stripped herself off her baggy space suits down to only her bikini and panties . His mouth hung wide open for the countless time in a day when she did so . Her beauty – whether human or transformer form , never ceased to fill his heart with pent up lust. In this form ,she had such soft , beautiful , fair skin!
Her cheeky expression told him that this will be a special night for them to remember.
" Comeon ! join me for a swim! "
In a flash , she dove into the crystal clear waters . Seconds later , her head bobbed out the water . She called out to him , waving her hand at him and inviting him for a dip in the waters.
For as long as they were stranded in this strange land , they were busy figuring how to get back to Cybertron, so much so that they never actually had the time explore the beauty of the underwater world .
He smiled . He learned It wouldn't hurt to take a breather from their obligation. Guard duty could wait for the night . He playfully followed suit , stripping down to only his boxers as he joined her in the sacred waters.
We Decepticons are a proud race of mechanical beings .We had a long legacy being the better sons of Primus compared to those Autobot scumbags. We are warriors . We are designed to never surrender to an override in our programming – not until we are down to the last drop of mech fluid in our system.
Yet , its surprisingly scary how I completely succumbed myself to an emotion so simple , yet so strong.
What I did that very day violated every single code and programming I had inside me as a Decepticon . I realize it was forbidden .Terrible punishment awaited me if my clan ever found out what I had done. By the law of the Decepticon order , I was deemed for a punishment even worst then treason as their supreme air commander and second in command.
But Primus , it never felt so wrong , yet so right . Besides , what my clan didn't know would never hurt them.
I love her so much . There was no turning back now. I realized by then a new chapter of my life had begun with her , and I was slagging not letting go of her again. We been through so much, I realize it would be too unfair for me to do so.
NOTE TO SELF :
Never attempt to control or subdue that strange powerful emotion known as true love. Trust me on this. It can never be reformatted or deleted from your system. Instead , it will lay dormant and hidden , like a ticking supernova merely waiting for the RIGHT moment to explode. When it does , you will be swept by that explosion until you are never the same 'bot you once were .
Resistance might only lead to you hurting yourself , and mostly the one you love
A valuable lesson learned hard that very day, and slag … I promise myself never to be this foolish and end up hurting her again.
TO BE CONTINUED…