My best intentions loving you
Post 4x14. I gave you a ring and I promised you things I always thought we'd do but my best laid plans slip right trough my hands to show my love for you. After Finn finds out Rachel is pregnant, he's determined to make it right and be with the love of his life again, only he knows it won't be easy.
A/N: hello guys! I just wanted to thank you for helping me reach the 100 reviews! You're all so awesome and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.. Now on to the real deal in this story.. Hold on to your socks!
I don't own glee, just baby Finchel!
Chapter 14:
"Wait..." Kurt had his eyes fixed on the elder woman. "What do you mean? That can't be! She's not ready! This is just Braxton Hicks!"
"Kurt.." Everyone at the waiting area was staring.
"It appeared to be so yes." The nurse said calmly.
"So, how can she be having the baby now?" Blaine asked confused. The woman smiled.
"The doctor will be with you shortly, I'm sorry I can't give you more information.."
"What good are you then!" Kurt muttered louder than intended. "I need to call dad and Carole and the Berry's...oh god.."
Rachel couldn't breath. The doctor had just said she was ready to give birth, but that was impossible, the baby had merely hit the 28 week mark. Her eyes wanted to search for Finn's. His hands were on the bed besides Rachel, his fists white from griping the sheet. distraught in his face. "What happens now?" Finn asked finding his voice after a moment.
"What? What do you mean? No I can't have the baby now...it's too soon!" Rachel shirked.
"I understand this was unexpected and it is certainly scary..." The doctor said as slowly as he could, this two were mere teenagers and he could see they weren't expecting this to be more than the regular false alarms in advanced pregnancy, sadly this wasn't the case. "There are some things we can try to stall the baby from arriving, perhaps giving it a few more weeks. " Finn glanced with a glimpse of hope in his eye. "However you must understand one thing, this happens more than you think. And sometimes, methods don't work and the baby has to be born." Rachel felt Finn reach for her hand and squeezing it. "You are not fully dilated so I'm going to hope for the best possible outcome."
"What happens if he's born before time?" Finn had been taking control of the situation again, like had done when Rachel had first told him he was going to be a father.
"Lets not get ourselves ahead of things..but there are risks". It was like they had hit a mute button on his head because all he could see was the man talking, but his brain had shut down. He asked him something, Finn nodded. Then the man left.
Finn could barely look at Rachel.
"Madre de Dios!" A furious Santana stormed into the waiting room with Sam and Dani in tow. "I leave you to care for her one night and she goes into labor?!" Kurt winced.
"Is she okay? What did the doctor say?" Sam asked.
"He's still in there with them." Braine said as Kurt collapsed on the chair behind him.
"What happened?" Dani asked. "I'll call Rachel's doctor..."
"Are you Kurt?" A doctor came from wherever they had wheeled Rachel in. The group stood, all eyes expectant. The man explained the situation to all of them and asked if they were all under age. Yes.
"Is there anyone who can answer for Rachel?" Dr. Owens asked. "A guardian?"
"We're all college students..." Sam said. "Can't we do it?"
"Not really, I wouldn't want you to be in that position if something happens."
"What do you mean by that?" All of them heard the same thing Finn had, the risks. The odds, the disability rate.
"How long does she have?" It's not like they can hurry the plane Carole and Burt took.
"I'm trying to stall this as much as can, I will inform you as soon as results come back. Excuse me."
"What are we going to do?" Santana glared at Sam. "Wait doesn't Rachel's mom live here?"
That's right. Shelby did live there.
"I'll call her." Kurt reached for Rachel's phone. They all held their breath. As Kurt talked to Shelby , he remained calmed but Blaine could see he was really about to lose it. This was his nephew after all.
"Rach?" Finn had pulled a chair next to the bed. He could see his girlfriend was terrified, he had to be strong for her, no screw up this time.
"I can't have the baby." She whispered softly. "We don't even have a name and..."
"Sh..." Finn stroked her face with his thumb. Tears covered her face. "I thought we'd have more time to do everything.." Finn admitted. "But if this happens right now, I'm going to do all I can to make it work okay?"
"You can't fix this Finn." She said harshly. She was right. He remained silent as Rachel cried. Silent tears threatening his eyes was well.
Dr. Owens came back and told Rachel they had called her doctor but she was out of town for a conference. He began t administer some drugs. Finn asked if they would hurt the baby, shooting from his seat.
"They are perfectly safe Finn. Lets just hope they work." Finn stumbled back in the chair defeated. Rachel wouldn't look at him.
"Shelby!" Kurt waved as Rachel's mom arrived with a 3 year old Beth in tow. She seemed to have left in a hurry. "Oh thank you for coming, we didn't have anyone else to call."
"Of course you can call me Kurt, Rachel is my daughter." It wasn't a lie that since moving to New York, Rachel had reached out to Shelby more than once, it was like she needed her guidance, but she also needed her mom. "Where is she?"
"We are not sure but they won't let us see her." Sam told her worriedly. Shelby nodded and then asked the kids if they could watch Beth for a while while she went searching for answers. Santana went too, she had one or two things to tell that doctor.
Finn looked down at his hands. All he had grown up seemed to be fading because he felt sixteen again. He wanted to go back In time and re do everything.
"Rachel, there's someone here to see you.." His head snapped up. Shelby and Santana stood by the door.
"What... Shelby.." Rachel broke down to tears as her mother hurried to sooth her. Finn really wanted Carole to be there.
"Are you okay?" Santana asked him.
"I don't know.." He really didn't.
"The doctor said they are using some kind of drug to give the baby some time, we don't know for a while if it worked."
"That's a good thing right?" Shelby looked at both kids with a smile. Finn crooked one and then looked down.
Later, Shelby took Finn out to see Kurt which left Santana to care for Rachel. "What am I going to do Santana?" Rachel poured her heart out. "I can't have a baby.."
"Yes you can." Santana sat by the side of Rachel's bed. "Both of you can."
"I.."
"You want to know what I think?" Rachel nodded. "You made this decision even before Hudson told you he was going to help you and be with you and now all you are doing is shutting him down." Rachel blinked the tears away. "That boy would do anything for you.."
"I know.." Rachel sobbed. "I just.."
"No." Her friend said bluntly. "This is his baby too and he's scared. I can see it in his five year old face. This is a two person game Berry, you don't get to play it on your own." Reality hit Rachel like bricks. This back and forth with Finn had been crazy since that day on the train. The breakup. Shue's wedding and the baby. And not once had she asked him really how he felt.
"What if I lose them both?" She shivered at the thought. "Oh god.."
"How are you dude?" Sam held on Finn. "Is Rachel okay?"
"She's fine for now." Shelby sat a few chairs away with Beth and Finn stared at the little girl as he felt sick. "But she's pissed or something... I know she's having the baby but it's mine too!"" Sam frowned. But Finn just held on to Sam as he cried. Kurt offered his brother his arms as well and Finn broke down. Both teens holding on to Finn with all they had.
When he came back into the room, Santana placed a hand on his shoulder and whispered something in his ear. He smirked a bit.
"Hey." He said softly.
"Hi." Finn walked to sit on the chair and Rachel moved away a bit, inviting him to the bed, the best he could, he laid there with her. "I'm sorry.." Rachel held on to him. "I'm sorry I made this about me and I didn't see you were in pain too. she cried and he kissed her forehead. "You've always been there Finn and I don't even know how to appreciate it. You shouldn't love me. I don't deserve it."
Finn lifted her chin and looked down at her. "I will always love you babe." He kissed her softly. "And no matter what, we'll do this together okay? Because its the only way we'll survive it." Rachel nodded. They stayed like that for a moment until doctor Owens came into the room. "How are you feeling Rachel?"
"Contractions are not as bad." The doctor frowned. Finn was alert once more. "That's a good thing?
It means it's working?" But the man ignored her and called for a nurse. He told her something they couldn't listen and the woman hurried out.
"What's wrong?" Finn asked. The man sighed. Rachel's eyes were filing with tears. "Just tell me what's wrong!" Finn snapped standing up.
"It appeared to be working. But the baby's heart rate has slow down which means he's getting tired."
"What... What can we do?"
"That's the reason the contractions have slowed down."
"Shit.." Finn said under his breath. "She has to have the baby now. Doesn't she?"
"Yes, I'm bringing a neonatal team in this, I don't think the baby would survive a trip to the OR so I'm taking every precautions."
Finn gulped. This was really happening.
"Finn.." Rachel's held on to his hand.
"It's okay" He looked down at her. "We're doing this Rach, the doctor is.."
"No." She sobbed. "I can't.. He's too small.."
"It's okay.." He tried to find words to comfort her but he couldn't. There was something in his throat.
"I need you to get ready to start pushing Rachel, there isn't a lot of time.
It all then happened too quickly. Finn held on to Rachel as she cried and begged for the pain to stop. He encouraged her. Spoke worlds of love and rubbed her back. Then she collapsed and the baby was there. Finn looked up to see His son. He wasn't crying. Healthy babies cried. And he wasn't red, his skin was blue and he was way too small.
"What's going on?" Finn asked.
"We have to take him now." Dr. Owens instructed a nurse to hurry the baby to NICU.
"Finn." Rachel spoke. "Stay with him. Go with him."
"Can.. Can I do that?" He saw the doctor nod. Rachel told him again.
"Okay but.. I'm going to go find someone to stay with you."
"Okay." She didn't have the will to argue. "Just don't forget to tell them the baby's last name is Hudson."
Finn left the room and he couldn't breathe. His son was here. But he was so small and he looked so sick. He made his way to the waiting area in auto pilot. Spotting his mom and Burt. He made his way slowly.
"Finn, honey... What.." Carole had no words as Finn collapsed against her. Unable to speak. Everyone feared the worse. "Shh.. Baby is okay. It's going to be okay."
Was it really? "Kurt." Finn said quietly. "You have to stay with Rachel." His brother nodded. "The baby was getting really sick so she had to have him. They took him to intensive care."
Man! I was crying in some parts writing this. What did you guys think? What will happen now? Who will arrive to help Finn and Rachel... Thanks for reading and thanks again for the awesome reviews. Please share your thoughts.