A/N: Okay so this is chapter where I will probably lose half you. First off just let me say: I love you all and please don't hate me! and of course Sam WILL NOT die...overseas. Secondly, things will get better...eventually. But as I warned you all before, things get very emotional. As always, leave a review, and don't stop reading, no matter what happens.
Feb. 2, 1957
My only love Mercedes,
This is this hardest thing I have ever had to do, but I am only doing this because I love you more than my next breath. You have been my everything for longer than I can remember. I never stopped thinking about you, not even when you packed up and moved off to Canada. You have to know that everything I do here is because I love you.
I don't know how long I will be in this God forsaken war, but if I'm stuck here for any longer than we had originally thought… I don't want you to wait. You deserve to live a full life; complete with a functioning job, beautiful children, and a husband who loves you as much as I do (if that's even possible), and I don't want to stand in the way of that.
I will never forget the first time I saw you, really saw you. We were 16 years old, it was your birthday, it should have been like every other day, but something was different. I couldn't keep my eyes off of you; you had on the most beautiful yellow sun dress that made your skin glow. Your hair was in long curls, and you had the brightest and most genuine smile I had ever seen. I knew when I was 13 years old that I loved you, but in that moment when you blew out your candles and looked right at me, making my heart stop, I knew I was in love with you. Then I couldn't stop myself from pulling you behind the big tree, I had hoped you wouldn't see how my hands were shaking, or hear how loud my heart was pounding; but when we kissed, I felt the world evaporate around me. And looking back into your eyes, and seeing you smile at me, I didn't care that I was white and you were black, or that your brother threatened my life if I ever touched you again, or that we were both with different people. All that mattered was I had shared my first kiss with the girl I loved. And seeing you after all these years made me the happiest I had ever been since before you left.
I don't want to let you go Mercy, I would rather cut off my own arm, but I can't let you keep living half a life waiting for me. So if this is the end of our relationship I just want you to know that I will never stop loving you. You have made every moment of my life with you worth living. I will never forget how much I love you in this very moment.
Don't forget about us…don't forget about me.
I will love you until the day I die.
Love,
Samuel Evans
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