A/N: I've been apologizing for being late almost every time, but this time I truly am sorry for being so late. I could've posted the chapter maybe 3 days ago but it would've been incredibly half-assed and left hanging and I don't like doing that. I hope you're not terribly mad at me for this and enjoy (more on the reasons why i couldn't post and why the next chapter is probably going to take so long + character backstories can be found here mamabro . tumblr tagged/vampfic )
Levi awoke from a strange tingling sensation. His grayish eyes started to lazily break open and focus on his surroundings. Fuck, the tingling was sort of annoying, what the hell was that? It felt like his right arm was getting gently petted with a cheese grater. The vampire's eyes opened up fully and squinted instinctively because it was so light.
"Fuck!" Levi exclaimed jumping from the couch to the place where the sunlight beaming from the window hadn't reached it yet. He looked at his right arm which had been probably sitting out in the early morning light for a good 10 minutes. It was all red and irritated just like Levi himself.
Eren had come inside the living room just then with a steaming cup of coffee and was staring confused at the naked Levi crouching in the corner of the room, before the realization had hit him.
"Oh crap, sorry." Eren apologized going over to draw the blinds. They were light and served more of a decoration rather than the tough shit Levi had at his place where no light could penetrate it. Either way, it was still a little better since the light wasn't so direct. "You okay?"
Levi was still breathing harshly from the slight panic attack, clutching the damaged part of his arm with his other hand. He was sort of angry and still tired from his lack of sleep, but his eyes still widened at the sight in front of him. Eren was standing there in his plain boxers and simple button up shirt which was undone, hanging on his shoulders and a worried expression on his face as he was staring at the vampire. His eyes didn't have the ridiculous green in them, it was lighter, almost hazel, his skin was also almost glowing. It took a few moments for Levi to realize that this was the first time he was seeing Eren in pure sunlight.
"Yeah, I'll live. Unfortunately." Levi dropped almost bitterly, but Eren cracked a smile. The kid set his coffee on the table and went over to get Levi's clothes from the floor which was on the sun exposed part of the room. "Thanks." He mumbled taking the clothes as his fingers slightly brushed against Eren's. Levi didn't really have any wish to dress up, but he jumped in his boxers anyway.
"Look, uh, last night shouldn't have happened." Eren started, scratching the back of his head. Levi frowned confused. It was exactly what needed to happen. "After our training session I got worked up and all, and then you showing up, I just…" Eren trailed off. Levi squinted his eyes. Why did this sound like a bunch of bullshit to him? Oh right, because he heard Eren's heartbeat picking up upon touching him.
"I guess it was sort of rushed." Levi had to agree. On some level he knew this was going to happen sooner or later. Levi was expecting it to be later though. Eren was still sort of unstable about this whole situation. "But I don't think it was a mistake." Levi dropped honestly, while Eren beamed at him. "We both wanted to, it was a way for us to cope with this shit, I don't see anything wrong with that." The vampire shrugged, leaning back on the couch.
"How about the fact that you're almost 200 years old?" Eren asked outraged.
"So?" Levi raised an eyebrow. "I've just got a lot of experience." What was the big deal really? He still had his somewhat young body, the only thing that was evolving and changing was his mind.
"I don't know it's just sort of weird? I guess?" Eren flailed slightly not knowing how to explain. "Things are complicated as it is; I guess I don't want to add this to the current shit pile." Eren sighed.
"I still think it's sort of dumb, but fine." Levi said getting up from the couch, standing in front of Eren. "Let's say it shouldn't have happened and we'll forget this ever happened." He slurred just slightly sarcastically, taking the few steps needed to get into Eren's personal space. Eren visibly tensed up and Levi felt him getting on the verge of panting once he gently placed his hands on either side of Eren's hips. "In fact. We can pretend I never came over to your place so whatever happened or happens while I'm still here will also fall in the pile of 'things to forget about'." Levi smiled just barely, sliding his hands down and gently taking Eren's hands in his. The kid was finally getting it and his breathing had only picked up the pace.
"Levi, maybe we shouldn't, I mean, uh we-" Eren tried to say while he almost desperately grasped Levi's hands in return. He suddenly didn't know the reasons anymore. Levi knew the feeling well, he was young like that once, when the feeling of another human being (or in this case someone who at least used to be human) was so enticing and irresistible, it was nearly impossible to tear yourself away from them. The vampire would feel sort of bad because he knew how he was making Eren feel. Though, Levi was a bit reluctant to admit he was doing this because that was exactly how he was feeling as well.
"Alright, I'm not saying anything." Levi shook his head innocently. "In fact I'm off to take a shower if you don't mind, bathroom is this way I presume?" Levi asked pointing to the hallway where there were a few more doors and a kitchen at the end of it. Eren almost didn't want to let go of Levi's hands, but he tore them away nonetheless and pointed to the hallway.
"Yeah second door on the left." Eren instructed with his still slightly irregular breathing.
"Thanks." Levi smiled, slowly walking towards the bathroom, feeling Eren's eyes on his back. Levi guessed it was only fair. The first time it was Eren who had seduced him; well he made the first move which counted. Now it was Levi's turn. Of course before turning around he made sure to give Eren a look to let him know he was also invited to join him in the shower.
Eren stayed put though, even when Levi entered the small bathroom with light yellow tiles and a new looking glass shower cabin. Levi took a good look around the bathroom with its cozy mirror cabinet filled with very little stuff indicating Eren was a simple kid and didn't have that many people staying over. After a minute though, Levi began to wonder if Eren was going to show up at all. He heard nothing from the hallway or the living room. With a sigh, he hooked his thumb on the waist band on his boxers about to pull them down, when the bathroom door finally opened and a slightly shaky Eren stepped in.
Levi turned around in a whim with an almost hopeful look on his face, while Eren was staring back at him intensely yet nervously. Neither of them said anything as the both of them took little steps towards another. The only sound that could be heard was their slight breathing as they stood a few inches away from each other. It seemed like the moment was so delicate and fragile neither of them wanted to make any sudden moves to make it crumble. It started with Eren's hands almost ghosting along the length of Levi's arms, not quite touching them, but the electricity was still there. Eren made sure to avoid touching the red an irritated part of Levi's right arm. Levi took a deep breath, starting to slowly and lightly glide his hands along Eren's torso, feeling his life pumping beneath the skin. They stood there for a good minute or so, just gently feeling each other and inching closer.
The first one to make the move was Levi, slowly leaning in and starting to place soft kisses along Eren's neck. The writer let out a shaky sigh and started grasping Levi's shoulders a little more firmly. Levi remembered how infuriating it was sometimes to smell something so tasty, yet the packaging tasted almost salty. However this time, Eren's skin beneath his tongue seemed like a holiday treat, and the delicious smell of what was underneath was just a huge bonus.
Eren's hands traveled to Levi's hair, running it through his fingers and ghosting his lips across the side of Levi's face. It seemed they managed to inhale every single fiber of each other's faces before their lips finally met in one long dragged out and needy kiss.
That seemed to be the moment the fragility evaporated between them, as they embraced each other fully. They stayed locked like that for a while, feeling every patch of skin, curve and bump on their bodies while their tongues lazily tangled together.
This time it was Eren who made the next move and secured a hand around Levi's waist, pushing himself against Levi completely. The sudden closeness got them both on the verge of panting as Levi started to get slightly more intense with the kiss, taking the chance to nibble on Eren's bottom lip, as the kid shuddered against him.
It was early morning, the part of the day where the mind is clearest, yet Levi felt like he was drunk with the way his head was swimming. He started taking small steps backwards with Eren towards the shower. He did intend on having one after all.
The cold floor of the shower cabin met Levi's feet as he pushed Eren's shirt off his shoulders all while kissing him. As the shirt fell to the floor outside the cabin, the writer drew back only to get rid of the last piece of clothing he had on him. Levi followed his lead and Eren headed to turn on the shower with just the right pressure and temperature. Levi couldn't help himself and dragged his hands along Eren's back, down to his ass while kissing the back of his neck and shoulders, slightly jumping at the sudden contact with cold water.
After a few seconds it was pleasantly warm, not the sort of scolding hot that Levi liked, but he was going to let it slide this time. He thought with a small smile, turning Eren around and kissing him deeply while the water poured down the both of them. With a small laugh they had to take a small step to the side because the water was getting in their eyes and mouth. Levi forgot over time just how complicated shower sex was.
The shower cabin started fogging up bit by bit from the steam, though Levi wouldn't have been surprised if the cause was their increasing panting and heat between them. The vampire felt strangely self conscious when Eren took a small step back to breathe and looked him up and down. Levi was never the one to feel shy or uncomfortable about his naked body, but there was something in the way Eren was staring at him that made him feel truly naked and he felt the need to hide from the gaze.
Eren, however, caught Levi's chin and turned his head to look at him again before hungrily attaching his mouth back on Levi's. The vampire inhaled sharply clutching the kid the same way he did last night. As Eren's hand wandered down to get a good grab of Levi's ass, Levi felt him smile against his mouth and he felt ridiculous because he could physically feel it was a cheeky smile.
"Been waiting to do that?" Levi asked with a smug smile, tearing himself away from Eren's mouth.
"You have no idea." Eren laughed lightly, moving his hand to grab the other cheek as if to prove his point. Levi couldn't help but smile as well, pushing his hips against Eren's and backing him up against the cabin. Like Levi said before, it was his turn to seduce Eren and set up the rules.
The writer's light laugh turned into a soft moan as Levi grinded against his half hard length. Their lips found each other in an instant and were back to sliding against each other in sync. This time Levi was full on forcing his tongue inside Eren's mouth, claiming it or more like violating it until Eren's short moans started to reach an octave higher. Levi pulled away just as quickly as he had attacked, kissing his way down Eren's neck and chest until he could settle on his knees. Water poured down Levi's back as he looked up almost innocently at Eren while massaging his upper thighs. The kid had tensed up and was staring at him with wide eyes.
"Is this alright?" Levi asked with a frown, since it seemed every muscle in Eren's body had become tense.
"Yeah of course!" he answered quickly, though it didn't seem like he was lying. "Just…don't bite y'know…" Eren dragged out and Levi chuckled slightly. The vampire didn't know why he found these little remarks so amusing. Most likely because this was the first time he was going down on a human who actually knew he was a vampire.
Levi gave a few firm strokes, bringing Eren up to full hardness before experimentally swirling his tongue over the head of it. Above he heard Eren sigh loudly and bump his head against the glass cabin. It was also quite a long time since Levi went down on someone, since he preferred it the other way around. Now he couldn't remember why, because hearing Eren losing his mind as Levi took him fully in his mouth was making him feel powerful in a completely new way. It was because of him that Eren's panting was getting irregular; it was because of his tongue sliding on the underside of his dick that had Eren slightly thrusting his hips. Levi was getting turned on just thinking about it, making him take Eren even deeper and faster. He wanted to hear and see him come undone completely; he had to see those few seconds of pure bliss on Eren's face.
The vampire heard himself groan as Eren pulled on his hair harshly, pushing his head to go deeper to the point where Levi slightly gagged. Levi brought up his hand to stroke the base of his dick, while his other hand pushed down on Eren's hips. Eren was lost between moans and gasps, his knees starting to shake as Levi was almost clumsily sucking him off as hard as he could. Levi felt Eren tugging on his hair harshly a few times and pulled his mouth off just in time. Few seconds later Eren screwed his eyes shut, tilted his head back and almost screamed as he spilled over Levi's hand.
Eren was still regaining consciousness while Levi smiled to himself, washing his hand in the stream. His other hand traveled to his own leaking member, not being able to hold back from touching himself after seeing a sight like that. Eren hauled him up once his head stopped spinning, but didn't stop Levi from jerking off.
Levi simply rested his forehead against Eren's shoulders as he just stopped giving a shit. As of right now he didn't care if Eren sucked or jacked him off or let him fuck him, he was too god damn turned on to care how he came as long as he did.
The vampire kept nuzzling his face in Eren's shoulder while his hand was at work, when Eren drew him back slightly.
"No, I want to see you." He stated simply, his eyes were heavy and pupils still blown from the recent release. Levi had no choice but to oblige. He had to admit, he didn't think Eren had that sort of kink in him, to watch someone getting off, but Levi kept staring back at him. "What are you thinking about?" he asked daringly.
"You. How you looked when I made you come. And all the different ways I can do that again." Levi replied boldly and it seemed like Eren shuddered. Levi's stomach suddenly tightened and he threw his head back involuntarily, moaning. He kept his hand on Eren's shoulder for support as he began to slightly trash around from the buildup. Vaguely Levi remembered hearing Eren hushing words of encouragement, urging him to come, but Levi was way ahead of him. His knees buckled and for a moment he thought he was going to fall, but Eren held him steady by the waist as he spilled all over his hand and for a moment he felt like collapsing on the shower floor, where he could rest or maybe take a nap.
When Levi was done seeing white spots in his vision, Eren was already gently rubbing his back with the shower sponge. They took turns helping each other wash up, mostly because it was another excuse to keep touching rather than the act of cleaning. No more words were spoken between them in the shower cabin. Somehow both of them knew what needed to be said and the fucked up shit that was looming over them. However, at the same time they were trying to ignore it and enjoy the current moment, imagining that the fogged up shower cabin was hiding them from the rest of the world.
Levi felt sort of stupid because he kept clutching the kid like he didn't want him to go, yet at the same time he didn't know what he would do if Eren stayed, or why did he even want him to stay in the first place. He felt so human again and it infuriated him, because he wasn't human and he needed to goddamn remember that. Because no matter how hard he tried he couldn't ignore Eren's scent and the way it made his stomach growl from time to time, or simply forget all the lives he had taken for the sake of food or his fucked up sense of justice. The more these thought circled in the vampire's head, the tighter he held Eren against him.
Both of them got out and dressed up still in complete silence. Though, the silence kept getting heavier and harder to bear as the time kept passing. Both of them took a few more opportunities to feel each other's skin underneath their finger tips as they were helping each other dry up.
"You can sleep in my room until it gets dark if you want, I have better blinds there." Eren's voice finally pierced the silence as they went out of the bathroom and Eren had taken Sasha from his room and locker her up in the kitchen. "I still have to go to work today, so um, I'm leaving you with a spare key." He explained plainly, avoiding looking at Levi now that they were out of the bathroom. Levi was impressed the kid remembered they need more sleep than humans do.
"Thanks." Levi mumbled taking the key from Eren. "So we really do forget this ever happened?" Levi clarified with a calm face.
"I don't know about you, but I can't go on pretending it never happened." Eren scratched the back of his head, half of his body already facing towards the front door. "Because that's sort of like lying to yourself, y'know? So I- I'm not gonna deny it, but I don't think it should happen again, at least or a while." Eren dropped and not hearing a reply from Levi, left the apartment. Levi was left standing there in his plain boxers in the hallway, before sighing and going to the room next to the bathroom which he presumed was Eren's room.
Eren had already drawn the bluish blinds for Levi, while he was still drying himself in the bathroom so the room seemed gloomier and sort of lifeless now that Eren had left. It was quite a simple room in the furniture sense, sort of like Levi's, the exception was the slightly cluttered desk and a few posters on his walls from bands that Levi didn't recognize.
The vampire flopped down on the cold sheets or Eren's soft bed, thinking over what he had just told him. He almost hated the fact that the kid was so blatantly honest with him, always trying to do the right thing like the naïve kid that he was. No. the thing that pissed him off most was that he was perfectly aware of how naïve and sometimes pointless his actions and beliefs were, yet he still didn't let go of them. He could've been selfish and said fuck it and well…continued to fuck Levi simply because he wanted to. He could've ran away from this situation like he planned to when he found out about them, he could've not written blog entries about criminals still at large because of the danger he put himself in, and he could've turned out like Levi. He was screwed over by the world just like the vampire yet he managed to get the fuck over it and try to do some good instead of shutting himself away. It felt like Eren was the better version of Levi. That was why he was so fucking mad, not because he resented Eren being better than him, but because it was making him change, it was making him want to become like him.
…
Complete darkness met his eyes when Levi opened them. He had fallen asleep in the same position when he had flopped down on the bed. It was dead quiet and it took a few seconds for the vampire to remember where he was and why he was there. Levi rummaged around his clothes at the foot of the bed until he found his phone in his pocket which read that it was a little after 2am as well as a text from Hanji asking where he was.
Levi got up as quietly as he could and as he had suspected, Eren was sleeping on the living room couch. His first thought was that maybe Eren didn't want any more close contact with Levi, but then he realized he was hogging the entire bed in his sleep. Even if Eren wanted to get under the sheets with him, he couldn't have done so without waking him up.
After taking one more look at the soundlessly sleeping Eren, Levi took off and ventured back to his own place. He was already mentally preparing himself to deal with Hanji, when he heard commotion behind their doors before even reaching them. As he got closer he realized it was Hanji and Jean, though he couldn't properly make out what was going on.
"Jean, please calm down!" Levi heard Hanji pleading as he opened the door. It seemed the action was happening in his room. Why did his room suddenly become a hotspot for life dramas?
"You don't understand! You don't even remember anything, how can you possibly say that you fucking understand?" Jean exploded as Levi picked up the pace and entered the room. Jean was pacing across the room clutching his head. Levi wouldn't have passed up the chance to mock his newly dyed black hair, but the kid seemed in hysterics. Hanji was standing by the door and sighed in relief upon seeing Levi. The vampire gave her a questioning look and Hanji lead him out of the room temporarily.
"I woke up like an hour ago to the sound of some like things crashing so I came to your room and Jean was just going berserk and breaking his own things, mumbling and then shouting stuff like 'this is so fucked up' and 'why did this happen to me' also there was something about that Marco person? But I couldn't really understand." Hanji explained in one breath. "I think he's like coming to realize what he's become like really realize."
"Shit, you don't say." Levi dropped as he heard Jean throw something across the room. If horseface touched his laptop or any of his things, he didn't give a shit what sort of existential crisis he was enduring, that was not excusable.
"I've tried talking to him and calming him down, but well you heard how he responded." Hanji frowned with a guilty look on her face. "I don't know, maybe you can- why the hell do you have Eren's scent all over you?" She asked suddenly with a curious smile playing on her lips. Levi simply rolled his eyes and entered his room to face the raging newborn.
"Hey, tantrum boy, you wanna stop hulking out for a while and sit the fuck down?" Levi dropped already out of patience with this kid. Hanji gave him a grumpy look from across the room. Levi sighed. Fuck, he hated dealing with newborns. "I mean, Jean hey, what's going on?" he tried again and Jean finally lifted his head, acknowledging Levi's presence.
"What's going on?" He repeated mockingly. "My goddamn life is over, that's what's going on!" Jean exploded.
"And you're realizing this only now?" Levi asked raising an eyebrow.
"I mean, this can't be it." Jean continued pacing, dragging his hands over his mouth. "There's gotta be like some sort of cure, there has to be an exit route to this mess, right?" he asked desperately. "I didn't fucking deserve this!"
"Yeah there is." Levi replied calmly and Jean's head jerked up with hope. "It's a silver dagger through your heart. Or any other place honestly, the blood infection will kill you eventually." Levi dropped and Jean was back to pacing across the room. "And no you didn't deserve this, but none of us did either, you're no special case."
"So what you just fucking shrug it off like, oh one day I'm a human, working at a fucking cheesy ass sandwich place and the next day I'm the reason kids ask their parents to check under their beds." Jean snapped sarcastically. "This isn't life, this isn't living." Jean mumbled to himself, tears almost threatening to fall.
"You're right, this ain't living, because you're not alive to begin with." Levi returned impatiently. "Yes, you're a figure of nightmares now, yes, things will never be the same as they were before and yes it isn't fucking fair. You can sit here moping about it, blaming the world and feeling sorry for yourself for decades for all I care, but no amount of kicked over chairs or tears is going to change who you are or change the fact that one day, inevitably, you'll have to accept yourself."
"Levi, you don't have to push him like that." Hanji retorted worriedly as Jean was staring at him with wide eyes.
"Or you can pick up your shit and start getting the fuck over it, 'cause that's the only fucking cure unless you want to kick the bucket, and you wouldn't be the first newborn to do it."
"Levi-"
"No it doesn't happen overnight or a week, that's why you need to move out as quickly as you can." Levi ignored Hanji and kept going. He took a few steps towards Jean. "You're not human and you won't ever will be. I've already told you, the sooner that thought gets to you, the better off you'll be." Jean kept staring with his mouth hanging slightly open as Levi left his room, Hanji following him close by.
"You didn't have to be so mean to him." Hanji remarked once they were in the kitchen. Levi took out a bottle of Mr. Hemmings's blood, he wanted something bitter today.
"I told him what he needed to hear." Levi shrugged, feeling glad that no sound was coming from his room anymore.
"Yeah but…you could've phrased it nicer you know?" Hanji argued.
"Why? What's the point?" Levi asked honestly while Hanji sighed.
"It's hard to believe you were ever human." Hanji laughed darkly. Levi frowned, of course he understood compassion and sympathy, but he didn't see them as signs of humanity. He didn't understand what was the point of beating around the bush. "This raises a serious question though." Hanji added with a tired sigh. Levi nodded seriously, perhaps they needed to keep Jean under their roof for a little while longer, despite how much Levi hated it. The last thing they wanted to deal with was sudden aggressive outbreaks of the newborn, especially since it was very common. It happened to Levi, to Erwin and hell he wouldn't be surprised if it happened to Hanji as well.
"Yeah, maybe we'll talk with Erwin-"
"You and Eren did it, right?" Hanji asked as seriously as ever, eyes full of curiosity. Levi sighed defeated. "Ha! I knew it!" she exclaimed. "I thought there was something fishy about you not coming back home after training." She explained, clearly proud of her deduction.
"Calm down you freak, it's not that big of a deal." Levi rolled his eyes.
"Not that big of a-?" she repeated outraged. "Are you kidding me?! The whole set up is so dramatic- oh and what happened with Jean- and Eren living here- it sounds like some funky novel!" she jumped in her seat, rambling overenthusiastically.
"So the lives of three humans and three-now four- vampires were ruined, and you're thinking of becoming the next Stephanie Meyers." Levi deadpanned in an overly sarcastic flat tone.
"Oh, but not quite yet." She rambled on, not getting the reference. "I need to know more, so tell me all the details!" she beamed, slightly shaking Levi by his damaged arm, while he winced.
"Please don't." A small voice pleaded from Levi's room.
"I'm gonna leave that up for your imagination." Levi said, taking a sip from his wine glass.
"But what's going to happen now?" Hanji kept rambling on. "Are you guys like together?"
"Yeah, he announced it on facebook, so I guess it's getting pretty serious." Levi nodded seriously.
"Oh c'mon don't leave me hanging!" Hanji pleaded.
"It's really none of your business." Levi raised an eyebrow all-knowingly.
"Pft, fine, I'll guess I'll ask Eren instead." Hanji crossed her legs with a smug smile on her face. Damn her. Levi forgot she knew how to push his buttons as well.
"We're not. That's all I'm gonna say on this matter." Levi sighed, putting down his glass and feeling his fangs go back to their place.
"Alright alright, I won't prod you mister 'it's complicated'." Hanji rolled her eyes with a cheeky smile. "But you did it more than once right?" she wiggled her eyebrows. "I mean that's why you came back only today?" Levi merely sighed, putting his head in his hands. "I bet he was like really fussy and bold in bed, that's the first impression I had of him and I'm rarely wrong." She went on, talking to herself. "Was there any kinky stuff though? Did you-"
"For the love of god, please stop." Jean pleaded louder this time and Levi had to suppress a laugh.
…
Levi held his ground and didn't tell Hanji any more about what happened. Though he was tempted at one point, just so he could annoy and most likely mentally scar Jean. They talked it over with Erwin, but decided to let Jean go either way. They have a few friends in Toronto where Jean was planning on heading. If things got out of control, they'd be able to handle it. Levi smiled to himself thinking it would probably take just one scary look from Mike and Jean would fold up like a lawn chair.
Hanji talked to Jean again once he had properly calmed down, had some sleep and some food. Apparently he had started to pack his things to leave when the realization of what was actually happening hit him. Levi wouldn't say he was surprised, he knew there was something off about the way Jean was reacting to his new self. Jean was right, you don't just shrug out of being human, changes like that take time. Though, to be honest, he didn't care if he was still upset about it, as long as his things weren't getting thrown across the room, Jean could do whatever the fuck he wanted to do.
Levi had enough shit of his own. He couldn't bring himself to care about Jean's drama, not when he was trying to learn how to let go of his own past and his own wrongdoings. He still found it ridiculous that Eren believe he deserved a second chance. How the fuck could he? He willingly destroyed another person from the inside. How the fuck was he just supposed to get over that? Levi thought, stopping for a moment on his way home, looking through a simple apartment window where a fragile young girl with hair black as coal was soundly sleeping in her room.