My eyes opened, blurred light filled my vision. I blinked again and again, with each it cleared little by little. I looked around, I was in Konoha hospital. I turned my head towards the window to see Sasuke sitting hunched over, his elbows resting on his knees and fingers laced together in front of his mouth as if he was deep in thought. I try to move and sit up,but stop when excrusciating pain bolts through me. Sasuke's attention snaps up to me. His eyes grow wide and he stands up. I reach for him but he turns around and pulls the curtain revealing Shikamaru, Naruto, Aoba and Kakashi all bandaged up sleeping in chairs, then leaves the room.
I toss the blankets off of my body and see bloodstained bandages covering my body. "Sasuke." I whisper, turning to get out of the bed. As soon as I'm up, my legs turn to jello and give out under me. I try to push myself back to my feet, but it's no use, I can't support myself. My legs give out again, my palms hitting the floor with a smack. My I.V pulling it's bag and stand over, the metal bounces against the ground, waking the rest of my team up.
"Katsuki-chan!" Naruto says jumping out of his seat and coming to my side. "What are you doing?! You need to stay in bed." He says sliding one arm around my back and the other under my knees.
"No, wait! I have to-" I try to say as he gets to his feet, craddling me in his arms.
"You need to get back in bed." He says firmly.
"Sasuke." I whisper reaching for the door and tears stream down my cheek. "I have to go after him! He just left." I plead with Naruto. "Why did he just leave?" I ask burying my face in the crook of Naruto's neck as I continued to cry.
"Katsuki-chan." Naruto frowns and tightens his grip on me, trying to comfort and calm me. Then the door slides open. Naruto turns to see who it is when his eyes land on Sasuke standing, out of breath , looking at the floor with Tsunade standing behind him. When he finally lifts his head, the look of shock graces his features. "Idiot." Naruto says to him, then turns back towards the bed and lays me in it. Upon placing me back down and covering me up, I see through my tears that he is now covered in blood, my blood.
"I'm sorry Naru-" I begin.
"No, it's fine." His whispers calmly, unzipping his jacket and taking it off. He turns to Sasuke with an angered look. "This is your fault. Why didn't you just tell her you were going to get Tsunade ba-chan? She tried to go after you when you just up and left her. She ended up opening her wounds again." He said as he passed Sasuke. Sasuke's composure fell and every one left, leaving only him, Tsunade and I in the room.
Sasuke sat back in the same spot where he was when I had first woken up. "I'm sorry." He whispers, grabbing my hand. "I wasn't thinking straight." He admits looking up Tsunade. "I should have said something."
"Katsuki, it looks like you reopened your stomach." She says placing her hands over it and healing me.
"I'm fine. But, I need to know, how did we get back?" I asked looking back to Sasuke.
"You appeared on the porch, you left your mark to high up so after you appeared you fell. When I hear it, I thought it was Hikaru and Yukine still practicing. So I stayed in the room looking up at the night sky. Then I heard the kids start streaming..."
"Mommy!" Yukine screams at the top of his lungs seeing his mother laying in Naruto's arms. "Mommy please don't die!" He screams kneeling next to her and taking her hand as tears steadily stream down his sobbing face. "Mommy, don't leave me. I need you!" Hikaru stands in the doorway to shocked to say anything watching Yukine hold on to their mothers bloddy hand.
"What's going on?" Nanase asks from down the hall, rubing his eyes.
"Nothing, let's go back to bed." Hikaru says, guiding him back to bed, knowing that Nanase shouldn't see his mother in that state.
"Mommy! Mommy! Mommy no!" Yukine scream hysterically.
"What happened to Mommy?" Nanase asks looking back over his shoulder, watching the shadows closely.
"Mommy is just sick, so we have to stay away from her or we'll get sick too." Hikaru explains.
"What about Aniki?" Nana asks hearing his screams.
"Yuki is sick too." He tells the younger boy.
"Sasuke!" Naruto yells trying the wipe the blood away from the woman's face. "Damn it, Sasuke where are you?!" Naruto yells, tears welling up in his eyes upon seeing how torn up Yukine is.
Sasuke comes running out of the room and freezes seeing the bloody mess sprawled out in front of him.
"Is...Is that..." He stutters, unable to find his voice.
"Sasuke pull yourself together, get Yukine, I have to get her to Tsunade ba-chan or she'll die. Grab Yukine!" Naruto yelled, trying to lift the woman's limp body, unable to move due to the child holding on to her arm. Sasuke finally snaps out of it and wraps his arms around Yukine.
"Mommy!" Yukine screams as the blood allows her hand to slip through his small fingers. "Mommy no! Please don't go! Mommy!" Yukine fights against Sasuke as if his life depends on it as he watches Naruto disappear into the night.
"Hikaru, watch over Yukine and Nanase, I'm counting on you. Suigetsu, help me get them to the hospital." Sasuke says hoisting Kakashi on to his back and trying to support Shikamaru. He begins to make his way to the gate, noticing he is following her blood trail. He grits his teeth and closes his eyes trying to gain his composure again but, falls to his knees as he is unable to push his tears away. His mind is going a million miles a minute. His heat is aching as it begins the shatter. He was about to lost his first and only love and he wasn't even strong enough to make it to her side. Just then he feels the removal of pressure from his back. He looks up wide eyed, tears falling from his eyes. Neji and Lee are standing above him supporting Kakashi and Shikamaru.
"Go." Neji says. Sasuke nods and gets to his feet then bolts in the direction where he knows Tsunade is.
"Thank you." He whispers, running as face as his legs will let him.
"That should hold you together for now. Try to stay put this time." She instructs. "Now that your awake, I'm afraid I have some good news and bad news. The good news is, even though it could have cost your life, you still took the chance and used flying raijin to save your team. If you hadn't, they would have died on that mission. I would like to thank you." She finished saying, still looking like there so something eating at the back of her mind.
"I'm glad everyone is okay." I say with a small smile.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this..." She beganwith a solemn expression. I looked over to Sasuke when he squeezed my hand. Something told me he had already heard the bad news. I kept my eyes on him, It was more apparent now then it was before. His eyes were blood shot and he had bags under them, even more alarming was how red under his eyes, cheeks and nose were. Had he beed crying? "Although I was able to save your life, unfortunately I was not able to save the baby's." She said turning her gaze regretfully to the floor.
"Th- the b-baby's?" I ask pulling my eyes from Sasuke and fixing them on her.
"I'm afraid that you were pregnant at the time. Where the kunai had hit, there was just no way...There was nothing that I could do." Tsunade explains.
"I-I was pregnant." I say placing my hand over my stomach. Suddenly something warm dripped on to the back of my hand. Sasuke had pulled my hand to his lips, his tears fell from his eyes landing on my skin. The look on his face was indescribable. He didn't blink. He didn't look away. His eyes were fixated on something in the far off distance as tear leaked from his eyes. He was torn up, my heart ached seeing him like this. Tears began to fall from my own eyes again. Seeing him like this hurt more than being wounded. I had lost his child. His first child was gone and It was my fault for being too reckless.