Age Thirteen- Silence
Life had changed for me since last year. More specifically Hope had changed. She had become quieter, more depressed. She had started spending all of her time locked up in her room listening to music or talking with friends. We still talked, just not as much as we used too. We still hung out in the garage fixing up cars but more often she was going out with friends on the Sundays she used to reserve exclusively for me. I had tried to get her to tell me what was wrong but she would just stare at me like I was crazy before ruffling my hair and walking off. I loved it when she did that. She was so strong and playful I broke my heart while filling me with a love I couldn't describe. The feel of her hands in my hair made my heart stop and her closeness drove me crazy. Her special scent, of jasmine and some musky incense she was always burning, was amazing and went straight to my head making me forget how to breath. Even with this newfound realization of how much I loved her I couldn't break the silence between us. I realized just how far we had fallen apart when I went to pick her up from school one day. Normally she took the bus or rode with a friend's older brother or sister. Now I watched her coyly accept a ride home from a tall smiling boy. He was clearly her own age because they were riding with his older sister. But he seemed to exude a confidence far past his age. My heart broke again and again as I watch her smile at him, laugh, accept, and take his hand when he offered to help her into the car. Was this my future? Watching as everyone I loved walked away? While they found someone else. As soon as I could I phased into my wolf form and ran into the forest, howling. My progress was stopped by a scent. A scent that belonged in the past, one that had once been a vital part of my life but not like this. Now her smell had a sickly sweet edge that burned my nose and triggered all my senses to attack. But this was Bella and as much as I hated it I was drawn in and I walked into the forest to find her. It was only a second but it was enough. She smiled at me while her bloodsucker glowered. She blew a kiss and whispered to me.
"I hope you're happy Jake."
I ran through my life in my head so her mate could tell her about it later. She smiled again and then she was gone. I knew she hadn't meant for me to see her. Hadn't meant to speak to me. But she had and the questions she left unanswered burned in my stomach. They sat there as I thought of Hope walking into the boy's car, of Bella walking away with someone else. Would I always be alone?