AN: On this 2/13 (my favorite day of the year) I present you chapter 13 (my favorite number) which is my favorite chapter so far as well! I hope you'll like it just as much!

Chapter 13: Welcome

JPOV

Weeks passed by since that day. And we were able to behave.

I stayed far away from Forks until the memory of Bella's kiss was faded and they all thought I avoided Rose anyway. I haven't heard from Bella and I missed her a lot, but didn't contact her either.

Rose didn't avoid me. In fact we kept meeting up. I didn't mind her scent in my room anymore. I was able to get passed the leech smell and distinguish her personal smell. It was like spring to me. Not just wood, or flowers, or grass. Just spring.

We didn't slip up in those weeks, not in a chemistry way or in a bitch-jerk way. I guess we both just needed the calm.

Whenever she hunted with Emmett, she stopped by my place afterwards and Emmett waited for her or hunted some more. He needs plenty more blood than she does. I told dad about our friendship, and ignored his suspicious looks until he was okay with it now.

We just sat on my bed and talked, sometimes about nothing in particular, sometimes about hopes and dreams. We didn't babysit together anymore. Afraid of slipping up right in front of the baby. Although I don't really believe our 'dates' were that much of a secret anymore, since Edward, Bella, Jasper and Emmett were aware. I'm sure Alice sees enough as well. That only leaves Carlisle and Esme, and quite frankly I think they would handle it just fine.

When Rose came to me today, I immediately noticed something was wrong.

Her dark eyes were wide, she hadn't hunted first, and she looked slightly panicked. I took her to my room and gave her a concerned look. And then she passed out. Just like that.

I picked her up and placed her on my bed, figuring this must be one of her flashbacks. I thought they were gone, now she talked about the horrors she'd been through.

As far as she told me, the flashbacks had been like realistic nightmares, so I expected her to kick and scream, but she did nothing. At all. She just lay there like a sleeping beauty.

And I waited, sitting on the edge of the bed and holding her hand.

When she finally opened her eyes, she was completely bewildered, not knowing where she was at first. She sat up, a little bit dizzy, ready to run, and I placed my hands on her cheeks, turning her gaze towards me and I told her it was all alright. It was over now.

She suddenly flung her arms around me and started sobbing earnestly. I know vampires can't make tears, but they sure can cry.

I did what she had done for me that day Bella kissed me. Just stroking her back, or combing through her hair.

As soon as she was calm again, we sat next to each other, like we had back then as well, leaning against the headboard.

"If you want to talk about it…" I trailed off.

"I can't."

"That bad, huh?"

"No, not bad at all."

"I don't understand. If it wasn't bad, then why were you so shaken up about it?"

"Just because of that. It's easier to believe he was evil. To right myself in torturing him to death."

"But he was evil, Rose. All the bits and pieces you told me already showed me that."

"Real life isn't black and white, Jacob. Sometimes he was good too. I'm sure deep down…" She choked on her words and didn't finish her sentence.

"It's the other way around. Sometimes he acted nice. But deep down he was bad."

"I don't now. It's been so long. What if I only believe what I want to believe? Just to keep me sane."

"We all do that."

She looked so disheveled and out of it, I felt sorry for her. But I made sure not to show her that. She just hates to look weak. So I made my concerned comment sound like a sneer.

"You look like crap, Rose. Maybe you need to go hunting." Although I must say she really didn't look like crap at all.

"I've got a better idea, if you're seeking to distract me," she replied and gave me a funny look.

"What's that?"

"Make out with me," she deadpanned.

"Um… Are you sure that's such a good idea?"

I was sure it wasn't. But I didn't want to reject her like that.

"Why not?" She gave me an innocent look but then ruined it by winking.

"Because I don't want to take advantage of this situation, no matter how sexy you are." I smirked back at her and let my eyes rake over her white top that clung to her breast the way I wanted to cling to them.

"Come on, Jake, don't be such a puppy."

She used the magic word on me, like the tease she is. "Oh, you really shouldn't have said that."

Now she didn't look so hurt anymore, I had no problem with taking advantage of her. Whatsoever.

Before I knew it we lay down on the bed, arms and legs wrapped around each other, lips and tongues fighting.

How does she do that? Being broken one second and the next… a vamp.

She's messed up alright. And I didn't mind. At all.

We were kissing and biting, hands groping and some clothes were damaged along the way.

When my hands moved over her belly and dipped behind her belt, however, she stopped me.

"What is it?" I panted.

She looked away first but then made an effort to look me in the eye and said: "I don't want to be touched right now. I... I can't."

"That's okay. We'll just make out then?"

She answered by attacking my mouth again, and although I really wanted to be okay by not going any further, there was one body part disagreeing. Actually my whole body was. My hips were moving against hers, seeking the friction and trying to find some release.

She broke the kiss and whispered in my ear "let me help you with that" before she slid her hand inside my pants and grabbed me.

Her hands were warmed by my body, but I gasped anyway from her firm grip. She moved her hand back and forth expertly.

"I… I thought you said you… couldn't." I choked out.

"I never said anything about me touching you. Now sit back and relax. Did you ever get a blowjob?"

She got my mind reeling by what she said and by her hand that kept stroking me relentlessly.

I couldn't think of a possible answer until she stopped moving and repeated her question with a smirk.

"No. Of course not. Girls in LaPush are nowhere near as straightforward as this."

"Aw, poor you. Well then this will be your first."

"Are you serious?" The prospect made me grow even harder than I already was. I felt like I could come any moment now.

"Would I be that evil to promise you a blowjob and then not do it?"

"Yeah, you totally would."

She smiled and knew I was right. I tried not to get my hopes up.

"I'm not evil today. I just really really want to suck you dry right now." And as she said that, her hand gripped me tight and started jerking, making me come on the spot.

I closed my eyes and felt my cheeks redden, but she didn't laugh. Instead she leaned down over me and simply licked my stomach clean. I looked down and saw her big dark eyes staring up at me, as her pink tongue lapped at my skin, lower and lower. That sight made me instantly hard again. She cleaned me up nicely, carefully avoiding my cock, aside from a few light licks now and then, driving me insane before she even got started.

And then all of the sudden, she did start and I almost jumped up in the air. She slid her cold mouth all the way down and then moved back up, sucking hard. The groan that left my throat made her purr and I felt the vibrations all through my body.

Her head bobbed up and down and I tried to keep my eyes on her, but they kept rolling back in my head, until I finally gave up and rested my head on the pillow. Completely surrendered.

I've got no idea what she was doing down there, but I was approaching my second orgasm fast. My hands needed to hold onto something and I carefully laced my fingers through her hair. I know I wouldn't hurt her, but I didn't want to play rough anyway.

I tried to guide her rhythm but it was in vain. Every time I felt the tingle in my stomach and I wanted her to speed up, she slowed down, letting the feeling fade again. And whenever she became too much for me and I wanted her to slow, she sucked me even harder and faster. She drove me insane to the point of cursing and begging.

Man, she knew what she was doing.

I was so close. So god damn close.

My hips bucked up wildly, fucking her face ruthlessly, knowing she can handle it. I forgot all about not playing rough. And this time she let me.

Any second now she could stop me again, but I couldn't handle any more. So I gripped her head firmly and kept pushing my hips upward, feeling the back of her throat with every trust.

And still she kept on sucking. So deliciously hard.

Until I exploded into her mouth, moaning loudly.

I fell back, my hands releasing her, and my orgasm flowing through me.

But she didn't stop. She kept pumping me and licking me till I had nothing left, and with every stroke of her tongue over my sensitive head my body jerked and I groaned. Until I had to push her away, utterly spent.

She curled herself against me, head on my shoulder and covered us both with the blanket, while she waited for my heart and my breathing to become healthy again.

I expected her to be smug about her achievement, but she suddenly seemed vulnerable again. So I wound my arm around her shoulders and pulled her closer to me, placing a kiss on the top of her head.

"Are you sorry?" I whispered. Maybe I should have tried harder to stop her from doing this.

"No. Are you?"

I laughed out loud and she chuckled as well.

"I take that as a no," she said and shifted a little so she could look at me.

"That was… god I can't even find a word to describe."

"Amazing?"

"Oh way better than amazing. That was Rose-tastic."

She chuckled again. Shyly almost. She baffles me every time. How the hell does she do that? Going from sex goddess to shy girl again.

"Are you alright, Rose?"

"I'm perfect. I really enjoyed that. You're a nice victim, I'll give you that."

"Then why do you seem sad?"

"I'm trying not to fall for you."

"Oh. That's kinda hard right now, no? I mean, I'm falling for you big time today."

She smiled and hugged me closer.

"I wish I could stay."

"Yeah. Me too. Why don't you? Emmett would understand."

"It's too scary. If I don't leave tonight we'll never be able to do the friends thing again."

"And why is that bad?"

"Because we'll mess each other over. Wrong time wrong place kind of stuff."

"Hmm, maybe you're right. Well, anyway, thank you for today. That was honestly the best thing I ever felt."

She kissed me on my cheek and said softly "you're welcome."

AN: Jake has his way of comforting Rose . I hope you enjoyed that. ;-)