After determining the Doctor wasn't going to eat anymore Jack took him to his office. The Doctor picked up his thinking glasses and a new item that come through the rift along with a screwdriver. He missed his sonic but Jack still wouldn't allow him to have it. He sat down and put the glasses on as he leaned forward with his tongue pressed against the back of his front teeth in concentration.
"After Japan fell and he hurt you, wasn't that also the first time he..." Jack trailed off as he sat down at his desk. The Doctor didn't bother to look up.
"So," he responded softly.
"Why didn't you tell Martha?" Jack asked him as he started to work on the computer. This time the Doctor did look up briefly.
"Tell her that when he found out not only did he beat me but he raped me, because she was alive and he was furious. Why would I do that?" The Doctor questioned Jack. He jammed the screwdriver harder then necessary in to the artifact and a piece chipped off of it. The Doctor swore and Jack lifted an eyebrow at him.
"Want to go for a walk?" Jack wondered.
"Yes," he sounded desperate. Jack stood and the two of them headed outside. The Doctor walked ahead of Jack along the edge by the water and Jack let him. It was a cool day and Jack wished he had grabbed his coat but the Doctor seemed perfectly comfortable in the weather. Either that or his desperate need to run was making him oblivious. He continued a fast pace that was making Jack breathless.
"Stop a moment," Jack panted after almost an hour. The Doctor turned and climbed up on a bench, he sat on the back of it with his feet on the seat while Jack flopped onto it.
"Can't you ever sit normal?" Jack joked.
"On Pandatorea you're the one not sitting normal." The Doctor countered with a grin, the grin quickly faded though. "Why did he tell you?"
"He knew it upset me." Jack responded. "Was he always so evil?"
"Evil is the wrong word Jack and no. When we were children Koschei looked after me. He was only a few weeks older but he protected me at school." The Doctor shook his head and rubbed his hands down his face. "He was different before the madness overwhelmed him." He stood up and then offered a hand to help Jack up. He turned and started to walk back in the direction they had come.
"You're going to walk all the way back to the hub?" Jack asked as he began to follow him.
"Yep," The Doctor responded, "If you want you can stay here and I will send Ianto to pick you up."
"Not a bloody chance." Jack laughed.
-DW-
The Doctor watched on in horror as missile after missile had been dropped on Japan. The Master had then made him watch as the Toclafane descended on a refuge camp in Japan. He couldn't close his eyes without seeing the carnage. Worse the Master had made Tish watch and when she closed her eyes he had one of his men force her to open them again.
He was laying in the small tent that had been his home since they boarded the Valiant, when he was suddenly grabbed by the arm and drug out. Before he had time to react he was kicked several times in the chest and stomach as the Master screamed at him.
"How did she live?" He screamed over and over again with each blow.
"I don't know who your talking about." The Doctor cried out trying hopelessly to cover himself.
"Martha," The Master stopped kicking him as he leaned down and took a handful of the Doctor's hair and pulled his head back. "Your little bitch is alive," He cursed as he slammed the Doctor's head down on to the floor. The Master reached over and grabbed a pair of handcuffs. Locking them securely around the Doctor's wrist, grabbed him by the cuffs and drug the Doctor across the room. He threw the Doctor down and the Doctor's face hit the floor. He could taste blood in his mouth. He was then drug up again and placed in a chair.
He looked up as Tish's cries filled the room. She was being half walked, half drug into the room by two men as she struggled between them. They led her over to the conference table.
"Don't you touch her." The Doctor cried out as the Master began to head over to her. "Whatever you are planning to do to her, do to me instead. Just leave her alone." The Master ran his finger down Tish's face and The Doctor saw her gag.
"Grab him." The Master said pushing her aside.
He awoke later to a cool wet cloth being wiped over his face. He didn't know how long he had been laying there. His whole body ached. His vision was slightly hazy as he looked up through both of his recently blackened eyes. Blood covered his body and he wasn't sure where it was from.
"I am so sorry," A soft male voice said to him and he passed out again.
-DW-
"It was you." The Doctor stopped suddenly and turned to Jack.
"It was me what?" Jack said.
"You took care of me after that day." The Doctor explained. "I thought it was the Master feeling guilty but it was you."
"He didn't even have the courage to bring you in himself. He just had his men drag you in and leave you at my feet. My hands were unchained and one leg. They place a guard on me with a gun. I thought you were dead at first, all the blood and bruises. I took care of you for almost a week before they took you away again. They had to kill me to get you away." Jack looked down. "When we found you in the console room all I could think was that the Master had finally won, he had finally killed you."
Jack looked up as he felt the Doctor place his hands on Jack shoulders. He leaned forward and placed a kiss chastely on Jack's lips. He smiled at Jack before releasing him and turning to walk again. He went at a slower pace so that Jack could walk beside him.
"Do you still want to die?" Jack asked as he looked at the scars on the Doctor's left wrist.
"No," The Doctor responded. "I have something worth living for."
"Really what?"
"You."