It's Getting Harder to Tell What's Real
Nonstop fantasies have been plaguing my sub conscious for a while lately. I'm not sure if there is some spiritual reason behind it or maybe I was unwillingly put under some trance in my sleep. Whatever the cause the more time went on the more these dreams and hallucinations began to feel more and more like reality and as if reality started to drift away. Hot, I felt a hot sensation running through my lower region. The more intense the dreams got the needier I felt. These feelings started to arise and the most unexpected of places and the dreams began to drift my attention from my life to my imagination. Nights feel lonely and restless, without you there feels nothing but emptiness. The worst part is I never knew what it felt like to have anyone, thinking this makes the void bigger. Lust and want is all feel throughout my day. I'm not sure what to do about this, I saw you often and when I did my mind kept itself at bay from all the naughty thoughts and emptiness in the pit of my stomach. You kept me from being sucked into my colorful and delicious want to be reality by being just as amazing as my thoughts of you. Now I have...Ugh….I need to stop dozing off in the shower…now where is the damn shampoo…Open you spawn of demon...I broke a nail...
CY: I know it's been oh I don't know...FOREVER! since I last updated but I've been slacking. And believe me the rough draft has been done for months now. Many months. It's just written down on paper. So my patience limits me from typing it. But I do have it...somewhere. Well since you've all bee good sports and have not sent me hate mail yet I decided I'd show you Amu's mind unfolded. Don't hate 3 please :)