Hey everyone! I'm sorry that it's been taking me longer to update my story. I usually try to get a chapter a day, but lately I've been sort of busy. And today was my 17th birthday and I thought that getting up a new chapter would be a great thing to do today! So I hope you all enjoy, because this is when Jude and Tommy finally meet and talk to each other! I can't wait to read your reviews!
Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star or the characters.
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"Hi Tom." Jude says walking more into the light so Tommy can see it's really her. "Umm I think we need to talk."
Tommy just stands there. He can't believe that she's real. She isn't real. She can't be! Jude's dead. Everyone said so. Darius told me flat out himself that Jude had died. Everyone has been living with the fact Jude is dead!
So who is this person and why do they look Exactly like Jude? Do they not realize the hell they're going to put everyone through for being here and looking exactly like her? Tommy doesn't know what to think. He just knows that it can't be Jude.
"Who are you?" Tommy asks.
"Tommy. It's me! Jude." Jude says walking towards Tommy. Who just looks at her like she's an alien from outer space. "You couldn't have forgotten me?"
"You can't be Jude. Jude is dead." Tommy can't believe his eyes or his ears. Because he could've sworn that this Jude impersonator just say that she is in fact Jude. "So really now. Who are you?"
"Tommy it's me! I am Jude." Jude says taking another step towards Tommy who takes three steps back and runs into the piano. She can't believe he's acting like this. She figured he would be mad about her being alive and not telling him or that he might be happy to see she's alive. But she never thought he wouldn't believe her.
"Jude?" Tommy asks taking a step towards her to get a better look. He still could not understand how this was possible and didn't full heartedly believe that Jude was alive and in the Chrome Cat.
"Tommy it's me. I'm the same girl that won the first Instant Star and I'm the same one who almost made us both loose our jobs when Darius took over G-Major." Jude needs to take a deep breath and see if she's getting through to Tommy. He still doesn't quite believe so she continues with more intimate details of their past together. "I'm the girl you kissed on her 16th birthday and then took it back and then you kissed again in D's office after he approved my second album. I'm the girl you left standing in the middle of the street begging you to stay or at least tell me why you were leaving." Jude stops because after that the memories just get worse and worse.
"But they said you were dead." Tommy says trying to keep calm. He realized it was really Jude, but he still didn't know how it was possible. "Everyone told me you were; Sadie, Kwest, Darius, Liam, and everyone else."
"Well that's because they all thought I was dead, except for Darius and Liam anyway. They were the one's who helped me." Jude says walking towards Tom. She missed him. Even though she knew things were far from being settled she wanted to at least hug him. But Tommy wouldn't even let her near him. He just kept on walking away from her.
"Darius and Liam? Why? What the hell happened? I can't believe this!" Tommy says walking away from Jude to the center of the room where he starts to pace. He can't even look at her. Everything she had done to everyone was just too awful. "How could you do this to everyone? To me! Didn't you realize we would miss you!"
"Tommy you have to understand! I didn't fake my own death because I wanted to. I did it because I had to." Jude says walking up and grabbing his arm so he will stop and look at her.
Tommy just whips his arm out of Jude's grasp and takes a couple of steps back. He still doesn't know what to think about everything.
"Tommy, please don't act this way! You have to understand. Just listen to me!" Jude pleads with him.
"Understand what Jude?" Tommy says walking up to her so he's only inches apart from her. "That you left here without telling anyone you're alive except for Darius and Liam. Then you stay dead for about five months and come back and expect all of us to just nod our heads and act as if you never left? How are we supposed to do that?"
"I don't expect that Tommy. I know that I have lots of explaining to do. I know that faking my death is a horrible thing to do and if I had had any other choice then I would've gladly taken it. But there was no other choice Tom. That was it!"
"I don't believe that Jude. There had to be something else you could've done besides dying!"
"Well how would you know?" Jude asks finally letting her temper get the best of her. She couldn't believe that he thought he had a right to judge her and her actions. "You weren't here to help! You left, remember Tom?" Jude asks as she starts to pace herself. It was either that or she might end up hitting Tommy.
"This isn't about me Jude. This is about you and the stupid choices you make." Tommy says and wishing that he could take it back after he said it. Because he had no right to criticize anyone on the choices they make.
Jude stops pacing and turns and looks at Tommy like he is the scum of the earth. "Who the hell do you think you are?" Jude says walking over and pushing Tommy so he stumbles back a little ways. "Oh wait that's right! You're Little Tommy Q! The heartthrob! The Go to Guy for the music industry! You're Mr. Perfect aren't you Tommy? Well in your eyes you are anyway."
"Jude I didn't say that." Tommy says wanting to apologize.
"No and you didn't have to. But just to let you know. You have no right to tell me what I should and shouldn't do with my life. You lost any right you had the day you left me standing in the middle of the street."
"Jude, don't go there right now." Tommy says realizing that he should be the one mad and not the one feeling sorry for past mistakes.
Jude just stares at him for a second. "Oh that's right. We're talking about my mistakes and not yours. Isn't that right Tommy?" Jude says before beginning to pace again. "Well if were talking about my mistakes the least I can say is I've only made 7 big ones my whole life. Which is probably less than you've made in one year?" Jude says stopping to look at Tommy.
"What are your 7 mistakes?" Tommy asks. He knows it's off topic, but he wants to hear them anyways.
"Well mistake #1 is letting you be my producer. #2 would be kissing you that first night at the Vinyl Palace, which is when I started falling for you. #3 Is the whole Shay thing. #4 Is letting Darius become my manager in order for you to stay at G-Major. #5 Is letting you get between me and Sadie, Jamie, and Speed. #6 Is falling in love with you. And #7 Is letting your leaving affect me as badly as it did, because you obviously weren't worth it!" Jude says holding up her hands counting off all her mistakes on her fingers.
"You didn't mention anywhere in there your faking dead." Tommy says trying to hide that fact he's upset that Jude wishes she hadn't fallen in love with him.
"Because Tommy that wasn't a mistake. That was something that needed to be done." Jude says wishing she could take back some of what she just said, because she didn't mean it. She doesn't look at loving Tommy as a mistake.
"I don't believe that Jude. You didn't' have to pretend you were dead. You hurt a lot of people by doing that."
"Tommy, the only person you care about right now is you. But that shouldn't surprise me, because that's all you ever care about." Jude says sitting down. She was tired. She hadn't slept or relaxed since deciding she was coming back to Toronto.
"You're wrong Jude." Tommy says before he starts heading to the door. He can't be around her right now. That isn't Jude. The real Jude wouldn't have been pretending to be dead and she wouldn't come back and hide out in the Chrome Cat.
Tommy didn't know this Jude. She wasn't the girl he has loved and missed for 9 months that's for sure. He just hoped that she was somewhere deep inside this imposter. "You're wrong." Tommy says again for good measure before opening the door to leave. "Because I care about you Jude. I always have." He says over his shoulder before shutting the door behind him. "I love you." Tommy says after the door is shut tight and he's starting to walk away. Before leaving the Chrome Cat Tommy goes back down stairs to Jude's apartment to leave the keys. He doesn't need or want them anymore.
Jude's back and so she can take back over the building. As of right now Tommy wants nothing to do with Jude or her belongings. It's to hard to know that this whole time Jude had been alive and she hadn't trusted him to help protect her from whatever she was hiding from.
Walking out of the Chrome Cat into the rain Tommy doesn't even try to hurry to his car so he doesn't get soaked. He doesn't care. Getting into his Viper Tommy doesn't know what he's going to do. He can't go on vacation now. He needs to at least stay and see what's going to happen. Starting the car Tommy just starts driving and he's going to see where he ends up.
Jude stood up in the rehearsal space and was looking out the window when she saw what she assumed was Tommy walking to his car, practically ignoring the rain around him. She was trying so hard to stop from crying. She thought if anyone was going to understand and listen to what she had to say, that it would be Tommy. But he didn't seem to really care about her. Even though he said he did. Jude didn't know what to do.
If Tommy wasn't going to be there for her then she didn't know if she was going to be able to handle being in Toronto. Turning away from the window to leave Jude doesn't know where she's going. She doesn't even know if she wants to stay in Toronto anymore.
Ok I hope you all liked it! I know that I keep leaving the chapters at horrible spots. But thanks for reading and I hope you all review I love to read your reviews. But thanks again!