Chapter 14: Beginning Again
Bella sighed as she watched as Jacob and Annabelle were dancing their first dance. The wedding was beautiful, even the weather behaved that day so the wedding could've been outside as well as the reception. Annabelle and Jacob looked so happy, which made Bella smile a little. "Here, you should eat," Edward told her placing some food in front of her.
"Edward you keep on putting a new plate of food in front of me every ten minutes," she commented.
"Yeah because you keep handing everyone else the food off the plate I give you before that," he answered.
She sighed as she nibbled on a carrot on her plate. "Nice wedding," he commented.
"It is," she agreed.
Edward entwined his fingers with hers with a small smile. "But not as nice as ours," he added.
"A little biased?" she teased.
Edward chuckled, kissing the side of her head. Their marriage wasn't completely fixed, but it was on the road to recovery. At least this time Bella slept through the night without crying. "Well I got to marry you, that made it special enough," he commented.
"Edward, a wedding in Vegas would've been great too," she pointed out.
"Well that was our first plan," he answered.
"And that was over my dead body," Alice told them as she walked over with Cynthia on her hip.
Bella took a sip of her wine. "Alice, question, wasn't that supposed to be mine and Edward's wedding?" she asked curiously.
"Hey, I was waiting for Edward to get married for almost a hundred years. I wasn't about to have him ruin the plans I had for you two with a Vegas wedding," she answered.
Just then Cynthia started gurgling with laughter making Alice's eyes widen in disbelief. "Oh my god! She laughed!" she gasped. They watched as she hurried off to show Jasper that their three-month-old was laughing.
"My God even with a baby of her own Alice is still like the Energizer Bunny. She just keeps going and going and going," Bella quipped.
Edward chuckled and watched as Carlisle grabbed Esme's hand, pulling her onto the dance floor, both laughing. "Come on," he murmured. He held Bella's hand, pulling her onto the dance floor. "Shall we?" he asked. Bella gave him a quizzical look.
"You're serious?" she asked.
"Oh why not?" he answered smiling.
"I still can't dance Edward," she pointed out.
Edward chuckled as he wrapped his arm around her waist, lifting her up so she was on his feet. "Now you're dancing," he told her smiling. Bella smiled a little, letting out a sigh.
They were quiet for awhile before Edward broke the silence. "What are you thinking about love?" he asked. Bella bit her lower lip as she kept dancing with her husband.
"I still feel a little…you know…empty with seeing all these babies," she replied.
He rubbed her back gently. "Do you want to leave?" he asked.
"Not yet," she replied.
She rested her head on his chest. "Just hold me, just like this," she said quietly. Edward did just that, holding his wife lovingly in his arms as they danced across the dance floor.
Later on, Bella was sitting at the table again when Alice sat next to her. "You know Bella, any doctor would tell you that it's safe to try again, I mean if you wanted," she commented while watching Jasper walk around with Cynthia in his arms.
"I know…but I don't think I'm ready to try again," Bella replied.
Alice nodded in understanding, patting her arm. "Everything will fall into place," she said with a wink before getting up. Bella watched her go, giving her a quizzical look.
Edward sighed as he was watching as Bella was talking to Esme who took Alice's spot. "Everything's going to be okay Edward," Alice told him. He was silent, staring at his wine glass. "I can show you if you want," she commented.
"No Alice, keep your visions to yourself," he insisted.
Alice patted his shoulder gently before walking away. Edward moved his fingers through his hair, letting out a deep breath.
After the reception, Bella was sitting on her bed thinking. Seeing all those babies made her think. She would like to try again for another baby, but she wasn't sure if now was the right time to try. Letting out a sigh she looked up when Edward walked in. His tie was hanging loosely around his neck, his tuxedo jacket was sitting on the chair across the room, the sleeves of his shirt were pulled up, and the first three buttons on his shirt were undone. "You alright love?" he asked when he saw the spaced out expression on her face.
"Yeah, can we talk?" she asked.
"Of course," he replied.
Edward sat down across from her on the bed, staring at her concerned. "I've been thinking about something the last few days," she murmured.
"Everything okay?" he asked.
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine," she assured him.
"What is it?" he asked, holding her hand.
She let out a deep breath. "I was thinking…do you think…we can you know…try again?" she asked slowly. He was silent, staring at her with unreadable eyes. "Sorry, that was a stupid question.
"No, no it wasn't," he assured her.
Entwining his fingers with hers, he sat up a little more. "Are you sure?" he asked.
"Yeah, I mean, I did a lot of thinking about it. I can bet we'd be able to put the baby into daycare while we're in classes. Our jobs give in plenty of money that we'd be able to raise it," she replied.
He stared at her. "You're serious about this," he commented. She nodded her head slowly.
"I mean, I know the miscarriage made us both miserable…but I think we're both ready to try again," she answered.
Edward reached out, stroking her cheek gently with a small smile. "Alright," he said quietly. He kissed her deeply and they moved back on the bed, holding each other close.