I still own nothing and mistakes are still my own.

Chapter 14

For days now I have been listening to Doyle, but with nothing to show for it. Nothing was coming back to me; my past was still a mystery to me.

I knew the key to get it back, but every time I suggested it Doyle said no, said all it would do was cause me pain. I didn't care; I wanted to see her again. Knowing she was right there, but so far out of reach killed me.

"Can't we just stop for the day?" I asked.

I wanted today's trip down memory lane finished couldn't take any more of this disappointment.

"Not yet Jane, just remember one thing, and then we can call it good."

"Damn it Doyle I can't, how many times do I have to say it? It's not coming back to me, I need to see her."

"Get it together Rizzoli; I'm not letting you near her until I know you're not going to kill over with pain. If you start remembering other parts of your life then maybe the pain won't be so bad."

"I've tried ok, it's not coming back." I said less angry and more frustrated.

Doyle was in my face before i could stop him.

"The Rizzoli I knew wouldn't just give up without a fight."

"I don't even know what I'm fighting for, I'm not an angel anymore, don't even know what it's like being one, and why should I fight for them? They put me here."

"You're fighting for Maura, how can I get you to understand that, Maura is your main thought process here, no angles Maura understood?"

I only nodded my agreement.

"I'm going to take you somewhere, but don't fight me ok?"

Again I nodded with my agreement. His hands were on my arms and we were gone. The minute my feet it the ground again I emptied the contents of my stomach, Doyle seemed a bit irritated.

"What I'm not used to that."

He just rolled his eyes.

"You seriously just rolled your eyes at me?"

"I did Rizzoli, now on to more serious stuff."

He indicated with his hand that I should turn around.

"Those people there, those are all angles, all on your side. They all at one time felt something for their charges, but never once acted on it, they were too afraid of the higher ups. This is the rebellion I've been talking about. They want to fight to change the rules that have been in place for millions of years."

Before I could say anything, one of those angels was walking towards us.

"Janie you don't know how good it is to see you."

I wanted to make myself believe that I knew who this was, but nothing came to mind. He noticed it too.

"Janie it's me Tommie."

Nothing came to mind.

"It's ok Janie we'll make your memory come back."

All this was a little overbearing.

"Will you take me back now?" I asked while turning towards Doyle.

"Sure Rizzoli." Before I knew what was going on we were back in the barn.

I expected to get sick again but nothing happened.

"Come on." Doyle said while walking away from me.

I had to jog to catch up. We had almost made it to the main house when Doyle turned I almost ran into him.

"We are going to go into that house you are going to see Maura, and I'm going to take the pain away, if this doesn't bring your memory back, I don't know what will." Then he started walking again.

As soon as I stepped into the house and saw Maura I expected the pain to be there, but I all I felt was Doyle, he was in my head, I turned to look at him, but he wasn't even paying any attention to me. I looked towards Maura; she was sitting at the table with her parents eating breakfast. None of them had noticed me come in the back door, so I took the chance to really look at Maura, and then like she knew i was there her green eyes looked up and caught mine.

A smile came to her face, and my own as well. I then heard Doyle, but he wasn't speaking out loud.

"Go eat."

Hearing his voice in my head startled me, but it was enough to get me going. I walked towards the table, and sat down next to Maura, who hadn't stopped staring. William passed me the food.

"It's good to see you again Jane, and even more better to know what your name is." William said.

I looked him the eye and noticed the regret was no longer there. I smiled. This man loves him daughter even if she wasn't biologically his. My movements stopped. How did I know this? Is it even real? I thought to myself.

"It's real, she was adopted." I heard Doyle again.

I looked up to where I had last seen Doyle but he wasn't there anymore.

Then I felt Maura's hand on my arm watched her turn towards me but I had no idea what she was saying not because of any pain, but because in that second I was in a whole different scene.

I was at a different table with Maura at my side and a knife at my arm I watched myself cut myself and watched it heal in a matter of seconds, and then it was gone, and I was back at the isles home and their kitchen table.

"Jane?"

I heard Maura ask. I looked down at her hand on my arm and then looked up at her face.

"Did you hear anything I just asked?" she said.

"I'm sorry, say it again."

"How is it going with Doyle?"

"Better actually." I said with a smile.

I should have another chapter posted later tonight or tomorrow.