A/N

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This has turned into a heavy story that as sensitive topics...Self-harm described in this chapter

Please read with care.

Next Morning

Lena

When I woke up early the next morning, Callie and Stef were no longer in bed. From the lack of heat on their side of the bed, they haven't been there for a while. I find them on the floor in the corner next to the closet. Stef is propped up against the wall and is holding Callie tight against her chest and both are asleep. From the way Callie is laying and Stef is holding her she must have not wanted to go back to sleep.

"Babe?" I whisper as I gently shake Stef.

"She had bad dreams and wanted to hide; this is where we ended up at" Stef explained in a tired whisper back to me.

"Let's get both of you back into the bed" I say as lean over to help Stef get Callie back to our bed.

I kiss a very tired Stef and whisper to her "It's early go back to sleep I will take care of the morning"

A few hours later I open the bedroom door and almost trip over Jude, who is asleep in front of it with blanket wrapped around him. Poor Baby must have been so worried he slept in front of our door.

I lean down and gently shake him "Good morning Buddy time to get up," He wakes up with a start and moves back toward the wall clearly frightened.

"It's ok your safe, no one is mad" I calmly tell him, it takes him a few moments to comprehend what I have told him.

"Why don't you come down with me and help with breakfast?' I ask him once he as realized where he is.

"I've got to make my bed first" he says as he tries to go to his room.

"That can wait, it is not going anywhere" I tell him as I guide him to go down stairs.

"Why don't you set the table, and do the eggs for me this morning?" I ask him once we make it to the kitchen.

We are quite until he brings the eggs over to the counter where I am making the pancake batter. I can tell he wants to talk but is unsure, of himself. I am sure this is all foreign to him and its making him self-conscious.

I give him a smile "Thanks for helping me this morning!"

"I like to cook, I like kitchen chores the best" he says as he looks up at me smiling

"You can help anytime but I wouldn't tell Jesus or he will be trying to give you all his kitchen chores" I smile. We are quite a few moments, both of us working on our parts of breakfast.

"How is she?" he asks. I can't help but smile inside the boy finally got comfortable enough to ask what is really on his mind.

"She is still sleeping Buddy, we are going to take her to the Dr. today and double-check to make sure she is ok physically " I try to casually ask "When was the last time either of you went to the Doctor?"

"I went last year, when I got the chicken pox" Jude tells me as he looks down at the counter.

"And Callie?" I prod the boy "She doesn't go" he replies quietly.

I would have dug deeper in his answer but B and Jesus came in for breakfast. Breakfast went smoothly, which I am thankful for. As the kids go upstairs to get their stuff for school, I went to start the laundry making sure I throw one Stef's hoodies that Callie seems to of gotten attach to in the washer. With seven of us it seems like all I do is laundry and dishes.

When I went into the dryer I find Callie's sheets, I go to get them out to fold them. They been washed but must of been folded wrong in the washer because they are not fully clean. I can see a few light blood stains. She must of been trying to clean them before anyone would know.

When Jude came down the stairs he hands me Callie's shoes "Don't give them to her before you are ready to leave" he tells me as he tries to run out the door, before I can stop him.

I am a little perplexed by this."Whooooooa! Buddy come back here" I call after him.

He slowly turns around not willing to look me in the eye.

"Why do you have Callie's shoes?" I ask the in a calm voice, I hope that reassures him enough tell me.

When I get a shrug I continue "I am not mad, you can tell me. One team, remember?"

After a very long minute with his eyes downcast he whispers "Callie can't go very far outside without her shoes, her feet got hurt."

When I don't say anything he continues "After they got hurt…at other homes she would put them under my bed at night so that if something happen she could grab me and them, if we had to leave quickly. Here she does it to remind herself that we want to stay here with you guys, she sometimes gets very scared and it makes her want to run." He looks up at me trying to gauge how I took what he just told me I try to blink away the tears of sadness, in front of the boy.

I bring him into a hug "Well I am glad you both want to stay, because we love both of you very much. Go ahead I believe your brothers and sister are waiting to walk with you."

I shut the door and let the tears fall. That tough little girl had tried to fight her demons so hard, it made me so sad.

I decide I need to shower while they were still asleep, it would help calm my nerves. Both girls haven't moved since I left them and are sleeping peacefully. I head to the kids shower so to not wake them up.

After my shower I return our room only to find them gone.

I find Stef and Callie they are on the back deck. Stef is sitting with a cup of coffee in her hands seated in chair with her feet up on another one looking up at the sky. Callie is about 5 feet away from her, near the corner of the deck. She has her legs balled up under her and covered with a blanket curled up another chair. She's listening to her music, slightly rocking herself.

When I open the door, Stef smiles sleepily at me as Callie glances my way but doesn't move.

"Are you two ok?" I asked in a hush tone

"We are fine Love, we just needed some fresh air to clear our heads" Stef smiles. Her eyes are tired and her face is drawn I can tell she didn't get much sleep last night.

When I walk over to Callie she takes her head phones off and looks up at me. I look down into her eyes, they are still a little unfocused and cloudly. But she is not upset, more like she was at dinner last night.

"Good Morning Callie Girl, how are you feeling this morning?" I ask as I reach out a sweep my hand across her forehead. She gives me an ok shrug, with a slight smirk. I give her a smile and move over to Stef.

"Good Morning Baby" I say as I give Stef and kiss on the forehead.

"mmm Good Morning Love" she says to as she looks up at me and returns my kiss.

"Ready for Breakfast? I made pancakes, eggs and bacon this morning" I say and take Stef's hand walking her into the kitchen. Stef stops in the doorway "Breakfast in 5 Sweets, we are right here if you need us. Stay right there." Callie nods and goes back into her head phones not moving from her chair.

Stef pours another cup of coffee and we move over where she can watch Callie out the window. I take her in my arms for a real hug and kiss.

When we break apart she looks into my eyes and asks "How are you Love?

"I am ok, but dreading today" I reply moving over to get breakfast together for us.

I tell her the cliff noted version of what I had found out yesterday in the garden and this morning, from Jude. My wife goes very still and fire blazes in her eyes over most of what I have to tell her especially over Callie's thumb. She looks back out checking on Callie threw the window. I give her a minute as she tries to not to explode and to reel in her thoughts.

I put a round of pancakes on and scramble eggs into the pan. When she walks over and takes the specula from me to finish the eggs.

"How are you Babe?"

"I am worried about my girl" Stef says "Last night was bad. There is something not right, about her not wanting to take a bath. And then I don't know who in the hell she was thinking that she was talking to when she had her meltdown while I was cleaning her thigh."

"Yeah I agree, we need to let Dr. Kodema know, she is going to call and check in after Callie's Doctor Appointment if we don't need to talk to her before then." I say to which Stef nods her head.

Stef begins working through her thoughts with me "It took her forever to go asleep last night and then she had nightmare after nightmare I don't think she got two hours sleep last night. About four this morning she tried to dart out of the room mumbling "Run, Hide". When I got her in my arms I could tell she wasn't awake and was still dreaming. But she wouldn't go back to bed so that's why you found us in the floor this morning" as she finished her train of thought she looked out the window to check Callie again.

"She seems better this morning, but hasn't said much" She shakes her head "We need to try to get her to talk more about anything, so it will become easier for her to do it when she needs to tells us the big stuff"

"We need to tell her about the Dr. Appointment after breakfast, which I am sure she is going to have plenty to say about, if she will voice it I don't know" Stef says with a shrug

"I want to try to get her to eat before she gets upset. Jude says she doesn't go to the doctor. I am sure she isn't going to like even to think thought of it" I reply.

When Callie comes in for breakfast she sits next to me, close but not touching. She glances over at Stef who is getting a warm up on her coffee.

"Do you want some Sweets?" Stef asks with a smile to the girl. To which the Callie nods her head.

"Words please" Stef reminds her.

"Yes, please" Callie replies in a quiet voice.

"How was the crew this morning?" Stef asks me "They were all good except you know Marianna always running late" I say this and look at Callie to see how she would respond; I see her mouth go into a slight smirk.

We continue on with breakfast, Stef and I talking about the mundane everyday stuff. Callie slowly eats half her pancakes and some bacon. She has taken all of her meds I had laid next to her plate and her water is gone. She is still working on finishing her coffee, which I am sure she will finish.

"Did you get enough, Hun?" I ask

"Yes Thanks" Callie replies in a soft voice, with a slight smile on her face as she glances up at me for a moment before looking back down into her coffee. Her face had more color and she didn't seem as lifeless, which I took as a good sign.

While Stef and Callie finish their coffee, I go and switch out the laundry. Callie will want Stef's hoodies. When I come back into the kitchen with Callie's sheets, she and Stef are doing all the breakfast dishes.

"Hun, I think we are going to have to throw these away, and get you new ones" I tell Callie

When I turn around from throwing them away, Callie has moved away from Stef placing her back against the counter, with her hands at the ready to cover or fight. She is looking back forth between us with a scared look on her face.

"It's ok Sweets it was an accident, you didn't do it on purpose" When the girl doesn't respond Stef continues "No one is mad, remember we don't hit EVER remember?"

Once I see that she as calmed down I go over a wrap my arms around her leading her over to the nook for a talk. We give her a minute to collect her thoughts, while she stays in my arms.

"Sorry" she mumbles, she now as tears in her eyes but she is trying to blink them back.

"Baby, is that why you came back in from the tree yesterday morning, to put them in the dryer?" Stef asks trying to get the girl to look her in the eye. Callie will not look up, but does give Stef a slight nod.

"I'm too old…I didn't want anyone to know" she whispers with any embarrassed look on her face

That's when I can tell it clicked for Stef also; Callie had wet the bed and didn't want anyone to know.

"It's ok Baby it was an accident, nothing is hurt. We will get you a new set and you can even pick them out ok? I say soothingly as I hug her tighter, this seems to reassure her. It takes her a few moments but she settles down.

Stef

Lena and I make eye contact; we need to tell Callie about her appointment.

"Sweets I need you to look at me" I say as I wait on her to give me her eyes. When she finally raises them I can tell she is scared.

"Callie Girl we need you to know that we love you so much. We are going with you today and get you checked at a Dr. appointment" The girl tears up and bit her bottom lip starts to quiver and her foot starts to slightly bounce as I tell her this. "Sweets would a lady doctor be ok?"

I can tell she is panicking on the inside. Everything she is giving off to us is a resounding No way. She keeps glancing at the door, she is defiantly thinking about running. Jude knows Callie, no wonder he told us not to give her shoes to her until we were leaving. I wonder if I should give her my flip-flops to wear instead, to the Dr. Appointment. I don't want to chase her but at least in them she will not be able to get very far.

"Try and use your words Sweets" I say quietly trying to encourage her to talk

It takes several minutes before we get a weak "OK" from the girl. She is going to run the first chance she gets, she is so scared. Lena and I both can see her thinking she is going to find a way out of this before the appointment happens.

"We are going to go see Dr. Karen, Megan's mom…you remember her right? She was here at the barbecue a couple of weeks ago" Lena asks Callie

"III don't want to…I'm ok" Callie mumbles as she shakes her head

"We need to get you doubled checked, we don't want infection" I say to her, glad she is talking.

After several minutes and she still hasn't said anything Lena tries again "Baby, we only want what is best for you, and what is best is that we make sure you are ok. We know this is not what you want to do and it's scary and a lot of things are going on in your head that are confusing. That's were me and Mom come in; we got ya and will not let anything happen to you. We are going to be with you the whole time." Lena finishes.

"Callie, you are safe, we need you to talk to us." I say as I took lift her chin to try to get her to look at me. "Baby I need you trust us."

Callie goes back into Lena more, trying to hide.

"No more hiding from us Sweets remember?" I try to coax it out of her.

"Nnoo one is suppppposed to see" she whispers and starts weeping in Lena's arms. Lena just hugs her tighter as she is rocking and letting her cry. Lena and I both make note that she more than likely didn't get treatment for the brand after it was done.

After about twenty minutes Callie is still crying, but has started to get herself under control. I get her some juice and notice when I hand it to her that her hands are shaking again. I get in close to her as she takes sips of the juice.

I bend my face down so that she can't hide her eyes. "Sweets, remember you agreed with Momma yesterday that we would take you to the doctor if you needed to go. You need to go Baby. Dr. Karen needs to make sure I am taking care of them correctly. It would kill me to think I didn't take care of you the right way. We will always be honest with you, we are telling you the truth…Momma and I will be right there with you, we will not let anyone hurt you. I need you to be brave here and let us take care of you, please"

When I am finished I can tell she is still hesitant but doesn't want to disappoint me.

"With me, the whole time?" She mumbles

"Both of us the whole time" I say nodding.

She says nothing to this when I look in her eyes I can tell she has shutdown and we are not going to get any further with her right now.

"How about we go upstairs and watch TV in the big bed?" I say as I get up holding me hand out to her, which she slow takes and follows me upstairs.

We get into mine and Lena's bed. Callie let's go of my hand puts her headphones on and goes sits on the window bench, bringing her legs up bending them at the knees. I guess it's her way of telling me she needs space now. I grab my I-pad and settle into a spot on the bed so that I can surf but still keep her in my peripheral view.

When I look up I notice Callie has her arms around her body and is slightly rocking, but what catches my eye is that she is crying. When I look closer she has the battery case lid from her Mp3 player in her hand, she is taking the edge of it and trying to "cut" at her inner left thigh where her brand/cuts are. By the time I make it over to her, the wound is bleeding threw her shorts.

"No! Callie, No" I say as I take her forearm, bringing it up and away from her leg. Damn it! I grab lower on her arm more toward her wrist but I can't loosen my grip now. She is fighting me and is still trying to get back to her wound. She is trying to push and kick at me to get me away and make me let go of her arm.

"NO I will not let you hurt yourself NO…Let me have it" I am trying to get her to give me the cover, but she as balled up into her fist and is not going to let go of it.

"It's the only way…It's minnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" She screams at me and is sobbing as she continues to fight me. Lena must have heard the commotion and runs in to help. She puts her body on top of Callie's legs, so that the girl can't get her legs up. I basically pin the top of her body behind me with my body. She keeps pounding on my back with her free fist. When we are both in place I move her arm forward as Lena forces her fingers back and her hand open to get the cover.

It's obvious she is out of control. Even after Lena has the battery cover Callie continues to fight us. I make eye contact with Lena and nod; we are going to have to take her to the floor. I switch my arms on the grip on her to which Lena's help force her up off the bench and onto the floor. With me scooting in behind Callie criss-crossing her arms and locking my legs around hers, getting her in the same hold I had her yesterday morning. I start rocking her and saying what I hope is soothing words of love.

I lock eyes with Lena and she follows my eye sight to Callie left thigh. You can see her shorts soaking in blood. She runs and gets a hand towel, and the first aid kit. My Love doesn't like the gory stuff but she doesn't hesitate to put pressure with the hand towel to Callie's leg when I release my leg lock a little so that she can.

After about five minutes Callie has calmed down a little, she is still crying and shaking but she is not trying to get out of my grip. It takes me a minute to realize she keeps tugging her left arm, for me to let it loose. I take a chance and let go of it, and she brings it up to rub her nose.

Lena pulls off the towel and goes to lift Callie shorts up.

"No…no one is suppppose to see ever" Callie says in a whisper between hitched breaths as she lays her head back against my shoulder.

"Baby, why isn't anyone supposed to see?" Lena stops and quietly asks

"He said it's our secret" she mumbles out between uneven breaths.

Lena and I look at each and try to figure out how much we push her now. I pull her tighter into me and whisper "It's ok we are on the same team now, we don't keep secrets. Remember honest and trust promises"

As I am saying this to the girl, Lena has moved up Callie shorts leg, to get access to the damage. Thankfully most of the bleeding has stopped. She puts a clean dressing on the wound and holds it there for a few minutes. After he puts triple antibiotic salve on it.

"I just wanted it to quit…Its his" Callie whispers

"Baby, hurting it more is not the way to make it not hurt" Lena says looking into Callie's eyes

A/N: Please note I wrote parts of "Callie" in a jumble manner to reflect her thoughts as she tried to communicate

Thank you Lacorra for the edit