Chapter 14 ~ Somebody To Love
Song ~ Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
JPOV
When we left the field to head back to Bella's, Alice pulled me aside and told me she had left me a fresh bag of clothes there and that I needed to hunt before tonight. I didn't ask why, I didn't want to know. I would take her advice, because she obviously had seen that I would need to for some reason. But, I honestly wanted to know as little about my future as possible. I just wanted to live it.
This is probably one of the reason's Bella and I got along so well. She mostly felt the same way.
We made it back to where the family was waiting and Charlie was on the phone with Billy. He pulled the phone from his ear and put his hand over it. "Bella, Billy wants to take me, Jake and the kids fishing overnight. Would that be okay?"
Bella smiled and said, "Of course, Dad. That sounds like something they would love. Remember that the fish fry is tomorrow night though."
Charlie seemed less than thrilled when he replied, "Oh yeah, I forgot. Well we'll have more fish for it then."
"Yeah, because we don't have enough fish to last us a century." She rolled her eyes and laughed. Her laughter truly did something to the insides of me.
We made it back to the house and Bella went to pack bags for the kids and for Charlie. Carlisle took a quick once over Charlie and told him he looked about the same, even though I could tell Charlie was in pain. Carlisle gave him some pain medicine and told him not to drive, so Jake would need to come pick them up.
Bella came back down, bags in hand and could immediately tell something was up. We explained to her what was going on, and she got very worried. Carlisle convinced her everything was alright for them to go and she seemed to accept that.
Jake came in then and the kids were wrapped up in telling him about our day of baseball playing. He immediately started to feel jealous and protective. I could tell, but I wasn't saying anything. This is something he really is just going to have to sort through on his own. We have all said our peace about it, and there is no point in rehashing it.
They all left, excited and talking a mile a minute. Carlisle and Esme took off right after they did, saying they had some things to take care of. I tried not to think about those things... I couldn't blame them though. I really wanted to have some alone time with Bella. It seems that my wonderful siblings are making 'cockblocking' a trade...UGH!
They all wanted to hang out and talk, but I knew eventually, I would be chasing them off. Alice looked at me and whispered so Bella wouldn't hear, "Maybe you could go now while we are still here, get it over with." I wonder why she was so persistent, but I agreed. It had been a couple of days and I needed to be well fed, given the current situation.
I pulled Bella into the hallway, so I could at least feign privacy. "Darlin', I'm going to go hunt while everyone is still here with you. Do you mind? It will only be an hour or so." She smiled and pulled my body to hers, then wrapped her arms around my waist. She leaned in very close to me, so close I could feel her hot breath in my own mouth. "Hurry back to me." and then she pulled my mouth to hers and kissed me with fierce passion.
It took everything in me to pull back from her, but if I hurried, I'd be back to her sooner. I leaned my forehead against hers and closed my eyes.
"This right here, it feels like home to me. I never want to leave this bubble we are in right now. Don't worry; I won't be gone for long."
I kissed her again and then we walked hand in hand back toward the family room.
Emmett looked over to me and said, "Dude, I'm coming with you."
I gave Bella one more quick kiss and we left. Alice and Rosie were practically jumping up and down when we left, no doubt wanting to cluck like hens with Bella. I wasn't worried though. My Bella could take care of herself.
BPOV
Alice and Rose were ecstatic to get me alone and probe me. I didn't care; I needed to talk with them too. They pulled me up to my bedroom and we sat down on the bed, like we were in high school again. Well, they were more close to high school age in appearance than I would ever be again.
Rose was the first to start. "Girl, spill."
"Seriously, B, we need to hear it." Alice added.
"Alice, don't you think it's a little weird talking about this? And you already know what has and hasn't happened," I told her.
She grinned wide and said, "B, first of all, I don't think it's weird, so why should you?"
Rose interrupted, "Alice, it is a little weird."
"Seriously," I added.
"Sweetie, I love you and I don't have any problems with it, so I would love it if we could talk just like you would if it was someone else, okay?"
I contemplated that for a minute and realized that Alice must really need this if she is asking.
"Alright, Alice."
"And, yes I do know what has and hasn't happened yet, but Rose doesn't."
"Seriously, this morning was so funny; I thought I was going to roll on the floor laughing," Rose laughed.
I immediately flushed, but I tried to remember that they all knew everything about one another. And they wanted to include me in that equation.
"Okay, I even had to laugh at the 'cockblock' comment. I think Emmett got way too much pleasure out of my total mortification. And I was a little embarrassed, but not as bad as I thought I would be," I said.
"But, truthfully, I saved your ass big time by sending Emmett. I mean Charlie would've flipped his lid," Alice laughed.
"Save my ass you did, Alice. Thanks."
"Anytime, B, anytime..."
"The thing is, I have never really ever been kissed the way he kisses me."
"What?" they both yelled at the same time, two sets of eternal eyes bugged out in my direction. I jumped almost all the way off the bed, and then we laughed at them scaring me.
"Okay, what do you mean; you've never been kissed that way before?" Rose asked after we stopped laughing.
"Well, Edward hardly ever kissed me other than quick kisses. If I ever tried to deepen it, he would pull away and then chastise me for testing his limits. I usually always walked away hot and bothered, with absolutely no release in sight."
"You know, you would think with Edward seeing things in people's heads, he would get a clue to what a women needs, but no such luck. He's such a dumbass." Rose said.
"The thing is though, with Edward I could tell that he at least knew how to kiss right. He let his guard down just a handful of times and he could do it if he wanted to. But not Jake. I swear, I hope he has figured it out better with Leighla, because Jake does not know how to kiss a girl, at all."
"Wow, really?" Alice asked.
I shook my head. "All tongue, sloppy and hard. I never really felt any passion from his kisses." This always made me sad. I wished to feel more for Jake, at the time. He was everything to me and I would have stayed with him forever. Fate didn't work out that way and I am glad for it now.
"So...was he any good at...other things?" Rose questioned with a smirk on her face.
"Um...I don't...uh..."
"B, answer the damn question. We won't say anything and we won't embarrass you. Promise." Rose interrupted.
"Okay, here goes. Jake was an average lover at best. He just didn't get it. It wasn't all bad, but it definitely wasn't all good either."
"Oh, damn. I mean, that sucks big time, girl." Alice said.
"Yeah, he was really just focused on himself. It doesn't make any sense with the way he treated me elsewhere, but that's how it went. I think that maybe, practice would've made him better, years of practice, but we never made it that far."
Two beautiful vampires looked at me with shock and sadness on their faces.
"Have you ever...um...you know...had an orgasm?" Alice asked, sheepishly.
I laughed. "Yeah, but most have been self-inflicted."
"Oh my god, B. That makes me so sad, but don't you worry. That will change." Rose told me, dodging a pillow from Alice. My face was on fire now.
"Okay?" I said and they both laughed.
"Okay, how can I tell you this without completely mortifying you? Um, I don't think I can. Well screw it, I'm gonna tell you anyway. Jazz is an excellent lover. You don't need to worry about him not giving you what you need and want. He's very attentive and is focused on making sure...his partner...is satisfied."
I fell over on the bed and pushed a pillow into my face. This was probably the single most embarrassing conversation I ever had, but also very enlightening. The girls giggled at me and I peaked my head up to look at them.
"Um, thanks for letting me know, Alice." I told her and they just started giggling again.
"What are sisters for?" she smiled at me and I sat up.
"Well, apparently all my siblings are here to embarrass the shit out of me." I laughed. They laughed too.
"Honey, when you've been around as long as we have, you've seen lots of shit. We just embrace who we are, most of the time. We are sexual creatures. It is just the way it is. And we don't hide things in our family; we can't really. You'll see. Sex isn't something you have to be embarrassed at, B. It's natural and healthy and a hell of a lot of fun." Rose told me confidently.
I chuckled and said, "I guess your right. But truthfully that's not the only thing I am worried about."
Alice shook her head and said, "Just remember two things. First thing, you need protection. We don't know if the venom would hurt you, so I bought ya a box of condoms. They are in your bedside table. Second thing, Jasper is fully capable of being with you that way. He can control himself. He loves you and would never hurt you. Trust him and trust me. I've already seen, everything will be fine."
"I do trust him and you for that matter. I do have a question though. Edward had told me that it was impossible for him, but not for Jazz? Edward always had a tight grip on his control, as far as I could tell."
"Bella, do you remember your first time?" Rose asked.
Duh! It hurt and wasn't good at all.
"Yeah, not good times."
She chuckled but then said, "What happened when you were done though? Did you find anything on your sheets?"
If I remembered correctly, there is almost always something on the sheets. But she asked about my first time, so what is she getting at? Wait...something else was there, now that I thought about it. There was blood.
"Oh, my God, the blood."
"Yep and your blood called for Edward. He couldn't do that without coming in contact with your blood and he wouldn't put you in that danger, even though I personally think he would have done fine." Rose grimaced.
"Trust me; the outcome usually was not ever very favorable in that situation. It might be one of the reasons Edward eventually left, other than the obvious. His resolve was weakening with you. It's not that he didn't want you, not at all. He very much did, but he felt he might give in and then couldn't stop himself. He really loved you too much to let that happen." Alice told me.
"Here's the thing, though. Why couldn't he just talk to me, tell me his fears. I know if he had said anything to me about it, I would have listened to him."
"Because it's Edward, Bella. Did you ever stop to think for a minute that while it hurts, maybe he wasn't the one for you? That you weren't soul mates?" Alice asked.
"Yes, I do believe that now, but it would've been nice to know then."
"We agree, Bella. Edward should have never left the way he did, but that is something you will eventually have to take up with him yourself." Alice told me and my heart sped up considerably. When would Edward be making an appearance? She put her hand on mine. I looked in her eyes and started to calm down. "When?"
"I'm not entirely sure yet. He's keeping me out by constantly changing his mind, but I can tell it's in the next few days. Carlisle spoke with him last night and he is pissed. He doesn't know about you and Jasper's feelings yet, but he wants to kill Jacob. No doubt he will be bringing lots of drama."
"Wait, why does he want to kill Jacob? He can't hurt him. The kids." I felt panicked, but Alice brought me back again.
"Nobody is going to let him hurt Jake. He's pissed because you and Jacob aren't together anymore. He doesn't know Jake imprinted and I doubt it would matter either way. He is going to be angry with him either way. Don't worry. It will all be alright."
"Oh, Jesus...like I need one more thing to worry about right now."
Rose chuckled and said, "Don't worry! It will all work out alright and then we can move on from it. You just need to...um...find a way to...blow off some steam."
I swear, I don't think I had ever heard any of them stumble over their words like they had been lately. They both giggled like teens again and the conversation turned to lighter subjects, thankfully.
We decided to make our way to the kitchen for me to grab some dinner. I had leftover lasagna and garlic bread, and thought of something. "Hey, does garlic hurt you guys?"
They laughed and Alice said, "Nope, but it smells like shit. Brush your teeth when you're done eating." We laughed about that while I finished my meal. Then I went up to my bathroom to brush my teeth. When I walked back down the stairs, there he was. As glorious as ever, with his beautiful wind blown hair and gorgeous smile.
He saw me as I descended the stairs and as I moved to the bottom, he held his hand out for me to take. It was so sweet and gentlemanly and I loved that he made me feel like I was the only one in his universe. His smile was infectious and I could feel his love for me, pouring out of him. "You are so beautiful, Bella." he told me and I knew I loved him with all that I had to give.