A.N.: SURPRISE! :D a new update for you, a new year for me ;D

Thought i couldn't leave you hanging like that and decided that i update this real quick before i might not get a chance later due to birthday celebrations.

As always i hope you enjoy it.

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After last night's talk with Nell, Kensi was refreshed as she walked into the bullpen, with a still grumpy and sleepy Josh on her hip. Just as she had taken off her bag and put Josh down on the couch to sleep a little bit more, Nell came running down the stair motioning to Kensi to follow her. The analyst lead her away from the bullpen, where the rest of the team was currently working, and into a quiet corner of the mission.

"Alright, I managed to send Deeks a message about coming here today and he agreed. He doesn't know why but he's coming later around 4 or 5pm, and I'll just send him to the office you talked in yesterday. He couldn't really give me an exact time with the text code we used, but he's definitely coming," Nell said, smiling at Kensi who was visibly happier than yesterday.

"Thanks Nell. You're the best! If there's anything I can do, just let me know." The agent hugged her friend, thankful that she could complete the task she had asked.

"Don't worry.. I'll let you know," Nell just grinned cheekily, before heading back up to Eric to crack one of the two encrypted files that the CIA Agent had given Deeks to pass on.

During the day the agents just kept coming and going. Sam and Callen went to check out some of the suspect' old gang members while Kensi and Hannah had interrogated others in the boatshed, but all of them turned out to be saying the same; the suspect was clean – he hadn't had any illegal contact to other gangs and he wouldn't even meet up with his old fellows anymore. He would have rather lead a happy family life, which Eric had proved by going through his financial records. The guy had a low income, but still lived quite fully by buying baby things for his pregnant girlfriend.

Yet while they finally had something more interesting than paperwork to do, Kensi still couldn't shake off a weird feeling about later that day. Was it really a good idea to meet again? Especially after he had told her he had wanted to marry her? But she needed closure and meeting was what it would take to get that.

For their work, Hetty let the team off early, telling them to use the quality time. One by one they had left the mission, except from Eric, Nell, Hetty, Kensi, and therefore Joshua. The little boy wasn't at all disturbed by the fact that everyone had left, and instead kept building things with his blocks and writing stories which nobody else but him could read. Sometimes Kensi wondered if he could actually read what he had written or if it changed every time he did read it.

It was exactly 6.07pm when Deeks entered the mission, walking straight up to Nell who was already expecting him.

"The office," she just said and he knew exactly who would be in there when he walked in.

"Hey Kensi." He entered it, saw her standing by the window, nagging on her thumbs nail.

"Deeks." She whipped around.

"So…why exactly am I here, seeing as it's nothing case related?"

"Well…I…I needed to talk to you-"

"But we talked yesterday." He really didn't want a repeat of yesterday again. Of course it had been good to let it all out, and tell her everything. But still it was nothing he desired to repeat.

"Yeah, well actually that wasn't my point yesterday, I- we kind of headed off-topic."

"Okay, well then shoot."

"I…You…" she sighed, in her mind this had been a lot easier. 'Do it like a band aid', she told herself; quick and fast. "You're Josh's father."

Silence.

There was nothing to be heard in the room other than dead silence. At least that's what it felt like to Deeks. Kensi, on the other hand, couldn't hear anything other than the sound of her heart beating fast, the sound of adrenaline rushing through her veins. This was the moment that she had dreaded for so long.

"I'm sorry, did you just say I have a son?" Deeks whispered, his eyes closed. Damn him, Kensi thought, his eyes always showed how he felt and in this moment, when she needed to know the most, he had chose to hide that.

"Yes," Kensi replied, with nothing more than a breath. As fast as lightning, she went for the door and down the stairs into the bullpen where Eric was running through some feed on the plasma and Nell sat on the floor playing with Josh. Seeing Kensi arrive in a hurry Nell quickly hander Josh over, but instead of running away with Josh as she had expected, Kensi confused Nell by going back up the stairs again. Back to the room where Deeks still was.

Deeks was still stood where he had been when she had left, but when he heard her come back he suddenly whipped around, obviously just as shocked as Nell had been that she had returned.

"This.. This is Josh… Joshua," she said, and staring at him were two incredibly big blue eyes. They showed curiosity but also held a hint of mystery. "Your son," she added quietly.

"I just…" he started but closed his mouth again, like a gaping fish. He couldn't really say anything.

"I'm sorry," she said.

"I..I want to see him. I am his father after all, right? I have a right to see him…I know that," he began rambling. He had just found out that he had a song. And now the promise he had made to Ray so long ago could finally be fulfilled, he had sworn to him that if he had ever had kids, that he would be a better dad than his dad had been. This was his chance. He didn't care that he and Kensi had split, well he did care, but what was more important was that he would be there for Josh. His son. He would be a better father, even if they were split. Josh would not have to go through what he had gone through, that he was sure of.

"What?" Kensi asked shocked.

"I have a right to do so. He's my son," Deeks said, starting to pull all his knowledge of the law on her. And of course she knew that he had the right, but this wasn't how she had expected him to react.