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Now we'll get on with the story, thank you for your patience. I haven been able to write a lot cos there was so many tests and my term tests are just round the corner arrgh! Find out they will do with they baby in this chapter (I have already decided)

For those who will cry easily, please get ready a tissue paper cos I think some parts would bring out your tears :). Kk here's chapter 14, enjoy :)

Chapter 14: Raven's Present

Robin walked down the corridor towards Beast Boy's room. He wanted to have a talk with the changeling after sending the other Titans off. Starfire had insisted on accompanying Raven to the hospital and Cyborg drove the both of them there. Robin had stayed in the tower, because he had promised Raven he would stay and keep an eye on Beast Boy while she was away. Beast Boy's present was still sitting at where Raven had put it. Robin picked it up, hoping Beast Boy would at least look at what Raven had got for him.

"Beast Boy it's Robin. Can I come in?" Robin asked after a few knocks on the door.

"Robin I wish to be left alone."

"There is something important I want to talk about. It's no point locking me out since I have the keys to each and every one of your rooms." Robin heard Beast Boy sigh in defeat and the door slid open. The boy wonder walked towards the changeling, who was sitting on his bed.

"What is it? You are here to reprimand me isn't it?" Beast Boy demanded.

"I know it is Raven's fault but she doesn't deserve that. She-"

"Then you mean it is my fault? That I deserved it?" he glared angrily at the leader.

"Raven was confused at that point of time but she has already decided to tell you, you shouldn't-"

"She was confused then what about me? First the rape and now she is pregnant with Slade's child. I am so confused and I don't know what I should do. Clinging onto this relationship would only bring pain to the both of us." Beast Boy started tearing.

"The rape has brought pain to all of us but raven is the one going through it and the pregnancy. The pain and agony she feels is ten times as much as what you are experiencing now." He sat down beside Beast Boy. "Do you really want a break-up? Do you not love her anymore? Doesn't it occur to you that she is badly hurt and do you still care about Raven? Does she still mean the whole world to you?"

"I don't know! Stop confusing me with your question!"

"Maybe this would help you get a better understanding of what you really want you really want and clear your confusions." Robin handed Beast Boy the purple heart shaped box which he had been holding onto since he stepped into the room. Beast Boy took it hesitantly. He removed the lid with shaking hands and took a look inside. There was a big handmade birthday card with the words HAPPY BIRTHDAY in Raven's handwriting on the cover. He opened the card to read what was inside.

Dearest Beast Boy,

Happy birthday to you! You are now a year older than yesterday and I am sure you would be more matured than before. My presents are nothing great because I didn't spend a lot on them but I still hope you would like it. I've got four presents for you. First, the card you are holding onto now. Yup the one you are reading. I made it myself because I can't find any that could express my love for you or that could hold all of my feelings.

The second present is something I made for you too. Quick take it out from the box to see if you like it!

Beast Boy took the second present out from the box and realized that it was a hand knitted black woolen vest. He continued reading the card.

If you find it big, it's okay. I've been told that it would shrink after washing so I made it a few size bigger. It's going to be winter in a few weeks time so I made you this vest. I hope you would wear it for every mission in winter so that my feelings would be there to protect you from you from the cold and any possibilities of you getting hurt.

The third one is the present that I find the most meaningful.

Beast Boy took out a small box from the heart shaped box and opened it. There were two key chains of a broken heart. Both were purple and the names in green, Garfield and Raven, were printed on each heart respectively. He pieced the both of them together and got a perfect fit, a beautiful heart shape. He continued reading the card, wanting to know the significance of the present.

You now want to know the reason I said that right? Hmm…let me think…because we can put it on our communicator and you would miss me every time you see it. You like this answer? Okay I lied haha, but I like that idea too :)

The real reason is this: the heart with your name represent you and the one with mine represent me. We were both heart broken before. Terra betrayed your love and Malchior toyed with my feelings. Being heart broken is nothing that could heal completely or something that could be easily forgotten. Both of us should be very clear of this point but now then I realize two broken heart actually make one. You and me, together we are whole. Our hearts now beat as one and now I can finally feel freely. You are the one who made me completely, without I wouldn't even dare imagine how my life would be like now. Thank you Beast Boy, I love you.

Touched aren't you? But it's nothing compared to what you have given me. For your love, I'll do anything to make you happy. For you, you and only you.

I would like to end off this card with the last present. It is a poem I wrote for you and I hope you would like it. It is about my feelings and how I thought of you. It's what I want to tell you and here it goes:

A heartless demon once I was,

Never knew our paths would cross.

Coursing through a painful life,

Hurting like a thousand knives.

Feeling is what I must abstain,

That's why I am so restrained.

I am hard to understand,

But you just had to break this trend.

Cracking jokes is your life-long goal,

A smile you wish my lips would mould.

Even though I couldn't feel,

Seeing you fills me with zeal.

A smile on your face which I would pray,

Cause it would brighten up my day.

Immersing myself in a pool of lies,

But love you my emotions would remind.

No matter how hard I would try,

I couldn't live in self deny.

Darkness it always fills my heart,

So I'm not sure of where to start.

Then you came to be my guide,

Showing me where was the light.

It all started with a song,

Then I knew where I belong.

In your arms where I feel safe,

Unlike in a haunted cave.

My heart rippled with elation,

When I heard your love confession.

A part of me you wish to be,

Like leaves and flower to a tree.

My lips you sealed with a kiss,

Opened up my gate of bliss.

Our relationship is one that's rough,

With obstacles to block our paths.

I wanted you to be happy,

But only brought you misery.

After so much that you had to suffer,

Your love for me still didn't waver.

You want to always share my pain,

And shelter me from every rain.

Thank you is what I wish to say,

And in some way I shall repay.

But even if we had to part,

Etch you I will in my heart.

That's all I have to say. I love you darling.

P.S : Can you meet me on the roof at 8pm after the party? There is something really important that I have to tell you personally.

Robin saw Beast Boy staring at the card for along time and called out to him.

"Beast Boy are you all right?"

"Robin," Robin saw tears flowing down his face. "Where is Raven? Where is she?" he yelled. "Quick tell me where she is, I want to see her now!"

"She went to the city's hospital to have an abortion." Beast Boy's eyes widened and rushed out of the room. "Beast Boy wait…" Robin gave chase but the changeling was nowhere to be seen.

Starfire, Raven and Cyborg were in the waiting room, waiting (of course haha) for Raven's name to be called.

"Friends I shall go buy some drinks for all of us!" Starfire said cheerfully and flew off after breaking the silence.

"Rae are you sure you want this?" Cyborg asked and took her small hand in his.

"I…I don't know." Raven turned to face him and looked down on the floor.

"Is this what you really want? You can still reconsider it."

"I don't know." She started crying and Cyborg moved in to hug her. "Beast Boy doesn't want the baby so I…" she trailed off and sobbed.

"You should only do this if you are the one who wants it, not Beast Boy."

"I don't know….I wanted to keep it at first but it would only open up my wound and remind me of he rape. I can't possibly raise the baby, not alone and not without Beast Boy. I need someone to cling onto, someone who can give me assurance and someone who can give me a sense of security to face this. I can't do it alone, I…I can't keep the baby."

"Raven you-"

"Miss Raven Roth." A nurse interrupted them. Raven wiped away her tears and stood up.

"You guys don't have to wait for me. It will take quite some time to get it done."

"No, we will wait here for you. Rae," he went over to hug the dark girl. "good luck."

"Thanks Cyborg." Raven smiled gratefully when he let go. "Don't worry, I'll be fine." She gave an assuring smile and followed the nurse.

Beast Boy turned into a cheetah and sped down the street, ignoring all eyes on him. He kicked off the ground forcefully and sprang as far as he could. He ran so fast that everything was a blur. The only thing in his eyes was the hospital and his mind was filled with images of Raven.

She was licking his hand affectionately, but stopped when she found him staring at her. "Did I hurt you?"

"Just don't lie to me Beast Boy."

'I won't.'

"Please stay, I…I want to be with you."

"I don't want to be alone." Raven said timidly.

"I'm here Rae. I won't let you feel alone."

"I love you, you are worth everything and to me you are my everything." She gently caressed his cheek. "When I saw you in danger, the only thing on my mind was to save you, to let Overload get me instead you. I don't want to see you hurt, that's all that I could think of at that moment."

"You said you would never let me be alone." She pleaded, her eyes welled up with tears.

"I just want you to be happy."

"Beast Boy, I love you. Don't ever leave me." She said softly.

"Please stop! I'll do what ever you say!"……"I'm sorry Beast Boy, just be safe."

"I want to share your pain, you're not going to suffer alone." He bit into her flesh and left a red ring on her arm.

"Meeting you is the greatest joy of my life."

"There is only enough space in my brain and heart for you, you and only you. I can't think of anyone except the guy that I treasure most."

"Really?"

"How can u be so cruel?"

"I'll do anything to make it up to you, just don't…just don't leave me. I'm not strong enough, I don't want to be alone anymore. I'll die if you leave me."

'How can I be so cruel? Why did I have to do that to her? She needs me more than anything and I smashed her into pieces. She does not deserve all these and it's all my fault for hurting her.' He let out a roar and tears welled up in his eyes.

'Raven I'm sorry for breaking your heart. Please forgive me, I really do love you. Please Rae, you have to wait. You have to wait for me, you have to. There is so much that I want to tell you. I'm coming for you now and you have to wait. Please Rae you just have to.

Raven lay on the operating table and stared at the ceiling. The buzzing of the machines and the bright light resulted in her nervousness, causing her to fidget around.

"Nervous?" The doctor sitting beside her asked with a kind smile. Raven nodded and looked around, seeing a few nurses busy with something. She noticed the doctor's name tag which read Dr Li, Gladys.

"I'm scared too." Raven confessed honestly. "Is it painful?"

"It will of course cause pain but it depends on your level of tolerance to judge whether it is painful or not. We would inject anesthetics into your body so you do not have to worry too much about the pain." Dr Li assured and took her hand.

"Can I do without it?"

"But my dear it would hurt a lot if you don't want the anesthetics and I haven't tried to do without it before."

"I'll take the risk." Raven looked at her stomach and patted it gently. "Since I chose to kill it, I should bear its pain too."

"Okay then if that is what you want. But I will give it to you if I think you need it okay?" Raven nodded and agreed with her condition. "I will now do a check up for you to see if you are fit to undergo the operation. You just wait here okay?" The doctor smiled and walked towards the nurses to get Raven's reports.

Raven lay there and thought of reconsidering her choice. She really didn't want to kill the baby but she knew she couldn't raise the baby without Beast Boy's support if she were to keep it.

"You ready?" Raven was so deep in thought that she had not notice Dr Li returning to her side. She sighed, knowing that it was too late to back out now.

"Yeah I guess so." Raven answered and closed her eyes. Dr Li proceeded and put her gloves on. "Wait!" Raven's eyes shot open. "I…can I talk to the baby first?"

"Sure." Dr Li said gently. Raven put her right hand on her stomach and stroked it slowly.

"Hello there little one. I'm sorry that I have to do this but I really don't want you to suffer because I can't give you happiness. You can blame me for what I have brought upon you. I just wish you would have a better and responsible mother in your next life, I…" she started crying, "I love you." Raven closed her eyes, tears pouring out of her tightly shut eyes. "I'm done." She whispered.

Dr Li stood up and got ready the surgical instruments. She was about to insert it into Raven's body but stopped when she heard a commotion outside the operation theater.

"Let me go! I want to see Raven!" Raven's eyes flew opened when she heard her name. "Raven!" he shouted and kicked the door open.

"Beast…Beast Boy." Raven sat up to have a better view of what was happening. Beast Boy was restrained by three doctors and a security guard. But nonetheless, he pushed them aside and ran towards where Raven was.

"I'm sorry Dr Li. This man came barging in and we couldn't stop him. We'll get him now." The youngest looking doctor said and the four of them went forward to grab Beast Boy.

"Stop, it's alright. Let him go." Dr Li said and nodded, assuring them when they looked at her doubtfully. The four of them bowed slightly and left the operation theater. Raven used the right sleeve of her gown to wipe the beads of sweat trickling down Beast Boy's forehead and looked at him worriedly.

"Rae…" he panted to catch his breath and took her small hand.

"Are you hurt or something?" He shook his head and pulled her into his chest.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what I have said and done to you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Raven raised her head from his still heaving chest and caressed his cheek, wiping away his tears.

"Don't blame yourself." she started crying, "I'm the one who is at fault and I have never been angry with you. It is not your fault."

"No Raven, I should have been there when you were confused over what to do with the baby. I should have been with you to face it and not let you carry the entire burden. I said I love you and I wanted to share your pain but I only made empty promises, hurting you again and again. I'm sorry." He placed his hand on her stomach and rubbed it gently. "I want the baby, I promise I will take good care of you and the baby. Rae let's keep it, give the baby a chance and also give me a chance to redeem myself. Let your baby be mine and let it be ours okay?"

"Beast Boy but I-" he hugged her tightly.

"So you are saying that you don't forgive me and so you do not want the baby?" she shook her head at his question. "I promise I will take good care of you and the baby. I promise I won't break this promise no matter what. Trust me Rae, let's keep this little one and let me father it okay?" Raven nodded and was pulled into a passionate kiss after her reply. Dr Li smiled and clapped for the couple, which was soon joined in by other nurses.

"So I shall go for some coffee and early lunch in the canteen now." Dr Li said in a cheery voice and stood up.

"Thanks Dr Li." Raven said gratefully.

"Just glad the little one did not have to die and to see you guys patch up." Both of them smiled gratefully and Beast Boy carried Raven to change back into her clothes.

A/N: yay they patched up :) and decided to keep the baby. What will happen in the next chapter (I'm still thinking also)? So stay tune to the next chapter of NIGHTMARE.

In your reviews can you guys tell me which is your favourite present of the four cos I want to know which one is the most meaningful and popular and also if you liked the poem, i'm bad at poems, sigh :(

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