Chapter 14: More Than Worth It

When I woke up the next morning I felt a dull ache in my legs and arms and my back felt like it was burning. I got up and looked at my reflection, trying to understand why it was hurting so bad just to stand. I had a bit of a hickey on my neck but I could keep it hidden with my hair. I lifted my shirt and turned and looked at my back. My upper back was covered in little scratches and red spots that looked like fabric burn. I was just wearing my sleeping shorts so when my gaze fell to the backs of my thighs I saw long purple and blue bruises going in a few different directions. It was unmistakably from where Jake was holding me against the tree. I turned again and looked at my front. There were circular bruises on my hips. I calculated how I felt l all over, and I really wasn't hurting that bad. I just needed to stretch out a bit. I knew none of the marks were intentional, and I knew for a fact that I wanted him to do everything he did, so I wasn't mad or even upset. My back did hurt a little, but I'll take some Tylenol and I'll be just fine. I was just worried what Jake would say when he saw them.

No doubt he will act all protective and treat me like something fragile and regret doing it. Now he was probably never going to touch me again...

Well, not if I had anything to say about it. All I could think about as I got dressed was how amazing making love with Jake was, and that it was more then worth it...

School went by so very slowly. I looked at my Planner and counted the days I had left until I graduated; 35. June 11th could not get here soon enough for me. I did all my work and got our schedule for our finals. In English, I saw Jessica looking at me and then turn around to talk to Lauren. When Lauren made it a point to look around Jessica to stare at me, I got a little more then annoyed. What was their problem?

I decided to ignore them, even when they started laughing about something loudly. I had better things to do then worry about them.

At lunch, I talked to Angela for awhile about Graduation and what her plans were. When Jessica and Lauren sat at the table I acted as if nothing was wrong and tried to be nice. When I left to throw away my tray, I decided to swig back by the table and ask if Angela wanted to hang out sometime and meet Jake. It was time he met some of my friends. Maybe she and Ben would want to double date? We made plans to call each other soon and get together.

I suffered through my last class, Chemistry. I already knew how to balance equations! I just wanted to hang out with Jake already!

After what seemed like the hundredth time I looked at the clock I had a bit of a nervous twinge. I was getting really dependent on Jake, just like I had been with... Him. Okay, is still hurts to much to say his name, so sue me. But I just don't get it... Why does my happiness depend on what guy I am with?

I thought back to what it was like before I moved to Forks. I was just a normal teenage girl. I went to school and made good grades. I spent time with my Mom and I had a few friends I was close to. I had never had a boyfriend before, but that had never bothered me at all. I was always perfectly content to curl up with a good book rather then to 'go out.' I had never really met any boy who was on the same level mentally or intellectually or even emotionally. Until I met...

But I mean, technically he doesn't count because he has been 17 for how long? So he had a lot of practice... I groaned inwardly but I physically put my hands to my temples as if I could will my brain to stop letting every last single thing lead back to Edward. Angela tapped my shoulder and asked if I was okay. I tried to smile and said "Yeah, it's just a headache. I'm ready to go home." I turned back around and glanced at the clock again and this time I groaned out loud... 45 more minutes to go...

School was finally over and I had just changed out of my school clothes when Jake was walking through the door. When he saw me he picked me up in a tight hug. He let me go so I could breathe but then just covered my mouth with his. I latched onto him and wouldn't have let him pull away even if he would have tried. I wiggled in his arms until he sat me down. The hight difference caused us to have to part lips. I looked up at him and let him see my Real Smile for a second before leading him upstairs.

When we got in my room he started to say something but I cut him off. I was already unbuttoning my pants and hopping out of them and started pulling up my shirt while saying, "Talk later, kiss me, now..." When my arms were free I ran and jumped into his arms. He caught me and pulled me up his his muscular chest while I entwined myself into his strong from as much as possible. His lips found mine and I sighed with happiness. We played with our tongues and shared being the kisser and kissed. I bit his bottom lip and pulled it in my mouth before he did then same while walking us forward until we landed on my bed. It squeaked and groaned on protest from our weight but I was to caught up in Jake to care. This is what I had been waiting for all day...

In no time Jake had been divested of his clothes and I took a minute or two or five to admire every last ripped inch of his body. His rich skin was the color of the coffee I made in the morning... The perfect mix of cream and sugar and bitter black. I dragged my nails around and felt the goosebumps erupt under my fingertips. I kissed and sucked on his neck and when I reached down and cupped his hardness he moaned and pushed me down and took control.

He nibbled on my earlobe and asked, "What do you want, Bella?"

"I want you, now." I was trying to push my hips up and wrap my legs around him, but he had me pinned. He kissed my lips and caught my hands in his and pushed them back. He ran his hands along my arms and down my sides. He cupped my breasts and laved attention upon them both. I was already more then ready for him so he was just making it worse. I brought my hands back to him and clawed his back and shoulders. He took my hands in his again and this time held them in place, pressed against the mattress at my sides. He stopped suckling at me long enough to say,

"It's my turn." with the sexiest smirk I'd ever seen him where. "Close you eyes, and let me do the work."

"I want you to do me!" but I complied anyways. I let my body relax and I shut my eyes. Suddenly his mouth was on my neck, trailing down my collarbone and over and around my breasts. I was trying to hold still, but I couldn't help but arch my back and buck my hips so that they would grind against his every now and then. I could feel his hardness digging into my thigh and I wondered how he was controlling himself for so long. He scooted down the bed and let my hands go. I was about to open my eyes and see what he was doing when I suddenly felt his finger at my entrance. My toes curled and I moved my hips around trying to feel more. "Please..." I whimpered. I felt his tongue flick over my sensitive flesh and cried out. Not seeing what was coming next really seemed to enhance everything tenfold. He used his mouth and one finger until I felt mini spasms clenching my muscles together and started begging Jake to get on with it. "Please, take me. Please, now..." He didn't listen, just added a finger and curled them inside me. He sucked the small bundle of nerves and I came screaming his name and a few curse words. "Jake, damn you, you bastard! Finish it!"

He was suddenly on top of me and inside me. My eyes flew open and I cried out in happiness. He was filling me up so full and all I could say was, "Yes, yes, yes, yesyesyesyes...." I locked my legs around him as he slammed his hips into mine repeatedly. He caught my hands and pinned them over my head. He held me down with his weight as he pushed himself up to so he could get in at a new angle. I was moaning ceaselessly, my cries only punctuated with either his name or a 'Yes'. I shuddered in less then a minute and felt the tide hit the shore once more.

Jake must have sensed my release because he slowed his thrusts laid back down on me, kissing every bit of me he came in contact with. I pushed against his restraining hold and asked, "Is it my turn yet?" He grunted in response and pounded into me a few more times before he sat up on his knees, bringing me up with him. I braced my legs as best I could and I rocketed my hips frantically. It was like I was trying to get there as fast as I possibly could, and that wasn't even enough. Jake was gripping me bottom and using his arms to help me rock into him with more force. I had one hand fisted in his hair and the other was gripping his broad, sexy, man shoulders. When I felt the tension the was building snap, I clawed and ripped through his skin. Both of us were yelling and panting but it was still not over.

Jake pushed me back down and raised my feet and placed them on his shoulders. He never left me, and when he leaned his weight forward and to thrust himself deeper, he pushed my legs forward and rammed right into my Happy Button. I screamed out and raised my hips so he could get even further and almost cried for joy. I came again and soon after again. Jake was like a Spartan Warrior, he never surrendered. We weren't making love anymore. This was raw, animalstic like fucking. I had no idea where he was finding the energy to keep this up but I was in no way complaining. I felt so sore but I still wasn't ready to stop. Jake slowed and I parted my legs, giving him room to lay on top of me.

We were both sweaty and having a hard time catching our breaths. When we finally did, I heaved as hard as I could and barely even raised him at all but he got the idea. He pulled out and flopped on his back. I stretched out for a second before rolling over and crawling up on his chest. I teased him by sitting directly on top of him, but not where he could get inside. I moved my hips a little and he closed his eyes like he was trying to block it out. "What is it? Are you done?" I said in mock sadness, for I knew exactly how not done he was. He laughed and pulled me down to him and kissed me deeply before taking me by the hips and slamming me back down right onto his throbbing shaft. I wailed and buck and rode him until we both came screaming the others name. I fell down on top of him and he closed me up in his arms. I could feel his heart about to beat out of his chest and could tell mine was fluttering just as fast. I almost let myself drift off, but Jake broke my trance and said,

"We need to get cleaned up before Charlie gets home." I groaned like a little kid and said,

"I don't want to..." But he just laughed and before I knew it, we were sliding off the bed and I was being carried off to the bathroom. When we got there he sat me down and turned to leave but I took his hand and said, "Will you take a shower with me? I'll wash your back for you..." He looked very pleased at the thought and started the water for us while I twisted my hair into a little knot at the top of my head.

We climbed in and I got wet first. I grabbed my loofah and soap and switched with Jake. We moved around well enough even though it was a small bath. As I lathered up, I became mesmerized by the way the water ran down his chest in little rivulets and the flex of his arms and chest. He caught me staring and laughed. He took my loofah and said, "I'll get that for you."

He started with my arms and rubbed in small circles all over until he thought it was clean enough and then did the same to the other. Then he moved to my breasts and took his time there, before continuing to work his way down. When he got to my hips he stopped and used his hands to wipe away some suds to look more closely. I had forgotten about all the marks and almost regretted us taking a shower together. He looked in my eyes and I saw the concern written on his face without him even saying a word. He knelt in front of me and soaped my thighs and gasped when he traced the bruises around to the back and saw the worst of them. He turned me around and shouted, "Bella!" I tired to face him but he held me in place and continued to wash every square inch of my body. When he was done and he let me face him again I embraced him and said,

"Jake, you didn't hurt me. I wanted you to do everything you did, and I wouldn't change a thing. Look at your shoulders and your back. It looks like I used you for a nail sharpener." He gave me a weak smile and let my waist go, so I took my loofah and re-lathered it and started washing him the same way he washed me. When we were done and dried and dressed again I tried again, "Please don't make a big deal out of this." He didn't say anything and looked down at his hands like he had never seen them before. "Say something, Jake. Please."

"I'm just so sorry. I promised I would never hurt you, and now..." He looked pained and it almost broke my heart. I did not want this...

"Don't beat yourself up about this, okay? It's not like anyone will see it and know it's there..." He interrupted with,

"I will see it, and I know it's there. Thats all that matters. Whats worse, is that I didn't even realize I was hurting you. What if I really hurt you next time? I couldn't deal with that. Maybe we shouldn't..." I interrupted him this time and said,

"Don't even think of finishing that, because it's not gonna happen. Now, listen to me. This is not an issue and it is officially dropped. I am fine, you are fine, and I think we should go crash on the couch for awhile, how bout you?" He shook his head and kissed me softly.

"What am I going to do with you?" I laughed and said,

"Actually, I have a few ideas..." We both laughed and walked downstairs. We laid on the couch and he held me close like he always does, and I felt perfect and happy, like I always do when I am with him. As I was drifting off to sleep Jake said,

"I'm still sorry..." I sighed heavily and mumbled for him to shut up and sleep before I did just that.

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A/N: So I am about to really move this along, it's just that every time I start to, they just end up doing each other like rabbits. Can you blame them though? Well, just leave me some reviews and I will try to have 15 up soon.