Does Anybody Want Me?

Chapter 14

I can't believe it's been two years since Jake's death and my life came to a halt.

It was almost six months after the loss of my baby that Emmett finally cornered me and made me listen to him.

I'll never forget that day. It was a really bad day for me, Rose and Edward were out of town for their anniversary, the kids were in Forks with the grandparents, I was alone and had recently took up drinking on my days off, only. I knew I wouldn't be going anywhere, I was locked inside my little apartment, away from the world, and I would drink my pain away.

I had drank my way through a bottle of rum and was asleep in bed.

I didn't even hear him come in.

I'm guessing Edward and Rose knew about my new problem, I tried to keep happy around them and this is one of the ways that helped.

"Bella! Bella! Wake your ass up now!" he shook me.

"Go away!" I swatted at him.

The next thing I know I'm being picked up and thrown into a cold shower.

"What the fuck!" I jump up yelling and screaming. Looking around for the asshole I'm about to kill.

"I told you to get up!" he growled.

"How the hell did you get in her Emmett?" I screamed.

"Edward gave me the spare key to come check on you. You're in the same place I left you last night before the game, in the same scrubs you wore to work and you smell and look like shit!" he was pissed.

"Why am I any of your concern Emmett? All I am is Edward's little sister? A Bug, A pest." I screamed still standing in the shower.

Emmett reached in and turned it off to stop my chattering teeth and wrapped me in a towel.

"Please, get dressed so we can talk. I'll brew some coffee, OK." He said much softer.

"OK." I sighed.

I dressed and headed to the couch where he was waiting.

"I wasn't sure how you take your coffee…" he started but I held up my hand.

"Black, the stronger the better." I gave a small smile.

"I agree." He nodded.

"I'm sorry for avoiding you and being a bitch. I just have my own shit to deal with and having to watch Ken and Barbie with their perfect family makes me so jealous sometimes I just want to move out." I ranted.

"Hey, it's OK. I'm on your side. I understand more than you think. Can I tell you something that happened to me?" he asked all calm and serious.

I nodded and turned to face him on the couch.

"OK, you know years ago when I played pro ball and blew out my knee, right?" he asked.

"Yeah, I remember coming to see you as a team doctor." I smiled.

"Ok, yeah, well. I had been with Melody for two years and we were pretty serious, I was even going to ask her to marry me at Christmas. Edward and Rose met her and although they weren't buddy, buddy right away I wasn't worried, I know Rose is a little hard at times. Any way things were going great, our team was going away for a couple of games and she tells me the night before I leave she's pregnant. I was so happy I blurted out how much I was in love with her and how I couldn't wait to make her my wife and see our child grow and so on and so forth and asked her to marry me and told her as soon as I got back I'd have a right for her. She seemed so happy, she agreed! She said yes! She even said she wanted a little girl!" he was crying a little now. "Then before the game, I mean RIGHT before the game, the couch calls and says I have an emergency call and to hurry the hell up. I pick up the emergency line its Melody.

"Hey, I know you've got to go, but I thought a lot about what you said and I just can't do this.

I'm not ready to be a mom or a wife.

I want to party, I want to have fun and sleep around.

So thanks."

I went out on the field in a complete daze, not knowing what in the hell she was talking about, if she'd be at our place when I got home, was she keeping the baby? I had all this shit running through my mind, so when I got tackled I didn't even know it was coming, wasn't expecting the fall and BAM! I felt my knee go and knew at that very moment it was all over. When I got back home there was a note telling me she was sorry, she couldn't go through with having a baby and being tied down. She had an abortion while I was gone, moved out and to not bother her again." He shook his head at the memory.

"Oh, Emmett. I'm so sorry." I grabbed his hand and squeezed.

"I still think about 'what if' to this day Bella, but I can't hold on to the past. If I did, I'd have never moved on. I still haven't found anyone to share forever with, but I know she's out there and I know when the time is right we'll cross paths." He shrugged.

"It's great that you've got to that place, but I don't see how that helps me." I shook my head.

"Don't you see? You're still here for a reason! It's time for you to seek some grief counseling and move on. And just for the record, I don't see you as a Bug or Pest anymore. Not since I saw you at that game a few years ago. Edward should've never allowed you to wear those shorts. I haven't stopped thinking about you since. Married or not." He shook his as he stood and walked to the door. "Bella, please take care of yourself, I'd like to be the one to help you put yourself back together." He whispered the last part through a cracked voice.

I sat on the couch that afternoon and looked for grief counselors. I was ready to put myself back together, I had to.

I was letting too many people down and not just people who were living.

AN:

Much shorter I know…

Emmett to the rescue!

Their 'relationship' will start as friendship, so please do

Look for an instant 'love'… They won't be in bed together…

And yes, Edward knows of Emmett's feelings, hence the key…

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