"Okay, now promise me something. Promise me that you can hold on a bit longer. I can get us out of here, but it'll take a little time. I might lose my way, but I promise you, that I will get you out of here." He whispers, and unconsciously he has begun to rub soothing circles on my hand, just like I had done before. Only this time it was real.

The smallest of smiles begins to make its way to my lips. "I promise." I say and I mean it.

I'm Sorry

7 days have passed since my promise to Jace.

1 fatal loss.

The day after Jace's unprecedented visit, he gave into Valentine's deal.

7 DAYS AGO

I wake up to hushed noises from Jace's cell. My body is stiff and weak, and I feel dirty. I squint my eyes and make out three people surrounding Jace. A guard dressed in black, Sebastian and Valentine. They look amused, all except Jace.

"Excellent." I hear Valentine clasp his hands together, then turn on his heels before walking out of the cell. Sebastian and the guard follow closely behind, as obedient followers. Although Sebastian seems more tense than Valentine.

I fight into a sitting position and stare through the glass that's separating us. I'm not sure what our relationship is, let alone what we are to each other. The one thing I know, is that I have feelings for him. I might even love him, but I'm not sure yet. I'm confused and light headed.

Then he turns his head. His golden eyes shine, his hair is ruffled but he holds a soft look in his eyes, he reserves for me. I've noticed. But his eyebrows are furrowed, and his mouth is drawn into a sad frown. He looks devastated, before averting his gaze. I frown in confusion. Why did he look so sad? Did he regret everything that has happened between us?

Two guards enter his cell with a new set of black clothes. They unshackle and lead him out of the cell. That was the last time I saw Jace. That was the last time I was convinced of my feelings for him. Because what he did was unforgivable.

PRESENT

My skin has also cracked with dryness. The first few days I cried so much, the stains eventually led to dryness. My eyes are undoubtedly still red from all the tears. At the end there were no more tears to give. No more late night pillows that became drenched with tears. The one thing that came out of the loss of Jace, were the showers. I was allowed a 5 minute shower everyday, granted that the water was cold and that there was only one bar soap, that I also had to use for hair. I am pulled out of my thoughts at the glass doors open to my cell.

Sebastian comes striding in, his hands in his pockets. He's been visiting me every day, and apart from taking my blood, he also comes to fill in the gaps of boredom. I've gotten used to the shortage of blood in my body. I can feel that my cheeks have become hollow, and my body is in a constant state of weakness. He has come to take my blood again. He pulls the metal tray closer and begins to disinfect the needle. When he's finished he looks at me, and I give a slight nod signalling that I'm ready. I wince as I feel the needle penetrate my skin. I feel the rush of blood leaving my body, and the light headedness has come back in full force. My fists clench involuntarily and I groan in pain. When some of the pain has subsided, I am able to see clearly again.

Sebastian is looking at me. A strange look is haunting his eyes, distorting his pretty features.

"What?" I sigh quietly.

He has thrown the needle out and the blood is in a transparent jar made of glass.

"I don't want this." He says so quietly, I am not sure I even heard it.

"Want what?" I whisper. I want to crane my neck, but even as I will my body to do it, it fails me. I can't move, so I gently lie down. Sebastian stands and helps me down to a lying position as softly as he can.

"I never wanted to hurt you. It wasn't part of the plan." He said catching my gaze, and holding it steady. "If I'd known. If I'd just have known. Father said he wouldn't cause you any pain, but I guess we both know that's not true."

I looked at him, completely caught off guard and stunned at the same time. I feel a deep aching inside of me, and I realise it is empathy. Until I remember what he did to me. He hurt me. He beat me up.

"So what happened in the alley wasn't causing me pain?" I say defensively. Anger begins to well up inside of me.

An inexplainable pain crosses his face. "That was before I got to know you. These past few days have...have taught me something. I think. And..and I'm sorry" He adds. It sounds to truthful and from deep down, that I am too stunned to speak.

I almost laugh. Sebastian has never been the emotional kind who confesses his feelings as soon as he feels them. He must've really thought this over before telling me. We end up sitting in silence, and for once I feel like I have a brother. Someone who cares for me.

I fall asleep with Sebastian beside me. When I wake up, he is gone and it unsettles me for some reason. The lights are turned off, and everything is dark. I frown, they always leave a night light on. I hear the glass doors slide open, and light footsteps getting louder and louder. At first I think it is Sebastian, but I can recognise the pair of golden eyes anywhere. I lie paralysed as he approaches carefully.

Jace kneels beside me. "Clary?" He whispers.

I feel tears pressing on, but I manage to hold them back.

"Go away." I say as coldly as I can. I hear him sigh deeply. Then I feel a hand on my cheek. I am too weak to move away.

"Remember I told you that I might lose my way?" He continued, softly caressing my cheek whilst wiping the silent tears away. And suddenly everything became clear.

"W-What? Was this all a scam?" I ask incredulously.

"Yes." He replied softly. Anger replaces the lost feeling that has been nestling inside of me for a whole week.

"How could you do this?! Leaving me to believe the worst about you!" I say accusingly.

"I know, and I deserve it. I'm sorry." His voice is thick with guilt. There is silence for a while, where I can feel him touching my cheek and whispering soothing sounds into my ear as I let the tears out. I feel confused and tiny, but most of all I feel relieved.

"Clary you have to listen to me carefully, when I say this. I've managed to contact Maryse, and using my stele, they've been able to track us down. They'll have a rescue team come here, in two days exactly. Can you hold on for two more days? Promise?" He whispers referring to the previous promise we'd made 7 days ago.

"Promise." I say. Before I regret it, I lean forward and my weakness seems to vanish for a moment. I feel Jace leaning forward too. Ever so slowly I feel his lips hover against mine. Not wasting any more time, I slam my lips forcefully onto his. He replies by wrapping his hand around the nape of my neck and pulling me towards him. I sigh against him.

Two days.

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~Roluv3r