Hey guys. So, this is not my best, not my worst, its just okay, I couldn't for the life of me, figure out how to end this chapter, so I did what I did at the end. Hope you enjoy,

Heartbreaker

Sorry? What is there to be sorry about? Ah, fuck, my head hurts. Kikyo goes into another fit of hiccuping sobs. Why am I with Kikyo? Wheres Sesshoumaru? Or my car, or my mom, or something, dammit!

My head is pounding ridiculously. It's pulsating, almost. "Sorry? I don't know what you're talking about, why am I here?"

She exhales and in her shaking voice says, "Oh, Kami!" Before making a scary sounding cry while sobbing some more.

I lower myself on the floor with her. "Kikyo, whats wrong? What happened?"

Her red, puffy, eyes meet mine. She can't speak without sobbing as well, "I'm vile, Inuyasha, I'm so sorry-"

What the fuck is going on here? I can't remember anything, I remember going to a club with Sesshoumaru. And having a few drinks. Maybe it was five?

"Shit," I say, my claws dart to my forehead, my headache just got about twelve times worse. And you can add three times to that twelve because Kikyo just whined really loud. I grip her forearm. "What the fuck happened, Kikyo?" My own voice doesn't sound as serious as I want it to, it sounds desperate, and scared. Her eyes fill up again and she starts to sob.

I'm trying to make an attempt to ask her again, but now I have to fight off a wave of nausea. Oh, shit, my stomach just crumpled up, I'm sure.

"Kikyo," I rasp, "please tell me why I'm here, why you're here,"

She says, "L-last, I-"

Oh hell! I practically crawl as fast I can to a small trash can. The bile comes out of me with so much force, my eyes water, my skin feels too hot.

"Fuck, fuck," I say, after most of it is out. Kikyo pulls back my tangled hair. "This could have been prevented, all my fault...." She mumbles.

I lightly push her hands off my hair. "What did I do? Why are you crying like this?"

"Because of last night! I used you," She shrieks, standing up.

I used the couch a a crutch a I slowly rise to my feet. "How did you use me?"

She puts one hand in her hair, and another on her face and sobs, making her whole frame shake. She speaks in a tortured sounding voice, making hiccup sounds because she's trying to talk and cry at the same time.

She repeatedly takes that one hand through her hair. "Last night, I went to the shrine to pray, and when I was leaving, I saw you-" She makes another loud as fuck sob sound, my head is still pulsating with pain, the nausea is creeping up on me again too. I groan. "Kikyo, tell me the rest."

"A-an I knew you were drunk right away , but that didn't stop me, you kiss me, and told me to enjoy myself...."

I can't remember any of that, I remember Sesshoumaru, having a few drinks, then the rest is a haze--

But I kinda remember the Higurashi Shrine, and the feeling of want. I was dying to touch someone, shit. "Stop crying, Kikyo, just for a minute. What did we do after that?"

Her eyes looks scared, and pained. "I took advantage of you. You didn't know you were with me, you never even said my name, and I wanted to see how it would feel to be touched by you, like you love me."

Woah, shit, I'm not sure if I'm gonna pass out from the headache, nausea, or what she just told me. I think it was a combination of all of them. Sharp pain in the back of my head, and now everything is black.

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I blink and my eyes hurt like a motherfucker, damn sunshine. The tan sheets are on me again, but for the most part I'm not nauseas, and I think the headache is gone for now. Damn hangover. I raise up in the small bed, and I'm in the same room again. It's warm, and empty. What happened to Kikyo?

Again, I throw the sheets off of me, and poke my head in the den looking room. I don't smell Kikyo in here, I open a door thats beside the den door, and theres the hallway.

I need to find Kikyo. I need to know exactly what happened last night, why I'm here, why I'm slightly hungover,

I round a corner, this is the hall I remember leading to the kitchen. Was I sick last night? No, Kikyo said she saw me at Higurashi Shrine, and we kissed, okay made a mistake there, then I said 'enjoy yourself' apparently. Now, I'm really doing drawing a blank. Then she took advantage of me. Oh, shit. I hope that means she cuddled me all night.

I find her in the living-room, on the couch. She's been done crying for a little while, the scent of her tears is nowhere near as strong as it was earlier. I don't think she even knows I'm in the room with her, with her hanging down like that.

"Kikyo,"

She looks up, eyes wide. Then her cheeks become red as if I've embarrassed her by walking in the room. "You're shirt, keys, and phone are on the table right here," She says, pointing to the small lamp table next to the couch she's on.

She seriously expects me to just leave after something happened last night that I can't quite remember and she cries when thinking about?

I walk over to the table and take my shirt, and pull it on. I stuff my keys and phone into my pockets. I can feel her watching me every time I move, whether I'm just shifting my weight, or straightening my shirt.

I sigh. "How did you take advantage of me?"

She makes eyes with me, and I can see that her resolve is a lot stronger now. She rearranges herself on the couch so that her legs are folded, underneath one another. "I knew how drunk you were yesterday, and that you were more than likely to try and do more than just kiss me, so when you did, and you seemed so into it, I couldn't act like I hadn't thought about it or wanted to, so I brought you here,"

I lean or more less slump against the wall. I had taken Kikyo's virginity and I didn't remember a damn thing about it. How it might have felt, if she cried afterward, if I hurt her,

"How come I don't smell your blood?" I say.

"I threw out my old sheets,"

I did something that she wanted so badly, but I had never had any real intention of going that far,

Kikyo should not feel guilty. This is not anything new for me, same face, different person. I know what I truly wanted yesterday, to be at Higurashi Shrine, and immediately go after Kikyo.

She was supposed to be Kagome. I wasn't supposed to hurt her like this. She wanted it to seem like I loved her.

My hands grasp her wrists, which are so warm to the touch, I say, "You never took advantage of me,"

The unpleasant salt scent is coming again, and she's about to start sobbing again soon.

"You should go, my mom comes back from her trip, she's coming home today,"

Her voice was so strained and sad sounding that it worries me, she twists her arms out of my grasp and I back up as she gets on her feet. "See you in school."

I nod, and I lightly brush my lips against her forehead. She whimpers, when I do. I sigh again, and I take a few long steps to the door, turn the knob, and walk outside.

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"You just want me to die, don't you half-breed?" Sesshoumaru's clipped tone says to me on the phone as I walk down the street.

I sigh, raising a hand to shield my eyes from the sunlight. I wish U had brought shades or something- maybe I left them in the car. All this damn sunlight is doing nothing for the headache thats slowly creeping up on my brain again.

"Whatever, what did you tell my mom?"

I can almost see him narrowing his eyes at me. "I told her that her worthless half-breed son was spending the night at Miroku's."

I turn the corner, Higurashi Shrine is coming up, and thats a block away from my mansion. "How did I get to the shrine?"

He sighs. "You wouldn't shut up about being dropped off there on the ride home, so I dropped you off."

And so I pursued the closest person that had Kagome's face. I wanted her so badly yesterday, I was drunk, but I don't think I've ever been drunk to that extreme, I only had four drinks, maybe it was five?

"Why was I so drunk yesterday, when I first woke up I couldn't even remember the little that I do now."

"Thats because you had demon strength drinks, two of them were enough to get drunk, but you had about four or five, which ruined your half-breed tolerance and memory."

Thats explains the lust thing. The first time I had a demon strength drink I was fourteen. I was practically trying to hump everything in sight after a few gulps of the drink. Sesshoumaru covered for me then too, but had a hell of a lot of fun with my hangover the next day.

"Thanks, Sesshoumaru." I can see the mansion now.

"Thank you is not enough, you should be bowing down, thanking me for my help, the help of a full demon-"

I hang up . He could have talked about that all day, which he's actually done before.

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"How was your stay at Miroku's?"

I look at my mom as she drops off some clean clothes in my room. Don't we have maids for that? Or did she fire them? "Fine, Sango bitched at him all night on the phone."

She flicks my ear, "Language."

I shrug and roll over on my bed. Eventually, the door shuts and Mom is gone.

This was one hell of a weekend. I had hooked up with Kikyo, and broke her heart. But, maybe I didn't try hard enough. We both gave up on each other after I found Kagome. Kikyo loves me. Kagome might ever feel that way about me again. However, I don't love Kikyo. Dated for almost a year, but I couldn't completely love her. I liked her enough, sure, but the feeling never came.

And, after last night, should I really just give up on her like this, when theres a chance at someone other than Kagome?

I was the one she gave her innocence to, shouldn't I be the one to try and love her? Not only does she want to be loved by me, she wants to be with me, it only further makes me a dick-head to make her a one-night stand the very first time. And I don't need to feel like a dick-head anymore.

Shit, so much crap has confused me once again, and I only vaguely have an idea of what to do. My phone vibrates in my hand and theres a picture of Kikyo leaning on the Ookami Bridge. There was message, it read,

What do I do now?

Try? Forget it all? No, not possible. My hand holds the top screen of the sliding phone. I move it back and forth, repeatedly, then I hear a crack, and the top screen goes sailing across the room.

Ya know, I hope that wasn't a sign.

Inuyasha and those damn phones, this chapter is shorter than my usual, and I'm tired as crap right now, so this author's note is gonna be quite brief:Review. Keep a lookout for the next chapter of 'It Kills Me' entitled: Plus and Minus. (This chapter might be the shortest chapter ever in It Kills Me, so far I got nothing but a few ideas,) Review, and thanks for your support this far,and sorry for all mistakes that might have been in the chapter, as stated earlier, I'm tired as crap.

With that said, Sayonara!