I should not have told them all of that, none of it should have slipped out of my mouth, but all of it had. I knew that I was going to be in big trouble when Mother heard about this, she may scold me or even worse take back all of my powers. . . if she was able to even do that. I knew that I would have to come up with as many creatures as I possibly could to make her pleased. . . maybe start crossbreeding things, making them different and strong. Something that would be able to make her very happy, to bring out that smile she had inside o her that I had seen only but once before. In the little amount of time that I have none her for, I know that she is not a terrible person, or anything like that. She is just trying to protect her children from becoming instinct, from allowing a demon into our world and taken our souls away!

They were all looking from me to each other, trying to think of something to say or something to do. I did not know if they were going to try and lock me up someplace or what they would do. I knew that the angel would want to leave soon, knowing that he had other places to be and other things to see. Something from inside me told me that he was not really on our side, that he was working with the other side, Crowley's side. They way that he had burned the wrong bones- that Crowley had known what he was doing and knew when to burn like that- it all seemed so weird to me. I knew that he was not on our side, but I wanted to keep him around for just a little longer, make them think that I was something more then they could ever imagine.

" Boy's I think that we have all of this wrong. I mean Jessica could really help us out with everything that is going on if you really think about it. She can show us places on where monsters- people, sorry Hun- are really alright and when they really are not. I mean think about it, this may be a miracle that Eve has given to us." Ellen said as she wrapped her arm slowly around me.

I have never known this woman only moments before, I never knew who in the world she was or why she had wrapped her arm around me and was defending me. But then everything hit me like a bunch of bricks falling from a train. Ellen was a woman- a hunter with a daughter that Dean had feeling for. She was married to Bobby and really should be dead. Beside some stupid angel had gone back in time and changed something or another she was now alive when she was not supposed to be. She was supposed to be as dead as I- maybe even more dead come to think about it- her and her daughter were supposed to be dead from an explosion when the whole Lucifer vs. Micheal thing was still going down. The only true reason she was still alive- or brought back to life, is because an angel went back in time and stopped- I had to think about what in the world he had stopped and then it came to me quickly. That damn angel was sent back in time to stop the Titanic from sinking because Cassy boy was running low on souls to eat up! I glared over at Castiel and he looked down at his shoes, he knew that I knew.

" Thank for you thinking that way Ellen. I would have never really use me powers for bad. You see it's just all because Mother needs more people- I cannot say why because well- shit. Well anyway I need to do it, it's not like I will be killing random people or anything like that!" I said, looking over at Sam.

" Right, like we are to believe this from someone who has been changed into a monster-" The angel shot that out like a bullet and it stung into my heart. " from Eve would never use her powers for bad, because that's not what they do. How are we supposed to believe this?" He asked.

" I know what you did Castiel." I said lowly.

" What?" He said back, knowing that he was caught and had to think of something better then what he had already said.

" I said. I know what you did Castiel. With the Titanic." I said louder. " How you sent and angel back in time to make sure that it never sank. Saving thousands of lives and bring them to your side for use, I know how much souls can go for now. It's funny how fast you learn things when you have this much power." No one else was moving, I noticed this quickly. Castiel had stopped time, I smiled.

" You do not know a thing about me!" He hissed.

" I know that my powers are much older then even your kind Castiel. That you have been working with the man that brought me back from hell, Crowley right? That you and him are trying to find a way into purgatory. Funny I thought that angel's and demon's were not supposed to get along as lovers, but whatever floats your little raft I guess." Power was eating over me again.

I did not know how this all happened but it seemed to when I was near Castiel. He seemed to trigger my power rage into something that I was not used to, someone who could be feared and someone who should be feared. I had no way to control any of it besides letting it all out and hoping that I would not kill him one way or another. I believed that it was only because he was killing all of my Siblings, the people that I cared about and the people that looked up to me like a big sister. He was sitting back and watching as all of them were starting to get killed and none of them could help it either. I knew that he was always going to be testing me now then ever, I would never be safe when I was near him now, they would be after me soon, that was one thing that I would be looking out for. Demons and angel's trying to come and take me away from Sam. Never again would anyone be able to take him away from him. I tried to come over the rage by thinking of Sam, but it did nothing because of the Angel's small smile coming from a crack in the corner of his mouth.

" You would not understand the war that we are having-" I cut him off.

" Trust me, I know all ab out that damn war that you are having up there. That you are losing Castiel and soon you think that you will not be able to win soon. I have known this for awhile, that you know that you are going to lose, that people are starting to leave your side for the other. This just means that you are a poor general. Castiel, you know that what you are doing is wrong, when the boys find out- they will never be happy about it and will not forgive you." I said.

" I know, they will never find out." He said, looking up at me with his blue eyes.

" They will not find out from me. But come near any of the first born children, come near many more of the children together, Mother will have a word with the boys and it will be bye bye Castiel."

I closed my eyes and tried to start time up again. It took a few tires of thinking rather hard and having my heart start to beat rapidly before the time starting back up again. Ellen holding my shoulders and rubbing them gently as she smiled and looked from each of the boys. I gave an innocent smile and looked straight into Sam's eyes, he knew that he had missed something. It was something big that I had promised that I would not tell, I would not even tell Sam this news because it would be too ground breaking even for him. I just smiled over at him and then looked down at my shoes. They were a different brand then they had been before- it also hit me that brands would be very different in this time now as well. I realized that there was no Impala, that it was not a Mustang that had been through so many things with the Boys and that there were no real such things as Impala's now. Sad thought.

" Well common into the kitchen with my Hun, you can help on a little dinner before the boy's go out and about on a little hunt. You are going with them right?" I nodded and followed them into the kitchen. As I walked I allowed Castiel to leave the building.

" So tell me about the whole Mother thing. I mean what's it like having all of the powers that she has all wrapped into a neat little present like that?" She smiled as she handed me a knife and a potato to peal.

" Well it's like something that I would have never dreamed of. I mean she is an amazing woman for all of the things that she is going through and all of the people that are against her for being well. . . what she is. I think for her to give me of all people this gifts, well it means that I have a place in this world I guess." I smiled and looked down at my potato and then noticed the little ring on my finger.

The memory came flooding back as if someone just turned a light on inside my brains. I was not really watching it, but my body was on cruise control and I was watching from inside me head and moving along with it. I was walking down a long white isle with few people really there to see what was going on. I was in a long white dress and I could feel and rather long train floating from my head to the floor. I was holding a bunch of different flowers in my hands roses, babies breath, lilies of different kinds, lavender flowers, one little tulip in the middle. I was holding my breath and I could not feel myself moving, but I knew that I was. All I could see was Sam standing in the from of the little church with the tux that he used when he was an FBI agent. His hair was parted and moved in just the right way. I knew that it was winter because of the cold that I could feel around me. We said our vows and had pictures taken outside of the church. Only a few because we never really knew who was around. All of this happened very quickly after I had come back from hell, I had only been alive for a week it seems.

" Hun, your finger." When I had been in my memory, I guess that I had still been trying to peal the potato and sliced my finger right open.

" Oh. Ow." I said and wrapped it in the nearest towel.

" What happened?" Sam came running in to see my finger wrapped up.

" Nothing, just had a memory." I said looking down, feeling no pain anymore and saw that my finger had healed right back up. " Oh, wow." I said, looking at my finger and seeing nothing but a little, fading, scar.

" A memory like what? Like wall coming down memory, or just a regular memory?" He asked, looking at me with his concerned eyes. All I could do was smile and realized that I was married to this man.

" Just an amazing memory that I had forgotten all about." I smiled and jumped at him with a hug, holding him in close and taken in his scent of old spice and a little alcohol.

" Oh. . . okay then." He said and wrapped his long arms around my body, pulling my in closer.

" Maybe the three of you should leave in the morning. Jo should be back any time and I think that Dean and her will not be able to part from one another. If you know what I mean." Ellen said, still pealing things as she spoke. " I do know that Dean has some big plans for that girl. Big plans." She smiled.

" Don't ruin it for the both of them Ellen!" Bobby said. I was shocked at how happy he was with her around.

" What are they talking about?" I whispered into Sam's ear as he moved me around so that I could see everyone else.

" Not a clue." He whispered back. That's when we all heard the door open, foot steps coming in and I could feel Sam's grip on my tighten.

" Guy's we're back!" Jo's voice came through the hall, I smiled a little. Something inside of my told me that she was a good girl. Then another memory came back into my mind.

A hunt, in the very beginning when I had come back from being dead. Right when me and Sam wee just getting to know one another again. They had left me at Bobby's with Joe because Ellen and Bobby were hunting as well. I had no clue about any of the things that were going on besides what Sam had told me. Anything else was up in the air and I had not a single clue. I wanted to know more and this yellow eyed demon, why he had killed me of all people. What happened to make him want to kill me? To ruin Sam's life. I was at a moment where I was about ready to have a breakdown because I had no clue, I just didn't know what to do. Joe plopped herself down next to me, smiled, wrapping her arm around my shoulder's and told me that it was going to be alright. Anything she knew would be everything I knew by the end of the night. She went on to tell me the story of Sam's mother, how the Sam thing had happened to her, but because she had made a deal. The only reason on why it had also happened to me was because the yellow eyed demon wanted Sam to be trained, prepared, for some type of battle royal against all types of physic kids. She then went on to tell me how her father had died because of a hunting trip including Sam and Dean's father, how she refused to talk to them for a long time when she found out. Even how she nearly died because a hell hound ripped her into pieces, but Dean carried her all the way to where they needed to be, because he refused to give her up. I knew she was a good girl. I came back into it to see Dean kissing Joe with such passion, I had never seen from Dean before.

" Good to see you too Dean-O." Jo smiled and looked over at me. " And I see we don't have our little monster locked up." Joe tried to come over and give me a hug, but was kept away by Dean, who was holding her by the waist.

" They tried, but I escaped and then threatened to lock them all up if they tried to do it again. They didn't seem to really like that idea too much." I smiled a little as well as Joe.

" Well they probably just didn't do it because they didn't want to hurt our little future hunter in the making. Do we know if you guy's are having a little boy or girl yet? Or even if it's a human or not?" I could feel my mouth drop to the ground, Jo was looking right at my and I knew she was talking about me.

I looked down at my stomach and then behind me to Sam, who was smiling more then ever and then this memory hit me as well. It was dark out, we were in a motel in the middle of no where. Dean was out somewhere with Jo because it was the first time that they had seen each other in awhile. I was crying in the car, trying to hide all of my fears and emotions from Sam, who I thought was inside the motel, trying to call Bobby. He had found the positive pregnancy test inside, on the bathroom floor. I had walked out when he was, back facing the bathroom. He came and seat in the backseat with me, took my hands and looked me in the eyes. I wanted to cry more, but felt like I should not in front of Sam, that it would be bad in some sort of way. We just starred at one another for awhile, not really knowing what to say or to do. Finally he broke the silence.

" I am so sorry that I have gotten you into his mess." He said softly, breaking our eye contact with the silence.

" It's not just your fault Sam. We were foolish, like teenagers, and now we have to pay for it in more ways then one." I said.

" But I am putting you in even more danger then before, don't you see that? First of all, just being with you is a danger because I'm a hunter and you have never shot a gun in your life before." We both laughed a little. " By putting another life in the line, putting you in more danger because who knows who will with this thing- this child dead, I am so sorry." He said, putting his head down.

" We will both be safe as long as you are around, or Dean, or hell Bobby! As long as there is somehow how can tell me what to do, where to hide, I will be safe. Hell keep me handcuffed to your side if it makes you feel better. All I know is this is not just your fault, and that there is nothing to be sorry for." I said softly. " I just wish that it didn't have to be this way, that our child-"

" Wouldn't have to be brought up like me?" He mumbled.

" That our child would not have to be home schooled by a drop out like me. If you really can called me a drop out." I smiled, this made him laugh a little too.

" Do you think that I can be a good dad?" He said.

" I know that you will be an amazing father."

" Thanks." He gave me a giant kiss.

That was months ago now, right before we had gotten married as I remember. Now I was piecing things together, letting things fall into place as they may. We had gotten married because of the fact that I was pregnant and we did not want to have it come into this world completely fucked up. I cried when Sam gave me the ring, knowing it was half because of the child and only half because of true love. But I told him it was because I was so happy. We got married so fast because I still wanted to look beautiful in a dress, although Sam said I would look beautiful when I was nine months pregnant. He was so good at making me feel amazing about myself. I was shook back into the world by his voice.

" We're having a boy." Sam smiled, placing his hand onto my stomach.

" No way!" Dean chimed in and started to move for us. " You mean my bother actually has enough balls to make a boy! Congrats Sammy!" He hugged Sam first, the turned to me, picked me up and spun me around. " Congrats Sis." This was the first time that I had ever heard Dean call me Sis, but I truly loved it.

" I am so happy for you both! What are you going to name him!" Joe smiled as she hugged me tightly.

" You want to tell them?" Sam said, bringing me back to him, re-placing his hands on my stomach.

" No, it'll sound better coming from you." I smiled, having no clue.

" We were thinking Jensen Dean." Sam smiled.

" Well the hell did you get Jensen from?" Bobby said carefully not to offend me.

" Dean?" Dean said quietly, I smiled and nodded.

" Well John Dean didn't sound good, so I stayed up one night and saw this soap opera with the name Jensen in it. I fell in love and well that's how we got the full name!" I smiled.

" Dean?" Dean repeated.

" Yes!" I smiled, laughing a little.

Like Ellen had predicted, we were going to be spending the night at Bobby's house. Which was fine with me. With all of the memories that were coming back, I really did not want to be traveling. We got the bed, because of my back problems with the baby and all. Bobby and Ellen got their own room, because it was their house and Jo and Dean got to spend the night on the couch, which Bobby was not to happy about. But around midnight I heard them make their way to the Impala, to keep Bobby happier with them. I could feel little pops in my stomach, I knew that it was the baby, Sam was asleep beside me and I awoke him.

" What? What's wrong? Don't tell me your water broke!" He said, loudly.

" No. . . no. Feel." I said, lifting his large shirt off of my stomach and placing his hand onto my stomach, where the popping was coming from, placing it firmly onto it.

" What am I supposed to be-" Then he felt it, the little kicks coming from inside of me. " Is he?" I nodded and he smiled. " Oh wow!" Was all that he could say and he placed his head next to his hand on my stomach.

" This feels so weird!" He added it.

" You should feel it from my point of view." I smiled.

" Hey Jensen, it's Daddy." I wanted to cry at this point. " Nothing is ever going to happen to you or your Mum okay?" He said, I felt a tear fall out of my eye, but Sam didn't notice at all. " I love you kid." He smiled.

I wanted this moment to last for the rest of time. This was truly my heaven, I did not care if it was real or not, if it was supposed to happen like this. I wanted to just stay here with Sam and our unborn child. To see it be born, to watch it take it's steps. To see what it would look like and what it would act like. It was a boy and I knew that meant a lot to all of them, I knew that I would protect Jensen with my life. . . even if I just found out that I had carrying him hours ago. I wanted to stay right here with my angel and my child. But as we all know. . . all good things have to come to an end.