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Blind Faith

Chapter 14 – Decisions

Sam made his way towards the wooded area behind the house. He saw Bobby and Jim talking off to his right. But Sam had been trained well and blended in with his surroundings, his feet made no sound as he made it into the shelter of the trees. Once had had gotten far enough from the house, he slowed his pace.

Sam didn't know how long he wandered through the woods before he came to a small stream. He moved to sit on a boulder and let his mind wander as he watched the water gently gurgling over the smaller rocks in the stream. The morning's rays just beginning to dispel the gloom of night found Sam staring blankly into the distance. Sam's eyes filled with tears as once again the images invaded his conscious mind.

Flash…

Sam could feel the young woman struggle beneath him; feel her warm breath on his face as he leaned in towards the terrified woman. A name flashed in his mind, the woman's name was Tara Carlson. The next moment he saw the flash of the blade and watched as the light left the woman's eyes.

Sam shook his head and moaned.

Flash….

Roy Jensen, a man on his way home to his family when Sam found him. Once again he felt the man's terror, heard him begging not for himself but for his family. And once again Sam watched as the man's blood pooled around the now vacant eyes.

Sam gripped his hair, pulling at it trying to stop the images.

Flash…

Sam had Jo against the bar, once again he heard her pleading, "No Sam, please" before he hit her head against the bar…

Flash….

He watched in horror as he saw Dean's lifeless body fall into the lake. He looked down, wanting to jump in, to save him…but his body refused to obey.

Flash…

Jessica was on the ceiling, screaming for him, begging him to help her…

Flash…

The coffee cup slipped from his fingers as he ran towards his father's still form…

The images colliding in Sam's mind until he screamed, begging it to stop. As Sam sat on the boulder, he felt empty as the image of Steve's eyes flashed in his mind; Sam reached for the gun in his coat pocket. He calmly removed the safety and brought the gun to his temple.

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Bobby saw the night begin to turn into day as he clapped Jim on the shoulder. "You sure you don't want me to spell you for a bit?"

"Naw, you stay inside with the boys. I'm not sure that they feel comfortable around me…can't say as I blame 'em" Jim sighed as he looked off towards the horizon.

Bobby hit Jim on the shoulder. "I told you, those boys don't hold you to blame. Believe me they probably understand more than the next person what it's like to lose someone and then wanting to kill the bastard responsible."

Jim shrugged. "Thanks Bobby, but it doesn't change the fact that because of me, that boy was hurt."

"That's right, you made a mistake…you're human just like the rest of us. Now you can either learn from that mistake or you can let it bury you. The decision is up to you." Bobby said as he turned to return to the house. He entered quietly and moved to check on the boys. As he entered the room, the first thing he noticed was Sam's bed was empty.

Bobby didn't panic at first, he figured the kid had woken up and maybe headed to the bathroom. Bobby quickly searched the house and finding no Sam decided it was time to wake Dean. "Dean…wake up!" Bobby said urgently as he entered the bedroom

"Wha…Bobby…what's wrong." Dean's eyes immediately traveled to Sam's empty bed, his stricken eyes met Bobby's. "Shit, he's gone isn't he…damn it…I should never have fallen asleep. I knew he was upset." Dean quickly got up and went to check his weapon bag, his worst fears confirmed as he saw the gun missing.

Bobby moved quickly to the front door and called out to Jim. Dean quickly grabbed his coat and met the two men in the living room along with Ellen and Ash who had risen at the sound of shouting.

"If I know Sam, he will try to find a quiet place…we need to fan out, each take a direction. I'll head for the woods, the rest of you spread out. We won't have much time." Dean didn't stop to see if the others were following. He had to find Sam and he had to find him fast.

It didn't take long for Dean to find Sam's trail. He pulled out his phone and alerted the others as he quickly followed. "Damn it Sammy!" Dean said as he saw his brother's steps beginning to stagger. He knew that his brother was weak, but when Sam put his mind to something, nothing would stop him.

Dean stopped as he saw his brother's figure sitting on a rock near the stream below. Taking in a calming breath, Dean began to move quietly towards his brother. He didn't want to frighten him. He could see Sam's shoulders shaking and saw the tears on his brother's face. But the thing that took his breath away was the gun that was pointed at his brother's head.

"Sammy NO!" Dean cried as he broke into a run. A moment later, a single shot echoed through the quiet woods.

TBC

Raven524: Here is the bonus chapter for this weekend...enjoy!