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What happens if Fin was too late? What happens if Harris not only forced Olivia to give him oral sex but also vaginally raped her?

Olivia had been back at work three days, she'd even had a few hours out in the field limited only to talking to witnesses and perps, Cragen had a difficulty allowing her to speak with victims and Olivia herself agreed that maybe she shouldn't just yet. It was Friday and Olivia was meeting with Casey for a 'friendly' lunch. The truth was Olivia had asked Casey to lunch so she could talk her friend into pleading Lowell Harris out, she didn't want to go to court and have to tell her story again, heck, she hadn't planned on telling anyone what had happened in Sealview and that would have resulted in him getting away with it.

"Ok?" Elliot asked seeing her staring into space from her desk.

"Yeah just thinking." Olivia shrugged turning her attention back to the manila file she'd been reading.

"Liv?" He questioned, he was hyper aware of her actions, he was terrified that she would be having flashbacks or something.

"I was thinking about lunch with Casey, which I have to go to, I'll see you later." She smiled and quickly grabbed her coat before rushing out of the bullpen.

Elliot stared, for a moment he considered rushing after her, making sure she was really alright, but considering she had done nothing but complain about everyone smothering her he knew it was best to let her go and he hoped if she needed him she would talk to him and if not to him to someone.

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Casey smiled and jumped to her feet when Olivia entered the cafe. She'd been on the phone a lot with Olivia and had visited her as much as she could but she hadn't seen the detective since her return to work, seeing her now though she realised that her friend was definitely on the mend.

"Hey!" Casey smiled wrapping Olivia up in an embrace.

"Hey how are you?" Olivia asked returning the favour before taking her seat and grabbing a menu.

"I'm fine, the question is how are you?" Casey asked her voice gentle and calming.

"Fine." Olivia smiled. "Hungry though, have you ordered?"

"No I was waiting for you." Casey replied.

"Ok well let's order before I die of starvation!" Olivia laughed, she wanted to wait before telling Casey the real reason for inviting her out to lunch.

They both quickly decided what they were having and once their drinks were served Casey decided now was the best time to speak with Olivia.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" Casey asked gently probing her friend.

"I ... Casey hear me out before you say anything? That's all I ask." Olivia stared at her friend.

Casey thought for a moment, she know had a feeling what it was Olivia wanted to discuss and she wasn't sure if she wanted to hear her out but being her best friend she had to and so nodded weakly.

"Ok, well, I want you to plead Harris out." Olivia began nervously. "I know the case against him is solid but Casey I've started to get my life back together, going to court, telling my story to Petrovsky and being cross examined and having a room full of people listening to the details of what happened ... I don't think I could do it and I think it would set me back, I've taken so much time to think this through Case' I'm not saying it I wouldn't have pleasure in seeing him locked up for twenty five to life but I really would like to put all this behind me and move on." She kept her eyes fixated on Casey's as she spoke, looking for a hint of something to help make her argument stronger.

"But Olivia, his lawyer has already asked for a deal and I'm not ready to give him what he's asking for." Casey explained weakly, she understood Olivia's point. "The DA's office will never let me give him that."

"What's he asking for?" Olivia asked her voice a mere whisper.

"Sexual abuse in the second." Casey sighed.

Olivia swallowed hard. Sexual abuse in the second degree was a class A misdemeanour.

"Oh." Olivia sighed eventually, she was considering it in her mind.

"The DA's office will never let me plead him down to a class A misdemeanour when he committed Four class B felonies." Casey explained gently, she knew Olivia would be hurting.

"Four?" She asked in surprise.

"Rape in the first, aggravated sexual assault in the first, Criminal sex act in the first and Attempted Murder." Casey replied her eyes fixed on her glass instead of Olivia.

"Attem ..." Olivia couldn't even string it together in her mind.

"He tried to kill you when he ..." Casey had to take a deep shaky breath, this was her best friend and talking about what he'd done was hard for her so she couldn't begin to imagine how hard it was for Olivia.

"When he what Casey?" Olivia asked her eyes scanning her friend's face trying to find an answer.

"When he thrust that broken metal pole into you." Casey whispered trying to stop the bile from rising in her throat as she spoke.

"That wasn't attempted murder Casey, that's criminal sex act." Olivia replied keeping calm, almost as if she was talking about some other case and not her own.

"No Livia, that was attempted murder, he knew that it would cut you and that you could bleed out. They're the charges the DA wants to bring against Lowell Harris."

"He could get life." Olivia replied. "Can't you see if he'll plead to twenty years for the rape only?"

"He won't Olivia." Casey replied shaking her head.

"Then I'm dropping the charges." Olivia whispered her voice almost non-existent.

"You can't do that now Olivia it's too late, you should know that."

"Then what are you going to do subpoena me?" Olivia asked angrily, she wasn't angry with Casey but she was angry with the DA's office and with one person in particular.

"If I have too." Casey shrugged, it's not what she wanted to say but she had no choice in the matter.

Olivia dropped fifty bucks on the table and gave Casey a death stare before marching out of the cafe, she didn't want to argue with her friend and she understood she was just doing her job but she needed this to be over, sooner rather than later and she knew for that to happen she'd have to take it into her own hands.

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Olivia stared up at the tall building that was Rickers, she wasn't sure if she was doing the right thing anymore. Shaking her head she pushed all thoughts and fears out of her mind and made her way into the building, using her badge as a way of gaining entry to see the one person she'd hoped she'd never lay eyes on again.

As she walked down the spiralling corridors the sound of the gates opening and closing around her made her body shiver, she knew she was verging on having a flashback but she took deep shaky breaths desperate to stay in control of this situation.

She was shown into a small cell and she sat down on one side of the table. The wait felt like hours but mere minutes had passed before he was led into the visiting cell.

"Detective my my my what a surprise."

Olivia stared at Lowell Harris. His mouth had curved into a smirk, his eyes twinkled with lust, desire and a lot of other emotions that made the bile rise into Olivia's throat.

"So what can I do for you?" Harris asked sitting down as Olivia stood firm against the bars of the cage.

"I need you to take a reasonable deal." She explained.

"You need me to? You need something from me?" He cackled evilly.

"No, I want you to, put it this way Harris, go to court and you will be found guilty of four class B felonies and you will not see outside of this prison ever again." She mentally kicked herself for using the word 'need' she didn't want him to think she 'needed' anything from him.

"Depends on the deal." He shrugged.

"It's already been placed on the table Harris, Rape one." Olivia explained.

"That's one class B felony that could still get me twenty five years." Harris shrugged. "If that was added onto the five years I'm already serving, then that's twenty eight years in here. No deal."

Olivia stared at him, her jaw locked in place as she realised that he didn't want to rot in prison for the rest of his life, it made her feel relieved that she could have some control over him, make him feel the way he had made her feel back in the basement.

"I'll speak with the ADA, rape two ten years otherwise I'll see you in court." Olivia hissed trying to show that she meant it even though she didn't, she could never take him to court, she could never sit in the box and testify.

"Get your DA down here." He replied and Olivia nodded before calling for a guard so she could leave.

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Only one more chapter to go, finally found how to end this story.