Hey everyone! Long time no update, and I am SOOOO Sorry, really. Just so everyone remembers, this takes place in the 2004-2005 season, right after Lucy had Savannah. PLEASE tell me if you have any ideas or thoughts!

Matt looked down at his baby sister. He felt tears slide down his face as he watched her heart machine beep, knowing that she wasn't awake. Nobody else was in the room. They had left to make calls to church members, to get some dinner, or to basically clear their heads. Eric had returned from bringing Max, his mother, and Ruthie's friends home, and was desperately trying to console Annie.

"Ruthie, do you remember when I was 18, and you didn't want me to leave to college, because you thought I was abandoning you? Remember when I ended up going to the local college and staying there for one more year? I wish I never would have left now. I wish I could take it all back. Maybe I could have been there when this happened, and it never would have happened. I know it sounds silly, but that is the way I feel. I know that me never moving away from home never would have prevented this, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to take it all back." Matt whispered down to her, his voice breaking with every word.

Ruthie didn't respond. Matt knew she wouldn't, but the hope that she would remained within him.

"C'mon Ruthie. Please wake up. It's me, Matt! Please!" he begged. Becoming more upset, he quickly left the room. Even though nobody was in it, he still felt as if he were making a fool of himself. He quickly headed towards the elevator, heading outside for some air.

Seeing Matt leave, Eric understood. Some things, a father just know. Him and his son were alike in the way they expressed emotions, and Eric desperately needed to go outside for air, also. But his wife meant more to him than his own feelings, so he had to deal as best as he could. He looked over at his wife holding their granddaughter, and his heart broke. If only he could make the pain go away.

Kevin and Lucy exited the elevator, entering the cafeteria. Lucy was gripping his hand tightly, and he held on tightly also. Picking up a tray for the both of them, he never let go of her hand, rubbing it slightly with his thumb at the same time. He ordered both of them the special of the day and two bottles of water. After paying for their order, he picked up the tray and led Lucy into the sitting room, placing their tray onto the table. It wasn't until then that he let go of her hand to pull out her chair. Pulling out his own, he turned his toward hers.

"Lucy, you haven't said a word in awhile. Are you sure you're okay?" He asked, handing her food and water to her.

Lucy shook her head, her eyes welling up with tears. "Kevin, if I can't even take my teenage sister out horseback riding without something happening, how am I going to be a good mother to Savannah?" She asked, her voice breaking.

Kevin took both her hands in his, looking her in the eyes. "You know what happened today is not your fault, Luce. You cannot blame yourself. You are going to be the best mother to Savannah, and any other children we are going to have in the future."

Lucy felt her tears begin to subside a bit. "But how do you know, Kevin!" She asked, needing reassurance.

Kevin smiled sadly. "There are just some things a father knows." He replied.

Lucy gave a small smile, opening up her tray.

I should have an update done by next week, even before that. Any ideas, let me know!