Once again another night at the hospital. Maggie told her to go home and sleep in her own bed, but Meredith refused. Maggie would do it for her, so she would do it for Maggie. Maggie had fallen asleep still on pain meds that made her drowsy. Meredith sat at the window just thinking.

She laughed as she wrapped her arms around his neck having to get up on her tip toes. "God, I love you, Alex." She smiled at him. He leaned down and kissed her.

"I love you too, Mer." He smiled at her. She fell back onto her heels and interlocked her fingers with him.

"I really do love you."

He picked her up causing her to squeal. "I really do love you too."

She remembered that day often. It was one of her last fully blissful days before he left. They had spent the day together, not getting out of bed until nearly noon. Then, they went to lunch. He had treated her like a queen that day.

Wiping a tear off her cheek, she sat back.

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He was laying in the bed looking at the bottom of the top bunk. His thoughts were on something else or more someone else. Ever since Meredith got to Seattle, he was having feelings he hadn't had since he was in med school. Feeling he had for no other woman. Even if she refused to talk to him. Even if she refused to look at him. He still had those nagging feeling pulling on his heart. The door open, but he didn't bother to look.

"Find another one?" He called, but the person didn't. They flicked on the light and shut the door. He covered his eyes. "God. What the hell?" He rolled onto his stomach and looked at who had walked in. "Meredith!" He said sitting up quickly almost hitting his head.

She didn't say anything just began pacing the room playing with her fingers and biting her lower lip. He watched as she walked back and forth unsure if he should say anything.

"Mer…" He started but she cut him off by putting her finger up.

"I need to say something to you… but I don't know how, so just…" She sighed and continued to pace. He nodded and watched as she did this. It seemed like forever until she spoke again. "When we were in med school, I loved you so much and I thought to myself 'for once in my life, I have finally found someone who won't hurt me.' But I was wrong." Alex looked down at the floor. "You left and you didn't tell me why…"

"Meredith, I..." To his surprise she let him talk. "I loved you. It scared me. Love scared me to death. I didn't want to hurt you… so when I applied here and got in… I took it. Meredith… You're the only woman I've ever loved and even five years later… I feel the same way."

She fell back into the chair as tears rolled down her cheeks. He got up and wrapped his arms around her. She started to sob into his shoulder. She didn't want to relive the memory of him leaving. It hurt so much and then he was there tell her all these things. It felt like the walls were caving in on her as Carson popped into her mind. And right in that moment, she knew she had to tell him.

"You have a son." Was all she could get out through her sobs.