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L'amor De Paris; The Regina Mills Story
Chapter Fourteen
Regina is awakened by screams in the bathroom, she shifts up and out of the bed shouting "Emma what's wrong...?" while walking towards the master bathroom, she sees the woman lying on the ground in a fetal position. Regina quickly kneels next to her pulling her hair back to see the face while Emma says;
"I need them.. I need the pills, let me get the pills...", Emma is begging out of pain and Regina realizes this is the start of day one on her cleaning process, the brunette starts to breathe heavily and slowly breaks the answer;
"Emma, you can't have pills anymore, remember you need to get better...", Regina pets her hair while Emma is trying to hold the pain while saying;
"Just one, after that no more...I promise…I don't need to be clean right now...I need this pain to go away...", Emma says almost out of breath, not looking at Regina once but looking at the floor to avoid the notice of her getting completely desperate.
Regina's eyes water a little but sucks it up, because now she knows Emma needs the strong hand to help her get through this, she breathes in again and says;
"Emma sweetie, this is the worst part and you can fight this, we can fight this...you don't need those drugs, don't you want to run like you used to and work in what you love?.. you can do that again, but you need to help me on this..."
Emma is quiet, she doesn't seem to be to convinced in fighting it, the pain and anxiousness of her body wanting more of the substance is slowly getting tenser. Regina stands up and runs downstairs to look for some water, she goes back up and loosens the top while kneeling on the floor again, she says;
"Here, drink some water...it will help..", Regina extends her hand and Emma grabs the bottle and drinks a little close to nothing. Regina knows what's next, she needs to seal the windows and without Emma
noticing removing any objects that she can hurt Regina or herself, while Emma is in the bathroom trying to recuperate, Regina says in a high pitch while giving the windows a second check and making sure their closed shut;
"Emma I'll be right there I'm just checking on something real quick..."
Emma is holding her belly like a fetus still, she can't move, her body is starting to shake profusely. Regina holds her close sitting on the bathroom floor while holding her tight she suggests;
"Let's lay you on the bed, it's more comfortable...", Emma shakes her head in disapproval and responds.
"I don't want to move, it's to painful...", Emma shuts her eyes while Regina stays quiet and grants her wishes by resting her back on the tiled wall and pulling Emma closer to her.
Hours Later
Emma is pacing and full with sweat there's no pain but just anxiousness and her body begging for the drug that has kept her high these past few months, she tries to open the windows while Regina is in the bathroom she lets a word of frustration out while banging on it;
"DAMMIT"
Regina comes out and almost catches the blonde in action she asks knowing exactly what she was doing but waiting for an explanation anyways..
"Emma what are you trying to do...?", Regina questions as she tries to hold Emma's hand but she shoves it out of hers and answers with a shaken tone.
"I...I need to get out, I'm a grown adult...I want to leave...", Emma tries the door but fails the attempt Regina tries to lead her to the bed while saying;
"Emma this is the worst part of it, after a few days you will feel better and better and you won't need those pills.."
Emma doesn't continue to she walks and moves back and away from Regina, her eyes were blankly with a slight of reddish underneath, she looks too exhausted even though she slept the whole night until the
pain hit this morning. The doorbell was heard and Regina looks at Emma with a warning and concern of leaving the blonde by herself in this stage even if it was only for a few seconds or minutes, she says;
"I'll be back, try to calm down please...", Regina shuts the door and breathes in while walking down the stairs, she eyes the door to see it was Ruby holding folded clothes in her hands, she quickly opens and
Ruby speaks while handling the clothes and a bag she had full with Emma's personal belonging that was resting on the floor in to Regina arms;
"I got your text message, is she ok?"
Regina presses her lips and gives a sad look as she says;
"She's... starting to get anxious..., It breaks my heart seeing her in this stage...",Regina puts the clothes on top of a wooden table next on the side of the door and the bag under it as Ruby suggest;
"You know you can always take her to Rehab...", Ruby stopped as Regina opens her mouth stating again.
"This is my fault, Emma is like this because of what I did to her, she needs me and I need to help her get through this, no matter what it takes..."
Ruby was going to speak but a big noise of a glass shattering made the pair jump out of fright, Regina quickly says;
"I have to go, I'm sorry...I'll text you later to let you know how things are going...", Regina shuts the door without saying a goodbye and rushes upstairs shouting the woman's name. When she got to the room her glassed swan statue she had sitting on her dark wooden table on the side was shattered in pieces while Emma was pacing again holding her head, she was sweaty and pale, she sees Regina and shouted.
"Get me out of here, I don't want to live with you!, I hate you!, look what you did to me...!", Emma breath is heavy and marked by her chest, Regina slowly closes the door and puts the lock from the outside which only Regina would know how to open from the inside, she tries to reason with Emma;
"Emma I know you're in pain and your right this is my fault but I'm going to help you...you just need to trust me...", Regina triggers Emma with her last words and shouts again;
"I would never trust you again!, you destroyed everything, you're nothing but a disgusting past I want to forget...just leave me alone and stay out of my life!...", Emma holds her head while she kneels on the floor, Regina tries really hard not to let the tears come out of her glassy eyes, she slowly approaches Emma and hugs her from behind while saying;
"I know I destroyed you...and after you get better if you want to leave I will understand but I'm not going to let you go through this alone..."
Regina is distracted by her own words while Emma lifts her head a little and narrows her eyes at Regina's arm, she takes a big bite and Regina screams out of pain, she begs;
"Emma what are you doing, let me go...!...please…don't do this..", Regina tries to move her arm while the skin is ripping apart on Emma's teeth, after a few seconds she lets her go and makes a run for the door,
Emma grows furious trying to get it open while Regina is left in pain on the floor with her arm full of blood by the holes on her arm made by the blonde. When Emma couldn't open the door she bangs her head on it desperately saying;
"LET ME OUT!", Emma repeats and Regina tries to hold her back from it and makes Emma angrier by pushing Regina back with all her force making the tiny woman lose balance and hit her head on the wall,
Regina makes an "Ah.." and she gets a little dizzy so she rests herself on the floor, Emma doesn't lose sight of her and slowly starts feeling guilty and terrible, tears come down as she approaches Regina coming to realization, she whispers as she kneels in front of Regina and begs once more close to her face;
"Please Gina...let me go...I don't want to hurt you please.. Just let me go...I can't do this to you...I'm sorry, my head...the pain...hurts...", Emma holds her head again and Regina hugs her close, she says in a soothing voice;
"I'm not leaving you...it's hard and I know this is not you, it's the drugs...I'm going to fight this with you ok?, but I need you Emma, I need you to stay strong...and I'll be remaining strong for both of us if you feel you just can't no more, I'm here for you..."
Regina feels Emma's tears coming down and with her wounded arm she pets the woman sweetly.
...
Emma is sound asleep on the floor, Regina slips a pillow under her and covers the woman with a blanket, and she moved her golden locks to the back of her ear and kissed her sweetly. Regina closes the door behind her and goes downstairs to the kitchen and gets herself a first aid kit from the drawer, she puts a white bandage on it and sits on the stairs, she takes out her IPhone from the pocket and clicks on the name 'Daniel'.
"Regina?, everything ok?", Daniel questions out of concern while Regina breaks into tears and responds while sobbing.
"I messed her up badly Daniel...and I don't know if I'll be able to get her back this time...", Regina cries loudly, Daniel stays silent for a few seconds and then speaks.
"Regina it's going to be fine, she's going to be fine...you both have been through alot and have overcame it, you will get through this...whatever it is..it will pass...", Daniel hears her breaths getting lighter, her cries getting quieter and Regina responds.
"I just hope I'm strong enough for her...", Regina sobs a little and Daniel assures.
"You will...I have to go now, I'm busy with the business but please take it day by day Regina, it will be ok...", Regina feels grateful Daniel is still supportive and his soothing voice make it all seem possible and ok, she says good bye him with a 'thank you' and he responds with;
"Anytime...take care...', Daniel hangs up and Regina stays silent staring at the phone distracted of the concern that Emma has her in. It's quiet, she decides to move some of the boxes that were still sitting on the porch and then open her mac laptop. Regina had started to write her second book, since Emma left and she has continued to do so until the day she found Emma. She decides to prepare some coffee and continue to type for a few until Emma decides to wakes up for food.
After a few hours passed she hears Emma screaming, Regina gets up and finds her in a fetus position again, she's sweating and breathing heavily like earlier. Regina hugs her tight while Emma cries feeling defeated;
"I can't do this anymore Gina, it's too painful...", Emma squeezes gently her torso has an act of support and Regina sweetly speaks;
"It's ok Emma I'm here, you can do this...these are the hardest days after this it will be easier. I promise...", Regina holds her while Emma squeals and tightens her muscles out of pain, she was thinner, Regina can feel her bones, she knows the blonde hasn't eaten properly maybe in weeks. Regina's voice is soothing and caring she says while standing up and walking towards the door with a little hesitation, still not taking her eyes off Emma;
"I'm going to get you something to eat, it can maybe help to relieve the pain a little...", Regina walks quickly and prepares her favorite cheerios and milk, she almost runs upstairs without making a spill of milk on the floor and she finds Emma still resting on the floor in pain, she offers;
"Here, your favorite cereal...", Regina extends her hand but Emma shakes her head negatively.
"I don't want to eat, I just need my pills...please Regina let me be...I'm not your problem...", Emma begs but Regina's reaction is as if she didn't hear a thing and insists;
"Emma you need to eat...at least try..", Regina extends her hand again and Emma loses her patience, she flips the bowl on Regina for the whole cereal to pour on top of her tank top, making her freeze herself out of surprise while Emma's shouting;
"I said I don't want to eat...I want you to open the door so I can fucking leave this house...I need my pills!",
Emma lips are shaking while Regina just looks at her shirt and slowly places the bowl on the wooden table on the corner, she breathes in trying to hold up her emotion of hurt while saying;
"Emma...all I'm trying to do is help you to get better...", Regina is careful on her words trying to not trigger the woman in anyway but fails it, Emma is holding her head and is highly annoyed by the headache and the pain in her abdominal as well, it starts to grow more in her head, she feels hammered more and more, she bats her eyes a little while still holding her head making Regina worried and asks;
"Emma are you ok, is something more bothering you?... I'll get you some water...", Regina was walking backwards and Emma grew furious with her words, she narrows her eyes while approaching Regina and says;
"I don't want water!, give me my damn pills...!", Regina tries to get out of the room but Emma stops her by the arm and pushes her down on the bed, as she picks up a pillow and places it on top of Regina's face and places pressure on her making Regina desperate into finding air and fighting while trying to shout;
"Emma let me go!, I can't breathe! Please!...", Regina is throwing crazy punches while Emma is blank staring at the pillow, she is not thinking or realizing what she's doing until flashbacks of her and Regina
spending time together, in the hotel, events, bed, sharing food and love came back to her, she snaps out of it and throws the pillow away leaving Regina openly catching deep breaths while Emma moves away
and begins to shake terrified of herself, she goes to the corner of the room while Regina is still coughing and trying to catch her breath. Emma cries desperate, frightened of what she was about to do, she sees Regina coming to her looking extremely worried but no fear in her eyes, Emma warns and extends her hands making a stop signal.
"NO!, go away Regina please..I don't want to hurt you anymore!..please just go away...", Emma begs and cries while shaking in the corner of the room beside the door, she positions herself on the floor holding her knees while Regina slowly finishes walking towards the woman. Regina kneels and touches her arms, stroking it in a soothing way while saying;
"I'm ok...I know what I was getting myself into, and this is not going to push me away...nothing is...Emma I love you, I chose you that night and I will continue to do so for the rest of my life...", Regina picks Emma's face up to look at the woman straight at the eyes, Emma looked defeated, disappointed and again, terrified at what she almost succeeded into doing, she was about to kill the only person who completely
gives a fuck about her, Regina's love for her is unconditionally even after almost taking her life away, she realized so much in that couple of seconds her only reaction was to pull her in for a hug and cry her eyes out while saying;
"Regina I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I love you...please get me better, I don't know what I'm doing...", Emma pleaded, she seemed hopeless and scared of what could happen, Regina just holds her, squeezes her, petting her back to sooth the woman out of her sadness and pain, Regina's tears are rushing down and without breaking the hug she says;
"It will get better Emma, I promise...this is the hard part and you're fighting it, we are going to pass this and we will get our life back, whatever happens to you it affects me the same way or maybe more...you need to help me help you because I can't do this without you trying..", Regina breaks the hug as she finished the sentence, Emma stares at the woman both just contemplating their faces, Emma says after a few seconds of silence;
"I'll fight it, as long as you're beside me...", Emma smiles at Regina's eyes, opened wide shining out of hopes, her wide smile assures the woman before she even says;
"I'll be here all the way..."
One month later
Regina wakes up with an empty bed, Emma has been improving, step by step, first week was a bitch but after half of the second week she was eating three meals a day and looking healthier, Emma did surprise her one night while she was writing on her new sequel, she would lay next to Regina while she
writes their story, Regina hasn't discussed if she would publish it or not, she thinks it something they can talk about much later when it's finished, her concentration right now is getting Emma back on track and making her feel herself again, and maybe lucky enough to feel her lips once more. After trying to kiss
Emma the first night Regina hasn't tried not once, Emma gets close and hugs and ruffles her hair to make her smile but hasn't tried anything yet.
Regina walks downstairs and runs into Emma opening up the door and walking inside in short shorts and a tank top, sweaty out of her mind, her toned body is rushing back and muscles are getting noticed, giving
Regina a mental note to suggest her to wear long ones instead, she didn't appreciate the driving cars slowing down to check out the blondes ass, Emma smiles at her and Regina responds the same and then, something shining on Emma's finger caught her attention, she asks;
"Is that...?", Regina signals and Emma raises her hand and touches the ring the brunette gave not to long ago as she responds;
"Yes, I kept it safe in my bag...I use to wear it when I wanted to transfer myself back to happy memories...", Emma looks up and straight to the woman's eyes asking, "Do you want it back?..."
Regina shakes her head before she ends her sentence while responding;
"No...that ring represents what I chose, what I will always choose...", Regina's eyes turn hopeful, loving the image in front of her, seeing Emma going back to herself just makes her so happy and more so wearing the ring, Emma smiles and closes the door behind her while facing it, she thinks for a few
seconds, breathes in and turns to rush towards the woman and kisses her lips hard, squeezing the woman close and opening her mouth inviting the woman's tongue, she takes the time to feel her lips, to smell her perfume, to ruffled her dark brown hair like she has grown a custom to doing lately. Regina smiles at the kiss, the feeling of cloud nine is hitting her, she feels the air on their tongues are back as Emma breaks
the kiss and says;
"I'm yours, you're mine...now I'm sure nothing can ever change that..."
Regina smiles wider at her words as Emma continues while slowly caressing her thighs and says;
"I can't wait to show you how much of mine you are and how I'm still yours...", Emma kisses her again but
Regina turns her reaction into a concern, she remembers her scars, there's a few, heck! more than a few,
Emma hasn't seen them, Regina being in long pants all day made it easier not to show, but now, now she definitely will, her greatest concern is not for Emma to judge, but to explain her reasons on hitting that path again. Emma interrupts her thoughts with her whispers;
"Let's get you upstairs..."