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"Hey Chloe." Beca was excited that she finally would have something to do.
"Hey." Chloe's voice sounded soft but happy.
"Everything alright?"
"Yeah, no everything is good. Here I brought your stuff." Chloe handed Beca the bag of items.
"Thanks dude! Seriously, thank you so much." Beca started to pull out her laptop and headphones.
"No problem." Chloe went back to sitting in the corner to study.
Beca opened her laptop and looked through a bunch of folders. She found one labeled 'Bellas'. Chloe had told her she was in the group with that name so she listened to every mix she had for them to remember. She did. She remembered all the dances, all the lyrics, all the practices, all the performances, everything about the Bellas.
"Hey Chloe! I remember the Bellas! I listened to all the set lists!" Beca was so excited she had remembered a huge part of her college year.
"That's great! Keep looking through stuff if that helps you remember." Chloe was excited but inside she was pretty scared.
She didn't want Beca to notice though so she did her best acting. She was scared that Beca might die if she remembers everything but that was hard to deal with because she really wants Beca to remember. She was scared that Beca would come across 'her' mix. Which she definitely would. What would Beca think? Would she ask Chloe? How was Chloe supposed to explain that?
And of course Beca did come across it. She listened to it and didn't know what to think. She knew she kind of felt something for the redhead. And know...know she knew there had to have been something before. But what? Did ever show this to Chloe? Should she ask her about it? Would that ruin whatever was going on before? Would it scare the redhead away? Did Chloe like her back?
"Chloe? I came across this folder...it's labeled Chloe..." shit. Chloe thought and she internally started panicking, "It's a mix, and I listened to it. Have you ever heard it? Have I ever showed it to you before?"
"Ummm. Beca I need to talk to you, and i've needed to for a while now."
I knew it. We were a thing. Or something. Beca thought. "What is it?"
"So. It's about us. Before your accident. I guess I should start from the beginning. Well, I guess- I mean we're both straight but I always felt this connection between us like a special one different from anyone else. I was oblivious to it, I guess just because I was scared of it. But then Aubrey said she thought that I liked you and that you liked me, and one night I got sick and you took care of me, also that night you were staring at me while I was getting undressed but you didn't realize it. But that night, you told me you liked me. That's it, and I said I liked you back. At the time I thought that meant something, it had to and now I know that it did. So I'll keep going from there which I know now but I didn't before. So you told me you had a dream which was a memory, this is hard to put. Let's see, i'll split it to two parts." Chloe paused to think how she would put this.
"Part one. What I experienced at the time. So a few days later you slept over, and we never acted on that we said we liked each other. So the morning after that, I woke up and made pancakes and sat on the couch waiting for you to wake up. When you did 20 minutes later you came right on to the couch and crawled up next to me and right before you fell asleep you said something I couldn't understand. When I asked you about it when you woke up it seemed like you avoided it. Got that?", Beca nodded with a kind of shocked look on her face, "So something else happened after that, which I well get back to after part 2, k?" Chloe paused again to think and catch her breath from talking so much or being so nervous and somewhat embarrassed.
"So part two. I understand what happened in part one after your accident. So after you told me about your dream that was a memory, you said that before you fell asleep on the couch you said 'I finished your mix' and I was confused but then today when I went to pick up your stuff I accidentally saw something on your computer...the mix you just listened to. You never showed me it. If you look at it, it says that it was made May 15th, the day before your accident. The time was 7am that it was finished on May 16th... the day of your accident. So apparently you stayed up all night and made that which explains why you were so tired, but i'm guessing since you avoided the conversation that morning that you weren't planning on showing it to me...or you were too scared. But when I listened to it, I I cried... I cried because it was beautiful, Beca. It means so much to me and I know that it meant so much to you. The lyrics explained that you were afraid to tell me you loved me-" I still love you. Beca thought. "-and I love the part where it said 'maybe its the way she walked straight into my heart and stole it, through the doors and past the guards' because you were so closed off and I broke your walls down...and then...then you sang...sang those last few lyrics of the song that was amazing and I can't believe you did that. Sorry i'm talking so much, it's a long story I guess but not really." Chloe laughed sadly as tears filled her eyes.
"So back to that morning. I-", Chloe sighed, "this is really hard to say-" Beca wiped away a tear from Chloe's cheek with her thumb, "um, I- mm, yeah come on Chloe," She softly laughed at herself because she was embarrassed, "yep here we go, I kissed you." Chloe broke into tears, burying her face into her hands.
Beca didn't know what to do. This was a lot to take in. But she did know one thing. She still loved Chloe Beale, and that was never going to change. But she wanted this reveal to be special for the redhead. She's been through so much and she didn't to be happy. It was going to be really hard to wait but Beca knew it had to be done and that it would all be worth it in the end. She just had to play it off as if she doesn't feel anything and that she has no idea what Chloe is talking about it.
"Why are you crying? I'm really sorry but I don't remember making the mix and feeling anything towards you...I can only imagine how you feel, and i'm reeeaaally sorry. But I really do want to be friends. You seem really cool, Chloe." Beca picked up the redhead's chin so she could look at her glassy, crystal, blue eyes.
"That's why i'm crying, Beca. Because you don't love me anymore-" oh but I do. Beca smiled inside, "-and we'll never be a thing, and it's hard. I love you. Shit, that's the first time I said that out loud. Fuck."
"Hey, hey, hey. Stop. Don't beat yourself up. It's fine, seriously, it's super fine. I'm flattered, can we still be friends, please? I don't think I could live without you. You've helped me out so much and you care about me...and I care about you."
Chloe lit up a bit. She knew that she would never get to have Beca but she could have her as a friend. She could have her in her life, and she never wanted to not have her in her life. And hearing that Beca cared about her was enough. For now.
Chloe laughed a little, stopping the tears from falling, "Yeah, we can be friends. I'm taking you home when you can be checked out of the hopsital because you can't be alone right away."
"Super, can't wait." Beca smiled at the redhead, pulling her in for a hug.
Alright, again a short chapter. Don't hurt me. *puts hands up* Haha, but at least it was a happy chapter, right? Beca loves Chloe, Chloe loves Beca, like always. They are both happy even though they can be happier. But no more drama for a while. When they finally get together I have some more ideas that won't really be drama, more of hurt and comfort. So I was thinking that we could put one-shots in here where they obviously have to start that they are already together. So i'd like you guys to private message me some one-shot ideas and i'd right a chapter with it and make sure to give ya a shout out. REVIEW!
