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Chapter 14

James reached through the open window and unlocked the door. He opened it and tossed the limp pile of clothes he had been holding into the backseat. Clothes? I blinked a few times trying to get my eyes to adjust. It was Edward- his body crumpled into an unnatural position on the seat. James was leaned into the car and I began screaming and thrashed around wildly, trying desperately to keep him away from me.

"Bella! Calm down!" He growled lowly. I heard the words he was saying, but I couldn't get their meaning to compute in my brain. The instinct to survive had taken over. All I cared about was staying alive. My efforts were wasted; every hit I landed was like punching a rock.

He got into the car and started it while I scrambled to get the passenger door open. He took off into the night just as I'd popped the lock. We took a hard left turn and all my weight shifted against the door making it fly open, taking me with it. Panic gripped my senses, the howling wind in my ears, the smell of exhaust coming from beneath the car, and the black pavement speeding past only inches from my face. Luckily my hand was still on the handle, all I could do was lock my arms against the door and try to hold myself up to stop my face from getting a up close and personal introduction with the street below us.

Wind blew my hair into my face, making it impossible for me to see anything. I screamed and pushed against the door, trying to get back inside the car. I felt an ice-cold arm slip under my waist and pull me back towards the safety of the car. James reached across me and slammed the door, without ever slowing down.

"What the hell is wrong with you? Are you trying to kill yourself?" James was yelling at me, all I could do was stare at him, stunned by what had just happened. It didn't take me long to recover.

"What's wrong with me?" I laughed hysterically. " What's wrong with you? You- you're… dead!" James looked at me and smiled secretly.

"Yeah, I am." He pressed on the accelerator and practically flew through the trees.

"And you killed Edward!" I gestured towards the backseat.

"No I didn't. Well… not yet." He shrugged carelessly, like Edward's life didn't mean anything.

"James! Stop playing games with me! What is going on?" Too much was happening and my brain was threatening to shut down if I didn't get answers soon. Frustration, fear, and sadness were making me dizzy. Tears welled in the corners of my eyes. James was supposed to be gone, but here he was, sitting next to me. Even though his heart wasn't beating. Edward, sweet understanding Edward, was dying. Or possibly already dead from what it looked like, in the back of the car and I was still in the prom dress he had bought me.

" There's nothing anyone can do to help him now, soon his heart will stop. When he wakes up, he'll be like me." James' voice was cold and unfeeling. I looked from Edward, to James and then out into the night sky. I could see stars peaking out from behind the clouds, shining brightly and then disappearing behind a dark cloud. My mind was trying to grasp that the world I lived in was no longer familiar me.

"You lied to me."

"To try and keep you safe! If you hadn't shown up, again, when you weren't supposed to… then everything would have been fine! Why can't you stay the fuck away?" The cruelty in his voice cut straight through to my heart. So it was true, he'd wanted me to leave him alone because he didn't want me, not because he was worried about me.

"I planned on becoming a vampire before you and I were… anything. I never expected what happened with us, and it was too late for me to change my mind about being a vampire. I already had it set up with Victor. If I backed out he would have just killed me. I thought the best way to keep you away was to tell you I was leaving. I thought you'd be so mad at me that you would run back to Edward." James was watching me while he talked.

"Edward and I broke up… and it wasn't because of you! We both areed that we aren't right for each other, but he was much more of a man about it than you were. He told me the truth to my face." I spit the words at him, hoping to hurt him at least a little. He was not at all what I had thought him to be. The James I thought I knew wouldn't have had to lie to me. If he'd just told me the truth I would have done what he had asked me to. At least I think I would have…

"I hate you." Every ounce of anger I had came out with those words. For the moment, they were true.

"Good, you should. Why the hell do you keep chasing down someone you hate then! You've ruined everything Bella!" Tears slipped down my cheeks, I wanted to get out of the car.

"Stop! Let me out! If you want me to leave you alone so badly then I will. Stop now!" I banged against the dashboard and screamed loudly.

James closed one amazingly strong hand around my left wrist and pulled it up painfully against the seat.

"Shut up. You're not going anywhere now." I struggled against his hold but it was useless. It was like being shackled to the seat.

"My orders are to kill you." My blood ran like ice water in my veins. So this was why we were heading further into the mountains. Things were finally coming to an end.

"Don't worry Bella. I'm not going to hurt you… and no one else will either." There was a steal truth to his words. Even though he still looked and sounded angry, I relaxed. He let go of my arm and I could see a round purple bruise already formed on my wrist.

"I'm sorry Bella. For everything." He sounded upset now. He didn't like hurting me. That brought me some comfort in this cold night. James took a quick turn onto a tiny dirt road.

"Where are we going?" I asked absently. If I hadn't been so exhausted I would have cared more, but right now our destination wasn't a big concern for me.

"Somewhere we can stay out of view for awhile. People are going to be looking for you... and Victor and the rest of the guys will be looking for me." My heart speed up and chills moved across my skin. I had a feeling that if those other vampires found us, my death wouldn't be easy.

It was much darker out now, the clouds had move in closer and none of the stars were peaking out anymore. I could barely see anything outside the car and I was freezing. My skin had a bluish purple color and my hands were numb. I blinked against the blur in my eyes, trying to figure out where we were.

"Sorry it's so cold, the heater is broken." James handed me Edward's, it wasn't helping much.

"Where are we?" I could see a cluster of small wooden buildings up ahead, illuminated by the headlights. They looked like they were made out of oversized Lincoln logs.

"A summer camp, well… it used to be anyway." We parked behind one of the cabins and James broke the lock to let us in. Actually he just crushed the entire metal handle with just a slight squeeze of his hand. I began keeping my distance after watching that.

He carried Edward in and put him down on a dusty old cot in the corner. Sometime during the drive up Edward had started moaning in pain, James said it was his body dying. I walked over to Edward and kneeled down by his face. He was covered in sweat and shivering violently, I pushed the hair back off his face and whispered his name.

"He can't hear you, not now." I looked back at James in concern. "It's the change, it's so painful all your senses go numb. It's just going to get worse too. But when he wakes up, the world will be a different place." He studied Edward's face thoughtfully.

"Why did you do this James?"

"If I didn't they would have torn him to pieces. I was barely able to drag him out of there without them forcing me to drain him right then and there. They wanted him dead." James was angry again; his temper seemed much shorter now that he was a vampire.

"I meant, why did you want to be a vampire?" This calmed him down. He sat on the cot across from Edward and thought about what he was going to say.

'My life was hell Bella. Do you know… the only reason my mom didn't take me with her when she left was because she was scared of my dad? She knew if she took off on her own he wouldn't do anything, but if she took me he'd come after her. And instead of just letting me do my own thing he was always giving me shit about being a pussy because 'I care too much about other people'. He never just let me be a kid- it was al about how to break in somewhere, how to run a con, or how to hurt someone. I ran away so many times and every time he'd either find me or I'd have to come home 'cause I didn't have anywhere else to go. Then he'd beat the shit out of me and send me on some errand for him." James put his head in his hands.

"I got him in the end though, you should have seen that asshole's face when I told him his time was up." James face was twisted in a cruel smile. I wanted to reach out and take his hand, but I was still too scared of him.

"When Victor, Jonah and Elias showed up I knew there was something different about them. How could I not notice you know? You have to be a complete idiot like my dad to not see that they aren't human. Once I figured out what they are I got them to agree to change me if I proved to them I could be useful. The world isn't a good place Bella, I just chose the winning side." He looked at me harshly now, daring me to look him in the eyes, to face what he's become. I looked right back, maybe he could hurt me, even kill me, but he couldn't change my own belief's.

"That's not true James. I know you're not evil. You never were, I know it in my heart." James was always making my head spin, one second I hated him, the next I loved him. It was exhausting.

This time I fought against the fear and slipped my hand into his. The coldness of his skin was still startling, but I held on tightly. I wouldn't let him go again, not for anything. He looked at our hands back together, a small smile playing at the edge of his lips.

"You are the craziest girl I have ever met, you know that?"

"Only crazy for one thing." I scooted closer to him, so that I was still kneeling on the ground between his legs.

"You and I were never right for each other. This won't work Bella. I am too wild, I might hurt you." I reached up and place my hand on the back of his neck, pulling his face down to mine.

"You already have." I placed my lips against his with a rush of emotions.

Our lips met in a clash of hot and cold, I closed my eyes and gave in to the darkness. If that's where James was, then that is where I would go. He pulled me up into his arms, holding me tight to his body. Even though he was colder and harder than marble, something warm was building inside me. Edward's jacket fell of my shoulders, exposing the bare skin of my neck. I heard James take a deep breath in and when I opened my eyes his were fixed on the blue pulsing vein that ran down my neck.

"Sorry, I just… can't help it. I keep imagining what it would be like to taste your blood, to feel my teeth cut through your soft skin…" He ran one icy finger down my neck.

"James!" I yelled at him, snapping out of his trance before a feeding frenzy started. His eyes went wide and he shook his head.

"This is why I didn't want to be around you." He moved to get up but I held on tight. He stood up with me still clinging to him.

"I won't let you leave me, not now. If you want to bite me… then you can." I pressed my lips to his a disappeared into him.

Deep inside I was already giving myself to him. If he wanted to drink my blood, I would let him. I'd die to make him happy. James was kissing me harder then I could have imagined possible, and squeezing me to him painfully. If he squeezed any tighter we would become one person.

"No, I won't hurt you Bella. This isn't a existence that you should have to endure. You're too good." He was pulling away again, putting space between us. I was about to protest when a scream split through the small room.

"Make it stop! Kill me! Kill me!" Edward's moans had gotten increasingly louder and now he was thrashing wildly, clawing at his own flesh.

"It might not be a good idea for you to be here for this." James had put himself between Edward and I, keeping me out of Edward's reach.

"No, I'm not leaving him like this." It was my fault this had happened to him, I wouldn't leave him to die alone. James frowned and moved the tiny bed we had been about to lay on as far away from Edward as he could.

"You sleep over here then." James picked me up and sat me on the bed. He walked back over to Edward and sat on the floor next to him.

"What about you? What will happen when the sun comes up? Don't you need to sleep?" I lay down wearily, every part of my body hurt. James laughed ran a hand through his hair.

"Bella, I told you… not normal vampires."

"Oh, right… cause normal vampires sleep or something." I muttered sarcastically. I curled up under Edward's jacket and tried to fall asleep through the shivers and Edward's screams. Tonight had been the best and the worst thing that had ever happened to me.