colorlimegreenb-This is the last chapter that I have anything written for so it might be some time before I have another chapter. Please be patient and review like crazy. I have college, work, homework, and stuff like that to deal with so i'm pretty busy lately. Thanks-Adrienne/b/color

Chapter 14

2 days later

After Jamie, Kat, Mason, Sadie, her dad and Kwest had all come and visited her, Jude was exhausted. She would be leaving the hospital in the morning and couldn't wait. The truth was, she didn't want to be in the hospital with tubes, and machines, and sick people when it was finally her time to "go". Jude wanted to be around her family and friends and spend more time watching Joey laugh, and smile.

Tommy hadn't been at the hospital much lately, he'd come and pick Joey up and drop him off for a while to visit with her but he seemed distracted when he'd come in, and he'd barely acknowledge her presence. She wasn't sure if he was mad, or just taking the fact that he was going to be a single parent to heart. She wasn't sure and she was worried.

Jude had decided to return to Toronto with Joey and Sadie and Kwest. She wanted Tommy and Joey to get to know each other more now that they both knew about each other but she didn't want to be away from her family and friends. Sadie and Kwest had been staying at her hotel with Joey for the past few days and would come to the hospital to pick her up in the morning. She was so thankful to have them in her life, she knew she was blessed but she was having a hard time looking at it that way considering she was dying before she really had a chance to live. She wouldn't have given up Joey for anything in the world but there were so many things she'd never done. She had a list that she'd made on her 18th birthday, it was a list of all the things she wanted to do before she died, the sad fact was that she'd forgotten about the list until it had been too late.

She reached into the journal that Sadie had brought her the day before and quickly glanced through the page of the journal Tommy had given her after they finished "White Lines" and flipped through it until she found the page with her list.

She read through it and saw that out of all the things on it only a few were marked off.

"Become a rock star" had a check mark next to it.

"Win a Grammy" also had a check mark by it.

Jude smiled, she remembered the day she won her first Grammy, she'd been 18 and had just finished her 3rd album that went multi platinum 3 weeks after it's release. Tommy had of course produced it and they had gone to the Grammies together, it was one of her fondest memories.

"Bungee jump" was unmarked

She'd always been afraid of heights but she'd promised herself that at some point in her life she'd do it, she wouldn't be afraid.

"Travel around the world" was check marked.

Jude had accomplished this on her 3rd tour right after the Grammies, her and Tommy had traveled all over the world for 3 months before returning to Toronto to start on her 4th album, the 4th album that was never finished she thought sadly.

"Perform a duet with Tommy" was unmarked

Jude frowned reading this, they had been scheduled to do a duet but they had broken up before it could happen.

"Get married" was unmarked obviously

Jude knew that she'd never marry anyone, it was something she'd accepted after her and Tommy had broken up, he was her one, the only one for her and if it wasn't him, it wouldn't be anyone.

"Start a family" was the last thing on the list. It was painful for her that the family she'd started had been with Tommy but not a marriage, it was supposed to go together but she didn't regret it, she only regretted that Tommy and her weren't married when they had Joey, and that they weren't married now.

A quiet knock on the door broke Jude from her thoughts; she glanced up at the door where Tommy stood looking all silent and broody like he did so well. She gave him a small smile and then motioned for him to come in. "Hi Tommy, what brings you here?" She asked with a small smile and a quiet voice.

"We need to talk Jude." Was all he said as he walked further into the room.