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A/N: Hey everyone surprise to see this chapter so fast?! Me too lol I was Inspired by MaryannaBella's review. So I did my best to get right on it. I hope everyone enjoyed Breaking Dawn 2, I know I did!

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Chapter 14: not Jake!

"well, that would explain the crying now wouldn't it. Oh dear Lord it can't be Jakes! NO! NO NO NO! lmao"- maryannabella

EPOV

After an indefinite amount of silence had passed, the shock wore off. I was trying to figure out when this happened. Though I really didn't care because I was fucking happy I was going to be a Dad again. But we have always been careful.

I knew that if she let me get in there without any burier she would HAVE to marry me I would have take a couple goats, 5 cows and whatever else her dad would want for her hand but I digress….

I was happy but the look on her face told me she wasn't. She sat up and looked down at me in anger.

"Why the fuck are you smiling? This is horrible news. What am I going to do with another kid when I live with Alice and Jasper? How am I going to do this?"

"Wait calm down… Bella you are not in this alone. I've asked you on multiple occasions to move in here with us." I was confused by her panic and slightly offend "Do you think I would walk away from you guys? I would never do that Bella I love you, all three of you and I want you all here with us. Let me take care of you. Please Love?"

Her eyes blazed at me and again I didn't know what I did. Thus began one of the worst evenings of my life.

We fought; we fought that whole fucking night. By the end of it I wasn't even sure if it was worth the argument anymore. That's a lie. I did know that I would fight for her and our child. The Argument felt like deja vu really. Though this fight wasn't for the life or death of my child it was more for the life or death of our relationship. Or at least that is what it felt like.

She was upset that I was not upset. Whatever the fuck that means.

She was upset to have another child out of wedlock. Understandable, but easily corrected if she gave me the chance.

She was upset that I wanted to 'Take care' of her because "she could take care of her children and herself without me" Again I say whatever, who wants to be a single parent? I know I don't.

It took almost till dawn for her to say what her real issue was. She had sex with Jake about two weeks after huggate. Even though it was over two and a half months ago it still fucking hurt. It fucking hurt me to my core. I said a lot of hurtful things. She said some hurtful things also.

"Did you just say you had sex with him?" It was too late at night or maybe early in the morning to be having this conversation. I hoped with all my heart that she didn't just what I know I heard. She just nodded as I clasped against the door sliding down to the floor. My head dropped into my hands.

"Why?" I didn't understand why she would do it.

Silence.

"Please tell me why you do that? I have tried…I have tried so fucking hard to be whatever the fuck you needed me to be." I couldn't breathe I have NEVER felt this much pain without being physically hurt in my life.

"The reason I would give would won't be good enough…I am not good enough! I tried to let you get out of this relationshit before it even started. I am a fucking mess with you or with Jake…"

I cut off her pity party." Why? Why would you do this to me? I have done everything you asked of me. If you needed a babysitter I was there. If you needed a ride I was there. If you needed an ear to listen or arms to hold you I was there. Why is it that when you needed a FUCK would you call someone else? What the fuck else do you want from me? You want me curse you out or call you a whore like he has." I knew it was a low blow and that I needed to end this conversation before it got out of hand but in such a bad place that I couldn't find my way out.

"I am weak, I am stupid, and what do you want form me? I told you I was a fuck up. I thought I knew what I wanted he challenged that and I was pathetic. I am so sorry, I have never meant to hurt you."

"Well I find that very hard to believe that you never meant to hurt me. Why didn't you tell me when you did it? Why wait until you tell me you might be pregnant with my child? You're not the person I thought you were. I thought I was in love with you. But I can't be in love with a cold heartless bitch." I have never called a woman out of her name before at least not to her face but I was too blinded by pain to control my mouth.

I shook my head in my palms "I can't even look at you. NO one has ever hurt me like this Bella. Look at me." She hesitantly did as I asked. Her eyes were sad but my vision was blurred so I couldn't worry about her needs when I was broken so "You are killing me. I feel like I am dying. You have to leave."

"Are you serious? You are kicking me out when we need to talk the most?" I nodded because I didn't trust my words not to say something mean. "Well we both need time to figure things out." I nodded again. "Are you breaking up with me?" she asked in a sad voice. I shook my head because though she was breaking my heart it was still hers.

Now here we are two months later and thinking back I don't regret getting out how I was feeling at that moment. I knew from the moment she showed real interest in me that she was who I wanted. I ignored every text message, Facebook status and inbox from the list of woman I had on deck when we meet. One of those women was the mother of my child and I didn't think twice about letting her ass go for Bella.

It fucking killed me that even after that asshole treated her like shit, in front of everyone I might add, that she still didn't know what she wanted. Was that the real reason why she didn't love me? Was she STILL in love with him?

At her first Appointment, which I was not invited to, she found out when we conceived. We came to the conclusion that the broken condom incident was it because the dates matched up. I was happy that paternity was not something we'd have to worry about but I was still really fucked up over what she did.

I know I really didn't have the right to be upset. We were unofficial; shit we have always been unofficial there was never a conversation about what we were to each other. She just was my girlfriend. Hindsight makes me wish there was a discussion but would it have made a difference. It would hurt more.

I was miserable. I wanted to be there to rub her belly as she fell asleep. Message her swollen feet after work and listen to the baby move with Masen and Carlie though a stethoscope.I was always sad and my kids were suffering for it. I still picked up Carlie every day after I picked up Masen from school and they never failed to ask me was I ok everyday…..it just made me sadder.

Masen excelled in school and he was a social butterfly. I mean moth that's more masculine. He was a social moth. The Halloween party at the school was coming up and he said three different girls asked him to be the prince charming to their princess costume. He is the man.

My Carlie on the other hand went back to being introverted according to Rosalie. She said she notice an immediate change when Masen left. She was starting to bloom under Masen's wing but now she was back to coloring alone.

I didn't know what to do; when we were at home she didn't act any different, but Bella said she been quitter also. I was working up the nerve to ask Bella to talk a child psychiatrist my Dad knew but we barley spoke without having a mini fight.

I just want some fucking happy times. I want to tell everyone we were expecting and not rob my mother or myself of this experience again.

With Victoria's pregnancy I didn't want anything to do with her if it wasn't concerning Masen. I went to every appointment but I didn't want all the affectionate things I want with Bella. Every time I see her I want it lift her shirt up just to see if she was showing any. At least in her stomach…

She was carrying in her hips. Whatever that means; that is what Alice said when I mentioned her spreading under my breath one night when dropping off Carlie. I love the way Bella's Body was looking and we needed to make up soon so I could get a better look.

Halloween fell on a Wednesday this year and Masen wanted to bring Carlie to school for his class party. The teacher said it was fine and then we will go trick or treating after we go to Pizza Hut for a free Pizza for the kids. We had a plan, me and the kids that is. I was going to talk to Bella when she came to get Carlie tonight.

She came in using her key at 8:00 Friday night. It was late for her usually she picked her up around 7:00. The kids were upstairs in their room when I heard the door from the couch.

"Is she ready?" Well hi to you too…I nodded but as she went for the stairs I spoke.

"Bella, can you come here first?" She eyed me with her hand firm on the Bannister. "Please?"

She huffed and walked over and sat on the other side of the couch…as far away as possible.

"What do you want?"

"Well I wanted to take Carlie with us Costume Shopping list weekend."

"There is no need I have to work on Halloween so she's not going trick or treating."

"I wanted to take her to Masen's class party and then with us when we go out."

"It sounds like you already have a plan for my child. Why did you even ask I am sure you were going to take her regardless of what I say." That statement irked me. If she thought I was over stepping my boundaries with Carlie she needs to say that.

"If you don't want her to go, she won't. You are her mother. I will not kidnap your kid." I said even though I would. I would never let Bella's immaturity make Carlie miss out on anything. I made that promise back during huggate. She didn't say anything just stared at the TV like she was really into sportscenter.

"She can go…I don't want her to miss out because I am in a bad mood."

"Thank you. Masen really wanted her to come to his class." She groaned when she shifted trying to get comfortable. "How are you guys doing?" I asked nodding towards her Barely there Belly.

"Ugh, this pregnancy is so different than Carlie. She was so easy this child is very difficult. I can't eat anything I want and everything I like makes me nauseous now. My back and feet are always killing me and I haven't had a full night's sleep in weeks." I chuckled at her rant. My kid would be the difficult one. But this exchange made me sad that I even had to ask. I wanted to be there with her every step of the way.

I pulled her hand that was setting on the couch, propping herself up, so that she was lying with her head in my lap. I was surprised she let me do it but she just sighed and settled herself down lying on her side.

I ran my hand though her hair breathing in her scent. I took a chance since I was feeling risky "I fucking missed you so much Bella." As I leaned over her to kiss her temple I saw a tear fall from her eye. "I don't want to fight anymore, Baby I Love you." She nodded but didn't say anything just let me sooth her.

She slowly fell asleep in my lap and I couldn't be happier. I am really going to have to let go of all the hurt I was feeling to get myself back to anywhere near how it was a couple months ago. True things weren't perfect but I was mostly happy. Now I a am fucking depressed emo chick that Seth and Emmett Made fun of all day.

I was lost in my thought when I heard a musical giggle and a hearty chuckle. I looked around but didn't see them but I heard more laughing. Bella shifted at the sound."Shhh guys. Bella is trying to sleep."

Masen's head popped up right next to me from behind the couch. "Sorry Daddy."

"It's ok bud, You guys go get ready for bed I'll be up soon."

"I get to stay here wit you?" Carlie shyly asked

I smiled and nodded thankful that she had plenty pajama's here we missed having them here in the morning. "Go get ready for bed sweetheart."

They both ran off while I tried to find a way to move Bella without waking her. Each time I shifted my legs beneath her she would huff. I sighed and gently lifted her head and got up from under her.

"Edward?"

"Yes baby?"

"You have to get the zebra away from the baby!" Huh? She must've eaten something heavy because that was the only time she talked in her sleep. I chuckled and told her ok I will. I picked her up and carried her upstairs than laid her in the bad. As I was pulling her jeans off I finally go to touch her expanding stomach.

I placed my hand over her slightly swollen abdomen and placed a gentle kiss right below her belly button. "I love you little one." Those were words I've been waiting to say to this baby since I found out about it's existence. Thanks God I got to do it…

After I got the kids down I came back to bed and stripped down and climbed in with her. "Edward don't let my baby ride that damn zebra." She stated in irritation.

I chuckled into her neck "I won't love. No worries I won't."