Title: Next to you - Chris Brown and Justin Beiber
Author: Liv'Simply
Rating: M to be safe.
Pairing Gil G/ Sara S.
Authors note: Sorry for taking so long with this one. But Merry Christmas to you all, here is a little present.
Summary: Who doesn't love a little bit of conversation while shopping?
Youfve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.
That 1000 watt smile lit up the room as Sara walked about it, occasionally running her slender fingers along the racks of material. gWhat do you think Gil?h She teased holding up a small article of clothing.
"Speedos? Not my thing darlingh I grinned, following her around. gI'm not the one in this relationship who suits tight, skimpy clothing.h
"Dirty old manh She patted my arm after putting the man thong down.
"I'm not that old, just...experiencedh
"I'd sayh she passed that one with a wicked wink.
"Now who is the dirty one?h
Yeah, you are my dream,
Therefs not a thing I wonft do.
Ifll give my life up for you,
Cos you are my dream.
"Speaking of dirty ones, I had a very..lets say..interesting dream last nighth To that she replied with one of those sultry glances she seems to so generously give me. She put the clothing down, then walked over to me, clasped my hand in hers and walked out of the shop with me.
The noise of the main wal-mart corridors was thrown against us, the mothers warning their children not to venture so far, young teenage girls giggling and boys jeering. Nonetheless our conversation did not falter. gI always have dreams about you actuallyh
"Oh?h She turned to me, her eyes sparkling. gAnd are they all..interesting?h
"Not all of them..just...quite a fewh I dipped my head, hoping she wouldn't notice the blood rushing into my facial capillaries. I knew I had failed when she giggled aloud.
"You look so cute when you go red!h Her dreamy lips pressed against my stubble clad cheeks.
"I need to shave don't I?h
"No, I like a bit of stubble on you. Makes you look a little...feralh She almost whispered the last word.
"Sara..you well and truly are my dream woman.h
And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
Ifll be there when youfre insecure,
Let you know that youfre always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
Sara rubbed her arms trying to settle the raising goosebumps. gYou cold honey?h
"Yeah, it's a little nippy in hereh I let go of her hand, then slid my coat from my arms. gWhat are yo-h
"Hereh I ushered the coat around her.
"Gil, you don't hav-h
"I do, I want to. Anyway, we said it in our vows remember? What's mine is yours?h
"That wasn't in our vows sweetieh
"Well...it was impliedh I shrugged, slipping my arm around her waist. gPlus, you look rather lovely in ith
"I look lovely in mens clothing...good to knowh
One day when the sky is falling,
Ifll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
Ifll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
gJust being considerate honeyh
gThank youh
I smiled at her, then proceeded to walk, occasionally gazing into the passing shops and there displays. I turned back to my wife only to find her occupied by a scene unfolding ahead of her. A small child having a ice cream, or attempting to, and dropping most of it on her lap. I heard my Sara chuckle a little as the mother wiped away the sticky mess. I saw the way Sara looked at the small child...hopeful.
"What you thinking abouth I enquired..although I could pretty much guess.
You had my child,
You make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on little me,
Thatfd be mine forever.
"Nothing honey, just...contemplating life"
"What about it sweetheart?" I stopped by a near by cotton candy cart. I knew Sara was a sucker for the sticky sweet stuff. "Two please, make a big one for the lovely lady" I grinned at the man serving me.
"Sure buddy, be right there" He turned away to grab some plastic sticks and begin the short process. I turned back to my wife. Her eyes clouded over, her head slightly bowed as she was engaged deep in thought.
"Sar?"
"Gil."
"Talk to me"
"Hey buddy, here you go. That's three dollars" The man's voice was deep, gruff, but his face friendly. I handed the biggest cloud of pink fluff to my wife, then paid the patient man.
"Lets go sit down" She stated as she began to walk away.
And baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
Ifll be there when youfre insecure
Let you know that youfre always lovely
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
I followed her to a quiet corner, away from the chaos. gGil...h She started quietly. I decided I would not interrupt, instead allowing her time to gather her thoughts. gI have been getting these strange thoughts and feelings lately. I don't know how to explain it exactly...h She trailed of quietly once more.
"Go on dear, you know we can talk about anything. Tell me what you are feeling, it usually helps" I smiled supportively accompanying it with a gentle squeeze of her hand.
"Well...every month when I, urmm. Well, when mother nature visits me, I get...disappointed." She stopped and searched my eyes for a reaction before continuing. "I keep getting these urges and thinking about what it would be like to have a..a baby, a family of our own" She finished, bowing her head once more as if ashamed.
"Its normal to get those feelings sweetie, don't all women get them at some point? They will leave eventually" I lifted her chin to make her eyes meet mine. "Its okay"
"I don't want to feel like this. It feels like something is missing."
One day when the sky is falling,
Ifll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
Ifll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
"We can go away for a while, get your mind off it?"
"Gil...you don't understand. I've been feeling like this for a while"
Even though I dreaded the answer, I asked the question. gWell...how long is that?h
"Since...our honeymoon..."
The noise in the mall died down, the teenagers giggling and jeering disappeared. The mothers, children. The cotton candy selling men in carts and married couples. I looked at my wife. My wonderful wife, whom I thought I knew so well. Turns out, I had been missing something right in front of my nose. It all made sense now.
The longing looks, the controlled avoidance in walking past baby stores. The sex. Lots and lots of sex, constantly. I don't think she did it consciously. Sara would not trap me like that. No, it was a instinct. A natural instinct. One that I was denying her.
Wefre made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know wefll make it through
"Gil?" Sara shook me slightly. I closed my mouth I realised was practically resting on my chest. "Are you okay? Say something?"
"Sara, I love you. So very much...what do you want to do about this situation?"
"I don't know. I'm scared Gil" She wrapped her arms around her. She at once transformed into a young child again, just trying to protect herself. Her huge eyes locked onto mine, and for the life in me, I could not break the contact. "I don't want it to be like our relationship. I don't want to waste time, and wake up in 10 years wishing I had a child to call my own, a family we could create"
"I know dear. We did waste time because-"
"-we didn't act soon enough" She finished. "I don't have much time either Gil"
"What are you taking about, your still quite young."
"I'm 40, nearly 41 Gil"
"Yeah, you don't look a day over 25, hot stuff" I winked, trying to lighten her mood. She gave me a weak smile in return.
"I only have a small chance of conceiving naturally now."
"Wait...you've looked into this?" I asked, slightly taken aback at how determined she was.
She didn't reply. Instead she leaned against me, pushed her head into the curve of my neck and sighed. Then, she sobbed.
One day when the sky is falling,
Ifll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
Ifll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Her hair threaded through my fingers as I held her. I felt my insides turning cold at the thought of her being this upset. At the thought of her harbouring these feelings for so long. gSara, you know I love you, right? I think we should think about this, clearly.h
"I love you too, Gil. You really want to talk about it?" She looked up, her eyes wet and dark. I realised I was still holding my cotton candy, not even taken a bite.
"Yes, I do. I think this is something we could...should do. Or at least think about. Why didn't you bring it up earlier?"
"I was scared.."
"Of my thoughts?"
"Yes that, I thought you would hate the idea of a child"
"What? Someone to teach, to love, another person that resembles you? Where's the bad in all of that?" I smiled, pulling her closer. "I'm beginning to like the idea actually. We can show our baby the world, all the different things out there, bring it up together, like a real family." I heard her laugh softly against my chest.
"But, Gil..." She pulled away, looking at me once more. She was different now, not a frightened child, but a terrified woman. "What if I'm like her? What if I do something wrong?"
Oh yeah
Stand by my side
When the sky falls
Oh baby
Ifll be there
"She alienated me and my brother. She would never defend us, even though she knew it would have been the right thing. She just stood there and watched. Cowering usually. I can't be like that Gil, I can't. I don't want to have a baby then ruin everything"
"You won't darling. I'm positive."
"How do you know? How can you be so sure?" She looked skywards. I saw them, the tears brimming at her eyelids.
"I know you, I know you would never hurt anyone. Not me, not our drooling Hank, certainly not our child. Your nothing like your parents, either of them. To me, your a godsend. The perfect godsend. I would not have you any other way either"
Youfve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
To keep you forever.
"Gil, godsends do something miraculous, like saving lives." I clasped her small hand, bringing it to my mouth then kissing it gently.
"You saved my life, doesn't that count as something miraculous?"
"I suppose so.." She leaned up, pressing her tender lips against mine. I groaned. Not a sexual groan, although Sara did also have that power over me too. No, a contented groan. I knew from now on, good things were going to come our way. Good things, hopefully, in a small bundle bearing the name 'Grissom'.
Well then? What do you think? Just my interpretation of what should happen on the show! Merry Christmas once again!