A/N: Thank you everyone for all the good constructive criticism. I think over all it has made me a better writer, even if I do get mad when I look back at the messages. But that's just me having anger issues. Lol. And it will be more updated. Sorry its been awhile. My computer crashed and there was a break in my screen so I had to save a buy a new one. And yes, im aware that John coming back is completely unreal but its my story.

"What? You told him? What did he say?" I asked, I was so startled, I couldn't believe that John had said anything. It almost made me feel betrayed.

He took a long, deep, drawn out breath before speaking. Though when he did, I heart a slight bit of humor in his voice.

"He said a lot of things. Well, not really said…he yelled a lot of different things" John sighed as he pushed a piece of hair away from my face.

"Like what?"

"Well, he called me a book full of names that I didn't think ever existed. Lectured me, made me do many, many routines and then finally he granted me leave" When he said this, I began to get confused.

"If my dad was so mad, then why didn't he come back, instead of you? The one he hates." I asked.

"They need your father there more than me, and there are always extra men that can replace me. He knew how bad you were probably hurting right now. And you are his child, and you ARE his weakness" John pulled me forward biting his lip and kissing my lips softly. "You're my weakness too"

My face turned a soft pink. I don't think I could ever get used to John's kisses. They were so…intoxicating. "So he just sent you back?" I whispered, though I didn't want to ask too many questions.

"No, I kissed his ass… a lot"

I laughed, biting my lip before kissing him. "I love you" I smiled, kissing him again and again.

"I love you too"

It was really hard to concentrate on the conversation that night with John kissing me. Eventually it led to something a little more than kissing, and I didn't say anything, but I was more than embarrassed with my body. The pregnancy was defiantly beginning to take a toll on my body and it was starting to affect my self confidence around John. I knew that he loved me, but I always wondered if he ever looked at other girls.

The next day.

"Kevin, I have no idea what to wear!" I threw mounds of clothes onto my bed. John and I were going out tonight and while he was at PT I decided to begin getting ready.

"Calm down…" Kevin grasped my shoulders. "Look, just wear this…" he picked up a white sundress that Sarah had bought me a few weeks ago when we went into the city. It was hard to find clothes when you have a big pregnant stomach.

"Oh its prefect" I smiled, before pushing him out of the room to change clothes. My favorite thing about the dress was that it covered my stomach and I didn't look as nearly as pregnant as I did.

John finally rolled around at 5. When he walked in the door he was covered in sweat, and smelt like crap.
"Hey baby" He smiled, walking over to me and kissing me. I pulled away with a laugh and pushed him backwards.

"Hey nasty." I laughed. "Go get a shower, then come kiss me" I smiled before walking into the living room where Sarah was sitting while John went to clean up.

"So where are you guys going tonight?" She asked as she flipped though the TV channels.

"I have no idea, John won't tell me." I bit my lip; even just thinking about him drove me crazy.

"Well be back by…oh wait…it doesn't matter" Sarah laughed before standing up, bending down and rubbing my stomach. I laughed and pushed her away playfully.

I sat for about 10 minutes before John came out. He was wearing just a casual outfit with his hair gelled up a bit, but not completely and his face was clean shaven.

"Now can I kiss you?" He asked walking over to me and pulling me off the sofa.

"Mmm…I don't know" I tapped my chin with a laugh before kissing him. I pulled away with the taste of mint in my mouth; it was different than pulling away with the taste of cigarette.

"Are you ready?"

"Yeah, let's go" I grabbed Sarah's car keys off the counter top and waved them in front of her. "Well be back later" I smiled hugging her before grabbing Johns hand and walking out to the car.

It was a sweet gesture but I was surprised when John opened my car door. I smiled and before he could walk away he kissed me.

We arrived at a small Italian restaurant about 15 minutes off base. It really brought Italy to Germany and I felt like we were sitting in Rome.

"So have you been thinking about names?" John asked, before biting into his spaghetti.

"Uhm, a little bit. Have you?" I smiled, taking a bit bite into my salad.

"Yeah, I have. I thought about that since you told me" John admitted with a smile. I loved his smile.

"What are some of your ideas?" I asked, running my fingers though my hair before taking a sip of water.

"I really like the name Jayde" John shrugged his shoulders. "What about you?"

"That's a perfect name!" I was ecstatic. All of the names that I had thought about defiantly didn't sound as good as Jayde did.

"Well what are your ideas? You don't want to just pick the first name I throw out"

"Uhm, Carlee, Kendall, Hannah, Stefani…but I love Jayde" I smiled. It really was better than all the names that I was thinking of.

"What if it's a boy?" John raised an eye brow.

"But I know it's a girl."

"But….what if?"

"What have you thought about?" I asked, I never really thought about any boy names because though the whole pregnancy I could just tell it was a girl.

"Yeah, I like the name Jayden" He laughed as he took another bite.

"Jayde, Jayden. You're an original guy." I laughed as I finished up my salad

"I know, I try really hard" John smiled he finished his plate then soon after the waitress came around and John paid.

We made it back to the house, but didn't go inside. I took Johns hand as we walked down the sidewalk; we were headed towards the park.

"John" I bit my lip and looked up at him.

"Yeah babe" He smiled, letting my hand go and wrapping it around my shoulder.

"Are you scared?" I ran my fingers though my hair as I looked up into the night sky.

I felt Johns grip around my shoulder get tighter before he began to speak. "Of course I'm scared Savannah" He stopped as we made it over to the gazebo, the place of our first kiss. He picked me up and placed me on the ledge where he grabbed my hips and looked up at me.

"But it doesn't mean we can't get though this together" John kissed my lips as one hand pushed the hair from my face.

"What do you mean together? What if you have to leave again?" My eyes began to water as I thought about him leaving in 2 weeks, then once Jayde was born, if he left again…. I would be torn.

"Savannah, even if I'm all the way the way over there…I will always be right here" He pressed his index finger against my heart. I smiled, pulling his face closer to mine and kissing his lips.

"I love you so much"

"I love you more" John laughed and picked me up. I wrapped my legs around him and smiled.

"No, I love you more"

"Negative"

"What?" I laughed.

"That's a negative. I love you more" He smiled his lips crashing against mine.