Like usual they were quiet. It wasn't an uncomfortable silence though. Sam liked that about Eileen, it was difficult to feel awkward, nervous or scared around her. 'I think it's a good thing, this road trip.' She spoke up, only to keep watching the road. Sam turned to look at her expression. She seemed… nervous? Often when they had arguments she would start avoiding eye contact. Sam knew all too well he could, in those scenarios, just as well yell at his brother when he was wearing headphones.

'Hey…' he gently put his hand on her shoulder. Finally she looked up. 'What's wrong? You've been acting weird lately…' It had started out with small things, she seemed lost in thought, was sick a lot and got oddly emotional about things. She was closed off and Sam was starting to get really worried. Unsure about what to do. For a while he'd thought it was the stress that Bonnie was causing them both. She was their beautiful kid. But he'd learned from past experiences that raising a child wasn't always great.

He gave her an encouraging smile. And maybe he also threw in a bit of puppy eyes. 'I need to tell you something Sam.' Without even thinking she started using sign language. Sam followed along just well. His eyes wandering between her signing and watching the road. 'Anything, you know that.' Dean had been right about taking the road trip. He was pretty sure he couldn't be having this conversation in the bunker. Even if they had their own room. Something about a different area made them feel separated from the hunting life.

She moved her hand to her belly and slowly made the distance between her hand and belly bigger. He knew what that meant. 'You're pregnant?' The couple looked at each other. Eileen studied him curiously. 'Yes. Five weeks.' When Sam didn't give an intellectual reaction Eileen put her hand on the wheel. 'Maybe we should park.' Sam felt an ocean of emotions. He felt happy, stupidly happy. And he was worried, stupidly worried.

'Why didn't you tell me earlier?' Sam quickly found a place to park and turned to look at her. She shrugged, 'I forgot my birth control. I felt guilty, I mean... what should we do now?' Sam took her hands and kissed both of them. 'It's not your fault. We'll do whatever you want, you know I'll support you.' She pulled away her hands and quickly made her case: 'And that is great. But if you don't want another baby you should be honest with me.'

To people who drove past they would probably look odd. Sam had managed to almost fluently learn American Sign Language. With the help of Eileen of course. And Dean often commented on how ridiculously cute they looked when they argued.

Sam quickly shook his head. 'I know, I know. But trust me, I don't care whether or kid was planned or not. It's definitely not your fault. And I mean... this is amazing!' Apparently his enthusiasm was contagious because Eileen started grinning slowly, as if she was only realizing now what was happening. '...We're having a baby.' They kissed. Sam couldn't help but to kiss her again. 'Oh just wait until Dean and Cas hear. I bet they are going to be so excited!' Eileen's smile faded slightly, but in his current excitement Sam hardly noticed.

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The rest of the trip was pleasant. Once again quiet. Until Eileen put on the radio, she often did this. Sam never really understood why but he always let it happen. He also always put the volume down because he was afraid his ears might start bleeding otherwise.

When they finally found a decent motel both hunters wanted to just sit down and sleep. So that's exactly what they did. Or tried to do. Sam often wondered how he and Eileen made it work. He remembered their first meeting pretty well. It had been just another hunt, and ever since their meeting they'd kept contact. Dean had teased him about it, he'd also asked himself what the hell he was doing. He knew how it went, he met someone and they died.

But talking became meeting up. Meeting up became dating. No-one died. Dating became Eileen moving into the bunker. And them living together had ended up with a marriage proposal. And nobody died. Cas had found the proposal quite romantic. One of them had accidentally taken a possessed object to the bunker. Probably a left over from their last hunt. The ghost was pretty pissed once he made himself known. The results? Sam almost died, Eileen proposed and Dean was magically stuck to a wall while Cas burned the object.

Cas had a curious taste in romance. Heck because Sam was dead on paper they couldn't even marry officially. But they knew a priest who owned them a favour and here they were, together. 'Sam?' They had laid close together, she had probably noticed that his breathing wasn't slowing down. He turned on the light, quietly apologizing for whatever way he'd woken her up.

She quickly shook her head. 'It's alright, I just noticed you weren't sleeping. Did you have a nightmare again?' In the light her features became warmer, softer. He shook his head, 'just thinking. You?' She fumbled with her hands, apparently thinking too. 'I know this is a bad moment.' She admitted, 'but I've been thinking about the future. And I think it's time we move out of the bunker.'

The only sound that entered the room was the sound of the trees rustling. 'What?' Sam wondered what Eileen meant. Moving out of the bunker? 'I'm not following you, why would you want to leave?' Eileen looked away, and he wished she didn't do that.

He wished she'd never look away again. Because what if she'd turn away next? Walk away? Leave him behind? He would lose her like he'd lost so many others. 'Think about it. Bonnie is growing up in the bunker right now. And things are fine. But what about when she grows up? Where will she go to school? Are we going to make her a hunter like us? Our kids will be ghosts if they are locked up underground. Don't get me wrong, I love the bunker. It feels like a home to me. And Cas and Dean are amazing. But it's time we think about the future.'

A part of Sam's brain found it all very logical and reasonable. But the part of him that won out was the ingrained instinct to think about his brother. 'What about Dean?' Eileen shrugged her shoulders. 'I don't mind if he wants to come with us. I know that you guys care a lot about each other. The same goes for Cas.'

He started raising his voice, Eileen saw his distress. 'And then what? Have an ordinary life? Stop hunting? Sending the kids to school? People will notice in the long run that something is off. Why do you think that Dean and I never stayed in one place for a long time? It's dangerous. And what if Bonnie and the baby are in danger because of the job? Isn't the bunker the safest place?'

Eileen frowned, her disbelief clear in the way she spoke. 'I don't understand Sam. You told me that you would like to leave the life. Now the option is possible and you say things like that?' Both hunters looked at each other in confusion. Sam felt agitated, he couldn't just leave his brother and Cas behind to fend for themselves. He knew how their story ended. They died together. Whether they wanted it or not, that's how things had always been.

'Yes I would like to leave the life. But you know that we can't!'
'Then what about Bonnie? Was your plan to throw her life away? Her future because you don't want to leave your brother and Cas?'

Her words stung him. They fought so often, sometimes it made Sam wonder if they were even compatible. 'This is not about Dean.' He didn't even sound convincing to himself. Eileen's eye roll said it all. 'With you two? It's always about the other. You know that I respect that. And I'm not saying you have to choose. You know I would never do that to either of you. I love Cas and Dean. They are my family too. But I bet that if you ask their opinions they will agree with me.'

She always did that. Whenever they had an argument she would get Dean involved. And every time he would agree with her. He would look Sam in the eye and explain carefully why Eileen made a good point. Was she right? It felt stupid to get upset but he was. He cared about Bonnie, of course he did! And she wasn't going to be a hunter right? But the longer he was thinking about it, the more he found that he was sounding just like John. He took a deep breath. 'You know what. You might have a point. But we're both tired and we shouldn't fight on our anniversary. I'm sorry for getting angry and raising my voice.'

He pulled her in for a hug. One she returned after a few seconds or so. She nodded, looking guilty. 'I'm sorry too, I love our family. And I just want us to make the right choices while we still can.' Sam nodded. They sat for a while, talking about simpler things. For a while everything was okay. The spell got broken by a message from Dean.

You guys don't pick up the phone. Hope you're having a nice road trip. Cas called, he has a case. I'm driving over, left Bonnie in the capable hands off Claire. When you get the chance you need to head back, sorry to disrupt.

Filed to the message was a picture of Bonnie wearing a Batman outfit. 'Oh my god I can't believe him.' Sam mumbled while Eileen quickly replied. She seemed mostly amused by the picture, and she seemed tired. 'I told him we'll head back tomorrow. We'll dive in some lore.' Sam nodded. 'I'm just glad they're talking again.' Eileen seemed surprised. 'Another fight?'

Sam and Eileen might argue a lot. But not as much as Dean and Cas. Years ago Sam had still hoped that maybe their staring would eventually lead to something more, but that was never the case. And although Eileen often gave him a knowing look they never spoke about it out loud. Whatever happened between Cas and Dean was their business.

Eileen brought him back to reality, 'hey, they are going to be fine. Just like they always are.' But Sam had a feeling, the feeling that this time something was wrong. 'Cas has been acting strange. Things have gone very quiet out there. We haven't seen angels or demons for awhile. It makes me wonder if something is wrong.' Eileen bit her lip, she seemed to be thinking. Finally she yawned. 'Let's worry about that tomorrow. We need to get some sleep first.' She kissed him, slow and sweet. 'We'll take care of them.' Sam nodded and the light went out again.

'Like we always do.' She was neither capable of seeing or hearing his reply. And yet she hold his hand tight.

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It was cold. Not cold enough for Sam to wonder if he might need salt, but cold enough that he couldn't sleep. Eileen had drifted off quite quickly. He'd listened to her breathing for awhile. Eventually he stood up, he tried to move as quietly as possible and to his luck Eileen only stirred a bit. He took out his phone, staring at the screen.

Should he call Dean? He might still be travelling... before he could make a decision his phone started buzzing.

Cas calling...

He quickly picked up the phone, 'hey Cas, are you okay?' There was a short pause. 'I thought you'd be asleep.' Sam moved to the window to look outside. 'No I'm still awake. So what's the matter?' Another long pause, it made him wonder if something was wrong. 'I need to tell you something Sam. I need your help.'

The room was still cold, the bed still inviting but restricting and Sam simply said: 'Of course.'

HEY SO I LIKE SAM, AND I SHIP HIM WITH JESS, BUT ALSO WITH GABRIEL AND I LOVE HIM WITH EILEEN. BUT I HAD TO MAKE DECISIONS FOR THIS ONE.

HOPE YOU ENJOYED BYEEE.