Chapter 12:
Alex's POV
We had won. But we
did not feel victory. Maybe because it was an easy win, or more
likely because the person who we had been fighting for felt guilt.
I sat with Izzy, in her room. Holding her until she needed me to
let go. It had been days. Jasper had come in, to try and get her to
feel victorious, happy not guilty. But she blocked him out. She only
noticed my letting go of her.
"Nobody said I would feel like
this, Alex." She whispered taking my hand through the darkness. I
didn't notice the darkness as much anymore, my eyes could still see
perfectly in the lightless room. I looked into her eyes, and I saw
so much pain. I could see the guilt she felt.
"No one said you
wouldn't. But I promise you, you don't need to feel guilty."
"But
I'm so afraid, so afraid of what will come to me. And kick me in
the guts."
"Why? Why will something kick you in the guts?"
"I
am a murderer! I
killed someone! I'll go to hell!" she hissed, her voice filled
with venom. And fear. Fear that had made her lock herself
away.
"Izzy, no God could send you to hell. You have saved
millions of peoples' lives I am sure. And you won't die anytime
soon I am sure of. If you go to hell, so do I. So bear in mind, what
Emmet said, Iz, Hell isn't so bad, so long as you have an angel
with you."
"It's not me I'm afraid for, it's you. You
don't get an angel and I do."
"No, I have something better
than an angel, Iz. I have you." I whispered, kissing her forehead
lightly. She burrowed into my chest.
"Really?" she asked,
unsure, fearful. So much could be read in a tone of voice, so much
could be misinterpreted though.
"Really." I whispered firmly,
my strong, muscled arms locked around her tiny body as she, did what
I suppose was the vampire equivalent to crying: she stared into
darkness and moaned.
I had to keep her safe. I had to keep her
happy. I had to keep her from this harsh, cruel world. I had to keep
her from the danger I saw ahead. Of the pain. And if i had to be
destroyed to save her, so be it. She was a far better person than I
could ever dream to be. She deserved to live. I would ensure that.
The power I had, I thought of as a curse. Always knowing, often not
wanting to. Could anyone wish to see the death dates of the people
they loved? I did not. Sod's law was, it was cursed upon me. Now,
Izzy, the most amazing person I had ever known, had her death drawing
near. But undecided, unsure it changed drawing closer, stretching
away like an elastic band. But it was not an elastic band, it was
Iz's life. A life being brought to a close.
Soon, very soon.
In less than a week, danger was coming. I couldn't see death for definite, but i couldn't see a happy ending. I had to go to Alice.
Edward, Edward
Cullen I thought, hoping he would pick up on
my thoughts. Ask Alice if she, If she sees
death. Izzy's death. Edward flung the door
open and nodded then shut it again. I would have laughed if it was a
less serious matter. But it wasn't so I didn't.
"Iz? Can
I speak to Alex please?" tiny Alice asked appearing at the door.
She was really tiny. Izzy looked up and nodded barely noticeably,
even for a vampire.
"I don't think she's going to die, but
Alex that all depends on decisions." Alice reached out to touch my
arm comfortingly. Iz wouldn't go to the Voltouri, they could kill
her. They would kill her. She knew Edward's story, she knew that if
she revealed herself to be a vampire to the city of volterra, then
she was pretty much a goner. No one could give her that idea, she was
so scared of hell, she wouldn't commit suicide.
"Alice, how
do think she dies?" I asked here, cringing away from Alice's
hand.
"Carter had a vampire mate; she wants to kill us all. So
unless she changes her mind and just kills Iz, we might have a chance
of keeping alive. To kill Iz, Iz just needs to be lured away from us,
down a different path. Then it's bye bye Isadora." She whispered,
almost to quiet for even vampire ears. She looked at me with eyes so
wide and afraid that I was sure if she was able to cry she would be
drowning in tears.
"I won't let that happen." I whispered
firmly. I would make sure that Iz lived, even if it lead me to
flames.
So we had three possible options:
1. Don't let
her anywhere near anyone hwo could put the idea of Volterra in her
head
2. Don't let her anywhere near vampire strangers.
3.
Send her to a vampire psychologist (do they exist?) do we don't
have to worry about one.
So far I like the look of three. Less worry. Still have to worry about the mate though. Vampire life is kind of freaky, I swear it is.
Iz'z POV
It's just too dark.
There is nothing.
What am I holding onto? Alex. I need Alex. Alice walked in and took him out of the room with her. The light went completely out. What are they talking about? Me probably, my death, I heard them, I've seen they way the whisper around me. They think I'm going to Italy. They think Carter's mate is after me. They don't realise Emmet killed her do they? No, they wouldn't.
"Hi Iz!" Nessie
cried bouncing in, her happiness was more infectious than Jasper's.
That is saying something, Jasper controls feelings. I smiled lamely
up at her.
"Hello Ness." I mumbled softly. I felt her warm
hand on my arm.
"They think you're going to Italy, Iz. Are
you?"
"No I'm not Ness. I promise."
"Good. You need
to help me pick out my outfit for my date with Jake. Alice too of
course." She said the last bit louder to cheer Alice up. I laughed.
I had no choice in the matter.
A/N was that too quick of a recovery? REVEIW!
