Chapter 14

"Look I want you to sleep, you look terrible."

"You know Ron; you really know how to warm a girl's heart. But for you I'll try."

He leaned in and kissed her on the cheek. "I'll see you tonight and I expect you to look better."

Laughing over her shoulder, "yes Daddy."

She really hadn't slept and she knew based of the looks Gene was giving her there would be hell to pay. Luckily it was dark and she knew Ron would be too busy to pay attention to her.

Dragging herself up the stairs she kept her head down and tried to avoid the Germans rushing down the stairs past her. She could hear Ron yelling over all the noise and followed the sound of his voice. She stepped aside to let the German family pass then entered the room with a couple more Easy guys going out.

When he turned to look at her he frowned. "Well I can see you don't listen very well."

She shrugged and dropped into the chair closest to her. "I'm sorry, I was going to but it was too uncomfortable and well I've become spoiled…I miss sleeping with you."

Ron knelt in front of her and cupped her face with one of his hands and brushed his thumb under her eye. "That's possibly the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. However, we'll discuss the finer points of this later; right now you've got to sleep, so let's go find a bed."

She let him pull her to her feet and followed him into the bedroom. Dropping her clothes she crawled into the bed in only her t-shirt and waited until he got into the bed. Putting her head on his chest she listened to his heart and tried to relax.

"What's wrong, normally you are passed out the minute you lay down."

Sighing she reached for his hand. "I don't know I'm exhausted but…"

"But you can't stop thinking about things can you?"

"No. There has been too much lately. I don't want to think any more, when I sleep I dream and it's not always pleasant." Laughing she hugged him closer, "there was a time when I had the best dreams, I was haunted, but not like this."

Threading his fingers through her hair, he slowly massaged her head. "Lena, close your eyes and think about the happiest time in your life, or else you'll make yourself crazy."

Closing her eyes she let him massage her head and dropped into the dream.

He was waiting on her. This was the happiest day of her life, she was finally marring the man she loved and they were going to start their life together. Beside her Frank held out his arm to escort her down the aisle.

Arriving by Robbie's side they joined hands and said the words that would bind them together forever. Smiling up into his eyes, "I love you so much."

He laughed, "not as much as I love you." Bending down to kiss her she let her eyes slid closed and pulled him close. As he pulled away she opened her eyes to smile up at him and instead of Robbie it was Lew.

"Why are you here?"

That now familiar smirk came, "did you ever think that maybe I'm really what you want?"

Looking around her she realized they were no longer in the church but back in the aid station in Bastogne and it was completely empty. "You know I'm not so sure about you. How can I trust you Lew?"

He pulled her close again, "you can. I've learned from my mistakes, and I do love you Lena, come on, give me a chance."

Sighing she leaned against him, "alright then kiss me and let's see how it goes."

Just as his lips were about to touch hers…

"Lena, come on wake up, while I appreciate the kisses first thing in the morning. This is going to lead to something that won't be good for either of us."

She jumped away and sighed. "I'm sorry Ron, you said think about something that made me happy and well…my wedding kind of did it for me."

Laughing he sat up and started to dress. "Don't worry about it. But hey, you do kiss very well." Still laughing he threw her clothes at her. "Come on sweetheart, let's get moving, the war waits for no one."

Grabbing her clothes she quickly dressed and followed him outside and headed over to the trucks.

Gene grabbed her bag and threw in the back and pushed her into the truck. "Well at least you look better today."

"So where we heading for this time?"

"Don't know except deeper into Germany."

Leaning back she closed her eyes she leaned back and tried not to think too much about the dream. It might have meant nothing, but then again, maybe it was her subconscious way of saying she did care about Nixon.

Stuzelberg, Germany

She put it off as long as she could, but the fact she hadn't seen Nixon in a couple of weeks had her concerned, normally the man made a pest out of himself and made sure to either see or talk to her. Entering the battalion CP she found Dick bent over some reports.

"Hey Dick, I don't want to bother you, but have you seen Nixon?"

Dick gave her a smile, "nice to see you Lena, it's nice to see a friendly face right now. I'm tired of paperwork. Nixon, uh I thought you had heard he's jumping with another unit as an advisor. Funny you should ask though I would have expected him back."

"What do you mean jumping with another unit?"

"Well Sink was asked to provide an advisor and Nixon volunteered to do it. Besides I think he was looking for an excuse to get away from regiment."

She wrinkled her nose, "yeah that I understand all too well, they have no sense of humor up there."

"Tell you what Lena, when he shows back up, you want me to come find you?"

Smiling, "yeah that would be good; I think we might need to talk."

Dick couldn't contain his excitement, "finally I've been trying to convince him to talk to you, but I think you're both too stubborn for you own goods."

She shrugged, "maybe, maybe not, guess we'll see won't we." Turning she headed back out the door put was stopped by Dick one last time.

"Lena, can I ask you, what's going on between you and Ron?"

"Nothing Dick, we're friends and he's one I can have without coming between friends."

"You know you're a pretty smart lady, Nixon would be a fool to let you get away."

"You say the nicest things Dick, but yeah he would wouldn't he?" Chuckling she turned to head back to the aid station.

It was later that same day when Dick stopped by the aid station. Catching Lena alone he shut the door. "Nixon is back and maybe you might want to wait on that talk for a while, he's not at his best."

Frowning, "no Dick, now is exactly when I need to talk to him. Do you want to give me a little hint on what's happened?"

Dick quickly told her about the jump and Nixon's reaction to the entire thing. "I can't talk to him when he's like this, maybe you could try."

Lena laid her hand on his arm, "don't worry Dick it'll be fine."

Stopping outside the closed door she put her hand against it. Maybe she was fooling herself, maybe this wasn't the right time. "Oh come on baby, since when have you turned chicken? You know you want to see him, so for it."

Nodding her head she opened the door before she had time to think about it anymore. He was sitting facing the door having given up any pretense he was drinking straight from the bottle.

"Well here you are did you come to rub it in?"

Starting across the room toward him, "Lew I would never do that to you. Why would you even think something like that?"

He held up his hand to stop her. "Oh I bet you're happy now. This will give you and Ron something to talk about tonight. Poor old Nixon had his whole world turned upside down. I still have yet to write those damn letters home to those boys from the 17th who never even made it out of the fucking plane"

Walking slowly over to him, she took the bottle from his hand and set it on the table. "That's not what you need right now, give me your hand."

When he took her hand she pulled him to his feet and headed back into the open bedroom. Pushing him down on the bed she turned and closed the door, making sure it was locked. "Lew, I should have told you sooner how much I care for you, I hate seeing you this way and drowning yourself in alcohol isn't what you need right now."

He laughed, "yeah, well if it's not then what is it that you think I need."

Silently she stepped between his legs and leaned it stopping just before her lips touched his. "I think you need something to remind yourself you're still very much alive." Pressing her lips against his she pushed him back on the bed and straddled his hips.

He knew he should be mad at her. She'd put him through hell, ignoring him, then sleeping with Ron, but here she was when he truly needed someone. Someone for a short while that would make him feel whole again. He pushed his hands into her hair pulling her closer. The taste and feel of her surrounded him making him forget everything but her.

Her soft moan was enough to encourage him. Moving his hands down to her shirt he had it unbuttoned and off without ever breaking the kiss. Letting his hands slide back up her sides he cupped her breast, causing her to moan louder. Pulling his head away from her lips, he pushed her to a sitting position and followed her up to suckle at her breast.

Lena closed her eyes and ran her fingers through his hair, the only thing she couldn't deny was that she was attracted to Lewis Nixon and he could make her body throb in ways she'd not felt since Robbie died.

"Lew, not that I want you to stop, but you're a little over dressed."

She squeaked as he tossed her off his lap and stood removing his clothes as he went. Giving her a smile, "don't worry, I can correct that."

Crawling back onto the bed he pulled her under him and went back to her breast. "Have I mentioned how wonderful I think you look naked?" He murmured against her skin.

"Well not lately, but thank you all the same."

Leaving her breast he began to kiss his way down her body removing the rest of her clothing as he went. When he had her completely bare he ran his hands up and down her body. "You really didn't give me time to appreciate you last time."

When her eyes opened he saw that same glowing yellow tint. "You know right now I want you inside me. I need you Lew and it's been too long."

Bending to kiss her again he moved his hips between her legs and ran his hand down her center. She was hot and wet and he knew from experience she would grip him tight. Bracing his weight on his forearms he slowly began to enter her watching as the pleasure took her features.

When he was half way inside her he stopped. "Look at me Lena."

Looking up she met his dark eyes, she had a split second to brace herself before he spoke again. Something in his eyes gave him away that he was about to do something they would both regret.

"I want you to watch me as I take you. Make sure you understand it's me and not Speirs, he'll never do to you the things I can." He thrust the rest of the way into her making her cry out in pleasure. Her body screaming for release, even as her heart broke.

Closing her eyes she met him with every thrust and used her nails on his shoulders for a grip. "Harder Lew, please, harder." Tightening her legs around him she struggled to find release.

He knew she was close bending down he kissed her neck dropping one of his hands between her legs. With the first touch of his finger her whole body arched in release and he quickly followed her.

As his heart rate slowed he rolled off beside her dropping an arm over his face. He was tired, maybe if he just closed his eyes for a few minutes.

Lena finally opened her eyes and sat up. Lew was softly snoring beside her. Reaching out she brushed his hair away from his forehead and curled up beside him. She was in love with him, even though she knew nothing but pain could come of it, she still loved him and to have him alive beside her filled her with joy. Closing her eyes she quickly fell asleep.

The morning sun was in his face and when he tried to roll away from it he came in contact with something else in his bed. Opening his eyes he saw Lena lying beside him still asleep. Raising an eyebrow he quickly realized that he hadn't been dreaming last night he'd really slept with her. Reaching out he slowly ran his hand down her arm.

Lena stirred and opened her eyes to see Lew staring at her, his hand rubbing slowly up and down her arm. Smiling softly, "morning Lew, how do you feel this morning."

He smirked, "better now that I realize last night wasn't just a dream. Speaking of which, how did you sleep?"

Rolling over to her back she stretched and purred like a cat. "Wonderfully, no dreams, it was the best night's sleep I've had since before Bastogne. Even Ron hasn't been able to keep the dreams away."

At the mention of her sleeping with Ron something dark and twisted grew inside his chest making him lash out before he could think. "Well you know I guess he's just not the fuck I am now is he. So does this mean you'll be fucking me now on a regular basis or just tradeoff between us?"

Lena's blissful feeling was destroyed immediately. "No Lew, it's not like that, but..why would you say that to me?"

Getting up he grabbed his pants turning his back on her. "Well why not, you've ignored me for, gee I don't know a while now and I see you cuddle up to Speirs and then last night you're suddenly in here screwing my brains out, so what should I think."

She slowly left the bed and began to gather her clothing and put it back on. Once she was dressed she stopped and turned to face him. "You're supposed to think I care, which I do, but maybe you need to think about it some more."

Turning she left the room walking past Dick without even acknowledging he was there. She knew where she was going she just didn't know why. Stopping at the closed door she didn't bother to knock but opened and closed it quietly.

He was still in bed, but awake and lifted an eyebrow when he saw her, a frown marring his features. Patting the bed beside him he waited patiently while she crawled up next to him and buried her face in his neck. He could feel her tears running down his neck and onto his chest. Closing his eyes he pulled her closer to him.

He wouldn't ask what had happened, he had a good idea. She'd spent the night with Nixon, which could only mean that Nixon had screwed up everything this morning. Sighing he kissed her head and let her cry herself to sleep.

Captain ty and I hope you all enjoyed it. I know I had a great time rereading it. In fact, I went over all the chapters and dang! You guys are in for one hell of an ending. Hehe! I love being the all-knowing poster of this story. :) Please leave a review if you have the time. Thank you to captain ty, Dean's Leather Jacket, and AivieEnchanted for reviewing the last chapter.