Trigger warning!
Something is wrong with Danny and I am determined to find out what it is. We are on tour after the release of American Tragedy. We all try to spend time together, however, Danny spends a majority of time on his own, in the bunk room. He only comes out for food, bathroom breaks or when he is needed for band stuff like rehearsals, sound check, shows, and interviews. Yes, I know he is the new guy and he has only just joined so he would be shy, but he knows us well enough by now considering we have been friends for years.
He has spent more time with us on the other tours he has been on with us. Like he'd hang out with us at every waking moment and we wouldn't find him in the bunk room as much as we do now. This behaviour is very unusual and I want to make sure that he is okay. The fact that I might have a little crush on the lead singer has nothing to do with my concern. Everyone is worried about Danny, his whole life has been turned upside down.
"So Danny isn't coming with us today?" Matt asks as they get ready to go sightseeing while we have the day off. I love the sightseeing part of days off, especially in the newer places with really interesting buildings. "You know he isn't going to go, he rarely leaves his bunk when we are around, it's been that way for months now," Dylan says, he didn't mean it to sound bad or nasty but it is true and we know that we don't like it happening. We don't know what to do.
"I know, that's why I'm planning to change all of that," I say, all eyes in the room fall on me quickly and it makes me a little uncomfortable. This is also slightly awkward, I should have prepared myself for that. "How are you going to do that?" Jordon asks me. "I'm staying behind today to talk to him," I say. "What if he refuses?" George asks a valid point made there. " Well, I'm not going to give up, one day he'll be out and it will be just like before," I tell them, showing them how determined I was.
"We can only wish you luck dude," Dylan says. They say their goodbyes to both Danny and I. They get a little reply off Danny and they leave the bus. I'm going to look busy and see if he'll come to talk to me. If he doesn't then I'll go to the bunk room to see if he'll want to talk to me. I won't force him to tell me anything if he doesn't want to, but I have a feeling that if he lets me in on what's going on then he might feel better and will want to hang out with us more.
Half an hour passes and Danny appears, not even noticing that I had stayed behind. He walks into the kitchen are but I keep my head down and scribble on my notepad. He looks really bad like he is really unwell or something. He is so pale and looks a lot like he could be easily startled. "Danny, are you feeling okay? You don't look too well," I ask him, which startles him a bit. "Uh yeah, I'm fine," he says in a tone which tells me he is a bit unsure.
Before he can go into the bunk room and hide again until after we have gone to bed I reach out and grab his wrist. I don't grab him too harshly but he doesn't break from my grip. "Come sit with me, we need a chat, Danny," I tell him. I have to know what's wrong with him, he is a lot worse off than I thought and I think the rest of the guys would agree with me. He sits down next to me and picks at the edge of his sleeve. "What do you want to talk about?" he asks, I can tell he is feeling nervous which isn't like him.
"I just want to find out how you're coping, I've not seen you for a while," I say, keeping calm and relaxed in hopes that he'll be relaxed as well and he will talk to me so that he helps me help him. He looks down to the ground and his feet and I have a feeling I know what his answer is. " You're not coping well?" I ask and he nods. "I'm sorry Jorel, it's been a lot to get used to," he says and I put my hand on his shoulder. "No need to say sorry, we knew it was going to be tough," I tell him. I guess it runs deeper than what he was telling me.
He was starting to open up to me now and it was better than I was expecting. I was expecting him to just stay silent and then leave. "Theresa left me three months before the tour. She's been seeing someone else," he says and he has tears in his eyes which made me feel really sorry for him. We obviously had no clue that this was going on. "Aw dude that must suck, I am here if you need me," I tell him, I also pull him onto my lap for a hug which he appreciated a lot. I felt his tears dampen my shirt as he cries on me, I rub his back to try and comfort him.
It took him a few minutes but he managed to start calming down. I kept rubbing his back while he was calming down. My guess is that he has been bottling it up since she left him. "I'm sorry, it's just I haven't told anyone since it happened," he tells me, wiping his tears away. "It's fine, let it all out," I tell him which might have been a little too late to say that as he seems to have calmed down now. "Is there anything else you want to tell me?" I ask, just to be sure, he could have another problem that we are not aware of.
"Um, there are a couple of things," he says and he pushes his sleeves and I see the criss-cross of fresh cuts and scars littering his skin. "The hate I've been getting from the fans, as well as everything else going on at the moment, got too much for me," he says and I feel really sorry for him. If anyone deserves hate for what is going on with the band at the moment it certainly shouldn't be Danny. He is the one who has saved us and is keeping us from falling. American Tragedy has done so much better than Swan Songs and I owe it to Danny with his songwriting and vocal abilities.
"Aw Danny, you can come to us anytime with things like this. We can help you through this, just ask," I tell him, gently tracing the scars on his arms. I pulled him into another tight hug and just held him for a few minutes, enjoying the silence and the fact that I managed to get Danny to talk to me without any force. I had to grab his wrist because it was the only way I could have made sure that I didn't loose my opportunity to talk to him. The hug was very comforting for Danny and he wrapped his arms around me which allowed me to hold him tighter.
"Thanks, I should have come to you guys earlier but I was too nervous and I didn't know how to cope with it and I thought that hurting would be the way out," he says, now relaxing against me and looked like he didn't want to leave anytime soon. "It's okay Danny,"I tell him, rubbing his arm and making sure that he was relaxing more. We didn't really talk after that, we just sat on the sofa together for a couple of hours. The guys were surprised when they returned to find Danny on my lap dozing off a little.
"Hey guys," George says, trying to keep Danny from being disturbed and woken up as he tries to sleep. "Hi, I think my plan worked," I tell George. Danny had fallen asleep on me now. "I can see that. Go on how'd ya do it?" George asks me. Danny's cuts were hidden by his sleeves now, I pulled them down before I cuddled him. "I talked to him, I only needed to grab his wrist once. He was very willing to talk to me, he even came to me," I explain to him. "Very good dude," Jordon says, I'll ask him if he wants the others to know about everything later.
Danny still looked pale but he looked a little bit better than he did when I first saw him today. Telling me everything must have lifted a huge weight off his shoulders. I'll help him out in any way that I can and I am sure that the others will be the same and want to help Danny out as much as I do. We all love Danny, well I'm the only one whose love is more romantic than brotherly. No one knows about it yet and I don't know how long I plan to keep it that way. I really want to tell Danny soon, though.
Matt brought a blanket into the room and covered Danny and me with it. "Thanks," I tell him. Danny's head was resting on my shoulder and after the cuddle we had he was sitting on my lap sideways like I had just carried him bridal style and sat down. He looked very comfortable although I had to admit I was worried. I just don't want him to run away once he wakes up, I'm sure I can convince him to stay. I just don't want him to get upset when it isn't needed and I know he'll get better eventually.
I guess what I'm trying to get at here is I don't want to take one step forward only to take two steps back. I've only just started making progress with him, I don't want it to all be for nothing. He is already starting to come out of the shell and be like the Danny I know and love so much. Some of the guys will help me out with this for sure. Others, however, I am not so sure. I'd say Jordon and Dylan are the ones who are most likely to take the piss if they get a small amount of information about the problems, but Danny might not want them to know everything,
I could also be overreacting. Danny has just told me a lot of personal information. It's a lot to take in and to process. I knew his relationship with Theresa was going through a rough patch, but I thought that they were working through the issues. The hate and the self-harm, I had no idea that was going on with him. Deuce is stirring things but as I as I knew he went for the five members who have been here since the beginning and left Danny alone. Now that I think about it, Danny took his place in the band so Deuce would be going after him.
I hope that I can now show him how much he means to me. Maybe he'll give me a chance to show him that there is someone who has been there all along for him. I'll care for him as long as there is still breath in my body. He deserves someone who isn't going to cheat on him this time. I don't want to see him be upset anymore, he deserves to be happy for once and enjoy the fame he is getting. I should have been there from the start but I haven't had the chance until now and I swear that I will make it up to him.
Dylan, Matt, and Jordon decide to get up and go to the back living area to watch TV leaving Danny, George, and I in the front living area. "How is he?" George asks, gesturing to the sleeping lead singer. "Not too well, he is going through some really rough things right now," I reply. George smiles sadly at Danny, he just wanted the newbie to be okay. "Can you talk about it?" he asks me and I shake my head. "Not sure, I didn't ask him but I will when he wakes up," I tell him. George walks over and gives Danny's shoulder a gentle squeeze.
He then returns to the other side of the room where he was sitting before. "Whatever is bothering him and going on in his life has to be seriously bad if he is affected by it like this. I just hope we can show him he doesn't need to away and how much we are all here for him," George says. "I'm sure we can do that, even if it is just something simple it will make a difference," I tell him. Danny is out for the count on my lap and I don't think he has been sleeping much if at all lately by the looks of things.
We spent a total of two hours talking quietly while Danny took a nap on me. He didn't really stir during his sleep but he didn't really move around too much either. He looked so angelic and peaceful so it felt like he never lets it affect his sleep. He was starting to show signs he was waking up now, though. "Hey Danny, feeling okay now?" I ask as he rubs his eyes. Bless him, he is so adorable. "A little bit, thanks," he says, his voice affected by the little nap he had just taken.
"Hey little Danny," George says and Danny looks at him with the smallest of smiles. Yeah, it was barely a smile but it was an improvement for sure. "Hey George," Danny says. I am waiting to see if Danny is going to disappear into the bunk rooms again like he usually does. It would be a miracle if he stayed, he doesn't look desperate to leave just yet. He decides to rest his head on my shoulder, he did lift his head up when he woke up and was looking at George. Ugh, why does Danny have to be such a cutie?
I adjust the blanket a little to cover us a bit less since we aren't sleeping anymore. The bus is kind of cold though so I don't want to take it off completely. I've only done a small amount to help him, I let him tell me everything and the improvements from that are very clear to see. "Danny, do you want to tell George or should I do it?" I ask him and I give him some time to think about it. George hadn't heard us. "Uh, can you do it please?" he asks me. I rub his arm, "Of course, I can. Don't worry about it," I tell him.
"Theresa left him three months before the tour started and she was cheating on him. He's been getting a lot of hate and he's self-harmed," I explain to George while Danny was still on my lap. Danny was getting upset and I was trying to calm him down but it didn't seem to work. "Aw, don't worry Danny, we're going to help you through this, just come to talk to us and we'll help you," George says. He seemed to get more distressed and I was still trying to calm him down. I should have expected it because it is still upsetting for him as he only told me two and a half hours ago.
He gets up, walks over to us and scoops Danny into his arms. Danny snuggles into the arms of the rap god. I was glad George was able to help me calm Danny down. I always knew he'd help me from the start. George has a very special place in his heart for Danny and most people who get to know Danny like we do have that. Danny had his arms wrapped tightly around George's neck and his head was resting on his shoulder. The way his torso moved showed me he was crying. "Danny please don't cry buddy," George tells him and rubs his back.
Danny should be proud of the improvements he is making in such a short space of time. He's gone from hiding to coming and telling me what is wrong so we can figure out how we can help him. For now, I think a lot of cuddles and words of encouragement should help him. George puts him down once he stops crying and he returns to me for another cuddle which I am more than happy to allow. "Danny, have you cleaned your cuts at all?" George asks him and Danny shakes his head, that's something which is going to be changed.
"I'm going to clean them for you okay?" George says, I look at Danny and I try to figure out what he is feeling right now. He seems pretty calm at the moment, let's just hope it stays that way. "Okay," Danny replies and I smile baby steps. George grabs the first aid kit from one of the cupboards which also has any medication we might need to take on tours like hayfever tablets or Tylenol. George then crouches down in front of us and I roll Danny's sleeves up to show George the pattern of Danny's cuts both new and old. There is no immediate sign of infection which is good.
George gets the packs of antiseptic wipes and uses them to clean each cut on Danny's left arm, which will get rid of any infection starting and prevent any new infection taking hold. He then puts some cream on some gauze pads and places them over the cuts. The cream helps with the healing and also prevents infection. These are kept in place with bandages and I hold Danny protectively while Goerge does this to both of Danny's arms which are the only thing affected by the issue as far as I have been told, but I think Danny would tell me if he did it anywhere else.
He rolls Danny's sleeves down and unless they rode up when he was stretching or something then you wouldn't be able to tell he had bandages there. "Thanks, George," Danny says. I didn't let Danny go but I wasn't holding him too tightly and he hasn't been struggling to get away from me. "You're welcome Danny, I'll do this at least once a day until they are better," he replies, I'll probably be there to hold Danny while George does it. Danny knows we aren't trying to hurt him but holding him would probably comfort him somewhat.
"Do you two want something to eat?" George asks us. Danny's stomach growls in response which answers for him. "Yeah go on then," I answer. George got a pack of sausage rolls from the fridge. He opens the pack and joins us at the table. "Do you want to sit on the sofa or stay sitting on my lap?" I ask Danny. "Uh, can I stay on you if I'm not hurting you?" Danny replies. I smile, he was actually too light for my liking but I wasn't about to mention it. He probably hasn't been eating much if anything either. "That's fine, you're not hurting me," I tell him and he lets out a little cheer.
We start eating just as Dylan walks in, he decides he wants to grab a sausage roll and join us. "Afternoon Danny," Dylan says, smiling at Danny when he sees him awake. "Afternoon Dily, sorry if I worried you at all lately," Danny replies, again taking another step in the right direction. "Don't worry about it, you're doing well considering your lives been turned upside down," Dylan says, giving Danny and one of the most awkward hugs that we are going to have. We managed to hug him back anyway and continued eating afterwards.
A little while later we went into the living area in the back so we could have a movie night for the first time in a long while. We kind of stopped them while we were dealing with Deuce and Danny was never around long enough and it felt wrong to leave him out. Danny stayed really close to me the whole time and it was something I didn't mind at all. He stayed by my side, he didn't go retreat back to his bunk like I have been anticipating him to the whole time. The others noticed Danny was staying around and Charlie Scene was the one to notice how Danny is snuggled into my side and I had my arm wrapped around him and Danny was awkwardly holding my hand.
"Hey Dan-bear," Charlie says. Danny looks to him and smiles. I was so proud of him and I am sure the others are too. "Danny, if the others ask do you want me to tell them what's wrong?" I whisper. He snuggles a little deeper into me. "Yes please Jorel," he whispers back. I adjusted myself a little and made sure that he was comfortable. "Alright then let's get this thing started," Matt said and put on a comedy film. There would be a horror film but only the ones that we know Danny will sit through and not get scared by.
Then again Danny has a habit of not being able to stay awake for very long during movie marathons. He will fall asleep during one of the films for sure and he will probably be out for the count when he does. This also means I wasn't surprised when halfway through the third film we were watching that Danny's grip on my hand went completely loose. I looked down and smiled, he was once again sleeping peacefully. I wonder if I am helping him with that in any way.
"Did he tell you what's been up with him lately?" Matt asks me. He had brought back the blanket that we had used earlier and we were all covered in a blanket so we were warm. "Theresa left him three months before the tour started and he has been getting a lot of hate which he has been struggling to deal with," I explain, glad everyone was in the room so I wouldn't have to repeat myself again. They all looked shocked when they heard about Theresa and they didn't know what to think when it came to the hate.
"Poor Danny, that has to be the worst start to a tour that anyone could go through," Jordon says, smiling sadly at the sleeping person cuddled up to me. "We are going to make sure he has fun and support for the rest of this tour and whenever he needs it," Dylan says, looking determined. "Danny should be proud of himself, by coming to us and telling us what is wrong then we can help him get better. He has taken big steps," George says and we all nod in agreement. Danny shifted in his sleep and got even closer to me if that was possible.
"He's quite attached to you there Jorel," Matt says, making me look at the Costa-Rican man who was snuggled up to me. He has hardly left my side since I made him chat. I needed to go to the toilet once and he was waiting for me when I got back. "He is, but it's probably because I'm the one he opened up to," I tell them, "Maybe," Charlie says and I shrug. "Well it's better than him hiding in the bunks all the time," Dylan says and we all nod in agreement again. We continue watching films until we decide it would be a good time to go to bed.
I stayed behind with Danny while the others went into the bunks to sleep. I was debating whether or not I should wake him up or carry him to bed. He is light enough for me to carry him pretty much anywhere and he can be a heavy sleeper. Danny answers for me because he wakes up, confused as to why everyone but me has gone and the TV is now off. "Movie's over, it's time for bed," I tell him. "Oh okay," he replies, I pull him up to his feet. "I'm so proud of you, the others are too. You've taken big steps in getting better," I tell him.
He gives me the first genuine heart-warming smile that I have seen for a while. He is still way too cute. "I couldn't have done it without you," Danny tells me. I smile back. "I don't think that it is over just yet but I'm glad I can help you and I always will be here to help you whenever you need it," I reply. He looks at me and I saw he was about to do the puppy eye trick on me. "Jay, can you stay with me tonight?" he asks me. I chuckle. " Yeah, sure no need for the puppy eyes Dan," I tell him.
He climbs into his bunk and I follow and allow him to snuggle up against me. He has his left arm on my chest and is snuggled in my right side. I knew I had to get a picture of this, he was just way to adorable like this. He was quickly out for the count and was starting to look better than he has done for months. Poor dude, he should have come to one of us earlier but at least he has done down and he is improving. I get my phone out and I get a few pictures of us cuddling. Eventually, one will go up on Instagram but there is a time and a place for that.
I just hope that one day I can reveal my true feelings for him. Maybe it will be soon, who knows?
+The next morning+ D.p.o.v
I wake up in the same position I fell asleep in last night. Snuggled into Jorel's right side with my left arm on his chest. I noticed that he was already awake and he'd probably been watching me sleep for a little while. "Morning Danny, sleep okay?" he asks me. I try and rub the sleep from my eyes with little success. "Morning Jorel. I slept great thanks, better than I have done for months," I answer. His grip tightens on me and I didn't mind. I don't feel like moving this morning, Jorel is too comfy and this snuggle was comfy too.
He seemed to notice my reluctance to move. "Comfortable there then?" he asks me and I smile at him. I was also fighting back a blush but he doesn't need to know that. "Yup, can we just stay here today? I don't want to move," I tell him, he chuckles and rubs my arm. "I wish but I think we have a few interviews later and the show tonight," Jorel tells me. I rest my head onto his chest. "But that's later, we can stay here for now?" I ask him, making him chuckle again. "Well I don't see a problem with it if it is only for the morning," he tells me.
I let out a little yawn and Jorel smiles. "You'll feel more awake soon," he tells me. Ever since Theresa left me my insomnia went really bad, that mixed with the exhaustion that you get on tour made it very difficult for me to sleep and I rarely slept the full night like I did last night. Theresa left because she was sick of me going away all the time and in her eyes it was for no reason. Lorene Drive wasn't generating the fans or the money and the touring schedule was ridiculous.
If only she knew how successful Hollywood Undead is and how we are rising to fame now. I mean number 4 in the charts is a huge success if you ask me. "You okay little lion?" Jorel asks me and I hide my face because he made me blush. "Yeah, I'm fine. Just thinking," I answer and luckily Jorel doesn't make me show my face. "Want to tell me what you were thinking about?" he asks and I shake my head. "That's okay you don't have to tell me if you don't want to," he adds as an afterthought.
He can't know about my crush on him. I mean I have been friends with him since high school but it wasn't until recently I discovered my crush on him. Theresa might have known that but she never said and I never really hung out with Jorel around her anyway. The worst thing about my break up is she took my baby girl away from me and hasn't given me the chance to develop my bond with my daughter further.
"Jorel, I have a daughter," I tell him and he gasps. "No way dude that's awesome," he says and I sigh. "Scarlett is a year old and it isn't that good because Theresa won't let me see her," I tell him and he growls, I might regret this now. "When we get back we are going to make sure you get to see her again," Jorel tells me and I smile. Always the helpful guy. I felt my phone buzz and I wondered who it was. I unplugged it from my charger and unlocked it.
1 new message from Theresa.
"She's texted me," I tell Jorel, who makes his grip on me tighter. "What does she want?" he asks me. I shrug "I've not opened it yet so I don't know," I tell him. I then go to my messages and find the unread message from my ex-wife. She sorted all the divorce stuff out and left me with a lot of it but not the custody of my daughter. I don't think I am going to understand her anytime soon. I was so good to her and she just threw it back in my face. I'll get over it eventually and her dark heart didn't break, it bruised.
Theresa: Danny, there is no way that I can take back what I have done and for you to forgive me completely. My selfish desires have left you heartbroken and for that, I am truly sorry. I also know I have stopped you from seeing Scarlett. She misses you more and more and I know that I can't replace her dad with another man. I am not asking you to take me back but I am asking for enough forgiveness so that we can co-parent Scarlett together without issue.
Me: I can't forgive you completely yet you're right but I do accept your apology. I miss Scarlett like crazy and I hope that we can work something out with both our hectic schedules that we can raise this little girl together. I feel partially responsible as I didn't really tell you how bad the touring was going to get but now I am in Hollywood Undead and making a decent amount of money then the schedule should calm down enough to grant me quality time with my baby girl. I am heartbroken but I feel like I am moving on now.
Theresa: Why don't I bring her over a week after you get back from this tour? For now, we can do face time once a day so she can see you again. She has been crying to see you since we broke up and it was foolish of me to try and keep her from you.
Me: That sounds great, face time will be really nice so I can see her when I am away. I love that little girl like crazy so no doubt she would be upset. Mistakes were made but we are talking and working something out which is better than before.
Theresa: What did I do to deserve you, I know you've done so much for me and I've thrown it all back in your face. I know you don't forgive me completely but I can tell you forgive me a little bit which I am grateful for regardless.
Me: What can I say, I am a person who gives second chances but I don't think we can ever get back together. Facetime in ten? I have a concert later and we might have interviews today.
Theresa: Yeah sure just give me that ten minutes to sort something out.
I put my phone down and I was grinning, I was able to see my baby girl again. She just turned one in November and Theresa and I broke up just before my little girl's second Christmas. Jorel notices the improvement in my mood. "What's got you smiling? What did Theresa say?" he asks, I think he was happy that I was getting happier. "Theresa is allowing me contact with Scarlett and she is going to face time in ten minutes," I tell him, barely hiding the excitement I was feeling. He gets up leaving me confused.
"She doesn't need to know that we are dating yet, she might turn the tables and accuse you of cheating even though she knows she did," he explains and I look at him in shock. "Well, I mean if you want to date me then it's fine and I uh fucked that up didn't I?" he adds, getting really nervous. "That's fine, I'd love to date you Jorel. I've had a crush on you for a while but it wasn't why Theresa was cheating on me," I tell him, taking his hands in mine and looking at him with a smile. "Get a room you two," George shouts.
"NO," I shout back and we start laughing. I was so glad Jorel is helping me tear down the walls that I built around myself and he returned my feelings for him. Then my phone started ringing with face time. "Hello Theresa," I said, being as happy as possible, she chuckles. "Hello Danny, do you know what a shirt is by any chance?" she says and I laugh. "Yes I do know what a shirt is, I just don't sleep in one, you should know that," I tell her. Jorel stays out of sight but he was still close to me because I didn't want him to leave.
"Scarlett, do you want to talk to daddy?" she asks our daughter and I hear the excited little attempts of Scarlett trying to talk. She can say a lot of words and some basic sentences but I think she is too excited. Then I saw the face of my one-year-old girl. "Hello Scarlett," I tell her and all I hear is her excited squeal. "DADDY!," she shouts and I smile. She is way too cute for her own good and she is a total mini-me. "I miss you, Scarlett," I tell her and she pouts at me. "I miss you, daddy, when you come home?" she asks me.
"Soon baby girl, I don't live with mummy anymore but when I come home you're coming to me for a little bit okay?" I tell her. I wasn't expecting her to understand everything I told her but I think she understood a bit of it. "Daddy not with mummy?" she asks me and I shook my head and I think Theresa told her something but I wasn't paying attention. "I want Daddy to come home," Scarlett tells me with tears in her eyes. "I know you do baby bird but I am going to be home soon and you can spend a lot of time with me then," I tell her and she seems to perk up a little bit.
"Did you get the teddy I sent you?" I ask her and she runs off and comes back with the teddy I remember getting her for Christmas. "Yeah, it my bestest teddy ever," she says and I smile. "She rarely goes anywhere without it Danny," Theresa tells me and I chuckle, I think I did the same when I got a teddy when I was her age. "Well if she is taking care of it then that's okay," I tell Theresa and she nods. "She is so careful with it and I have to tell people it's her special teddy from her daddy when she doesn't share it," she says.
Scarlett appears on the screen again. "I love you, daddy," she says with a smile which was similar to my heart-melting smile. I smile back and she giggles. "I love me too, Nah just kidding I love you too," I tell her and she laughs so much that I joined in. I could see Jorel resisting the urge to laugh with us because my daughter's laugh was so didn't take him long to crack and start laughing with us. It made me miss home but I knew I had to do this so I could have the money to give her the best childhood possible.
I talked with Scarlett for an hour before Theresa said they had to go and do things with grandma so she had to hang up. It was tough because Scarlett started crying when she heard that I had to go but I promised her that I was going to call her tomorrow and Theresa said she would try and arrange for me to call Scarlett at bedtime but it depends on if we are performing at her bedtime or not. I had no idea because we are in slightly different time zones and we are a little bit ahead of them but it was only by an hour or two.
I got up and wrapped my arms around Jorel's neck as his snaked around my waist. "It was good to hear you laugh again Danny," He says. I stand on my tiptoes and press my lips against his, he was surprised but he kissed me back a little stronger than I kissed him. He dragged me into the main living area so we could have something to eat before the interviews. I was still kissing Jorel when we entered the room. "Seriously get a room you two," George says, chuckling.
"Nah, we had a room earlier," Jorel tells him, sticking his tongue out. "You talked to Scarlet then?" George asks me. "Yeah, Theresa let me have an hour and a half to talk to her and we're going to do it at least once a day while I'm away," I tell him. Jorel looks at the pair of us and I knew he was confused. "Danny told me before Scarlett was born that he was going to have a child because he was worried about it, but a year later she is doing great," George explains and Jorel smiles. "Well, she does have the best dad ever," Jorel tells me and I hide.
I can't take compliments from him without blushing like crazy it was just a natural reaction for me. "Hey, what's Vanessa going to say if you two keep kissing?" George asks and I get a sinking feeling in my stomach, I was too busy being happy to realise the consequences of that kiss and Jorel calling me his boyfriend. Was he cheating on Vanessa with me? "Vanessa couldn't care less, we split up ages ago, Danny and I can date if we want, it has nothing to do with her," Jorel says and kisses my forehead. The sinking feeling leaves as quickly as it showed up.
"That's okay then, just watching out for you two and you know what will happen if you break his heart Jorel," George says, making me chuckle. "I know and if I ever do anything to hurt Danny or break his heart then you are going to break my face," Jorel says, holding me tightly. At least we have George's support or blessing on our relationship and I think the others will be okay with it too, I mean Charlie and Matt are dating so they should have no problem with it. Funny Man should be fine with it too so we will have the other four members support.
I led Jorel to the seats and sat down on one once I got out of his grip. I looked at him and he already knew what I was going to do. "What do you want to eat little lion?" he asks me and I have to fight the blush. "Poptart please Jorel," I answer and he goes to make them. I think he is wrapped around my little finger already, why do I have that affect on people? Like one look and they melt into putty around me. I have used it to my advantage before but never really understood why I could do it. It just sorta happens.
"Danny? You've gone to fairyland again,"George says bringing me out of my thoughts. "Probably sorry George," I tell him and he comes over for a hug which I happily return. "Nah it's fine, we are proud of you for not hiding in the bunks anymore and your laughter this morning was so good, didn't realise I missed it so much," he says and then he starts tickling me, making me squirm and laugh, I am also a smaller build than him so it would be futile to get away from him. "So Danny-boy is ticklish then?" Jordon asks with a mischievous grin, I can't flip him off since I am too busy trying to get George off me.
"Looks like it didn't think it would be this easy, to be honest with you," George says. Jorel watches and makes no move to help me. He had made us both breakfast as well. The others soon joined in the spectating. "F-fuck all of you," I manage out in between laughing. They all laugh at me. I was helpless against the rap God who showed no signs of wanting to stop tickling me. "George I think he has had enough now, he needs to breathe ya know," Jorel says, walking over to the two of us with breakfast.
"Yeah we can't loose our little lead, he is too important to us," Jordon says and I manage to flip him off. Asshole, I am not that much smaller than he is. George finally stops tickling me and I find myself struggling to get my breath back. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed being carefree and laughing for once but not tickles and the breathlessness it causes. I was tickled for at least five minutes and he was relentless and never paused. I sat up and Jorel was there in an instant, making sure I was okay and rubbing my cheek.
"I'm fine Jorel," I tell him once I get my breath back. I eat my pop tarts and he just shakes his head and chuckles. "Are you sure you're not part cat or something Danny?" he asks me. I look at him "What do you mean part cat?" I reply, I didn't talk with a mouthful of pop tart although I was hungry so I could have done it. "Just you are so like a kitten with your personality," he tells me and ruffles my hair. I fix my hair, I hate when people ruffle it. "A kitten, he is more like a Lion cub or something," Matt says, making me look at him.
"I am a lion, hear me now," I say then roar like a screamer. It made everyone laugh after they got over the initial shock. Matt looked amazed by my screaming talents. "I did scream in the songs for Lorene Drive," I tell them. Dylan was, I think the only one who has heard those songs since he went to the guys and mentioned that I could cover Deuce's parts and he has seen me in concert a few times. "Yeah I remember that Danny, just wasn't expecting that," Dylan says and I smile. "Well, I am sure you and Matty can share the screaming from some of the Swan Songs stuff," Jordon says.
"Yeah I'd love to scream with you Danny, that is amazing, what range do you have?" Matt asks me, for him it is like Christmas to be able to work with another screamer, the others don't really do it as much. "It is basically the same as my normal vocal range so I can go quite deep or really high," I tell him. I had finished the pop tarts now but the scream made me thirsty. Dylan threw a water bottle at me and I just about caught it. "Thanks, dude," I tell him and I open it and take a long swig. I should have done a warm up first.
"When are the interviews?" I ask, and they look a little concerned. I guess I usually ask that then go hide until ten minutes before. "Don't worry, I'll make sure he sticks around this time," Jorel says, his arm around my waist. "Did we miss anything yesterday?" Matt asks the two of us. I look at Jorel who smiles at me. "I asked Danny out this morning and he said yes, so I guess you missed that," he says and they all cheer for us. It might seem a bit soon to some since I only announced that Theresa broke up with me yesterday but it was months ago that the breakup actually happened.
I had fallen into a depression from it, I loved her so much and she meant everything to me at the time. It was tough and I locked myself away from everyone for months on end, trying to cope and accept it. It took a lot of time but finally I feel like I can move on from it now and look back at the time I had with her as my girl with happiness and count myself lucky that I have a guy like Jorel who will love me forever and love Scarlett like she is his own. "The interviews are in twenty minutes by the way so you two better get ready," Jordon tells us and we head back to the bunks.
Jorel went to the bathroom to get changed for the day but I decided to stay where I was. I grabbed my clothes from a bag and started taking my shirt off, I had a feeling that someone was watching me. "Liking the show?" I asked Jorel, knowing full well it was him. " You caught me, how could Theresa just say goodbye to such a hottie?" he asks, coming closer and I allowed his hands to explore. "Well maybe I was saving it for you," I tell him. I stepped away from him and sprayed deodorant at my armpits then I put my t-shirt on.
"Since when did you become such a tease?" he asks me, I changed into my ripped jeans and smirked at him. "Maybe I've always been a tease, you just haven't noticed it yet," I tell him and he pulls me towards him. "I love this side of you, Daniel,"he tells me. This time, I can't fight the blush that appears giving my cheek a red tint. Jorel chuckles and presses his lips to mine gently. "Seriously you two? It is time to have the interview," George says making us jump apart. "Okay George we'll be there now," I tell him.
"You're still red baby, you wanna go wash your face or something?" he asks me. I could hear the guys laughing in the front living area as they heard George interrupt the kiss. "Yeah, I also need to do my hair," I tell him and he chuckles. "Okay, don't take too long baby," he says and he goes to join the others while I go to the bathroom. I look into the mirror to see the stubble and the red cheeks. I also had massive bags under my eyes from the sleeping issues. To be honest I looked like a complete mess and it was all my own fault. I should have taken care of myself better.
It took me ten minutes to make myself look decent. I shaved and washed my face then got my hair into a quiff. I was still a mess but the shades would hide the bags and the pale skin will get tanned once we get time to just lounge around in the sun. When I got back to the interview, I found that they hadn't started yet because they had camera issues. I asked if I could take a look and I managed to get the camera up and running.
The interviews were not worth writing about because I just felt so out of place. I am still quite new to the group and the whole fame thing so the questions made me feel uncomfortable. They were asking about Deuce and how I felt taking over his role and things like that. I managed to hide my discomfort from the interviewers since they didn't really know me but the others knew as soon as the questions started. I don't really know Deuce either so I couldn't really give them a proper answer and I swear I pissed the second one off by avoiding some of her questions.
As soon as the interviews were over I went and grabbed a bottle of beer and opened it, taking a long swig. "Damn, that was intense," Jordon says and grabs the beer I offered out. "Yeah, I agree with you on that," I tell him. Jorel joined us and passed out beers to the other three guys. "Are you okay Danny, you seemed uncomfortable the entire time," he asks me. "Yeah, I was because I don't know an awful lot about the stuff she was asking me and I am still new to being this famous," I tell them and Jorel hugged me. "Just pass the stuff you don't know to us and we'll give you the stuff that you know," he tells me.
"Of course, it might still be awkward because you are quite new to this level of fame but I know you'll get used to it in time," George says with a smile. "We are still proud of you anyway, helping the man with his camera and answering the questions. Don't worry about that second woman, we always make her pissy cause she hates our stuff," Matt says, making me smile. I took my shades off since they only people around knew how bad my sleeping has been lately, "Damn Daniel, them bags are bad," Dylan says.
"I know, once I start sleeping properly then these should disappear," I tell them and Jorel rests his head on my shoulder. "Yeah don't forget you can have naps if you need to as well, we don't want you to pass out on the stage or anything," he tells me. I don't think I need one today but I know that I could use that option in the future or something. "I know, and I am seriously grateful for everything you guys have done for me lately I tell them and they chuckle,they knew that I meant it. "Are you sure that you are not drunk?" he asks me and I chuckle.
"I'm perfectly sober thanks, this is the first beer of the night, I'm not even tipsy," I tell him. I downed the rest of my beer and decided not to have any more until after the show otherwise I would get drunk and start getting all sentimental on them. I don't think I want to get drunk to be honest, I know Jorel is already protective of me and he would probably get super jealous if I started saying I love you to everyone, he does know that I love the guys like brothers anyway. I reserve the romantic love for him, as my teasing earlier shows.
Jorel kisses my cheek and then goes down to my neck. "Is this payback for earlier?" I ask him. The guys don't even think anything of it. Matt and Charlie show displays of affection around us all the time, it just means that the straight dudes miss out until their girls show up in a few days time. That is one of the benefits of having a boyfriend who is in the band with you, never apart from each other unless you want to have some alone time. "Yes, you were such a tease," he tells me. I turn to face him and I put my arms around his neck.
"Well I'm sorry if I upset you babe but I couldn't help myself," I tell him and I kiss him on the cheek. Well, I tried but he moved so I ended up kissing his lips and turning it into a heated make out session with the four others watching us. They didn't seem that affected by it but they weren't the ones who were enjoying it the most. It was never like this when I kissed Theresa, now it felt like everything was right and there were fireworks. This was one of the best kisses that I have ever had in my life. Then since we are only human we had to breathe.
"I love you Dandelion," he says and I look confused as they all burst into fits of laughter. "Dandelion? I mean I love you to Jorel but the fuck?" I ask him. "Well, you're Danny and my little lion and I tried to put them together," he says, his cheeks heating up. "No offence Jorel but that is a plant, it doesn't really fit with Danny," Matt says and I rest my head on Jorel's shoulder. " I'm sorry little lion," he tells me and he squeezes me tightly.
"I know you are muffin," I tell him and I kiss him again. Let's keep those two nicknames for each other instead of Dandelion. I am not a plant, never have been and never will be. "I love you little lion," he whispers to me. "I love you too muffin," I tell him.
And they made love after the show.
AnywayI have new videos on my channel now so if you go to Liesel Diamond onyou tubethere should be two videos about the concert that I went to see about a week ago. It was amazing and I recommend that you go and see HU live. If the second one isn't up when this goes up then it should besoon ish.
I have no idea when the next one of these will be up since I am not really in the mood for writing a lot at the moment, got some things bothering me but I will do some more one-shots and the next chapter of Demon Inside this month.
As always leave me a little comment on what you think and what I should do next.