This chapters gonna be short because its gonna be mostly be feelings. Should Jade have brain damage?
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Beck POV
Jade dead? Possibly. What? Jades mom lost it. She started screaming. Blaming the doctors, saying how they should've caught it. Tori started crying even more. Then Jade's mom turned to me.
"Your fault! This is your fault!" She screamed at me. "My daughter is dying because of you!"
She was right. Soooo right. I killed Jade. I wiped the love of my life off the face of the planet.
I had to get out of here. I ran out of the hospital to my car and climbed in. I drove away...from everything. I came to reality. I killed Jade. I ended her life. My fault. The pain of her family, her friends, even mine, was caused by me.
I sped up probably going 50 miles over the speed limit. My sadness turned to anger just pure anger. At the doctors for not catching this, at Tori for that stupid scene, at Cat, Robbie, and Andre for not being at the hospital, at Jade's dad for not being at the hospital, at Jade's mom for telling me what I already know,...but mostly at myself. I caused this. I screamed and gripped the steering wheel harder.
Then it came to me.
I could end it. I could end my life and be with Jade. May be my organs could go to her. All I had to do was crash the car. Just move the steering wheel to the right. Direct my car into a tree. I was ready, I was going to do it.
But then her face came into my mind.
She wasn't dead, not yet. I pictured her being OK and waking up only to find out I was dead. If she loved me like I loved her, and I think she did, she would want to kill herself. Even if she died, she would not want me to commit suicide. She was still breathing, still fighting, she wasn't giving up. I couldn't either. I stopped the car. I pulled out my phone. I had a new message.
From: Tori (I would put ur BFF but I know ur GF would change it): Beck, come back. Jade's mom is sorry. She didnt mean it. Shes just angry and sad.
To: Tori (I would out BFF but I know ur GF would change it): I know. Just give me a minute.
I scrolled through my contacts until I found Jade, I looked at her picture. She looked so care free. It was the one picture I had of her smiling. She was laughing, actually. I had taken it at exactly the right time.
I quoted that sappy line from Twilight, "I'll keep fighting for you until your heart stops beating."
As sappy as it was, it was true. I'm not about to give up on her.