Ch14 Names

"Yes, Dad. I'm sure I'm pregnant and I couldn't be more thrilled! … Dad? … I know, really I'm ok. … Yes I know we just got home. … Ok, love you to. Bye Dad." Bella hung up with her father for the fifth time today.

Charlie has been calling Bella on and off for the last three days because after we told my parents, who were extremely happy to hear the news, we called Bella's mother and then her father. Well we tried calling him after but apparently Renée had beat us to it because when we called the line was busy. The next four hours was nothing but calls. Charlie arguing that Bella couldn't be pregnant and that she wasn't ready to be a mother or that it was too soon because we just got back from the honeymoon. He claimed we wouldn't have any time to adjust to living together with a baby to take care of. Little did he know that Bella practically lived with me for many years, its just now it is official and we are married. Its probably safer for me if he doesn't find out that little tidbit. So, yes he has been calling us for days trying to get Bella to agree to wait to have a child but she always argued back and I hoped he would stop soon. All of his calls were really upsetting her, I could understand his worries and his reasoning but Bella and I are ready!

"It'll be ok, Love." I whispered as I placed a soft kiss to her forehead as she dropped onto the couch beside me.

"You don't know my father. Edward, he is never going to think of this as anything but a mistake. EVEN Mom was more supportive of the baby than he is!" Bella said exhausted as she leaned into me to rest for a little while.

"He will get over this Bella. He only wants what is best for you. He's your father and he loves you very much." I reassured her.

"What if he never approves of our child Edward?" Bella asked desperately.

I sighed. "Well, then that will be his loss. Bella trust me, as soon as this baby is born he will instantly fall in love. Nothing warms the heart like a little grandchild placed in your arms." I whispered the same words my mother had told her just days before.

"Yeah, I guess you're right." Bella conceded as she snuggled closer to me while we watched TV on the couch together.

I wanted to keep Bella on bed rest like I had planned but with her being pregnant she finds staying in one place too long to be uncomfortable. She moves around the house on her own but anywhere else and I carry her, for now. One of the many compromises that we had agreed to over the last few days. Bella and I have been talking a lot about how we were going to get things ready for the baby. She wants to help but I would rather have her rest so we agreed that I will do all the working and she can plan how it all works. The first guest room, the closest to our room, will be the baby's nursery. Alice and Rose will be allowed to do the majority of the shopping, as long as Bella has final say on what comes into this house. If Bella doesn't like something the girls can keep it for when they baby sit. Emmett and Jasper aren't allowed to pick on or make bets about the baby in any way or Bella will make the girls agree to a very ... unpleasant punishment. Bella could be a very wicked and creative thinker when she really wanted someone to pay for something so it wasn't likely that they would argue. Most things were being taken care of and mainly all that was left was keeping her and the baby safe and also to find a name for our child. Something we really haven't talked about.

"I've been thinking about this for a while now Edward. The baby is going to need a name. Boy or girl doesn't matter to me but either way they need a good name." Bella told me one night as we were getting into bed.

"I agree, Love. Everything else is being taken care of so maybe we should start planning the names." I agreed with her. "Did you have anything in mind?"

"Maybe, but I don't want to tell you." Bella whispered after a sort while. "What have you come up with?"

"Come on, Bella. I want to know." I asked again very curious this time. "He or she will have to live with this name for the rest of their lives, so I think we should at least talk it out. If you have something in mind then I want to hear what it is?"

"I don't think you will like them." Bella answered hesitantly.

"I'm sure anything that you have come up with will be fine Bella." I reassured her, only growing more curious about what she could be blushing about but its still so beautiful. "How about I tell you a few I have thought about first?"

"Ok, I guess that would be fair. But we will probably go with one of your names because they will probably be better anyway."

She had no faith in herself. I knew Bella's lovely mind could come up with the perfect baby name but she needed to believe it for herself! Maybe if I spat off a few that were off the wall she would get annoyed and just know that hers are better. But I wouldn't want to trick her into telling me her ideas. I just want her to know that she can trust me and I really want to hear her say them. Not knowing what she was thinking has always driven me crazy and was also the very reason it took so long for us to be together. I can't read her mind and I was too afraid to just ask her. Now I still don't want to ask her what's on her mind so much because I'm afraid I'll annoy her. She may love me, she may have married me and we may have a child together; but I'm not completely stupid. I know Bella could decide at any moment that she made a mistake and that would be that. She will leave and I'll be left crumbled on the floor as she slowly walks away from my broken self. Of course, now that we ARE having a child, I know Bella would never leave the child without a father. She's just not that kind of person so she would stay but she would be miserable! That thought alone makes me feel like there is a sharp, twisting knot in my stomach. This must have caused my face to express how I was feeling because Bella slowly placed her hand against my cheek before gently rubbing the crinkled spot between my eyes. Always caring!

"Edward?… What is it?" Bella asked softly before she sat straight up and looked me dead in the eyes, she was concerned.

"It's nothing Bella." I said simply as I placed a soft kiss to the back of her hand that I had unwillingly removed from my forehead. "I just had a very unpleasant thought that is all. NOW, as for baby names that I have come up with … well, I didn't know where to start so I looked some up." I rushed sheepishly.

"Well I want to hear them!" Bella said enthusiastically.

I took a deep breath. "Ok, well the first few were really bad. Nothing started to sound right with Cullen and I haven't even thought about the middle name part yet." I was started to really worry about this now, will she think my choices were bad? "I have a few for boys and a few for girls. Girls: Lila Cullen, Ava Cullen, Emma Cullen, or maybe something like Elizabeth Cullen or even Isabelle Cullen? Boys: Robert Cullen, Will Cullen, Dalton Cullen or Mason Cullen? I guess that one doesn't flow does it? Maybe I shouldn't be allowed to pick the name because I didn't even bother with middle names. What kind of parent leaves a child without a middle name?" I was slowly panicking because she was still staring at me with this wide eyed stare, how stupid did I really sound with these?

"Oh, Edward! Those are very beautiful! Some are better than others, but still. They are really nice names." Bella finally breathed after a few moments of agonizing silence. "I really like Robert Cullen and Elizabeth Cullen, Isabelle Cullen is pretty"

"They were just some I found on a today's most popular list." I told her honestly but much more relaxed now that I knew she liked them. "Ok, now its your turn! Come on, Bella. What names do you like best? I'm sure I will love them and everything will be fine!"

"Well,…" Bella hesitated. "If it's a boy I would like to name him Edward Jr. I looked up a few names myself but the meaning for Edward just kept popping up in my mind. Wealth protector, prosperous guardian, successful leader, strong as a boar. All of these are wonderful and after being with you, I couldn't think of a better name to use. If it's a girl I wanted to combine our mother's names. Something like… Renesmee?"

"Ruh-nez-may?… Renesmee. I like it, its very unique and beautiful just as I'm sure she will be. How can she not be, with you as her mother?" I said as I softly placed a kiss to her rose colored cheek.

"Well, that's only if it's a girl. I personally wouldn't mind a little Edward Jr. running around here." Bella said as her blush grew deeper, such a beautiful sight to see. "Although a little girl will be just as nice. Either way, as long as he or she is ours; that's all that matters after all. We'll just have to wait and see!"

"This child will be the must loved baby with all of us around to spoil him or her. Boy or girl, it doesn't matter because no one will be loved more. Well … maybe their mother. Its hard to say at this point who will win!" I told Bella as I wrapped her in my arms, only half way teasing at the end.

"Ha, ha. Edward that's not very funny. Of course you will love both of us equally!" Bella replied. "So, when do we tell Alice and the others that we started thinking about baby names?"

"When ever you want to Love. There's no real reason they all have to know right away unless you want to hear all that squeaking and squealing." I answered honestly.

"Of course we have to tell them. Alice will kill me if she's not the first to know… well apart from me and you that is." Bella answered back. "But first … I think I need to change rooms again. This couch is really uncomfortable. Huh, I never noticed that before? I guess that's just any other baby thing."

I chucked as I helped her stand up from the couch and we walked through the house trying to find a better place for her to rest. It was beginning to irritate Bella so I just turned it into a little game. I'd guess three place she could rest and if one was right, I won a kiss. If I got it wrong she won three kisses. This quickly became very fun for her and I'm pretty sure a few times she started to complain just so she could win a few times, totally fake but I'm not complaining. We end up calling Alice and the others about the names, only because Bella was afraid to tell them in person. Something that was unnecessary but she wouldn't be my lovely Bella if she didn't worry like that. Alice of course LOVED the names and anything that has to do with a new baby in the family! Jasper was happy with anything that made Alice so giddy and he truly did like the ideas. Emmett thought using my name was unoriginal but instantly fell in love with Bella's name for the girl. Rose, who Bella was most worried about, loved her name choices as well. Rose was on her best behavior, even saying that as with Rose things could have gone smoother. But all-in-all Bella was feeling much better about everything and she was really happy to hear that the family were all behind her, even her father started to come around to the idea after a few weeks.

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Bella's morning sickness comes and goes throughout the day but its not as bad as it could be and it doesn't come every day, or even more than 4 days in a week. Her mood changes -she doesn't like mood swings- on the other hand change multiple times in a day and come when ever they feel like it. Its getting easier to pick up when she changes and what to avoid for which mood she's in at the time but sometimes its still hard. What's worse is watching when she's upset or really angry … I thought it was hard for me to watch her upset before but now its so much worse. There is nothing I can do, nothing I say is right, nothing helps and then after its over she feels guilty and starts to apologize and that only leads to tears. I feel completely helpless at those times, what kind of husband can't take care of his wife? I know, I know; the others tell me its not my fault. That its just the hormones and it will be over soon enough but it still bothers me now. But it will all be worth it in the end, when we finally get to see our little baby! Bella and I opted to wait to see what the gender will be, Bella feels very strongly that it will be a boy but personally I'm hoping for a little girl. Someone I can really spoil and that might make it easier for me to pamper Bella as well! Either way we will be the happiest parents on the planet! I never once thought I would ever get the chance to be with Bella, let alone have a child together so how can I not be happy with my life now? I have everything I have ever wanted and so much more than I even knew to hope for! Nothing could be better, … well maybe if things worked out for Emmett and Rose as well. They have been trying for years to have a child of their own with no success. Rose became too overwhelmed one day when she felt our baby kick that she ran from the room crying, followed by Emmett. Seeing her cry was not a sight anyone has seen very often and it had us all shocked. Emmett came back in a few minutes later saying everything was alright but that they were going to head home.

"She's just not feeling well. We'll see you all later K?" Emmett said before he bent down to kiss Bella on the cheek. "So happy for you Sis! Can't wait to see that beautiful baby!"

And so he left. Bella hadn't moved since Rose ran out of the room, just staring at the door with a look of sorrow. She knew just how much this was killing Rose but she was blaming herself every time it upset Rose. There was nothing Bella could do about Rose's reaction to things and I'm not saying that her reactions are bad but the fact that they are upsetting my wife is a problem for me. Bella feels bad but at the same time she understands that Rose is just reacting to her and Emmett's complication. Its getting to the point that Rose is seriously thinking about trying for adoption again. The first time didn't work out so well for them because at the end of the processes, the mother decided she wanted to keep her child. Legally there was nothing Emmett and Rose could do about it except come home and drown her pain in ice cream with Alice and Bella. Emmett kept asking her over the next few days if she was completely sure about wanting to try again. She mostly just glares at him. Today was different, today she started crying again.

"Do you… did you change your mind?" Rose started really crying now. "If you don't want to do this then just say so Emmett!"

"Uhh… where did that come from?" Emmett asked stunned. "All I said was are you sure. I mean after what happened last time … I, I just want to make sure this is what you want. What you really want? I don't want to see you get hurt like that again. Of course I want this Rosie! I know I don't nearly want a baby as much as you but I would love to raise a child with you! I always have wanted that for you."

"Oh. …" Was all Rose could say after a while of silence. "Well, why the hell didn't you say all that in the first place? Instead you just kept say 'Are you sure' 'Are you sure?' How stupid is that Emmett? I mean, seriously what else was I supposed to think?"

"Guess I wasn't thinking, Love." Emmett said simply and as he kissed her, I swear we all saw her smile… just a little.

Over the next few months Rose and Emmett started getting things in order again. Filling out paper work, talking to all the right people, and Rose was asking as many questions as she could to find the right mother this time. She was looking for someone that wouldn't crush her dreams of becoming a mother again. Emmett and Rose would come over, to visit Bella and I, with Jasper and Alice a lot more these days. Everything was going great, Rose was happier when she was around Bella now. Emmett was happy things seemed to be going in the right direction this time around but Rose was still wary because she knew things could end the same still. After all her questioning, she was sure this girl didn't want to have anything to do with being a mother right now but Rose just couldn't see how that was truly possible, so she was cautious. Bella and Alice were always telling her that things would be ok, she would have a baby of her own very soon. Everyone was so excited about the dead lines coming soon, both Bella's and Vanessa Darkmoon's due dates were very close to each other. Vanessa was a sweet but very young girl, who somehow horrible ended up pregnant. She did not want nor could afford to keep the child but couldn't bring herself to get rid of the poor thing either. Rose was ecstatic when she found her, of course with Rose's history she felt horribly bad for the poor girl but at the same time she finally found a way to get a child. She also saw this as a way to help Vanessa because of what happened to her when she was so young. Everything seemed to be going just perfectly. Bella didn't seem to have any complications with the pregnancy and neither did Vanessa. Everyone was getting along and having a great time. Alice couldn't stop shopping for baby things from the moment Bella started to show so by now everyone's houses were fully stocked and completely filled with baby this and baby that! I couldn't be happier to see how well things are going and the waiting is just killing me! I can't wait to hold our little child and start raising a family together. Bella and I are going to be parents very, very soon and nothing could possible make me more proud. But I swear if it's a girl … I will be burning every last piece of mistletoe on the plant and she will be home schooled the second I see she has hit the age that little boys turn into little Emmett's! Becoming a father was scary enough, but the other night Bella was saying that if it is a girl then she hopes she finds a friend like Bella found in me. As much as I would hope my little girl finds love like everyone else, I don't think I could see any boy she finds to be good enough. Hell, I'm not even good enough for her mother!