To say the Volturi were pleased to have me back was an understatement. It was like they planned for this to happen, so they'd be prepared with my favourite things. Felix was overjoyed to see me again, saying the last few months were a 'blip' and that it was like a teenager rebelling from what she truly is. Within the first week, he'd made his move, and claimed me as a mate, although I thought Jazz was mine. At night he used to kiss my cheek when we departed to our alone time, then after a few weeks, we shared the same bed. And we didn't even sleep any more.

I preferred the meals here anyday, and I felt it was a waste to have spent so many months eating animals rather than humans. I was allowed some freedom, in and out of countries, now that I could handle myself around humans. I have been warned about some humans smelling amazing, and if that happens I was to take them back to the castle and drain them. But I planned on just taking some of their blood bit by bit, enough to keep them alive, as well as prolonging the deliciousness.

In the first few months I had travelled with Felix to all the areas he found most beautiful. But although the views were exquisite, I didn't know what it all meant. And most importantly, I didn't know what my purpose was anymore. Not just Bella, beautiful Volturi guard vampire. I wanted to be something more. Bella...Bella what? Of course the vampire thing isn't likely to go away. But what about Jazz? I was really curious as to what he thought of me. I knew it was wrong. But I was so fuelled by human blood that it hadn't mattered at the time. Then when it hit me, I took comfort in the fact the Volturi wanted me to fight. I was too trained for other vampires. I could rip them to pieces and burn the remains before they could think about death.

Whenever I hunt...all i see is red. It's my primal instinct, and Felix appreciated that more than Jazz. Jazz saw it as any other human would. Murder. A loss of life. But I couldn't think like that anymore. I wouldn't let myself.

We had just had lunch when the receptionist walked into the room.

"Aro?" Aro turned his head towards her. "You have a visitor."

"Send him in, I love visitors."Aro smiled at me. I returned the smile. Aro was very caring. He always saved me the last human. I think he was quite proud of me, for not only joining him with my own will, but also for mating with Felix. But I knew he knew I had my doubts, but didn't act on them. I heard the soft gliding of steps. Human steps would be much rougher, like when the receptionist departed from the room. This was a vampire.

"Hello, Carlisle!" Aro beamed, jumping from his seat and walking to him. I tried to mask my shock, and I squeezed Felix's hand. Felix's head turned to me and he pecked my cheek, before slipping his hand out from mine and wrapping it around my waist. Carlisle's eyes flickered to mine, and I sighed. He looked back to Aro.

"Hello, Aro. I came by today to personally invite you and our dear Bella to her good friend's wedding." He looked at me. "Rose and Emmett are getting married in the winter. Invitation only." This must be directed at Felix, and I felt Felix's arm tighten around me.

"Um, of course, Carlisle. It would be nice to see them again."

"Ah, of course I would love to go! My only concern is that our dear Felix would be quite lonely without his mate, and also I will need someone to accompany me, so we should bring Felix along as well, I'm sure the bride and groom won't mind." He smiled at Carlisle.

Carlisle sighed, but nodded. "Of course. Our only requirement is that you hunt outside our area, as we are trying to establish a permanent residence."

"Of course, dear Carlisle."

Carlisle turned to me. "They're very excited to see you again, Bella. Jasper especially."

I stiffened. "Send them my thanks and congratulations."

"I will."

Carlisle didn't stay much longer after that, but everyone in the room could tell he was trying to communicate to me. I let go of the breath I was holding while Carlisle continued to speak to Aro. I didn't even realise, but I felt no relief from his visit. I was a cold blooded killer. A monster. Why do they keep on trying to save someone who cannot be saved? I was a lost cause. He knows this. He knows thousands of innocent people have been killed, slaughtered in this room. A few more no less than an hour ago. Felix pulled me back from my reverie.

"Hey, why don't you take me somewhere? You're choice in venue." He winked, and I smirked at him. Through the time I've been trained, I now can transport not only myself but others at will, anywhere I want. I haven't gone into space, seeing as that would be a huge risk and I wouldn't know how to get myself back without anyone's help. But I can travel globally. Aro sees me as one of the best finds he's discovered in hundreds of years. Jane wasn't too happy about that, but when she 'accidentally' pulled her power on me Felix ripped her arm off. She doesn't look at me again. Aro just laughed and said that Felix should be put under that pressure more often, as it seems to get the fighter out of him.

Within a millisecond I opened my eyes to a grassy patch on land which, when I looked to my right, I could see Niagara falls in the distance. It was beautiful. Felix hummed a reply.

"Do you have feelings for Jasper?" He murmured, lifting my chin so I'd look at him. He wasn't angry. He couldn't treat me with anything but care. If he didn't, he'd be stuck a few thousand miles away from home, as I'd be a goner.

"Of course not. That's why I left."

"Aro says it's because you hurt him." He frowned. I sighed, moving my face back to the waterfall.

"I did. But he was angry with me too. I had my first human in like...5 months?"

Felix smirked. "Told you its hard to not resist." He rested his head on mine. "I love you."

I sighed. "I love you too." I then smirked. "And human blood."

He chuckled. "You love me more than Jasper, right?"

"Of course." I wasn't really sure. Felix accepted me for who I was though. I was happy here, with him. "I don't love Jasper. Never have, besides fan girl stuff when I was human."

Felix laughed. "I'm glad I found you. I knew from the moment they brought you in that I'd fall for you."

I shuddered, blinking hard. "I don't like to remember-"

"-Yeah, don't worry about it. I remember when I turned clear as day." He winced.

Nobody could forget the last day of being human.

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