Chapter Fourteen-Song For You Part VI
And all of this life
Moves around you
For all that you claim
You're standing still
At once, everything was spinning. She'd felt stagnant the past few days, but the letter set everything into motion. And as she laid eyes on the familiar scrawl, she felt him once again taking on the role as her force of gravity, keeping her grounded while the world moved around her, around them.
She read the letter. The first time, she was rooted to the spot she was standing in when she opened it. The second time, she was sitting on her bed. The third time, she was sitting on the floor, as certain words and phrases glared out at her. "I'm sorry" was the one that seemed to catch her most off guard. Why should he be sorry? She was the one who had acted unbelievably selfish, who had completely disregarded his feelings in order to bury him in her logic.
The next phrase she noticed was "wrote me back," but she wasn't sure she could. What should she say? Should she admit that she was lonely and sad without him? Or should she lie and say she was fine so he wouldn't worry? She shook her head as she realized he'd see right through that. He didn't have to be looking at her or listening to her to know, that was how well he knew her.
The final phrase that caught her eye was "I love you." Yes, she knew he loved her. He'd fearlessly admitted it when he'd desperately kissed her. She was reminded once again of her behavior that night, and how she cringed when she thought about how sad he looked. How selfish she had been when she'd asked him to put on a smile for her. She was tired of regretting everything, of causing him pain. She, like him, wanted to put it right, and so she took out a piece of paper and started writing.